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I got the MC group done!

Here are my blorbos/OC's. I love getting colour palettes for them and Its just flows so well. Quite excited to fully draft this story though I doubt I'd ever comic book it.

I guess to just kinda summarize my story arc it's basically a murder mystery where the MC Swetha finds Aravinth a ghost who has no memory of anything but his name and they team up to find who Aravinth was in his life.

Simultaneously shit is going crazy in the spirit world so there's shenanigans and a killer on the loose again and we see the main group team up and try to solve the mystery.

Far too much energy and I've only written up to the third and possibly final? arc.

#my art #digital art #oc art #webtoon #art #mystery

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I was tryna find where they're showing this movie. Kaththi eduthu finish me man (translation: kill me w a knife) I'm too fucking young too watch this banger of this film. Genuinely considering faking an ID to watch it but imma 100% get myself jailed.

For Dev Patel on a big screen...might be worth it

I'm a brave enough woman to admit that when Dev finished shoving a knife into a guy's throat using his mouth, I wondered for a half second if I'm REALLY a lesbian

#monkey man #dev patel #imma go feral #god he's so hot #fuck am i ace or not #questioning #desi

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Brother.....im watching that trailer and questioning every bit of my aceness...like damn. DAMN. Imma replay that shit as fast as possible. God help me

I'm a brave enough woman to admit that when Dev finished shoving a knife into a guy's throat using his mouth, I wondered for a half second if I'm REALLY a lesbian

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Working on a new webtoon stuff guys (instead of my fucking degree) its okay i got hit by plot bunnies.

First time tryna work with pre existing colour palettes. I have to say..i been missing out. I ACC SUCK AT CREATING MY OWN might asw take some heavy inspo with colour pallettes.

#art #oc art #digital art #my art #tamil #webtoon #webcomic

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I honestly think a good amount of tamil people that say that the Penang Thaipusam is better/ more "calm" is also cause 1. To be very very fair as someone who has been both, the kootam is more divided nowadays. Especially cause there's two ther/rathams/chariots so the kavadi kootam and paal kodam would be split between both whereas when I want Batu Caves damn packed the entire way.

But also more than a racial factor the politics around Penang Thaipusam vs Batu Caves circle around the caste based politics as well. Because Penang Thaipusam is originally a Chettiar celebration of Thaipusam. The temple that they go to is Chettiar temple which is why there is two separate ratham and completely separate timing for kavadi. Chetti Kavadi always goes first before "matha aalu" kavadi. Mind you this is recent, till 2017 other caste people wouldn't even be allowed to get up/go help with the ratham and get involved and only after a lot of politics the Chettiar community agreed and having two separate rathams.

Batu Caves on the other hand isn't a chettiar temple or celebration of Thaipusam. In KL the Chettiar Kavadi goes to the Sentul Murugan temple so Batu Caves always has been an overall unsegregated Tamil Thaipusam. Which is more of why you have respectability politics coming into play now as to the "more rowdy" or the less devotional Thaipusam celebrations.

It's not that its less rowdy. Its just that it doesn't conform to your precise norms of devotion. And what forms of prayer are appropriate are not. This sort of respectability segregation is famous in Hinduism and devotion.

discovered a club mix of murugan devotionals from you guessed it, malaysians. thaipusam as a festival practiced in diaspora, especially from indentured labor on plantations is such an interesting evolution. i remember my mom telling me how thaipusam has a lot of connotations and associations with plantation culture.

#malaysia #malaysian tamil #realized i wrote this entire reblog on the wrong fucking post #op forgive me i think you know which post im referencing tho #bozo moves no 1

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Nahhhhh we are actually the funniest mfs to roam Tamil diaspora. Ellathukkum oru reference ah da?

i mean not because i am biased or anythign but malaysian tamils are some of the funniest people i know

this thread of responses to finding out suriya and najib were born on the same day lmao

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So your boi has a new side project. I've got this webtoon I'm working on. I have the entire story written out and like maybe the first chapter fully storyboarded. I'm currently doing the character sheets for each character but in the meantime I'm gonna start adding some tiny character interactions and inspo stuff.

