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are u ever sick w longing. and i don't just mean romantic longing. i mean longing for a place you barely get to see, longing for friends you no longer have, longing for feelings you might have left behind in your childhood, longing for creativity, longing for a rich and more expansive life, longing for less inhibition. longing for more passion. longing for ur life to be so incandescent w something it thaws all the frost in ur bones. are u ever so consumed w it it rends ur heart in two. do u understand me

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– Billy-Ray Belcourt, A History of My Brief Body

[TEXT ID: "To love someone is firstly to confess: I'm prepared to be devastated by you."]

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Just a girl who wants to be a scientist but also a model but also a Pulitzer prize winning author but also an international ambassador but also a small bookstore owner but also a mother with a domestic farm life but also a finance CEO but also an actress but also but also but also....

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— Sylvia Plath, "The Bell Jar"

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not to sound all #i was born in the wrong generation elitist whatever but it genuinely disturbs me that a large swath of gen z does not read for pleasure. most of my friends, who are genuinely intelligent people with interesting thoughts, do not regularly read books. but they are missing out on so much stuff that is very important in understanding the world around them. they jump to conclusions more. their media literacy is worse. they are not able to make the kinds of connections and allusions to the media they consume (written/created by people who do read) that people who are well-read can.

(i'm not even saying i'm immune to this -- spent several years after first having social media not reading books and my family freaked out because it was such a departure from what i'd always done. i've had to build back my attention span brick by brick. and i can feel my thoughts becoming more complex and nuanced and the way i percieve the world improving the more i read again.)

(and no, fanfiction doesn't count. especially when you can see the massive chasm of quality between fanfics written by people who read books and fanfics written by people caught in a feedback loop of other fanfiction)

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I need to go Inside a movie

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Ya'll ever go, "fuckin' hell, I know this smell!" and it's the smell of a February evening from 2017 ?

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- Richard Siken

#was in a car with a beautiful boy tonight #he loves me #he doesn't say it #and neither do i #richard siken #siken #this piece of writing is always an arrow to my heart

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your minimalist child getting destroyed by my baroque baby

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my bestfriend sent me a voicenote of herself laughing and it sounded like glass tinkling and water running and all i could think of was kaz wanting to bottle inej's laughter and get drunk on it every night.

voicenotes are really just modern day vials of sound

#six of crows #kaz brekker #kaz and inej #dark academia

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*banging pots and pans together* what the FUCK am i longing for?? WHAT IS IT??

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princesses crying can feel so personal

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i wish i was a mushroom i bet they never get headaches

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ok but...

#virginia woolf #taylor lyrics #taylor swift

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— MOVIE STAR WITH VANILLA MILKSHAKE PT. 1, Talin Tahajian

[text ID: We are all celebrating the same / sort of misery. We sleep to get through life. I want to crawl / into a teacup & sleep forever.]

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"Go to Pemberly," they said.

"He won't be home," they said.

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All I want is to go to France, hop on a time traveling carriage to the 20s and meet the greatest writers, artists, surrealists and then live there forever