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I can do it with a broken heart is exactly what I imagined and more.

AHHHHHHH. ❤️🤌

#taylor swift #chills literal chills #ttpd

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Send help.

TTPD and so long, London. INSTANT FAVS

I was never ready.

#taylor swift #ttpd #ttpd era

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It’s SO funny to me when I see movie fans writing alex as this daddy dom, himbo guy because Alex is so!!!

If you scream at him a little too loudly he’ll probably cry, just not in front of you. He falls in love really hard and deeply but it takes him so long to accept that he can also be loved hard and deeply! He has the highest grades ever 1) because he’s smart and 2) because he bases his self worth on making others proud, on being useful. He overworks himself, he runs to clear his head until his feet bleed, his coffee is bitter but so are his thoughts. He’s a softie, who writes his bf love letters and who probably giggles and kicks his feet while reading what henry writes back to him. He can absolutely destroy you in a debate, don’t even try to argue with him he’ll win each time. He talks a lot but he has never been listened to. His rivalry with Henry started with a bad meeting and also with constant comparison, because everyone compared them both, and it was just a constant reminder than Alex will never be enough. Henry was born on the spotlight, Alex wasn’t. Henry was white, Alex wasn’t. Henry had everyone’s support, Alex didn’t. *He is a jester and a devoted knight. He knows hundreds of fun facts and will tell you. He loves Texas despite the bad memories of his childhood and teen years it brings. He feels guilty for making his sister worry so much. He loves his mother despite everything, and she loves him too, but they have an unusual, almost unhealthy relationship. He needs to prove himself every minute of the day. He works as a distraction. He puts on a façade around everyone, golden boy, America’s heartthrob, no one sees his house key, his glasses, the hundreds of papers hidden under the windowsill, the pills stolen from Liam. Someone teach this man healthy coping mechanisms. He is a child of divorce, and this affects him more than he lets on. He is actually a huge nerd. He grew up poor. He was in denial about his sexuality for years. He definitely has abandonment issues. He might be impulsive sometimes (storming Kensington palace after being ghosted by Henry) but he usually thinks things through, and is very reasonable. He makes lists, tons of them. He has undiagnosed adhd and this has shaped him as a person in a way I can’t even describe. Before Henry, bea, and Pez, he didn’t have any friends aside from Nora and his sister. He grew up catholic. He is a romantic. And a dork. He is just as passionate about history as Henry is. But Nora makes friends, and Alex ends up with acquaintances who think they know him because they’ve read his profile in New York Magazine, and perfectly fine people with perfectly fine bodies who want to take him home from the bar. None of it is satisfying—it never has been, not really, but it never mattered as much as it does now that there’s the sharp counterpoint of Henry, who knows him. Henry who’s seen him in glasses and tolerates him at his most annoying and still kissed him like he wanted him, singularly, not the idea of him.

Always the talker, never the heard. Always good, never enough. Always ogled, never seen. Always the first son, never Alex.

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NO MORE PROMO PLEAAAASSEEEE IT HURTS

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To be honest with you hi and maybe even hey or hello

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‘Say don’t go’ it’s so good, omg. AHHHHHH. Describes me so well right now. It’s perfection. Damn. Love it.

#taylor swift #screaming crying throwing up #1989 taylor’s version #say dont go #taylors version

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(inspo - screenshots)

#firstprince #rwrb movie #rwrb

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Okay, you need to make sure you play this game at some point. Maybe not today or anything, because you’ll need about thirty minutes and a serious willingness to understand how it works, but - it’s so worth it. It’s basically an answer to our occasional frustration - why do assholes always come out on top? - and the beautiful thing about it is that not only does it explain how that happens, but also how we can change it.

“In the short run, the game defines the players. But in the long run, it’s us players who define the game.”

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I don’t know about you, but

“June says I have a fire under my ass for no good reason,” he says. “I don’t know. You know how they always say to take it one day at a time? I think I take it ten years in the future. Like when I was in high school, it was all: Well, my parents hate each other, and my sister is leaving for college, and sometimes I look at other guys in the shower, but if I keep looking directly ahead, that stuff can’t catch up to me. Or if I take this class, or this internship, or this job. I used to think, if I pictured the person I wanted to be and took all the crazy anxiety in my brain and narrowed it down to that point, I could rewire it. Use it to power something else. It’s like I never learned how to just be where I am.”

grabbed me by the neck and choked me. Casey wrote this specifically to hurt me. They are stalking me and decided to write a book where every single character is just a little bit too much like me.

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Also, I am a HUGE fan of how they did the texting/phone calls in the film. Showing the text alone, then voices, then showing Alex and Henry visually getting closer and closer to one another, until they end up lying next to each other in bed emotionally, eye to eye, damn near touching despite being thousands of miles apart.

It's so good! It was such an incredible choice.

You can see that Henry is already infatuated, too, by the facial expressions from Galitzine. And I think Alex, too, just not obviously so because Alex himself hasn't figured it out yet.

#rwrb #firstprince

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RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE

(requested by @pippin-katz)

#i love acd #alexander claremont diaz #red white and royal blue #rwrb

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It's a crime that Nick and Taylor can't really promote rwrb as much as they'd want.

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Rwrb text posts part 15

This is canon idc

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Yeah, I wasn’t prepared to hear Taylor Zahkar Perez say ‘buenas noches, cabrón’ but it definitely healed my soul.

#it was just so well delivered #agh I loved it #rwrb #alex claremont diaz #rwrb movie

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look ok say what you want about the rwrb movie but taylor zakhar perez was 100% the perfect alex imo

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how am i supposed to go on with my day like normal after just watching a masterpiece like that