I heard Kovai Kulira and heard the lines:

' paartha udane padapadakkuthu,

palagi paarka manam thudikkuthu

nerungi nadakka nadunadunguthu

nera pesa manam thavikkirathe'

to quickly translate that

' the minute I saw you my heart beats rapidly

my heart wishes to get to know you

my feet shake to walk towards you

my heart yearns to talk to you directly'

And it just 100% reminded me of my couple in the story. They're so cuteeee.

#webtoon #my ocs #oc art #oc #oc stuff #my characters #webtoon character #comics #tamil #art #digital art #my art #Youtube

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Unironically same feeling.

Visited my friend who lived where weed is legal. Me having never lived anywhere where it was legal went aight fuck it we ball, I'll never be young again lets smoke some.

Obligingly I was given a good chunk to smoke which in retrospect we both realized was far far too much. Started tripping to hell and back and having a mild panic attack at the fact I was in my own perceived senses....out of control and possibly embarrassing myself.

My friend who is currently as waved as me, is unaware how to help. In this instant according to him, I slapped myself and apparently said out loud (this was meant to be internal dialogue) AAdhi, the world is your oyster. In this dimension I'm having fun. And proceeded to completely stop bad tripping.

So yeah conclusion....you can gaslight yourself.

One time I ate probably way too many mushrooms and I could feel my trip going bad. So, I turned to my roommate and I said something along the lines of,

"I feel amazing but I feel like this sensation has a price and I'm about to pay it."

To which he responded, "What are you, catholic?" And that knocked me so firmly out of my mental state that the rest of the trip was hands down the best time I ever did mushrooms.

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NHIE S4

Starting my s4 binge we gonna just go for initial ep 1 thoughts and then a whole write up.

OH MY DAYS I LOVE S4 ALR.

Mind you I'm a year older than Devi (so Paxton's age) irl so that amkes me very protective of Devi and her growth and her character. So like yh, I do like think of her as a little sister when seeing her growth sort of.

But the amount of maturing since season 1 she's done cause they do a lot of parallels in the ep 1 of s1e1 and I'm so proud of the way she's gotten better and really grown into herself.

She makes bad decisions but is mature enough to deal with them. Knows her priorities and even moves on after Ben's rejection.

AND BEN'S REJECTION LITERALLY ADDRESSES MY MAIN REASON WHY I HATE BENVI. Like wtf did these writers just go in my head??? Goddamn. If this is e1 I'm actually excited for where they might take benvi this season. They're actuall acknowledging the problems. Hopefully they work on them.

Also as someone who has just finished my 1st year of uni....I FEEL PAXTON. Like it is so real to be suffering in like uni without friends and honestly might be more common in us uni culture? Cause most of my US college going friends speak of that as a main struggle. TBF my UK uni friends also suffered from the same thing but less so because imo student union culture here is so much less frat party style. But never the less, the shift is real and I feel for Paxton. I hope my boy figures it out an moves out of frat party culture. He more mature than that.

#nhie netflix #nhie spoilers #nhie #nhie s4 #never have i ever #never have i ever season 4 #devi vishwakumar #ben gross #paxton hall yoshida

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Y'all know I'm an NHIE girlie and no i HAVEN'T had the joy of watching s4 yet but i know what happens cause spoilers so eh.

I'm well...I'm not on the Benvi side. I'm half on the Daxton side but not really there either. I just wanted my girl Devi to be happy, accepting herself and living her best uni life. And it sounds like she did.

Do I like Ben Gross? No. Not particularly. Maybe s4 might revamp him for me entirely. And I've been in a situationship with someone where we shared a similar relationship and banter to Ben and Devi minus the over the top pining. And that was just painful cause he was a competitive prick and even when we cared about each other, we still wanted to best each other and it hurt sometimes. So thats why I'm not a huge fan of rivalry to lovers because imo it takes exceptional circumstances and people.

