the thing is. i need to watch silent films with intensity i read classic lit with intensity i need a notepad these are not a relaxing hobbies for me. i cant even listen to Renowned Composer Clara Schumann without intent. and unfortunately i feel guilty expending energy on anything beside schoolwork so i am never happy. subpar television it is
when people follow me during my intensive Actually Interesting Interests phases of posting (folk music shakespeare silent film) only to see me to post about. network television most of the time. my bad :(
i wanted to be a firefighter as a kid until i found out they had to do medical stuff which freaked me out and i became deeply depressed for a week. poor little tomboy
am i doing what i want to do. am i happy with the direction my life is heading. am i acting for myself. why havent i started any of the papers i have due dangerously soon