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at least 3 times a week @soulwaned and i complain about how the iris storyline was handled because we write it better .

#[ ooc. ] #i love this for us #soulwaned

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" i'll make sure to tell you more then . "   and he will , his shoulders rock a little and his chin tilts up with his promise as his hand settled wide and broad over tk's heart and he watches it for a moment . the rise and fall of tk's chest and the steady thudding under his palm . his own breathing finally slows down to match , the blurriness of his vision clearing to match . finally he can see him clearly , the soft smile , the worry in his eyes . automatically , carlos leaned forward a bit and into the thumbs wiping over his cheeks . " i know . "

his voice his scratchy and he clears his throat. that feeling of being ridiculous rises up in his throat and he leaned back , out of tk's hands , curling his hands around his wrists to pull them down lower . he feels guilty , like he's   ( temporarily )   climbing back into the box he had climbed out of when he came to new york but he can't quite stop himself .   " i'm sorry I just ....--- "   it's just a bad day with a healthy amount of fear that came out of nowhere . he cleared his throat again .     " i am proud of you and ---"   he forced a smirk to his face .  "----if i was dangling off the top of the chrysler building i would want you to be the hot firefighter that saved me . "

  that  laughter  (  carlos'  laughter  )  loosened  something  within  him  and  he  knew  that  everything  would  be  okay,  they  had  just  hit  a  little  bit  of  a  bump  in  the  road  and  things  already  seemed  well  on  their  way  to  smoothing  themselves  out.  when  carlos  leans  back,  he  doesn't  let  him  go  far.  tk  isn't  letting  him  go  as  he  swipes  his  thumbs  across  carlos'  cheeks  in  another  pass.      ❛❛  maybe  i  like  to  hear  it  from  you.  ❜❜      the  counter  is  accompanied  by  a  smile,  soft  and  reserved  for  only  the  man  in  front  of  him.

❛❛  i  didn't  mean  to  worry  you.  i  just  -  the  guy  needed  help  and  i  was  the  only  one  qualified  to  go.  ❜❜      he  went  above  and  beyond  when  it  came  to  his  certifications,  from  the  moment  that  he'd  gotten  out  of  the  academy  tk  had  wanted  to  be  the  best.  so  every  certification  that  was  possible?  he  took  it  (  there's  a  reason  he  was  one  of  the  only  ones  in  the  firehouse  that  was  dual  certified  ).  their  work  was  dangerous,  carlos  knew  that  better  than  anyone  else.      ❛❛  i  was  careful.  promise.  ❜❜      he  was  more  than  careful,  he  had  someone  to  come  back  to  now.    

#soulwaned #soulwaned | tk strand #new york au tbt #[ CARLOS — threads ]

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it was his fault , they both knew that . travelling to their honeymoon had been stressful enough well it had been stressful for carlos and the lack of sleep he had been running on hadn't helped either . he didn't travel well . but the bright sun and the pool and the beach and his husband had made it worth it, he could admit that . this was the whole point of his trip, their six month anniversary . he snorted a little , shaking his head and giving tk a look out of the corner of his eye . " i don't know how you didn't sleep on that flight , we got barely any the night before ."       he hadn't slept in the short drive to their villa either , he had slept after they got into their villa though , once they had fallen into each other again .

carlos hummed quietly under his breath at the gentle touch on the back of his hand ; a touch that was so painfully tk it always made him relax.    " it was everything . "   he agreed , stroking his thumb up the side of tk's finger, smiling as he feels the dig of his husband's wedding ring between his fingers . " did you know everyone thought it was weird that the first time we went on vacation together was our honeymoon ? " luisa and ana and a fair few of his cousins had told him relentlessly in the building up to the day but he had forgotten about it , with everything else that happened .

❛❛  and  whose  fault  is  it  that  we  hardly  go  anywhere?  ❜❜      his  thumb  moved  across  the  back  of  carlos'  hand  with  practiced  ease  as  he  shoots  him  a  look  across  the  console  between  them.  is  it  such  a  stretch  to  say  that  he  missed  just  being  about  to  do  this  -  just  holding  carlos'  hand?  probably.  he  knows  what  the  others  probably  think  about  them  and  their  'codependency'  but  tk  doesn't  care.  he's  young,  he's  in  love,  and  he's  married  to  the  most  gorgeous  man  in  existence  -  he's  allowed  to  want  to  touch  him  all  the  time.      ❛❛  what  was  i  supposed  to  do  while  you  were  asleep?  watch  you  -  cause  i  did  that,  babe.  ❜❜      he  definitely  had,  and  it  had  gotten  the  attention  of  a  very  kind  older  woman  seated  across  the  aisle  from  them.  so  while  carlos  had  slept,  tk  had  talked  in  hushed  tones  about  his  husband  and  smiled  wide  when  someone  mentioned  they  looked  like  the  newlyweds  they  were.

