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forbidden-feelingsss · 4 months ago
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I visit my therapist & go back to reality
what do you do when you feel like you’re losing your mind because of them?
do you leave it all inside? do you tell someone?
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forbidden-feelingsss · 4 months ago
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//24.02.2022// tc, depression, anxiety - 4 years later
Well... hi? Is anyone here?
There's no chance that this post will reach people who knew me 3, 4, 5 years ago. But I just feel the need to look back to my tc years from time to time.
I posted here for the first time in 2018 when i fell for my teacher, but i won't be telling this silly story once again, you can just check my #tcc tagged posts. What I wanted to focus on is the mental health matter.
While reading my old posts i feel like helping the old me. Two years of crushing on a teacher, two other years of missing her and just a year of curing my mental illness. You know, as a kid I had no idea that i didnt think stright not becouse of so-called "forbidden love", but due to depressive thoughts and anxiety. I felt so hopeless and lonely that my mind just picked a person to fixate on. Neither me nor her had bad intentions. And now, as an adult, I can't really remember if i acted like a psycho or not. I've been curing my disorders (depressive moods, anxiety, derealisation) for a year now and im shocked that I made it through back in 2017-2019. If it hadn't been for the good people i met (including my tc), i'd have been dead.
And even though so many years passed I still dream of explaining everything to her and i know it's where my ego takes control over common sense. But i just feel fucking bad for what i've done and said and that i could be perceived as crazy. I wish I could wash my stupid childhood acts off and tell her that she was and always will be great. But texting her would only make it all look worse so i just keep silent. My message: If u feel depressed, stressed, s*icidal - please, do it for me and seek help before it gets worse. There is NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. It's an illness that can be cured. To all people i met here when i needed help - i love you, forbidden-feelingsss
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forbidden-feelingsss · 11 months ago
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forbidden-feelingsss · 11 months ago
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stop saying you want to move on and still shaving before you see them!!!!!!!!!!!!
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forbidden-feelingsss · 11 months ago
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Damn there's something going on and immediately I'm too hyperanalysing to talk so I just smile like an idiot🥰✨❤️
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forbidden-feelingsss · 11 months ago
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IG elysha.anne
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forbidden-feelingsss · 11 months ago
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she's ill and my heart broke
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forbidden-feelingsss · 12 months ago
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forbidden-feelingsss · 12 months ago
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going to frame this photo of Dakota Johnson
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forbidden-feelingsss · a year ago
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Your blog makes me so horny.
(👋🏼👆🏼anon)
Agreed
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forbidden-feelingsss · a year ago
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Everyday it makes one day less of being lonely and then i'll just die
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forbidden-feelingsss · a year ago
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Heart and Dagger (1997), Robert Mapplethorpe
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