Do I think the show has built Ben and Devi for those exceptional circumstances? Yeah. Kinda. Even if it isn't a relationship dynamic I like...I genuinely think it is in character for Devi. They have carved this relationship to every inch of the show. It was always Ben and Devi and from season 1 I see them working to better themselves and as they became better people and more mature they started to be more compatible. Its like right person wrong time. S1-3 Ben and Devi were always playing on the right person wrong time concept.

//This is going a bit more meta...but how do people watch protagonists in shows? As like a neutral 3rd party observer, a friend watching their friend or how? Cause usually I feel detached but idk, NHIE is like a comfort show and I feel for Devi like she my baby sister. So literally Benvi is summarised as I may not approve of Ben but I see that it works for my baby sis devi so I am fine w it. //

It’s annoying seeing ppl act like everything ben has to offer aaa throwing insults at Devi and take out of context their entire dynamic and want to paint him as bully.

I think there’s legitimate reasons to find Ben unlikable but one of my biggest pet peeves upon interacting in this circle is the fake concern and refusal to acknowledge Ben and Devi’s dynamic for what it is and that NHIE is a comedy show and approaches scenes that way.

Ben and Devi’s entire dynamic was based on mutual rivalry. A big portion of this fandom wants to pretend Devi was a victim of Ben’s insults and their dynamic was one-sided, like she wasn’t giving exactly what she was receiving from him. They both go after each other. Their dynamic was born out of mutual "hate" and later turned into insults neither of them cares about. The point about Ben and Devi's comedic dynamic is that we as an audience should know that none of those insults are actually serious. Ben and Devi don't care.

But there's a side that wants to rally and be "morally superior".

Ben calling Devi UN did impact her and it was an awful thing to do and you can hate it while admitting that is a term that has not value anymore and both have moved on. Part of this fandom loves to take Ben's lines at face value but never mention that N*zi comment Devi threw at him (you dont care about Jewish people, get it). It's never been that deep once they found themselves in a genuine friendship.

You can hate his insensible comments from Season 1, and don’t ship him with Devi because that's valid. It's the refusal to acknowledge there’s a significant difference in his banter/insults with Devi since becoming friends. He really cares about her and would stop if she was uncomfortable (and she isn't). And, while I get why some people don't like the “David” – it has never been that deep on the show. Devi does not care. And that's a nickname Jaren uses for Maitreyi in real life too, might you. After 12 years, if Devi had wanted him to stop, she would’ve told him off but she doesn't care and it has turned into a term of endearment and familiarity, not a "degrading" nickname. Both Devi and Ben are mean towards each other in a comfortable space and would put boundaries if needed. You can absolutely agree that Ben is too brash and a condescending, privileged snub that has a lot to learn but it's not irredeemable. I like the fact he can be unlikable. I don’t consume media expecting flawless characters.

I feel like people came up with this whole “Ben entire persona is insulting Devi” because fan wars have become this thing where you need to make the other side the “enemy” to feel like you are in the “better” side. You don't have to like them but painting their dynamic as if he was Devi's bully is a bit wild. Ben has done incredible things for her and there’s a mutual friendship. They do seek each other out when the other needs them. He knows her like no one else does and it's always there to push her to be the best version both academically and with her loved ones. They are compatible because they are both driven and share the same humor. Devi likes that dynamic with Ben. She doesn’t feel dumb down by him but challenged. Both have grown and their banter has become more friendly because now they know neither of them are serious. You can hate it, don’t enjoy it but it’s the lies about their dynamic that feels like nitpicking and if I didn't watch the show and it's context I would think he is awful too.

And Ben is literally head over heels for that girl. He thinks she’s perfect and she knows it. Devi is not longer the poor insecure girl some want her to be. Let them insult each other as part of their kinky full hatred flirting ways and move on. It’s never been that serious. I think there’s other ships that deserve that energy instead.

