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I feel disconnected from literally everyone and everything.

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I’m just really tired.

(that’s it, that’s the post)

#i'm so fucking tired #tired #living with ptsd #exhausted #mental health #healing #trauma #depression

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can’t seem to shake it

#sad #depression #PTSD thoughts #ptsdsurvivor #living with ptsd #ptsd #reflection #mental illness #mental health #mentally drained #im really sad #trauma #healing

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You took so much from me

My innocence, the most fragile of them all

You didn’t care, you didn’t think

Please tell me what you thought

Looking back I weep 

For my young, delicate being

If I could touch her, as often as you did

I hug her tight and tell her to stop 

I would hold her and tell her

As many times as it takes 

To please back away

That it’ll be okay

#innocence #PTSD thoughts #ptsd #healing #reflection #bad poetry #itll be okay #probably not actually #poetry

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Being diagnosed with PTSD, and processing through what that means, sometimes feels more intense than the trauma itself. I feel heavy, my heart feels heavy and broken and raw. Does anyone else ever feel this way?

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I searched your name

I read for the first time in months

That you loved me 

Again and again

Then I read how mad you were

I watched the anger progress

I noticed when you were tired of me

I noticed when you were giving up

I noticed how upset you were when

I didn’t give you control

I know you wanted to protect me

But it very quickly got old

The way you talked to me went from

Over the line to completely unfair

Every time you thought it was your place

To say something, you were wrong 

It wasn’t 

#PTSD thoughts #ptsdsurvivor #ptsd #ramblings #feelings are valid #validate my existence

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reminder for me, reminder for you

#feelings are hard #feelings are valid #ptsd thoughts #ptsd

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It becomes difficult to deal with everyday life because you have hid your soul in a dark corner so it doesn’t have to face the dangerous world of the Trauma.  Without your soul, you are only half a person, a machine who is constantly running from reality.

Amy Oestreicher 

#ptsd #trauma #healing #reflection

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My guardian angel.

On the first night, we talked for four hours. Only a couple of nights before I had a really scary, unexplainable, will-haunt-me-for-years-to-come, nightmare. So, I think I was already on an edge to spill this information I’d never told anyone.

#ptsd #nightmares #nightmare #healing

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reminder for me, reminder for you

#one day at a time #healing #ptsd #ptsd thoughts

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6 years later I finally told her that that ten minute hug was me literally running away from sexual abuse.

#ptsd #sexual abuse #healing #reflection

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#ptsd thoughts #ptsd #everything is fine #just being honest

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Keep breathing and take today one breath at a time.💛

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I skipped class.

I have only skipped one class in my whole life and it was my social studies class in the seventh grade. He said that as soon as I gave him a kiss I could go to class and I said deal. But...I couldn’t kiss him. It wasn’t a big deal, really. It was just a kiss on the cheek but it felt like so much more. 

#sexualabuse #ptsd #ptsd thoughts #skipping class

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Your feelings are valid.

#ptsd #feelings #healing