francis4evah

[francis4evah]

Would I be like Achilles,

Screaming for his lost love, Patroclus

Clutching at some tattered tunic he had left behind for me

Gnawing at my soul and bones 

Waiting for death to come

Mourning the half of my soul that was ripped and stolen away from me

#The Song Of Achilles #Achilles #patroclus #greek myth #poem #poetry

[francis4evah]

You don’t wanna help me

you just want to watch me crumble

I’m just a spectacle to you

#disability #disabled #poem #poetry

[francis4evah]

I keep making the same mistakes over and over again

Just so i know i’m alive

Come on

Someone, anyone

Just kiss me hard enough so that my lips crack and bleed

Someone, anyone

Just hold my hand tight enough so my bones break 

Just so i can smell the metallic nature of that crimson water

#Somebody please help me #im not joking anymore #im falling back and i need someone to catch me but no one has arms strong enough #im falling back into my ED habits and i want someone to say I love you #and then gimmie a big 'ol smooch

[francis4evah]

i want to stop moving

I’ve been trying to practise stillness

But i cannot get my head around it

I’m always moving, swaying, shaking, speaking

It’s like there’s something buzzing inside my bones,

Something moving in my marrow

If i’m water i’m a river

Lakehood nowhere near my ever flowing stream

But as i hither and falter and sink

I think of what i wouldn't give for a frozen, solid winter

Of the chill of being still running up and down my spine

#poetry #poem #sapphic #lgbtq #adhd #adhd poem #adhd poetry #adhd poet #nd

[francis4evah]

Someone i know took up a hobby i love and i feel bad about how i feel about it

I feel like a piece of my heart is gone

You've taken it with dirty fingers and i want you to give it back

It doesn't belong to you yet you speak of it always

Is it jealousy?

Is it selfishness?

I don’t know

All i do is that i want my heart chunk back

#poem #poetry #queer #queer poetry #queer poem #queer poet #sapphic #lgbtq #sapphic poem #sapphic poetry #jelousy

[francis4evah]

mow

Happy Halloween🎃🐈三 三 三

[francis4evah]

THE MERCHANT HOTEL

I used to be an angel

Surrounded by gold and light and sun

I used to shimmer in the moonlight, unaffected by the darkness 

Nothing but sweet, unforgiving kind thoughts swirled in my halo-topped head

My skin was silver and my tears, liquid gold

But then as i grew, my body became to big for it’s gem encrusted cocoon and everything sweet cracked and chipped away and now all i’m left with is darkness and the cool, empty air of the word lonely

#poem #poetry #tumblr poetry #poet

[francis4evah]

I never understood how there is so much bad in the world

But there is also so much good in the world

And how some people’s entire lives have only been one

#Poem #poetry #queer #lesbian #nonbianry #queer poem #queer poetry

[francis4evah]

A little bit about me

Name: Francis Häagen-dazs 

Pronouns:They/Them/She/her

Romantic orientation: Lesbian 

Sexual orientation: Asexual

Age: 14

Birthday: 18th July, 2007 (Cancer)

Yea, that’s pretty much it!!

#get to know me #know the artist #poem #poet #poetry #know the poet #queer #a little bit about me

[francis4evah]

Q&A thing #1

“What’s gender euphoria?“

Gender euphoria is the opposite of dysphoria. It’s when a trans person receives happiness or enjoyment caused by correspondence to one’s gender identity.

#Q&A #Transgender #trans #lesbian #queer #gay #asexual #gender #gender euphoria #gender dyphoria #help #queer stuff

[francis4evah]

Q&A

Hello, lovely people. I haven’t been having a very steady flow of inspiration or even any poems at all so i’d like to do something new! A Q&A!! If anyone has any questions for me (follower or not) just leave them as notes and i’ll answer them ASAP!! 

#poetry #queer #lesbian #Q&A #Questions and Answers #poem #poet #gay #asexual #thespian #adhd #art #artist

[francis4evah]

AUTHOR ANECDOTE: Hello, i just went to see the west end production of Heathers The Musical and i got a Kurt and Ram varsity jacket and i feel so much gender euphoria. I saw my exes friends in the street on my way there though so that kinda sucked but i still had a wondrous time. All of the actresses were super pretty and i’ve always been a fool for JD 

[francis4evah]

The only thing that let’s people know i am who i am is the things i surround myself with, the way i present myself, way i carry my thoughts and my agony, the way i look, just outward identifiers to let others know i’m me but then how do i know what is me? If it’s all just for other people to know who i am why do i bother to try and change? Everything will go and i am but an asshole so why even try to be good. What outward identifiers do i need to get rid of, do i need to shred and tear and burn

[francis4evah]

Bleh

You’re hands are so dangley  and they don’t look right near my skin

Their cold touch starts to rest on my sides and begin to travel up then slide inwards like pale, painted serpents come to take this little girl away from me

They begin to move and squeeze ontop of my chest

I don’t know what to do with my hands so i simply lay there, almost dead and un-moving 

She stops, suddenly, like a voice, unbeknown to me is secretly commanding her to switch positions like camo-covered soldiers on the wooden game bored of my body

The pale hands begin to move their way down to my hips again and clamp down like small, dull shark teeth chomping down on my beta fish flesh, almost drawing my sweet, subtle blood yet only leaving small imprints

Further down she moves 

Now i start to panic as she begins to scoop the papaya between my thighs, waiting for the juice to trickle so she can drink what is left of me after i start crying

This is never what i wanted 

#sapphic poetry #lesbian #poetry #poem #asexual #asexual poet #asexual poetry #asexual poem

[francis4evah]

A Heartstring is a hard thing to break

I could feel her drifting

So i tugged a pulled on our connecting, red string until it finally snapped under pressure 

Out of my heart and left me a scarred, bloody mess on my bathroom floor

when i stopped wincing and my tendons stopped pulsating, i looked up

She was gone 

Hardly waited for my blood to dry

Nothing but that bloody spot on the tiling remains of her memory and i hate that i have no one to blame but myself 

#poetry #ADHD awareness month #ADHD #ADHD poetry #ADHD poem #poem #queer #queer poem #queer poetry #lesbian #lesbian poem #lesbian poetry #sapphic #sapphic poem #sapphic poetry

[francis4evah]

I don’t like what’s happening

Why can’t i cry?

It’s almost as if i’ve run out

But i never cried as a child

Their voices bleed and phase through one another like hot, scorching wax

It drips onto my head and blisters my ear canals

“6.1.7″ (try to decipher this! It supa easy)

Leave me alone

#poem #poetry

[francis4evah]

A lost future

I remember the future i imagined with you

Dancing in the kitchen in the early hours because neither of us could sleep

Dreamy 40s love songs playing on my busted up iphone 

The hissing of the kettle echoing in our ears

As i feel every groove and bump in your laugh, like a sharp, soothing braille

Life would never go boring as long as you were around 

We’d get our tea and slowly sip as we converse about things of no concern, our latest theories and good book and comic shops around became abundant

Then we’d hazily stumble back to bed

I’d fall asleep in your strong, speckled arms

Like constellations i’d connect them and i’d find our two signs eloping together in the divots and grooves on your hair covered arms slim as the woman who’d caught my eye so long ago

Of which held and swaddled me and i’d fall asleep knowing you loved me

I wasn’t good enough for that, though

I hope you get that perfect 4am night 

Just don’t get it before me >:33  

#lesbian poetry #queer #lesbian #poem #poetry #sapphic #sapphic poetry #trixic #wlw #nblw #wlnb #women loving women #non binary loving women #queer poetry #gay #gay poetry #lgbtq #lgbtq poetry