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About 24 hours after the accident, I removed the website from our servers and replaces all the pages with black...

#threshold #coil #balance

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#raum #belgium #experimental #leftfieldtechno #atmospheric #fauxnaif

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Jack Unterweger - Austria’s celebrity serial killer

On a visit to the Torture Museum in Vienna back in 2017 I learnt about the case of Jack Unterweger. He started off his career as a Journalist, even penning a book whilst in prison about his crimes titled ‘Purgatory or The Trip to Prison – Report of a Guilty Man ‘ 

Convicted in 1976 and died in 1994 by hanging.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jack_Unterweger

#jackunterweger #vienna #torturemuseum #purgatory #austria

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An excerpt from 

The Romance of Lust 

by Anonymous

Volume 1

→CONTENTS

The Novice--Mrs. Benson--Mary--Mrs. Benson's Correspondence with Mrs.

Egerton--Miss Evelyn--Eliza

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I had never forgotten the day, when secreted in the closet, I had seen them completely exposed, and how charming they were. Her present negligent attitude, although far from the same exposure I speak of, was still, with the former recollection running in my head, enough to set my whole blood on fire. I have before remarked what a power beautiful and well-stockinged legs, and ankles and small feet, had upon my nervous system, and so it was now. As I gazed upon her handsome legs, ankles, and feet, I felt my prick swell and throb in a manner that could not fail to be perceptible to Mrs. B, especially as her head lay on a level with that part of my person as I stood before her.

Although she continued knitting, I could see that her eyes were directed to that part of my person, and fixed upon the increasing distention of my trousers. In a few minutes she gave me a skein of worsted to hold, and desired me to kneel in front of her, so as to bring my hands down to the level of the low chair on which she was seated.

I knelt close to the footstool on which her foot rested; it was raised up, and a very slight movement brought it against my person, at first rather below where my throbbing prick was distending my trousers. As she commenced to wind her ball, she gradually pushed her foot further forward, until the toe actually touched the knob of my cock, and occasionally moved it right and left, exciting me beyond measure.

I flushed up to the very ears, and trembled so violently that I thought I should have dropped the skein.

"My dear boy, what is the matter with you, that you blush and tremble so, are you unwell?"

I could not answer, blushed more than ever. The skein at length was finished.

"Charles," she said, "get up, and come here."

I rose and stood by her side.

"What have you got in your trousers that is moving?"

And here her busy fingers commenced unbuttoning them. Released from confinement, out started my prick—stiff as iron, and as large as that of a youth of eighteen. Indeed, I was better hung than one boy selected out of five hundred of that age. Mrs. B., who had pretended to be perfectly astonished, exclaimed—

"Good gracious, what a pego! Why Charles, my darling, you are a man not a boy. What a size to be sure!" and she gently handled it. "Is it often in this state?"

"Yes, ma'am."

"For how long?"

"Ever since Miss Evelyn came."

"And pray, sir, what has Miss Evelyn's coming had to do with it?"

"I—I—I—I—"

"Come now, Charles, be candid with me; what is it you mean where you say Miss Evelyn has caused you to be in such a state, have you shown her this, and has she handled it?"

"Oh! dear no; never, never!"

"Is it her face, her bosom, or her legs that have captivated you?"

"It was her feet and ankles, ma'am, with her beautiful legs, which she sometimes exhibited without knowing."

"And do all ladies' legs and ankles produce this effect upon you?"

"Oh, yes, ma'am, if they are neat and pretty!"

"And what make you so excited now?"

"It was the sight of your beautiful legs just now, and the recollection of what I saw the other day, ma'am," I stammered out, blushing more than ever.

While this conversation was going on, her soft hand grasped my distended prick, and had commenced slowly slipping the loose skin over the swollen head, and allowing it to slip back again.

"I suppose, Charles, after what you saw in the closet, you know what this is meant to do."

I muttered out an indistinct reply that I did, and I hung down my blushing face.

"You have never out it into a lady, have you?"

"Oh! dear no, ma'am."

"Would you like to do so?"

I did not answer, but sheepishly held down my head.

"Did you see what I had in the same place, when you were in the closet?"

I muttered, "Yes, ma'am."

"Would it afford you any pleasure to see it again?"

"Oh, yes; so much!"

Mrs. B. rose, went to the window, drew down the blind, then gently turned the key in the door. Returning to the chair, and drawing well up her dress, petticoats and chemise, she exposed all her person up to the middle of her belly; and sat down stretching herself backwards, and opening her thighs well.

"Well, my dear boy, look at it if you wish."

