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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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crimison-lady replied to your post “hiii how are you”
I’m so sorry to hear that but I want you to know you are a wonderful person with some real talent!! And believe me when I say that just because you don’t have a job doesn’t make you a failure. I don’t want to sound pretentious or anything but maybe try making a schedule for yourself? Maybe try a new hobby or routine or anything that’ll make you happy! I know it feels bad right now but it will get better I promise ❤️❤️❤️����������❤️❤️❤️
Thank you. I may not be a total failure, but I’ve certainly failed to meet my own expectations and the expectations of the general public by not having a job by now. At least that’s how I feel. 
It’ll get somewhat better once I’m school probably, but I’m sure they’ll be something else there to cause me tons of stress. That’s just how it’s always been. You don’t sound pretentious or anything. It’s just when I feel this way it’s really hard to make myself follow a schedule that doesn’t actually involve me doing things I definitely need to do, if that makes any sense. I’ll push my way through something that’s school involved, but during the summer I don’t even feel like getting out of bed most of the time. 
I don’t really know how to cheer myself up. Doing things I like only makes the feeling fade for a little while, and I doubt anything else would be any better. I just finished watching one of my favourite movies and I still feel awful. 
 Think I might have to go to therapy again. Thank you for trying to encourage me though, I really appreciate that you care
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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haha ya I know how it feels. but hey, maybe it's not the right time to find yourself a job? what if there's something else for you to do? it's not a tragedy after all. taking into consideration you're studying things which are pretty complex to understand, you may not find the right way of dedicating your time to both tasks (uni and work) just don't let yourself distracted. maybe those people don't have anything interesting to do after all ;p
I mean, I get what you’re saying. It’s just once you’re in university summer vacation is 4+ months long, so I feel like I should’ve been able to find something and make good money in that time. Hasn’t happened though haha and summer’s almost over. Everyone else I’ve talked to ended up finding something, and lots of people younger than me find jobs. 
I also figure it might look awful on my resume after school if I’ve got no proper work experience at all, and that really fucking scares me. Obviously I was planning on quitting whatever I got if it was taking up too much time I needed for school, but I wanted to at least work before school started again. Also I feel like it says a lot that I applied at 40+ places and only got two interviews. 
I know I shouldn’t be so upset about it. I just really wanted to feel more accomplished and have a decent amount of money once school rolls around so I wouldn’t have to keep asking my parents for it. 
That’s not the only thing that’s stressing me out either of course. My emotions are always a mess, but at least I’m feeling better than I did in 12th grade, that’s all I can say. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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hiii how are you
Hello. To be honest I’m not doing that great. My mood’s been awful lately and I’ve been sleeping for way too long. I should probably find a therapist again but that takes forever and I don’t want to stress my family out anymore at this point. 
I haven’t been able to find a job at all this summer, so that’s probably part of why I have next to no motivation. It just kinda makes me feel like a failure because I haven’t been able to get one. I’m 19, most people my age have had at least one part time job by now. If I was working too I’d actually have a reason to get up in the morning haha. I guess I’m just scared that I’m on the way to my life totally falling apart.
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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Hi! When will you comeback and write scenarios? We miss your writing!!
Hey, I have no idea when I’m going to write some more, sorry. It’s a lot of work, and stuff’s been stressful at home recently since I’ve been trying to find a part-time job and my family is moving houses in August. 
I just don’t have any motivation right now, if that makes any sense. It’s like once you stop writing for a while it’s hard to get back into it. Mostly I’ve been focusing on job applications because I need extra money for school. Tbh I really wish writing here generated some kinda income for me, but it doesn’t. It’s not like I’m struggling for money or anything, but I really don’t want to keep depending on my parents for money all the time now that I’m an adult. 
There’s also the fact that I tend to get more frequent bouts of what I think is depression in the Summer. Because I’m usually just in my room all the time and don’t see my friends too often, I start to feel lonely and trapped, that’s also why I’m trying to find a job. Once I do I might be able to start writing again, since when I’m occupied with other stuff I tend to feel more motivated in general, but I can’t be sure at this time. 
