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somehow the poor cops who we were told are simply too understaffed and underpaid because of Woke to deal with 'rampant rising crime' have found the strength to beat the shit out of college students across the whole country for peacefully saying "divest from the country killing innocent palestinians in the tens of thousands"

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"Nooo people drawing non-passing trans women makes me dysphoric" well only seeing depictions of trans women with body types and appearances that are unattainable to me makes ME dysphoric. Clearly the moral choice here is to never depict trans women.

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ENTRY LEVEL MEANS NO EXPERIENCE. IT MEANS NO PORTFOLIO OF RELEVANT SAMPLES. ENTRY LEVEL IS ENTRY LEVEL

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Please help the family of a non-verbal autistic child (who has been losing weight because he only eats certain kinds of food, largely unavailable during this time) leave Gaza!

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

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you

#havent seen these two since the start of the game #which i skipped bc this is yet another character #so i havent seen these two in forever #i guess its the point but i cant tell which is which here LOL

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#really thought plasma would be higher than it is #i mean its high up but #huh

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i feel bad every time i get back into danganronpa for putting that on ppls dashboard and then i remember its my blog and also if anyone expected anything else from me thats really on you

#also im an adult. #i tag fandoms people get annoyed by anyway bc i get it #but otherwise i have to assume the 7 other people in my little blog circle dont care on a personal level or something #im just so scared of everything always so i need everyone to be really niceys to me ok :) #i just realized its been a little over 10 years since i read the dr1 translations on somethingawful #i still remember realizing there were video links to the trials w captions mid sdr2 and being like. thats what it looks like?????????

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Ringside

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shoutout to the group in lamia who just have not stopped sweeping in front of the uldah aetheryte

#its like a welcome party

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returns to my roots for 5 seconds. demon…

moving past everything you’ve lost? absolutely not babe you’re stuck in here [trauma land] forever

#RUBYNYMPH DS IN 2024 HELLO #gongeous #maple #demon #ds #oh my god what was my tag for him #i guess both of those cover it

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this thaumaturge quest is really just "nooo dont hit me im just a little guy and its my birthday"-ing at some merchants so they dont beat up my bosses

#final fantasy fun

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erm.

⬇️what is that thang⬇️

#^ what is that thang ^

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i hope you write (i hope we both write)

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as far as sora's descent into darkness, i want there to be a scene parallel to the end of 3d, but its riku bringing sora into his own heart in order to 1. prove that he isnt scared of his darkness ["i know the pain and fear and darkness is overwhelming you and i know you dont feel like yourself anymore and i still love you etc"] 2. show him the memories hes missing, whether because he knows those memories are gone or in a "ill show you the proof of my resolve, the origin of my oath" way

#kh #soriku #i have a lot of thoughts on this specifically #and a very convoluted theory around said descent into darkness as well as the trajectory of the story #id have to take a lot of time to write that out well enough to be comprehensible to anyone else though #at this point id need more info on kh4 to make any real conclusions

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Me Giving a Pressed Conference: our advocacy for the disabled must include the addict, the imperfect victim, those we despise; the right to autonomy and life cannot devolve into a popularity contest

Reporter I Hate (Not Sexual Tension): Does that include all the attendees of the Bored Ape NFT event who went blind

Me: *Blood streaming from my nostrils and eyes* david, it includes everyone

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I bet you’re getting the shit booped out of you

yeh…

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