#nhie season 4 #never have i ever #nhie s4 #ben gross #devi vishwakumar #devi x ben

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Check the rb's but oh my days I never realized how OFTEN they put our guy AA in situations.

At this points its a running theme.

It’s called love, sir, don’t worry about it. 

#telugu cinema #allu arjun #bro is a threeway all the time

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I feel like I gave myself psychic damage with this.

Also, I now have an increasingly larger appreciation for the artists for getting an accurate representation of an average Indian teenager's dressing sense. Cause I didn't think you needed authenticity or research for something like that but I cant even lie, if Pavitr wore either of those two outfits in the actual movie I would have said fuck it to all 10 dollars I paid and walked straight out the theatre.

Have I also said before, Pavitr has the same dressing sense as I do? Brown boy to brown boy, I rate the man's fit.

Right a quick PSA for any artists on what his fit would look like (take it with a pinch of salt because I'm from Tamil Nadu not Maharastra so it could differ greatly:

IT IS BLOODY HOT IN INDIA, layering like you do in any western country is impossible. The maximum layering I've done is like a long sleeve/half sleeve shirt over a t-shirt or a jacket over a t-shirt. And even then I fold my sleeves up if it gets hot.

He's from a small village and financially struggling family. Most of his outfits are gonna be some off brand cheap t-shirt and shorts from the market. I think they write him as a wearing a dhoti as well in the comics, Idk how accurate that is to maharastra tho cause in Tamil nadu wearing a lungi at home/around your area is normal but I don't think that carries over to the north

I feel like I'm starting to feel what every other POC feels when they have a character from the homeland get absolutely whitened in front of their eyes.

I'm finally experiencing the indian version of anime fanfics where japanese characters buy stuff in dollars in japan

#atsv #across the spiderverse #pavitr prabhakar #please dont whiten my brown boy

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You know what. THIS POST IS ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. I been hella hyped about hobie and pavitr because they reflect the people I love above all else but MILES my guy, the OG, the man of all men.

The bro who looked at the whole ass institution, at fate and all of its canon bullshit and said NAHHH IMMA DO MY OWN THING. I Rate this bro so hard man. Like who doesn't love miles, my baby, my man, my brother. How do you go through both moves without absolutely rooting for miles?

They created such a beautiful character with Miles as he grows to find his own place in the world, with people who understand him and he's learning alone and he's learning about the world and its cruelty and I felt Rio so hard when I saw how the Miguel pushed Miles out like goddamn. I get a mama's want to protect her boy from the world..

“hobie and pavitr are my favorites” lets give it up once again for miles morales. miles morales proud afropuertorican. miles morales who keeps being pushed to the side in his own story. miles morales who tells you himself he’ll create his own path. miles morales who will not let anyone stand in his way from saving those he loves. miles morales who will put himself in danger so pavitr, a stranger he has just met, doesnt have to suffer the same fate of all the other spideys. miles morales who in purely existing is punk as fuck and hobie clocks it from the start and has his back. lets give it up for miles morales, because even outside the movies he keeps being pushed aside in his own story

#my bad i got emotional #sir that is my emotional support character #miles morales #hobie brown #pavitr prabhakar #atsv #itsv

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Autistic Ppl of Tumblr

I beg of you please help me....

So I've been recently told by an autistic friend of mine, hey you reflect a lot of traits that got me diagnosed, maybe look into it. I have and I'm lowkey connecting with a lot of things so I need someone who's had similar experiences to objectively to look at this mess and tell me if anything resonates? I beg help.

Right so some things which to me feel like very clear traits are

I always feel like everyone is like me. Which makes me struggle with empathy because I don't fully get why someone would be mad about something that doesn't make me mad. I once teased a mutual about something that personally if they'd teased me about I would've been fine but was told ayo that's not cool. And I genuinely didn't fully understand why they'd not be cool with what i said.

