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listening to mcr in a happy love my life way is the best

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life is good

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when it gets better but gets extremely worse the next day<<<<<

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"Why does autism need to be diagnosed?" and "you shouldn't self diagnose autism" people listen up. Imagine this:

You're 7 feet tall but no one knows it. Everywhere you go, you hit your head and people stare at you. Everyone asks you "why are you like this?" and you don't know. You start to ask yourself too.

Everyday, you're forced to wear the same pants as everyone else, even though they will never fit. It hurts. It hurts that people don't understand you and it hurts that you can't understand yourself. You haven't even been given the language to ask for the accommodations you need.

It seems really strange to you that no one else ever seems upset by the clothes that don't fit and the doorways that are too low. You assume you're just too sensitive to do these things. When you do complain, people just tell you "well everyone hits their head sometimes". They don't know what being 7 feet tall actually feels like. They don't know what the world looks like from where you are and when you try to tell them, either you don't have the words or they don't listen.

You don't know you're 7 feet tall. All you know is "why am I like this?"

Then one day, maybe you meet someone else who is 7 feet tall. You see them at YOUR eye level and gasp, thinking 'this has never happened before! They're like me!' Maybe you talk to them and they mention that they get their pants tailored because they can't find regular pants that fit. You think to yourself 'that's an option??' They say "yeah it's because I'm 7 feet tall." And for the first time, that question isn't 'why am I like this?' but 'is THAT why I'm like this?'

You feel relieved and even overjoyed because things make sense. You finally understand. Or at least you think you do. But when you ask people to accommodate you for being 7 feet tall, they only ask if you've actually been measured. Not many people actually get measured, only people who go to the specific doctors that specialize in measuring.

The problem is those doctors are not only expensive but good standard measurements don't exist yet. Sometimes those doctors can't even reach to 7 feet or the measuring tapes themselves don't go that long. Even the standard for diagnosis is often inaccessible to people who are actually 7 feet tall because the doctor doesn't understand being 7 feet tall either.

Let's say you don't get diagnosed. Everyone denies that you're 7 feet tall for the rest of your life. You become anxious because no one understands you and you don't understand them and you become depressed because everything is so hard it often doesn't feel worth it.

Sure, you *can live* like this but everything is strained. People don't treat you well because they see you as an inconvenience, the job that your coworkers effortlessly work overtime on is exhausting to you and you barely make it to work. And when you get home, you don't do the things you want to do, you just ask yourself 'why am I like this?' and sleep uncomfortably in your bed that is too small for you.

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franks solo projects getting a bit too relatable

#mcr #my chemical romance #frank iero #mcr frank #emo #gerard way #mikey way #ray toro

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being an overthinker is so funny cuz I'll be listening to mcr having a good time amd five seconds later I'm crying cuz I convinced myself everyone hates me

#mcr #my chemical romance #overthinking #mental illness #mental problems #mental health

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being sick but not knowing if it's cuz of stress or you ed<<<<

#mental problems #mental illness #anxitey #ed but not sheeran

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it isn't enough to listen to danger days i need to be a killjoy

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we lie together

smiling, in defiance of

the tyrannous stars

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I just returned perfection, like an unused swimsuit from last summer. And yes, I know messiness has gone out of fashion,   but I secretly crave lopsided cakes and poems that are a little too raw for consumption. I love paintings and writings where the colors go all muddy, and photos and prayers where the horizon tilts drunkenly, and love stories which have one corner forever and ever blurred by an errant finger—

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There are a million

Ways to give up, sometimes I

Think I've tried them all

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if you don’t like danger days don’t talk to me

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where do I buy cheap band shirts? I'm broke asf can't pay 20 something for one

#band tee #emo #emo as hell #emo kid #new emo kid #mcr #my chemical romance #the used #frank iero #pierce the veil #ptv

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hey everyone! so finally some good news. for those that don’t follow or don’t know, my parents passed and I was in a car accident that broke my leg, back, and teeth. I’ve been getting treatment and finally am in the least amount of pain I’ve been in since the accident. furthermore, my attorney has gotten the majority of my medical bills and should soon be able to submit the demand to the insurance company of the kid who hit me. if there’s any way I can get any assistance with my rent this last time, I’d be forever grateful, as I don’t have any family to ask for help with this, and should hopefully be the last time I need help.

For any donations, PayPal is preferred (http://paypal.me/jpd05) but I also have Cash App ($sachasaurus), Chime ($toebeens), KoFi (@toebeens) and Zelle (message for info). I could also try and work out a payment plan as well. As always reblogs are super appreciated!! And thank you for any and all help!

July 30th - will update daily

$0/$700

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are you really best friends if you dont wear matching piss and vinegar shirts?

#mcr #my chemical romance #frank iero #gerard way #piss and vinegar

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omg tumblr

#too political my dude

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One of the most common reasons I hear for people being against abortion is because “life is sacred.”

Really? Since when? When has life ever been sacred in this country?

If life is sacred, how come we don’t have universal healthcare?

If life is sacred, how come we don’t pass comprehensive gun laws so first graders don’t get gunned down in their classrooms?

If life is sacred, why don’t we offer paid maternal leave so mothers can actually take care of the babies that you are now forcing them to have?

If life is sacred, how come we don’t bat an eye when the police murder black kids?

If life is sacred, why do we have the highest maternal death rate in the developed world, which is only going to increase now that women are being forced to give birth?

If life is sacred, why is the death penalty even still a thing?

If life is sacred, why are we still encouraging violence against the LGBTQ+ community?

Life has literally never been sacred in this country. Maybe anti-choicers like to pretend that it is because it makes them feel righteous when in reality, they’re just misogynistic pieces of shit, but it’s not. And as long as psychotic, reactionary morons continue to steal power undemocratically and make decisions that the majority of us do not want, it never will be.