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Writing diary 17/5/21

I'd like to call 2019-me and tell her to watch the news. Oh, right she's actually doing that. Two years ago we were all about 10 years younger. Since then a lot has happened in Austria. And I could have never predicted that I would be in this place that I am in today two years ago, sitting on my couch naked, drinking champagne, watching the republic fall. Decadence has always been my thing. And this weekend has been decadent writingwise. I typed out 10.000 completely new words, 2k of that a pretty epic, wholesome sexscene THAT WAS NOT PLANNED! Actually, I now see how almost nothing in this book has been planned out and I can see it becoming pretty long. It will be heartwrenching and dark as my protagonist tries to figure out who she is amidst a love triangle - on one side a guy who she can't grasp, on the other side a guy she isn't allowed to love. Ah, the drama. And at the same time, I'm scared. This was not planned. I knew I wanted to write that story, but I actually wouldn't allow myself to - well, because I had too many other projects. A dooming thing on the horizon is my vampire novella, which I want to release by September. And I actually wanted to write a christmas story. Might just wing it, like I did the Halloween story last year. In the end, it might all work out anyway, but then I am in hell's kitchen of an endless release cycle, because you can't just put out part one of a series, you have to have the next part ready ... why, oh why do I always end up writing series instead of standalones? Would be easier... There's so much I want to figure out and I know in the end it will all work out how it should, but god, the anxiety is so strong. And there is literally no reason to be scared. NONE.

#dark academia #writer #tcc #dark academia writing

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dark academia writing diary 14/5/21

So I had this idea spooking around in my head since last summer. And it's quite logical, if I dive deep into a thing, I want to write about it. So, Dark Academia has been a lifeline last year. I said, I want to finish Uni for good in fall of 2019. So I went back and took classes in philosophy and psychology and enjoyed the hell out of it. I loved being back, scribbling notes on paper, discussing the topics we just learned about after class, sitting in the old staircases, drinking iced chai tea from the Kaffeeküche at Schottentor. The air in the Arkadenhof getting crisp. Heading straight to Uni after work, eating a bit before heading into class. Fast-forward to beginning of March 2020: I am in the midst of preparing for three exams, having a panic attack because I am so sure I will fail these and boom, there's an email "Sorry earth is closed. And so is Uni." Welp. All summer I was writing online exams in my underwear on my couch. Best case scenario. Nights I spend deathscrolling through tumblr and the dark academia tag. It gave me life. It gives me life. it truly is my aesthetic, even though I use a Kindle and don't have a secret library in my flat. I collect hamsters, not books. My wardrobe ranges from slutty schoolgirl to big tiddie goth girl and that's okay. The slutty schoolgirl is somewhat dark academia, isn't it? I'm rambling. Sorry. So I felt the need to give back. This community is wholesome, at least to me. And while reading the classics is cool and all, I guess people need new material once in a while as well. And I feel like this will be giving back to the community that helped me get my degree. And no, it will not be The Secret History. It will be more diverse. And very gay at some points. And very sexy. Because let's be real, I write smut. So, today I have finally started a dark academia smut novella about a student having an affair with her professor. Nothing to see here, please disperse. After all, I checked Goodreads and that genre is raving! And here I thought it would be controversial to write about that, because you know... ah well, I guess it's okay if it's in a book, but not in real life. So this weekend is blocked off for writing that thing, I am already 3000 words in, hope to be by 15k on Sunday night. And this is completely off schedule. Right now, the only person to disappoint myself is me, but I actually have a lot of other books planned and also set release dates - nothing public yet, but I know what to achieve by the end of this year. But then I also thought, hey, you will never find time to write this story - or rather, these stories, if you don't make the time. You have your vampire series, you have the rockstar romance books, you have that other vampire series and the four romance novels hiding under your bed, wondering if you will ever release them. Yes. The time will be next year, I promise. But first, I need to refill my well and write what makes my heart ache. Because this does in the sweetest way. And I want it out of my system before fall - because I already am tempted by the thought of enrolling again. Watch me.