I don't really get what's socially okay or not okay. Example would be I say stuff that other people say to each other but its okay for them and not okay for me because they're close so they can say that to each other and I'm not close w them so I shouldn't say that which didn't fully make sense but I accepted it. Also I tend to cut into conversations which is also rude.

I went 2 years being very severely bullied but I didn't realize it because I thought that's just how ppl were. Cause people in my old school also made fun of me but I made fun back so I just thought that's how kids are but apparently I was severely bullied; For context, I'm brown so when ppl touched me they used to mimic washing their hands or make a whole deal about sanitizing their hands. I got pushed down stairs, my stuff would get hidden, lunch getting tossed out, laughed at for my accent or like my demeanor in class.

I mimicked a lot of things other people say. Like someone around me would say something and I'd repeat it instantly. Didn't fully know why, it always just felt like an instinctual thing. Even now I mimic the way people speak instinctually as a way to connect and feel more natural in the conversation

Leading with that I also copied how other people acted in social situations as sort of a social script on how to be? Like I'd see my friends talk and try to mimic the way they spoke or like what they were interested in to connect with them.

I overthink the smallest things like oh is this person mad at me? Have I done something or said something? They haven't messaged me since day 1 of like highly specific moment maybe we aren't friends anymore. Like when I first made friends with someone very quickly that I didn't expect I literally analysed it to a science with a friend because I didn't know if we were actually friends or was I just dreaming it or something. And this happens with every single friendship till I get some obvious verbal confirmation that me and a person are friends.

I get very defensive or argumentative about what I think is right or fair or what should be the normal even when I shouldn't be arguing or it is pointless to argue. My father always says I argue for the sake of arguing which I don't think is really true, I'm just trying to prove my point which I think is right. I'm working on learning when to just shut up and apologize and move on tho.

I HATE HATE HATE having my stuff moved around without my knowledge. So my mum cleaning my desk or moving my stuff always sends me half into a fit. I'd much rather move things myself. I dislike other people touching my stuff with a passion. When my parents had to move houses and they had to open my drawers without me being there I was so paranoid and stressed on call even though I didn't have anything to hide. I just felt stressed, I suppressed it tho cause I felt like it wasn't the right thing to express? But I still remember how on edge I was.

I struggle with certain senses. Like what was fine 2 minutes ago in terms of noise and people and lighting can very quickly go into a stress or panic attack type feeling where everything just feels dialled on 200% and I need to leave ASAP. Sensory overload may be the term for this.

I had a very strong aversion to certain foods and textures growing up. I think I have somewhat grown out of this or have learned to firm it and move on, but as a child it was terrible. I still get very nervous when my friends are like oh you should try new foods because I'm always scared I'll hate them and I will waste it or I just don't know how it's going to taste like so I don't really want to take any risks.

I talk a lot and I talk for hours on end about my interest and it doesn't really affect me when the people around me don't actively listen to me. I just continue rambling and go on tangents here and there

I can't sit still and I always feel very understimulated. I feel like my brain needs more things to work. There's a running joke I need to be at a 90% stress level for optimal studying

I'm very time-blind. I'm perpetually late to everything in life. Like I look at the time and I'm like oh yes showering and eating will only take me half an hour surely ill make it by 2.30. sike, i only leave my house at 3.45. That sort of vibe.

I struggle a lot with remembering overall things but certain things I can recall down to a science. I can't remember where I kept my phone last but I can remember my friend's bubble tea order from years ago.

There's a lot of times people have to tell me to be quieter because I'm too loud for the setting. I can't really control my volume well, I try but it slowly just goes back to default

This is a hyper-specific memory but someone was like asking yo do you know what rizz means to the general group and i automatically chimed that it meant charisma and everyone was disappointed cause apparently I wasn't supposed to answer that question but i didn't actually know and I felt bad after.

