flyingmodeltrauma

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3/25/17

“Do you ever think about the future?”

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#shes staying w her #wtf #she was supposed to stay w me #she always flakes #she fucking hates me #im having a panic attack in class #kind of wanna die

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the front bottoms / swimming pool

#why did i help o get alcohol #bad idea but this bitch #wants it to

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give me something

#one night like #in august #i was in the bathroom #and a lot of bad things happened #and i just kind of laid on the floor #crying #and then fell asleep it was odd #it wasnt even my bathroom lmao

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#dissociating #dissociation #my therapist wrote down #possible dissociative disorder #on my notes #and like #wild

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All my friends hate me haha (nervous chuckle) non of them need me haha i wanna choke myself heha but also ,, why am I dramatic bitch (more nervous chuckle)

#my main is doing so #much better w/on me lmao #hanging w everyone eles #and shes doing great #wanna die #everyone is flaking #on me

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53/365

#me abt this year #mainly march #like we were gonna be good #and she was gonna be dead #but like this works #i think #things r so fake rn #everyone including me #rlly faking everything

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I can’t stop crying for no reason and it’s fucking awful

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My psych eval is next Wednesday and if I get sent to the hosp on spring break I’m going to be vry vry angry

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Eating food would be nice if I can actually taste the food in my mouth

#im dizzy #and #dissociating #its really bad right now

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I’m getting really fucking irritated by everything and stupid people tonight so we just gonna stop talking to everyone so we don’t ! lash ! out !

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Today’s my first day at work and honestly? No.

#im crying and shaking in the cornor #i think im gonna quit today

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I can’t stop fucking crying and it’s just been an awful awful night I fucking hate this everything is fucking awful I don’t know what to do I want to rip myself to shreds I literally can’t im so fucking mad at everyone and everyone hates me they all hate me wtf

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Well they haven’t responded to my text yet and they are active on Instagram so it’s pretty obvious they fucking hate me !

#i want to die lmao

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If my dad opens his mouth again I’m going to rip myself to shreds

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Why do all my friends fucking hate me !! I mean I know why I’m an annoying bitch but like why !!

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Hey guys ! This is my like my third trauma account because people keep finding out about my other ones but my names J. This is a trauma/mental health blog so please don’t followed if you are easily triggered !