me trying to assess and comprehend the lyrics of ttpd while process the fact that she dropped 31 absolutely gutwrenching songs that are so cohesive knowing damn well each one means something so intricate to her personal life while trying to figure out how these songs fit with my own life also while yelling over the double album drop being real not knowing which song to listen to again or which one is my favorite or how to go to sleep or how to be normal around other people for the foreseeable future like
‘CAUSE I’M A REAL TOUGH KID I CAN HANDLE MY SHIT THEY SAID BABE YOU GOTTA FAKE IT TIL YOU MAKE IT AND I DID LIGHTS CAMERA BITCH SMILE EVEN WHEN YOU WANNA DIE
thinking long and hard about “second, third, and hundredth chances, balancing on breaking branches” and “lost the game of chance, what are the chances?”