his  other  hand  joins  to  trace  patterns  across  the  back  of  carlos'  hand.  nothing  specific,  it's  just  another  excuse  to  touch  him  because  tk  will  never  get  enough  of  that  (  though  he  wishes  he  could  see  the  ring  on  his  husband's  finger  ).      ❛❛  it  was  special,  right?  ❜❜      he  wondered  with  a  fond  smile  as  he  thought  back  to  those  two  weeks.  yes,  they  spent  a  lot  of  time  in  bed,  but  they  also  spent  time  lounging  by  the  pool  and  dancing  on  the  beach  (  tk  would  never  forget  that  little  restaurant  they  had  found  that  allowed  them  that  memory  ).          

#soulwaned #soulwaned | tk strand #[ CARLOS — threads ]

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#we have created a two-headed monster

#[ CARLOS — reflection : rafael silva ] #this man was so sassy in thsi episode and it was so good #HE WAS SO DONE

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bottom carlos rights.

#thats it. thats the post. #[ mobile. ] #I'll tag it tomorrow but im right thats all that matters. #that man deseves to be railed into the mattress and also picked up thank you

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its not just that tk was doing his job and that job happened to be dangerous , deep down carlos knew that . deep down he knows that it's a mixture of ana's new baby he hasn't yet been able to go back to visit , the homesickness that never really left him and then the risk of losing the home that he had found here in new york . because home was a person and his person threw himself off of a highrise this morning .

the noise he let out when tk pressed their foreheads together was almost a whimper . quiet and slipping out of his throat as he finally finally started to calm down. his hands slipped under tk's sweatshirt, thumbs stroking over his hipbones , and his eyes slid close as he twisted their foreheads together , noses brushing.

the snort of laughter takes him by surprise and he realises it came from him . insanely hot . " you're right , it was insane . "    he agreed , eyes red rimmed but rolling as he tilted his head back to level him with a look .     ( it's more heart eyes than unimpressed but that's so not the point )      " and reckless , and dangerous . my blood pressure doesn't thank you . "    carlos sighed , undeniably fond , lifting a hand to stroke down the middle of tk's chest .     " you're always hot and you know it . "

growing  up  in  new  york,  calling  the  city  home,  there  were  few  things  that  couldn't  be  found  with  ease  and  yet  for  years  he  had  wandered  about  as  though  in  a  haze.  a  roller  coaster  of  a  life  had  awaited  him  in  the  city,  the  near  constant  up  and  down  had  left  him  struggling,  left  him  scrambling  to  hold  onto  something  (  anything!  )  that  would  keep  him  steady  and  on  the  ground.  the  skeletons  in  his  closest,  the  secrets  buried  deep  within,  were  better  off  left  there  to  be  forgotten  (  but  they  would  never  really  be  forgotten  ).  

it  was  easier  to  play  hero  and  the  be  the  perfect  firefighter  that  he  was  raised  to  be.  his  dad  didn't  take  it  easy  on  him,  if  anything  tk  thought  that  he  was  pushed  harder  (  he'd  asked  to  be  treated  fairly,  not  wanting  special  treatment  ).  today  was  no  different.  he  was  qualified  for  a  rescue  and  so  he'd  done  it  with  no  questions  asked.  maybe  he  should  have  thought  about  mentioning  what  he  was  doing  to  his  boyfriend  before  carlos  found  out  but  ...  there  hadn't  been  time.  

that  lead  them  to  now.  where  he  could  cradle  carlos'  face  between  his  palms,  brush  his  thumbs  along  his  cheeks  to  catch  the  tears  that  he'd  caused  (  or  his  job  had  caused  ).  he  can  feel  the  hands  at  his  waist  and  the  way  that  they  tighten,  trying  to  keep  him  there  so  he  doesn't  go  jumping  off  another  building  -  even  though  he  didn't  jump,  and  tk  will  tell  him  that  later  when  carlos  isn't  freaked  out  nearly  as  much.  tk  tips  his  head  forward,  forehead  pressed  against  carlos'  and  closing  his  eyes  for  just  a  moment  to  enjoy  the  closeness.      ❛❛  so  you  didn't  find  it  insanely  hot?  ❜❜    