Sorry again. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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It's a little bit odd but im just a new fyodor fans;-;, why are some people calling him fedya? Is it a name connected with the real fyodor or....? Im really confused, thank you so much before.
Fedya (or Fyedya -- Федя) is a diminutive of the name Fyodor (Фёдор). As far as I know use of them is pretty common in Russia, they’re basically just nicknames based on the person’s name. They exist in other languages too, a good example in English would be calling someone Ricky whose name is Richard. 
Often times if you’re calling someone by a diminutive it’s to convey closeness with them or affection towards them. Fedya is on the basic level, so it would be used by friends or work colleagues.  Fedyenka (Феденька) or anything that sounds more like that is on the more intimate level, meaning very close family, close friends, and romantic partners might use it. 
Personally I just like using Fedya for him because I find it cute and it’s easy to remember. In terms of my writing when I use diminutives I stick with it because it’s less confusing, also because I don’t think he’d be fond of his partner calling him more cutesy pet-names (like the second example). 
Here’s a good article from TV Tropes on the subject. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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BUNGOU STRAY DOGS SEASON 3 IS OFFICIAL WHICH MEANS WE GET TO SEE A LOT OF FEDYA AAAA
This is good news! I expected it just based on what some of my friends told me, but it’s still nice to hear it’s official. Maybe seeing more Fedya content will give me motivation to write again
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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hello this isn't a request i truly apoglize to bother you however you seem quite a interesting person it is possible that we can quite get along depending on it
Ah, well if you just want to chat or whatever I’d be fine with that! Feel free to message me about anything if you want to. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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my story: hey please write me i want to exist
me: write your own goddamn self you son of a FUCK
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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Sorry for not updating for a while, just haven’t had the motivation like I used to. I always feel more motivated to write this stuff when I’m in school doing other things (it’s probably my brain’s way of trying to avoid school work). I think that’s why my updates are always so slow. I did start on a scenario like half a month ago so maybe, hopefully, I’ll finish that soon. 
Also sorry if my replies to messages come super late. I don’t hate you guys or anything. Socializing just tires me out; I’ve always found texting especially exhausting. Probably cause I always elaborate way too much. 
In any case, thanks to everyone for sticking with me all this time.
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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Tagged by @okiitas-imagines. Thanks!
Rules: bold what you prefer and tag ~10 people.
01. coffee or tea (If we’re talking warm it’s coffee, but for cold it’s a tie between bubble tea and iced coffee)
02. early bird or night owl
03. chocolate or vanilla
04. spring or fall
05. silver or gold
06. pop or alternative
07. freckles or dimples
08. snakes or sharks
09. mountains or fields
10. thunderstorm or lightning
11. Egyptian or Greek mythology
12. ivory or scarlet
13. flute or lyre
14. eyes or lips
15. witch or fairy
16. opal or diamond
17. butterflies or honeybees
18. macaroons or eclairs (both are too sweet for me tbh but I hate macaroons lol...)
19. typewritten or handwritten letters
20. secret garden or secret library
21. rooftop or balcony
22. spicy or mild
23. opera or ballet
24. London or Paris
25. Vincent van Gogh or Claude Monet
26. denim or leather
27. potions or spells
28. ocean or desert
29. mermaid or siren
30. masquerade ball or cocktail party
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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On “Crime and Punishment”, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, and Bungou Stray Dogs
ft. Nikolai Gogol. LONG POST!
Here are some thoughts I have on certain parallels between Crime and Punishment and Fyodor Dostoyevsky in real life and as portrayed in BSD.
First, on the real book itself (more like the English translation of the book):
The main character in Crime and Punishment, Raskolnikov, killed an old woman he deemed as wicked and worthless. He was so shaken by the idea of murder that he spent an entire month tormenting himself over it, lost his gut during the actual murder, and proceeded to make himself fall ill from the mental torture. He thought he did it for money, but the more he looked into the event and into himself, the more he realized he just did it to prove that he could (my own interpretation).
