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Maybe I do just ruin people's lives and it would be better if I didn't exist.

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If the rest of my life is like this I’m gonna be honest… I will definitely be killing myself at some point

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I'm like if a girl who didn't do much was still experiencing burnout

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damn i wanna hurt myself so bad

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I just wanna give into the urges and give up. I should’ve ended it years ago when I was a teenager but for some stupid reason I thought things would get better. god it’s been a fucking decade of panic attacks and self harm urges and sobbing and rotting away in bed. this is what I stuck around for??? i’m done

#tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw relaspe #vent post

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wanna relapse really bad!! what’s the point in stopping myself!! what’s the point in anything!!

#tw depressing stuff #tw relaspe #vent post

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i thought i was gonna be dead before i turn 18 and now im 24 and have no idea what im doing with my life

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It’s getting harder to keep myself alive!!!

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I'm just trying to become someone who the child inside me will not hate. I'm trying to be everything she needed and did not receive. She is so lonely still. It's not fair that she is so lonely still.

Nikita Gill

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I’ll say things like “oh I’m just not in a good place mentally right now” like when have I ever been in a fucking good place mentally

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Kaveh Akbar, from “Personal Inventory: Fearless (Temporis Fila)”, Calling a Wolf a Wolf 

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I cannot begin to express what I am feeling but it needs to stop right now

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I try to fight it, but some days it is really hard