#soulwaned #soulwaned | tk strand #new york au tbt #apologies again for replying to this so fuckin fast lol #[ CARLOS — threads ]

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carlos && tk

new york had been a . . . spur of the moment thing . like something out of an unreliable christmas romcom . a rush of blood that had simultaneously left him homesick to his soul and happier than he's ever been . he had been here for over a year and still , apparently , screamed tourist . not even a transplant , someone visiting on vacation . something that tk reminded him of constantly , but he was freer here ; safer . he was always going to go back to austin but he would miss the freedom that he has out here , to hold his boyfriend's hand and kiss him without fear that it will get back to his parents . he never realised how scared he had been in austin until he wasn't there anymore .

even now , as he forgets how to breathe even when his vision goes hazy and then dark around the edges ,   he's felt safer in new york than he has anywhere since he was a teenager .

he's felt safer with tk . tk who had practically thrown himself off the chrysler building this morning ----saving someone , sure , but carlos was sure he could feel the grey hairs .

finally he remembers how to breathe . a wet gasp floods his lungs with air and warm palms with slightly cold fingertips cradle his face . tilting his head a little , just right , so when his swimming vision clears all that comes into focus is the concerned face of his boyfriend .    " sorry . "        the single word rasps out of his throat as shaking fingers curl around @soulwaned's waist, holding him delicately, lightly , like he might break under his hands .

tk's face swims in front of him again as tears well up in big brown eyes and carlos blinked to clear them , the small drops escaping out of the corner of his eyes and rolling down his cheeks until they reach tk's hands . still holding his face , still holding him .    his grip on tk's waist tightens .      " god i'm so mad at you , you know . "

[GROUND] : during a moment of intense emotional stress, the sender gently takes the receiver's face in their hands to ground them until they're calmer again.

#soulwaned #soulwaned | tk strand #[ CARLOS — answered questions ] #[ ANSWERED QUESTIONS. ]

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im not saying that carlos' workout playlist is predominantly dixon dallas and lil nas x but i am saying that

#let him have his gay sometimes country music thank u #[ CARLOS — about ]

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REASONS TO CUP A FACE. ( A PROMPT LIST. )

with the help of some very talented and amazing friends, i present to you an unexpected, very spontaneous meme list based on the beautiful art of cupping someone's face! there's a mix of romantic and platonic here, and even a few that defy the boundaries of normal relationship dynamics! i hope you enjoy! as always; DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST NOR CLAIM IT AS YOUR OWN!

[KISS]: sender cups the receivers face in their hands before drawing them closer for a kiss.

[CHECK]: after an unexpectedly violent situation, sender frantically rushes to check if the receiver is okay, cupping their face to look closer.

[CLEAN]: sender affectionately wipes a smudge of sauce from the corner of the receiver's mouth, cupping their face in the process.

[LIFT]: sender gently cups the receiver's face and lifts their chin so the receiver is looking up at them.

[COMFORT]: sender cups a distressed receiver's face in their hands and steadies them by resting their foreheads together.

[ATTENTION]: during an important conversation, the sender takes the receiver's face in their hands and firmly directs their focus on them.

[MAKE-UP]: while applying make-up on the receiver's face, the sender cups their face in order to keep them still.

[PRIDE]: after the receiver succeeds in a remarkable achievement, the sender cups their face and tilts their foreheads together to express how proud they are of them.

[WHISPER]: in order to have a private, hushed conversation with the receiver, the sender cups their face and draws them close to make sure they can be heard.

[HAIR]: in the process of pushing the receiver's hair back from their face, the sender lets their hand rest against the receiver's cheek a moment longer.

[GROUND]: during a moment of intense emotional stress, the sender gently takes the receiver's face in their hands to ground them until they're calmer again.

[WONDER]: unable to comprehend how incredible the receiver is, the sender decides to simply cup their face in their hands and marvel at them instead.

[LAST LOOK]: before going into a situation that may result in their death, the sender takes a moment to cup the unaware receiver's face in their hand, just to take a final look of admiration at them before they go.

[SACRIFICE]: the sender cups the receiver's face tenderly to distract them, right before shoving them out of the way (to safety) and facing an attack alone in order to buy the receiver enough time to escape.

[BELIEF]: in a moment where the receiver is lacking in self-confidence, the sender cups their face tenderly and professes their faith in the receiver's abilities.

[DISBELIEF]: after the receiver has done something completely unexpected (and reckless) the stunned sender cups their face in their hands while trying to get them to explain why the hell they did it.