#dark academia #writerslife #tcc

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Masterpost: How to write a story?

Compilation of writing advice for some aspects of the writing process.

How to motivate myself to write more

How to get rid of writer’s block

Basic Overview: How to write a story

How to come up with plot

How to create a character

How to make a character unique

How to write conversation

How to write the last line

How to create a villain

Introducing a group of characters

Large cast of characters interacting in one scene

Redemption arc

Plot twists

How to write a summary

How to write a book description

How to write romance

How to write emotional scenes

How to write yelling

How to title fanfiction

How to use songs in a fanfiction

Fatal Character Flaws

Good traits gone bad

More specific scenarios

Slow burn

How to create quick chemistry

How to write a bilingual character

How to write a character with glasses

How to write a polyamorous relationship

How to write found family

How to create and write a cult

Criminal past comes to light

Reasons for breaking up while still loving each other

Forbidden love

Date gone wrong

Causes for the apocalypse

How to create a coffee shop atmosphere

How to write enemies to lovers

How to write lovers to enemies to lovers

Arranged matrimony for royalty

Paramilitary Forces/ Militia

Honeymoon

Academic Rivals to Lovers

Love Language - Showing, not telling

How to write amnesia

AU ideas

Favourite tropes

Inconvenient things a ghost could do

Milestones in a relationship

How to write age difference

Platonic activities for friends

Introducing partner(s) to family

Writing a stratocracy

Reasons a couple would divorce on good terms

Love Language - Showing you care

How to write the mafia

A Queen’s Assassination Plot

Crime Story - Detective’s POV

Giving the reader butterflies with your characters

Evil organization of assassins

Last day on earth

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History, huh?

When u read Red, White & Royal Blue and kinda wish your country still had a monarchy so you could go write some rpf... but then you realise the monarchy doesn't matter, you already wrote the rpf, it's just not cute fluff about a prince and the son of a president. It's satirical fanfic about a conservative anti-immigrant "messiah" chancellor and a right wing racist homophobic nazi vice chancellor who are in love because you're gay and scared and even if you don't you want to believe the world has hope left

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so now that I have my Bachelor of Arts I am finally comfortable with calling myself an academic, at the same time I feel a little lost and sad that I’m not in Uni anymore.

#alumniproblems #darkacademia

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Therapist: so you really do enjoy this semester no matter what and you really like connecting to the other students. Me: *having talked to no student in any of my classes more than once* the students...yeah...

#tcc #teacher crush #darkacademia #dark academia #therapy

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oooh, how refreshing to have a crush on an actual person and not a newsanchor

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Types of Dark Academia characters, according to their outfits

The narcissist with lots of secrets: Black turtleneck, with a gold coin necklace over top. A tartan mini skirt, or checked trousers. Trench coat. Red lips and dark eyes. Books in languages no-one else understands. Thinks they’re better than you, and probably are.

The messy researcher: Cosy jumpers with shirt collars poking out. Slouchy tartan trousers. Dark socks and oxfords. Old-school messenger bag bursting with various notes and journals. Has started about 30 projects or books in the past week, and hasn’t finished any of them.

The garden party prep: Sweater vests. Pale khaki trousers/chinos, or a traditional white midi dress. Socks pulled up. Boat shoes. Expensive watch. Might play some cricket or croquet later.

The student dreamer: Knit cardigans over knee-length skirts or pinafores. Mary-Janes or ballet flats. Bouncy hair and wide eyes. Sometimes a beret. Likes autumn, and writing long letters.

The aspiring professor: Tweed. Wears suits to class. Coats and blazers waistcoats and undershirts and trousers/skirts, all in tweed or tartan, browns and greys. Kind of intense. Secretly on the verge of a nervous breakdown, but at least they have great notes.

