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promises, promises || tsc chapter 5

#tsc spoilers

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Just checking.... We all pronounce Miette like My-TAY in our heads, right?

#wtf are these options #its pronounced like mee-yet

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Halfway through the sunshine court and I'm not okay. Anyhow more Neil Jostens for the lil thing I'm working on! Fun fact my deadline is today🫡

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What if they grew up together as little southern boys???? what if???

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I really want Jean to have a moment where he truly gets over his complicated feelings for Kevin. To accept that things were fucked because there was no other option. That Kevin still cares deeply for him even if he doesn't see Jean that way.

I also want Jean to text Kevin "Had sex with your crush. Die mad about it" and not elaborate.

#this #this is exactly what i want #in that order #jean deserves closure #and he also deserves to be a little shit #tsc spoilers

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You know I waited and waited and waited for Jean to break down, to cry, to finally let it all out the entire time I was reading tsc but he didn't. Not when his mind flashed back to the Nest, not when he thought of "the Master", not when he thought of Riko. He could live with all that had been done to him by telling himself he deserved it but what finally broke him, ripped him open like the fraying edge of a tattered cloth was the realisation or perhaps the acceptance that his parents hadn't cared for either of them - him or his sister.

Wymack fought to keep Kevin safe even when he knew the risks and was oblivious to Kevin's parentage. He was willing to go to such great extents for someone who was essentially a stranger if not for some long lost short-lived association with his mother. He took on the mafia for Kevin and yet Jean's parents, his flesh and blood, couldn't be bothered to even keep his sister, just 12 years old - innocent to the world and its ways - alive, not even safe just alive.

It wasn't pain, mental or physical, that broke Jean it was betrayal.

(I'm so so glad that he has Jeremy, Cat and Laila at his back now who are willing to listen and wait until he's ready to tell and share his burdens. I'm glad he has Kevin who keeps him alive even as it is with some twisted promise and that he has Neil who will sit in the front of the FBI, lie through his teeth and order a hit on someone who hurt Jean as if he was ordering water at a diner)

#tsc spoilers

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I was thinking about Jean's complicated feelings about Neil, about the promise of their partnership that never would come to fruition.

I think a part of why Jean seems both wistful and resentful when he thinks about Neil is because he knows, deep down, that Neil would never have betrayed him and abandoned him the way Zane did. Neil would have been his partner in the true sense of the word - he'd have watched Jean's back, on and off the court.

Deep down, I think Jean knows that Neil would have done everything in his power to make sure Grayson and the others could never lay a hand on Jean. If Neil had been a Raven, back then, he wouldn't have just shielded Jean. He'd have eliminated Grayson as a threat entirely.

But because he wasn't there, Jean was left to the wolves.

#tsc spoilers #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #jean moreau #tsc

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No see results option, I'm forcing you to perceive yourself. rb for more results plus

#i don't think i come across as cool anywhere tbh #but if i had to pick one... probably online?

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terms that jean uses for neil in the sunshine court:

tiny bastard

tedious malcontent

abominable cockroach

#tsc spoilers

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Jean Moreau be like Neil Josten was supposed to be my best friend and I consider that loss to be one of the worst things that ever happened to me. He's one of the select few who I trust to take me and my problems seriously and make good on his promises to me. Unfortunately he is also the fucking antichrist and everything he does is calibrated to spike my blood pressure.

#tsc spoilers

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I usually only have between 50-100 posts in my queue but I'm curious to see what the average is.

reblog for sample size 💙

#tumblr polls #tumblr life #queue #polls

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#i just saw the word algomaxxer and had a small aneurysm #anyway i follow 287 blogs #also i Refuse to use the fyp #this is tumblr. not tiktok. #i'd rather have precision control over what i see on my dash thank you very much!

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First of the front covers for the new All For The Game inspired dust jackets for @thefoxholefund !!!

Thank you so much for asking me to work on them, I am so honored 💕💕

Presales go live on June 1st at 12PM EST. Proceeds will be used to provide free gender-affirming care.

#danka these turned out so gorgeous im going insane

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Sneak peak on something I’m working on👀