[BETRAYAL]: trying to keep the receiver calm before the big reveal, the sender cups their face gently to keep them steady, and then reveals that they're the villain.

[WOUND]: after the receiver has been wounded, the sender tries to keep them calm and conscious by cupping their face in their hands and talking to them to keep them focused.

[INJURY]: after having been badly wounded themselves, the sender tries to reassure the frantic receiver by cupping their face and comforting them.

[RAMSAY]: after the receiver commits a culinary crime, the sender presses two slices of bread against either side of their face, cupping their face to hold the bread in place, and calls them an idiot sandwich.

#god im weak for this #[ MEMES — please specify the muse ]

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he doesn't get a chance to reply to tk's decision , he's too busy getting lost in the slow press and gentle slide of his kiss and the way that tk's mouth steals the breath from his lungs . although , that could be a side effect of picturing his soulmate in his shower , that bright grin blinding under the spray , warm skin slick under his fingers . definitely a shower . later . carlos laughed quietly against his mouth , melting at the fingers in his hair ----his curls must feel disgusting , damp and tangled with some left over product from work but it doesn't seem to bother tk . instead there's a warm drag of a foot against his leg and he realises what's happening .

he goes with it . he doesn't want to leave anyway and the shower can wait. his hand leaves tk's mark but it's only so he can slowly drop his weight onto the man underneath him ,   obsessed with the way he feels against him carlos lets out a breathless noise against his jaw when their marks pressed together. it's easy to slide his arms under tk's shoulders , fingers toying with the edges of his hair as he lets his forehead rest in the hollow of his soulmate's throat . was it supposed to feel like this ?    " i dont know . "   he admits quietly into the barely-there space between them .     " some people say that the connection is instant but they never mention anything like ..... this . "       nothing like them .       " it feels like this should be too fast but i don't know how to slow down with you ."

he  wants  to  stay.  in  this  bed,  in  the  moment;  he  wants  to  stay  with  carlos  for  as  long  as  humanly  possible.  to  stay  in  this  bubble  that  they've  carved  out  for  the  two  of  them,  made  this  room  their  sanctuary  of  sorts  where  they  can  press  fingers  against  their  marks  and  kisses  against  every  available  inch  of  skin  they  can  reach.      ❛❛  a  shower  then  ...  ❜❜      tk  trails  off,  pressing  yet  another  kiss  against  carlos'  mouth  because  he's  not  going  to  stop  know  that  he  knows  what  it  feels  like.      

❛❛  but  not  yet.  ❜❜      he  adds  as  a  second  thought  while  sinking  fingers  into  carlos'  curls,  pushing  them  back  just  a  bit  and  wondering  how  he'd  ever  gone  so  long  without  this  man  in  his  life.  from  under  the  blanket  his  leg  shifts,  curling  around  carlos'  calf  to  hold  him  in  place  should  he  get  a  crazy  idea  like  leaving  the  bed.      ❛❛  i  never  thought  that  it  could  -  was  it  supposed  to  feel  like  this  all  along?  ❜❜          

#but then how is carlos meant to be able to spoil him with home cooked meals :/ #soulwaned #soulwaned | tk strand #[ CARLOS — threads ]

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can we just . for like ten years carlos went to family dinners and lunches and gatherings ; met his sisters for lunch or to his parents for dinner . helped out on the family ranch and went to weddings and quinceaneras . he watched as his sisters and his cousins were grilled and teased and questioned about their love lives, their dating lives , if they're seeing anyone how they surely must've found someone at college , at work , at some hobby they do . about when are they getting married , about when are they having kids . all of them , ana and luisa and all of their cousins on both sides of the family . from grandparents, uncles , aunts , their own parents . all of them , except carlos .

and since he was seventeen , when he came out , no one has asked carlos . he is the elephant in the room that his family intentionally ignore . they would rather believe that he is alone and lonely than seeing a man -----at least that is what he thinks .

a decade of that queer fear of i cant be queer here, the risks and the costs are too high around the people he loves the most . that fear doesn't go away easy , even when they finally accept him .

the man is nearly thirty and remembers exactly what they talked about one random morning when he was seventeen just because it was the first confirmation that he got that his family did not want to know so all he had to do around his family was box up that side of himself and not be 'too gay' around them .

