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Despite what it probably seems like I really do try to not be self deprecating; I know it’s unattractive and annoying, I just hate myself so it’s hard lol

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Revolutionary Girl Utena Cover Art - Utena 💖 Anthy

#utena

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I wrote huge whiny thing and deleted it cause it just made me realize I’m an entitled shithead who’s depressed cause they’re lonely cause no one wants anything to do with me, even though I barely make an effort

#sorry showing up out of nowhere to whine

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#>_>

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This is so wholesome

#I was telling mom about this the other day lol

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also, in case anyone needs a lab etiquette refresher:

let the commander/tag open the doors.

don't use knockbacks*. the key point in lab is to tag as many enemies as possible for the loot and/or exp, and if someone slaps them away, you get less loot/exp.

if you're leaving your squad, leave the map; let someone else get in, since maps fill up so quickly.

if there's a tag running on the map you're on, don't go opening the doors and ruining it for the squad; join them or find a new map.

* leveling up has a knockback built in, so if you're leveling in lab, be mindful of how close you are to a new level, and stand back if you must.

#I do miss gw2 Halloween. #also guilty of being confused about what kind of lab they meant at first though lol

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got to stop thinking that i’m rotting stagnating etc.. i’m marinating. i’m slow cooking . i’m proofing dough

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#?????

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yeah I’m a nonpracticing woman. I was raised female but I don’t really believe anymore yknow?

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[“When I used to teach creative writing, I would tell the students to make their characters want something right away—even if it’s only a glass of water. Characters paralyzed by the meaningless of modern life still have to drink water from time to time. One of my students wrote a story about a nun who got a piece of dental floss stuck between her lower left molars, and who couldn’t get it out all day long. I thought that was wonderful. The story dealt with issues a lot more important than dental floss, but what kept readers going was anxiety about when the dental floss would finally be removed. Nobody could read that story without fishing around in his mouth with a finger. Now, there’s an admirable practical joke for you. When you exclude plot, when you exclude anyone’s wanting anything, you exclude the reader, which is a mean-spirited thing to do.”]

kurt vonnegut

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No truer words ever spoken

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soft reminder: don’t be so hard on yourself if you fall back into an old pattern!! habits are so hard to change especially when you’re not doing great. when we need the most comfort, old patterns seem like the quick comfort or relief. blaming yourself can make you feel worse and you don’t deserve it especially when you’re already suffering. as long as you pick yourself off the floor and try again, you’re doing good! keep trying until you feel at home in your new routines or habits (yes, it will happen). changing will take more time than expected, but that’s okay. you’re stronger than you feel and you can always try again tomorrow ✨

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YA books: There are 2 boys, the protagonist girl HAS to date one, but how can she choose? They are so incredibly different in every way!

The boys:

#gekkan shoujo nozaki kun

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talking to other Blunt Autism bitches is so refreshing. i can just be like "im tired im going to bed gn" and theyll be like "ok cool gn" there isnt a minefield of social rules or whatever

#uh is this not normal how else would you say you’re going to bed