I was no longer shy. Nature prompted me to an act of gallantry that gratified the lady immensely. Falling on my knees, I glued my lips to the delicious spot, pushing my tongue in as far as I could, and sucked it. It was quite spunky; I had no doubt but that Mr. B. had fucked her two or three times just before leaving. This, however, made no difference to me. The attack was as unexpected as it was delightful to the lady. She placed both hands on my head and pressed my face against her throbbing cunt. She was evidently hotly excited, not only by what I was then doing, but by the scene, the conversation, and the handling of my prick, which she had been indulging in. She wriggled her bottom nervously below me, I continued to greedily lick her moist and juicy cunt.

"Oh! oh! dear Charles, what exquisite delight you are giving me. Oh! oh!"

And she pressed my face more fully into the gaping sheath, and thrusting her bottom up at the same time, spent right into my mouth, over my cheeks, chin, and neck. Her thighs closed convulsively round my head, and for some moments she remained still. I continued to lick away, and swallowed the delicious spunk that still flowed from her. At last she spoke again—

"Oh! you darling Charles, I love you for ever; but get up, it is now my turn to give you a taste of the exquisite pleasure you have given me."

I raised myself, and she drew me to her, and gave me a long kiss, licking her own sperm from off my lips and cheek; and desiring me to thrust my tongue into her mouth, she sucked it deliciously, while her soft hand and gentle fingers had again sought, found, and caressed my stiff-standing prick. She then desired me to lay myself on the floor, with three pillows to raise my head, and lifting up all her petticoats, and striding across me, with her back to my face, she knelt down, then stooping forward, she took my standing prick in her mouth, and at the same time lowering her buttocks, brought her beautiful cunt right over and down upon my mouth, the pillows exactly supporting my head at the proper level, to command a thorough enjoyment of the whole, which now I had completely before my eyes.

In the former sucking my own position hid everything from view beyond the rich mass of hair adorning her splendid mount of Venus, which I found to be much more abundant than it had appeared to me when I had seen it from the closet. When I applied my lips to the delicious gap, I found that she had the most beautiful silky light curls running up to and around her charming pink bottom-hole, and losing themselves in the chink between the buttocks. I applied myself furiously to the delicious gash, and sucked and thrust my tongue in alternately. I could see by the nervous twitching of her buttocks, and the bearing down of her whole bottom on my face, how much she was enjoying it. I, to, was in an extasy of delight. One hand gently frigged the lower portion of my prick, while the other played with my balls, and her beautiful mouth, lips, and tongue sucked, pressed, and tickled the head of my excited prick. The more furiously I sucked her cunt, the more her lips compressed the head of my pego, and her tongue sought to enter the urethra, giving me almost overpowering delight. Such reciprocal efforts soon brought on the extatic crisis, I cried out:

"Oh, lady! oh, dear lady! let me go; I am dying!"

She knew well enough what was coming, but she had her own way, and at the instant that she again poured down upon my mouth and face a plenteous discharge, her own rosy mouth received a torrent of my sperm.

For some minutes we lay mutually breathless and exhausted. Then Mrs. B. rose, shook down her clothes, assisted me to rise, and taking me in her arms, and pressing me lovingly to her bosom, told me I was a dear charming fellow, and had enraptured her beyond measure. She then embraced me fondly, kissing my mouth and eyes, and desiring me to give her my tongue, sucked it so sweetly.

"Now, fasten up your trousers, my darling boy."

When I had done so, the blind was drawn up, and the door unlocked.

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Full text can be read here:

https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/The_Romance_of_Lust/Volume_1

#victorianerotica #romanceoflust #victorian #harlots #earlyexperiences #lust stories

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ROZZ WILLIAMS > BEGOTTEN 

#christian death #rozwilliams #begotten

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Originally broadcast on 29th May 2020 as part of a 7-hour Take Over Series. Part IV. Conor Thomas of Boomkat.

𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔟𝔶 @𝔞𝔯𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔢.𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔢𝔫𝔱.𝔣𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔥

#Boomkat #conorthomas #thedeathofrave #manchester #anarchy #rave #fauxnaif

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EC1M circa 2017

#ec1m #farringdon #london #eastend #coldstorage #cityoflondon

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Originally broadcast on 29th May 2020 as part of a 7-hour Take Over Series. Part III. Qual Taking us on a journey through some of past and present favourites. Selecting tracks from Sarin, Darkthrone, Xmal Deutschland, Coil & more..

𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔟𝔶 @𝔞𝔯𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔢.𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔢𝔫𝔱.𝔣𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔥

#darkwave #metal #ebm #lebanon hanover #qual #fabrikarecords #industrialmetal #fauxnaif

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Originally broadcast on 29th May 2020 as part of a 7-hour Take Over Series. Part II. James Kelly / / WIFE ex Altar Of Plagues with a transient mix playing the likes of Alec Empire, Shapednoise, Knut, Godflesh, Sightless Pit (LINGUA IGNOTA & The Body side project) & more..

𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔟𝔶 @𝔞𝔯𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔢.𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔢𝔫𝔱.𝔣𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔥

#trianglerecords #wife #altarofplagues #blackmetal #noise #industrial #radioshow #fauxnaif #jameskelly

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Watanabe Katsumi From “Rock, Punk, Disco: Photographs 1960’s - 1980’s

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Originally broadcast on 29th May 2020 as part of the Threads* Take Over Series. Part I. Beginning the 7 - hour musical journey with a Randolph and Mortimer interview + an exclusive first-ever play of Enjoy More remixed by Kris Baha. Here Sam discusses his love of Ministry, Breakbeat, The Orbital, Sheffield & Snares.. @randolphandmortimer 2LP Vinyl to buy on Mecanica here: mecanica.bigcartel.com/product/rando…ern-world-2lp

𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔟𝔶 @𝔞𝔯𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔢.𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔢𝔫𝔱.𝔣𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔥

#radioshow #fauxnaif #randolphandmortimer #ebm #ebm music #interview #soundcloud

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Opening First Five Minutes After Death - Coil (1986, Force & Form) ‎

I Lonely Lover - Haus Arafna (2013, Galakthorrö) If Anywhere Was Here He Would Know - Raime (2010, Blackest Ever Black) Alone - This Mortal Coil (1986, 4AD) Shake This Disease - Depeche Mode (1985, Mute) Disease and Desire - Soft Cell (1984, Some Bizarre) We Shall Cleanse The World - Revolting Cocks (1984, Wax Trax!)

II Isolation - La Fete Triste (2011, aufnahme + wiedergabe) Escape - In A Lonely Place (2015, Symptome Der Entfremdung) No Escape From Planet Earth - Ekman (2103, Katabatik) Sei Still! - Duotronic Synterror (2004, Was Soll Das?)

III The Ignorance Of Misperception - JC & Kastil (2017, Cabrera) Don't Give Way To Fear - British Murder Boys (2003, Counterbalance) Plague Song - Broken English Club + Symptoms - Pain Teens (2017, L.I.E.S) + (1988, Anomie Records) Better Off Alone (Or In A Small Group) - Basic House (2017, Sores) Clean Air - Karl O' Connor (2011, Downwards) Be Brave - Tropic Of Cancer (2011, Downwards)

IIII Sick - Grouper (2010, Room40) Melancholia VII - William Basinski (2003, 2026) Somehow We'll Get Through This - Lebanon Hanover (2013, Dead Scarlett) Disneyland Can Wait - Boyd Rice (1990, New European Recordings) Indoctrination (A Design For Living) - Dead Can Dance (1985, 4AD)

End Set Me Free (Remotivate Me) - Depeche Mode (1984, Mute)

Due to current situation, I decided to document this weird time & select tracks from my past collection which I felt relevant to me now in mood, style + track title for my own COVID-19 aural scrapbook. A show inspired by the present day; the theme of isolation, disease, virus & illness. Each track is a narrative of the now and the common themes we are all living through. I / we hope you / someone listens & find(s) comfort that you / they are not 'alone'.

Isolation is a temporary state unless you want it to be.

#depechemode #dead can dance #softcell #raime #blackesteverblack #downwardsrecords #4ad records #waxtrax! #tropic of cancer #britishmurderboys #lebanon hanover #tropicalgoth #goth #darkwave #postpunk #depressing #endoftheworld #virus #Grouper

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This month on Threads we shared my opening set from Kaos last year, originally recorded on Saturday 30.06.18. at Electrowekz with Silent Servant, Years of Denial (live), Sophie Coletta & Choronzon. Random selections on the night from: @htrk Zanias Skinny Puppy Lebanon Hanover Detriti Records Front Line Assembly Qual Fairground Of Tears LFDM Human Performance Lab PIL Acid Vatican +more

#kaos #goth #slow #bodymusic #fauxnaif #skinnypuppy #lebanon hanover #acidvatican #Qual #zanias #htrk #publicimageltd #electrowerkz #radioshow

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#tropicalgoth #goth #depressing #post punk #radio #boyharsher #Qual #fauxnaif #individualcollective

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Guest mix with December

#depressing #atmosperic #blackest ever black #black #tropical goth #december #fauxnaif #radio #london

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My guest mix for Silent Servant 

#silent servant #nts radio #nts #radio #Body Music #fauxnaif #mouthtomouth