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someday we must talk about how goddamn CORNY strane was in my dark vanessa…like yes, he’s an evil pedo, but no one ever mentions the fact that he’s a complete and total LOSER.

grown man calling himself a “dark romantic”… telling a teenager that “when we’re together, it feels as though the dark things inside me rise to the surface and brush against the dark things inside you”…like??? 😭 he’s so full of shit it’s actually kinda hilarious…i think i genuinely laughed out loud the first time i read that passage 💀

#my dark vanessa #thoughts #girl blogger #girl blog #girlblogging

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haven’t written in so long…i feel void of ideas. boring life, boring writing. is the fact that i only really write about my own experiences a symptom of some deeper underlying inadequacy? a shallow, uninspired, unenlightened mind?

i’m always convinced i have so many thoughts, so many directions i could go, but they disappear whenever the paper sits blank in front of me. i already hate the essays i’ve been writing, so i don’t even try to write creatively. that unyielding conviction i carried when i was young—that i had a talent with words, that i truly could be great one day if i just worked at it and cultivated my craft—it honestly seems delusional now.

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oh!

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baby that’s ocd not the devil😭

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Jeanne D’Arc will always be the og girlboss

#loml

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me

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me and the voices

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written by kaveh akbar

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me if i was an instagram reels schizo-post

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me

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thank u mother

#ended my haters and losers #kate elizabeth russell and vanessa wye you two will always be loved

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resisting the reviving ophelia teenage girl urge to channel my pain inwards/engage in self-destructive behavior and instead directing my pain outwards/using it to spread misery to any man near me may not be your idea of feminist praxis, but it is MINE

#girl blog #girl blogger #girlblogging #girlhood #thoughts

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i get weirdly irritated by this close-minded, literal interpretation of religion, even if the vast, vast majority of religious people do actually view it that way. because why allow such a shallow framework to be legitimized as the only way to interpret spirituality? i don’t want that.

why do i have to choose between an absurdly literal interpretation of man-made works and a total disparagement of the divine?

i’d like to to reject the dichotomy entirely—obviously i don’t think god is literally speaking to me through a voice in my head, but sometimes i wonder if maybe god is within my thoughts. maybe my sudden realizations are god, because god is everything, and everything is god. why can’t god be in all of us?

why can’t my belief—in the universe and the infinite, in human existence and consciousness, in reason and logic—why can’t that be my faith? why can’t that be my religion? why must i choose?

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i love the stank ass smell of indolic paperwhites, idgaf and i’ll say it proudly!

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well actually yes—

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