I bite the skin of my fingers all the time to the point fingerprinting me is a bit of a pain. I can't fully stop it even when I actively try to. its a very automatic thing when I'm just in any situation.

I don't get arbitrary social rules. Like I always bother people for the why in everything

I have to usually confirm when people are joking.

I weirdly am very social though. I love meeting new people, I'm a big extrovert I LITERALLY cannot survive without talking to people. Talking to people is a big source of stimulation and energy for me. I get very depressed if I haven't had one good conversation with someone in a day.

I'm also a social butterfly and I'm kinda good with small talk and casual conversation and keeping the flow in a conversation going naturally (though this is a fairly recent development from like high school only)

I'm told I'm a very honest and direct person and I have no problems being open about my problems and issues and deep shit to people in the first conversation we have. I thought this was normal...apparently its weird

I feel all of my emotions very deeply and getting lied to or having promises be broken is a very deep hurt for me. Like even the smallest things can lead to full sadness cry and the tiniest W can be like the cause of singing joy.

I don't think I stim.....but sometimes I'll just move my hands or feet randomly because I feel unstimulated and I need to just feel something so I move around. And when I'm on a panic attack I rock back and forth and sing to myself. But I think thats normal

I used to get very stressed over talking on a phone call to make orders or like ask for anything on phone and even today sometimes I'll need to rehearse what I'm gonna say to the person on call. Its gotten better though, I no longer dread calling customer service.

I don't really have a set routine for the day either. I'm quite spontaneous but certain things I feel weird without. Like if I shower at night I hate it. I need to shower before I start my day. I need a cup of milo/tea or else I just feel weird the whole day. Or something that is a routine is that I have a wet drying rack for my dishes and a dry drying rack and I cannot put wet dishes on the dry drying rack at all costs even after my flatmates have said no one follows that rule.

I struggle with paying attention in class but I take good notes and I study well and I'm overall a fairly academically strong student. But like sometimes class is just boring and I just need more energy. And I can't sit still to save my life.

So yh that was a rant. Is any of the relatable?

#being autistic #autistic spectrum #autistic experiences #autsim #???? i guess #help #autistic adult #maybe idk yet #relatable content

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Okay I'm still working on whether or not im on the autistic spectrum still but this speaks to me.

I've always had to backtrack and try to explain to ppl the fact that I could very easily romantically love anyone of my platonic friends and ppl have always been like oh thats weird. its not platonic then.

FUCKING FINALLY. I'm not a fucking love obsessed creep.

I love this post because honestly I've always felt this way but keep most pieces tucked away because of how much of a bad connotation is put on it whenever it's brought up as I'm usually quite unable to describe my feelings the correct way in words.

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This is fucking funny cause I'm 100% the school & uni charmer/sweetheart even when I'm a dead mf. But what can I say, I'm a great actor and internally I'm just the equivalent of Bakugou.

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Oh my days same here. Most of the lot I went with were Brit Indians yh, so literally all of us were screaming when Pav came in. Cause Pav, my guy Pavitr had the most average brown boy look I can't even. Bro got the shirt and undershirt inside look with the headband and parted long hair.

Someone was like yo Pav's hair would've been bait as hell and I was like. No literally every brown boy I know has that cut. I had that cut at 14 before I grew my hair longer to tie it up. Literally my mate sitting beside me had that exact cut. Knowing Indians the local barbers deffo would've marketed it. Along with Rajini cutting, SRK cutting you'd get Spiderman cutting.

And then us all started howling again at Hobie being like it's a metaphor for capitalism and the sinking buildings. It's like someone took the British part of us l, represented it into a character and then the brown part and placed another one. Damn I felt so seen. The slang as well. Genuinely felt like I was hearing my friends speak.

funniest part of my across the spiderverse experience is when they explained hobie's cockney slang and every single person in our very british cinema just burst out laughing

#across the spiderverse #marvel #spiderman across the spiderverse spoilers #satsv spoilers #hobie brown #atsv pavitr #pavitr prabhakar