“There is only one thing, one thing needful: one has only to dare! Then for the first time in my life an idea took shape in my mind which no one had ever thought of before me, no one! I saw clear as daylight how strange it is that not a single person living in this mad world has had the daring to go straight for it all and send it flying to the devil! I… I wanted to have the daring… and I killed her.”
Raskolnikov also wrote an article on the psychology and mental state of a criminal, and what leads someone to commit a crime. Raskolnikov and another character, Porfiry, used these concepts to discuss a technique used by Porfiry to trap criminals into confessing, which the two of them referred to as a “cat and mouse” game.
Raskolnikov classified people into “ordinary” and “extraordinary”. According to him, the former follow and obey the law, while the latter transgress it. The former’s role is to follow and maintain the order, while the latter seeks to destroy the status quo and establish a new order. It follows that when a person of “extraordinary” conduct deems it necessary to commit a crime to achieve their objective, they can find the will to do it.
“The crimes of these men are of course relative and varied; for the most part they seek in very varied ways the destruction of the present for the sake of the better. But if such a one is forced for the sake of his idea to step over a corpse or wade through blood, he can, I maintain, find himself, in his conscience, a sanction for wading through blood.”
This does not mean, however, that people of “extraordinary” nature are exempt from feeling guilt. In fact, Raskolnikov recognized that if these individuals do in fact feel guilt from shedding blood, it would be their greatest punishment. The worst punishment for a criminal is not so much the prison as it is by way of their own conscience.
Yet, sometimes such a punishment is essential to make way for change. Raskolnikov compared these “extraordinary” individuals to the likes of Napoleon, who by social standards should be considered the worst criminals ever lived considering the amount of blood they shed, yet are revered as heroes for the change they ushered.
I immediately thought of this:
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BSD Gogol’s character fits perfectly in the scheme of Crime and Punishment. The real Dostoyevsky also mentioned Gogol several times in Crime and Punishment, when discussing the topic of morality.
Whatever the objective of the BSD “Decay of Angels” is, I’m fairly certain it has to do with change - they are willing to commit evil to destroy the status quo and advance change. These “villains” are certainly not the usual kind of “evil cause I like it”, or “evil cause I am proudly anti-heroic figures”.
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Going back to Crime and Punishment, there are a few other characters that I think are of relevance to the portrayal of BSD Fyodor Dostoyevsky:
Porfiry: an investigator, who was convinced Raskolnikov was the murderer in question, and went to almost extreme lengths to psycho him into confessing. He had a pretty sharp mind, and used the sadistic investigative method of trapping his “prey” by letting him roam freely in his natural habitat, which Porfiry believe would make the criminal lower his guard and eventually fall into the trap himself. Raskolnikov realized the trap, of course.
Svidrigailov: an extreme representation of a type of “extraordinary” man, he was portrayed as, to me, a nihilist and hedonist. Svidrigailov doesn’t seem to care about morality, and only wants to satisfy his own pleasures. Whether he harms others in the process is irrelevant to him. He can commit random acts of kindness because the spontaneity of that action gives him pleasure.
While I don’t see these characters as similar to Raskolnikov, they certainly brings out his character in various ways. Raskolnikov understood Porfiry’s investigative methods perfectly (I bet he basically thought “If it was me, that’s what I’d do”). Porfiry also recognized and acknowledged Raskolnikov’s intellectual depth and potential, and was interested in him intellectually. Svidrigailov, on the other hand, mirrors Raskolnikov’s own despair and cynicism, if only more pronounced in the extreme. One can say Svidrigailov is the embodiment of despair. He is totally amoral, and radically indifference to the feelings of others. His radical attitude could have been brought about by his realization and acceptance that evil is inherent in the world, and as such, evil and vice to him is only an “occupation of a sort”. His bleak outlook only serves to worsen his boredom with the world, and prompts him to seek pleasure for its own sake. He views eternity as “a bath house… black and grimy and spiders in every corner”, to which Raskolnikov responds in horror “Can it be you can imagine nothing juster and more comforting than that?”
