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The house from Practical Magic (1998)

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Ko-Fi :: felilla

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Hi! A little life update for anyone that follows me for my fanfiction/original work!

I am currently in the middle of a health crisis which is why I haven't been able to post as much as I would like. It has really been impacting me and my family physically, emotionally, and financially. And it has been impacting me specifically very creatively with the stress of it all.

If you have you can help out, or even just boost this post, it could help so much just to put some food on my table or pay my rent: Ko-fi.com/felilla

Thank you.

#life update #fanfic #author #please boost #writing community #mental health #physically disabled

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Boss is asleep, cannot stop me from frogposting

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Negative Space

It's always just a little painful

To sit outside the circle.

I can learn to be

To exist

In that lonely corona.

I can learn to live

To survive

In that negative space.

I can build my own life

My own family

My own happiness

But it will never involve

Them

Or you.

And I will never know

If you look for a missing person

If you search in that empty air

And miss me too.

I think, perhaps, you don't.

Because that was never

A home for me

No matter how much

I wished it could be.

And

It's always just a little painful

To accept that.

#poetry #writing #mental health #found family #trauma #family trauma #lonely

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the cutest mechanic on the block.

I've decided that if I can do it by myself, I probably will do it by myself. Need to recharge our air conditioning, not something I knew you could do? Took me twenty minutes to find the valve in my van.

But you know what, I did it. And I'm proud of myself. So there you go.

#cottagecore #farmcore #naturecore #cottage aesthetic #nature #diy #disabled pride #disabled #nonbinary

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Lazy

Last night, I dreamt of you

A background player

In a fun little dream

About going back home.

We spoke only once

Alone in the kitchen

And you cleaned the dishes

While I cleaned the table

And you turned to me

Sickly sweet smile

And angry bright eyes

And you said it again

Like you always said it

When I was younger

And less aware of

The ways in which my mind works

"Lazy"

Sneered between your lips

"Lazy"

Hissed with suds on your arms

"Lazy"

I echoed with paper towel in hand

And when I awoke

The word repeated in my head

And curled in my chest

A beast reaching for my heart

And when I awoke

I pulled all the dishes from the shelves

I scrubbed until my hands turned raw

And the sponge fell to pieces.

And when I awoke

I made my whole house sparkle

A house you have never been in

And will never see.

For fear of the possibility

The smallest chance

Of someone (of you) saying "lazy"

To me.

#poetry #poets on tumblr #poets corner #poetscommunity #autistic adult #disabled #mental illness #vent post #autistic burnout #trauma #personal vent #poet #cleaning trauma

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To add to this horrible month, my great grandfather has passed away and I need to rent a car to get to where the funeral is being held. And I barely have enough money to keep myself fed (I've been eating a lot of potatoes). Anything can help. Thank you.

Moving is one of the most stressful things in the world for me and I have to do it ithin the next month, knowing that I'm not able to give adequate notice and I'll be breaking my lease. Not to mention all of my pets are going to be gone the whole month and possibly longer (staying with friends or family) and they are one of my only sources of actual comfort. And I work in a pet store so I'll constantly be seeing everyone else's pets.

This. This is going to make me spiral.

And I was doing so well. My partner and I finally have good jobs. Our roommate is moving out so we were going to have more space. I was finally happy and stable for once in my life. We were finally, finally going to go get eloped this month. And the world is determined to make me miserable.

Anyways, any money would super help us out right now to pay for groceries and probably a bigger ferret cage for my ferrets since they're not going to be free roaming at their temporary house. Or even help us buy mattresses when we do move because we have bedbugs in this apartment a don't want to bring them with. My ko.fi is felilla.

Thanks.

#vent post #personal vent #moving #autistic adult #autistic problems #disabled #mental illness #funeral #please help #i need money #sorry for being depressing

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Moving is one of the most stressful things in the world for me and I have to do it ithin the next month, knowing that I'm not able to give adequate notice and I'll be breaking my lease. Not to mention all of my pets are going to be gone the whole month and possibly longer (staying with friends or family) and they are one of my only sources of actual comfort. And I work in a pet store so I'll constantly be seeing everyone else's pets.

This. This is going to make me spiral.

And I was doing so well. My partner and I finally have good jobs. Our roommate is moving out so we were going to have more space. I was finally happy and stable for once in my life. We were finally, finally going to go get eloped this month. And the world is determined to make me miserable.

Anyways, any money would super help us out right now to pay for groceries and probably a bigger ferret cage for my ferrets since they're not going to be free roaming at their temporary house. Or even help us buy mattresses when we do move because we have bedbugs in this apartment a don't want to bring them with. My ko.fi is felilla.

Thanks.

#vent post #personal vent #moving #autistic adult #autistic problems #disabled #mental illness

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Moving is one of the most stressful things in the world for me and I have to do it ithin the next month, knowing that I'm not able to give adequate notice and I'll be breaking my lease. Not to mention all of my pets are going to be gone the whole month and possibly longer (staying with friends or family) and they are one of my only sources of actual comfort. And I work in a pet store so I'll constantly be seeing everyone else's pets.

This. This is going to make me spiral.

And I was doing so well. My partner and I finally have good jobs. Our roommate is moving out so we were going to have more space. I was finally happy and stable for once in my life. We were finally, finally going to go get eloped this month. And the world is determined to make me miserable.

Anyways, any money would super help us out right now to pay for groceries and probably a bigger ferret cage for my ferrets since they're not going to be free roaming at their temporary house. Or even help us buy mattresses when we do move because we have bedbugs in this apartment a don't want to bring them with. My ko.fi is felilla.

Thanks.

#vent post #personal vent #moving #autistic adult #autistic problems #disabled #mental illness

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