The edgy poet: Oversized, unbuttoned plaid shirts or blazers over turtlenecks. Cigarette trousers. Combat boots. Black coffee. Actually very sentimental, but also might have accidentally killed someone with their classmates.

part 2 coming soon

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Chaotic Academia

Reading ya books and refusing to read classic lit bc of the sexist, racist and eurocentric ideas

Flannel and big tees instead of jeans and turtlenecks

Writing poetry on bathroom stalls

Coffee and tea in mugs with cringy quotes

Underlining the gay parts in classic literature

Monologuing like a Shakespearian character randomly

Doodleing in the margins of your favorite books

Writing essays on important topics and posting them to tumblr knowing that no one cares

Listening to electronic/edm while studying

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Nach Golde drängt, // Am Golde hängt // Doch alles.

  - Faust I, Vers 2802 ff. / Margarete

When the news anchor you not so secretly have a crush on quotes Goethe

#dark academia #darkacademia #goethe #faust #chaoticacademia #chaotic academia #literature #classic literature #dark acadamia aesthetic #crushcore #one sided crush #crush culture #justgroupiethings #groupie #german literature

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European Gothic

You’ve learnt at least two languages while still in school. Then a third. A fourth. They’re slowly starting to merge together. You’re not quite sure what your native language is anymore.

There are people on the streets looking confused. ‘Tourists’, you tell yourself. It’s always tourists. That’s what your parents have taught you to think.

Your mother is still angry at Winston Churchill for something he said about your country during World War Two. She was born in 1970.

You’re vaguely aware of the fact that America is trying to build something in the countryside. Some say it’s useful, others that it’ll harm you. You know the truth. You keep quiet.

America is always there, just out of sight. Everyone hates it and resents it, but isn’t sure why. Few have gone there. Fewer have returned.

There used to be four seasons once, or so people say. Now there is little more but winter and summer. The winters are getting warmer. The summers are getting colder. You’re not sure your country is where it was before.

All your neighbouring countries hate you. You hate them too. A century hasn’t yet passed from the last war. Everyone tries to pretend they’ve forgotten, but they haven’t. They haven’t.

The borders are not what they used to be. You pass from one country to another and don’t really notice. It’s only when you reach the ocean that you realise how far away from home you are. You turn around and realise that you’ve made a very big mistake.

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regional gothic: austrian edition #1 Bad Gastein

- Grand hotels from the 1800s, but the facades are crumbling, paint is peeling off, one burned completely out, windows sealed shut with woods

- You hear the waterfall roaring no matter where you are in this town

- Weird lights in the woods at night. Could be the carts taking care of the skiing routes, but who really knows?

- An elaborate underground system of thermal water pipelines to keep the streets icefree at any temperature... what else hides down there?

- Radon is in the water. It’s radioactive. Nobody seems to care.

- nobody knows who exactly bought all these hotels in the 60ies

- Empress Sisi liked it here and she was weird as hell, so go figure.

- there is more than one brothel in this strange little town and everybody seems to think that’s perfectly normal for a catholic place in catholic Austria...

- A Nazi Artist made up a goddess for Bad Gastein and created a statue. Again, nobody thinks that’s weird.

#regional gothic #austrian gothic #badgastein #salzburg #rural gothic #dark aesthetic #cryptidcore #gothiccore

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oh my god

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which is kind of nonsensical i know, but however slim my chances may be, it's not absolutely impossible, I'm sure you agree

me talking to my best friend about my crush, already knowing EXACTLY what she’s gonna say

#crush culture #crush #celebrity crush #crushes #textpost #justgroupiethings #groupiewriting #groupie

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wait, there are people who actually do that...?

#hotels #hotellife #justgroupiethings #groupie #tourlife

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#dark academia #darkacademia

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all I want is to hold hands across the table and see a diamond ring sparkling on my hand and think “alles richtig gemacht“

#crush culture #celebrity crush #celeb crush #justgroupiethings #groupie #crush tag #crushtag #Crushes #ischgl #katastrophenjournalismus