#when he says 'the astros bullpen' in the show and his voice breaks. my heart breaks along with it #[ CARLOS — about ]

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cant wait for this priti patel clone to be fired in the cabinet reshuffle

#alex rider spoilers #you cannot tell me that she isn't based on her. i refuse to believe otherwise

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Hey. Get those off him! Alex Rider

#alex rider spoilers #[ ALEX — young reflection : otto farrant ] #[ ALEX — derek smithers ] #[ ALEX — john crawley ] #PROTECTIVE UNCLES/ PROTECTIVE UNCLES

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this is me screaming about crawley and smithers' reaction to seeing alex in cuffs and hooded. PROTECTIVE UNCLES .

#[ OOC. ] #alex rider liveblog 2024

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he hums into the soft kiss without trying to stop himself , a small and soft noise that gives away just how much he's feeling as he opens up and bares himself to tk's touch . smiling into his words he takes a moment , drawing his soulmate's bottom lip into his mouth and sucking softly , not to start anything , just because he can . and how that little fact alone makes his head spin . because he can . it's difficult to remember his own reasons for moving from right here .

" a shower and a bath feels excessive. "      he can't help but tease as he brushes their noses together . they probably need one of them though . he can feel where the sweat as cooled in the small of his back and along his hairline , usually gelled back curls are messy and damp but he doesn't think tk minds . " but if you want everything . . . " he trailed off , the faux exasperation in his voice was already shaky but his smile melts the rest of it away . " you should pick one to start with . "

his  breath  catches.  tk  wonders,  briefly,  if  that  feeling  with  ever  fade  when  it  comes  to  carlos'  touch  against  his  mark.  (  he  hopes  not  )  it's  something  he's  come  to  expect,  something  he's  come  to  want  more  and  more  with  each  passing  day.  but  right  now,  he  wants  more  and  carlos  is  offering  it  all  on  a  silver  platter.  everything  tk  could  want,  just  offered  without  second  thought  and  he  takes  the  chance  to  turn  carlos'  face  just  enough  until  he  can  kiss  him  again  (  he  definitely  doesn't  want  to  stop  ever  doing  that  ).

❛❛  yes.  ❜❜  a  single  word  breathed  against  his  mouth,  an  agreement  to  anything  and  everything  -  tk  wants  it  all,  and  he  wants  it  all  with  carlos.  staying  once  terrified  him,  left  him  running  before  their  bodies  had  cooled  (  and  he  hated  it,  every  single  time  )  but  now  he  doesn't  run.  now  he  shifts  and  presses  himself  more  and  more  against  the  warmth  that  practically  radiates  from  carlos,  that  leaves  him  seeking  more  and  more.      ❛❛  everything,  yes.  ❜❜   

#soulwaned #soulwaned | tk strand #[ CARLOS — threads ]

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today on : is it gender ? is it body ? is it just because i have no mind's eye and no concept of what i look like but its just doesn't look quite right in the mirror . or is it just anxiety being really fuckin general .

#tw: mental health #tw: dysphoria #[ ooc. ] #this is a fun day for me askdjhaas #i hope u are all having a good sunday

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the lizard trauma . because there is no way that man doesn't have some kind of trauma .

carlos is two years old , nearly three , and they are on the ranch just one summer evening . there's food and laughter and it's starting to get late but the sun is still out and no one is particularly worried about anything . then carlos' scream pierces the air .

it's the kind of scream that says he's seriously hurt , the one that comes from pure fear and pain and it sends everyone running to him .

they find him , standing on a cluster of rocks with a lizard on his leg . tears on his cheeks and fear in his eyes . it's a monster ! he's crying for his papa the moment that he sees him and gabriel . . . well now that he is sure that his son isn't hurt gabriel is trying not to laugh . he brushes the lizard off with an unbothered flick of his hand and carlos is climbing into his arms before he can move away . little arms tight around his neck and face buried into his shoulder . it was going to eat him !!  gabriel is shaking from trying not to laugh as he strokes his curls and carries him back to the house . ay mijo i'd never let that happen .

he really is physically fine but it takes a good two hours before carlos lets his papa put him down and even then he's very close to his side for the rest of the day . less than an hour after gabriel finally convinced him to let him put him down carlos is back in his lap but this time he's sleeping , the late hour and the trauma of the day exhausting him .

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carlos doesn't remember any of it but something definitely stuck ; lou proved that . after carlos is rescued from his kidnapping gabriel tells tk the story , murmured quietly and with so much fondness into the hushed air as carlos naps on the couch in his parents front room .

#[ CARLOS — headcanons ] #pls dont reblog #[ CARLOS & GABRIEL — papa ! papa ! where are you ? ] #something something it comes to mind to gabriel after the serial killer fiasco #because carlos always had nightmares about monsters when he was little and gabriel was always the one who saved him #and now he had to save him from a real world monster.