Next, on the BSD portrayal of Fyodor:
Now there has been very little detail about his personal motivations, but I see BSD Fyodor as a combination of all three characters: Raskolnikov, Svidrigailov, and Porfiry, maybe more of Svidrigailov than the rest. BSD Fyodor is definitely among the “extraordinary” people Raskolnikov described, maybe even to the extreme. Of course, there is also the personality of the real Dostoyevsky.
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Regarding killing people and messing up their families as a petty problem while looking for a happy chit chat about it with one of those he just messed up, that is as Svidrigailov as it gets. (I know Fyo was probably joking, but still)
It has been suggested time and time again that BSD Fyodor might have tired of, been disillusioned or discontent with the world as it is, and sought to correct it (while also having some entertainment along the way). He specifically has issues with special ability users, which still doesn’t stop him from killing normal people if they get entangled in the conflict. This motivation possibly stems from his hatred for his own ability, which seemed as destructive as it gets. Alternatively, BSD Fyodor might also see death as the ultimate freedom special ability users can be granted to be free from their “sins”, which refer to their abilities. As such, he took it upon himself to deliver them.
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The constant mention of “freedom” of the will also strike me as a parallel to real Dostoyevsky’s discussion of freedom in Crime and Punishment. 
“Anyone who is greatly daring is right in their eyes.”
“He who despises most things will be a lawgiver among them and he who dares most of all will be most in the right.”
In other words, if you act of your own free will, you are right. Anyone who wills it can transgress the law.
What really intrigued me is how BSD Fyodor saw himself as a divine figure delivering judgement for those he considers “sinners”. I doubt such a strong motivation came about just because he discovered his super human ability one day, which has been suggested as something to do with instant killing. I see a possibility of him having been alienated, ostracized and possibly imprisoned as a result of his ability and his intelligence, seeing how completely unfazed he was by the treatment he received in his prison cell at the Mafia base. His ability would have been dangerous on its own, but his intelligence makes him an even more dangerous individual. Another characteristic of him that interests me is the complete lack of guilt or remorse over his actions. If we assume this is a reference to Svidrigailov, it might have been a result of his mindset that evil is inherent in the world (which fits BSD Fyodor). If I have to guess, he would have been a child who never played with other kids, had no lessons in social etiquette and no guardian figure to teach him about the outside world, heavily religious, either avoided, feared or beaten up regularly, probably had no concept of remorse, probably had to fend for himself and used his intelligence to get the upper hand by gambling, manipulating or tricking others.
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BSD Fyodor was probably regarded as a “demon” for as long as he lived. He probably also felt the suffocating imprisonment extended from his home life to the rest of society. He probably got tired and bored of interacting with others who just went on their normal lives complaining about their misfortunes, oblivious to everything else that happened around them. He probably never once saw himself as one of them.
It was also suggested in Crime and Punishment that through suffering and torturing himself with his conscience, Raskolnikov was able to still feel human (my own interpretation). Could it be that BSD Fyodor was past that stage of being human, since he doesn’t seem to be suffering from the weight of his crimes? Could that be the reason why he sees himself as the substitute for God?
Regarding BSD Fyodor’s ability
Not much has been mentioned in the manga, and even in Dead Apple all we got is something along the lines of “Fyodor and his ability are two sides of the same coin”. What strikes me is how Fyodor is portrayed to represent Crime, and his ability Punishment. This is all speculation, but I think his ability definitely has to do with delivering punishment for a crime (no shit!). But whose crime, and on what condition? Could it be that his ability only takes effect if the criminal repents and experiences remorse from their own crime?
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Regarding BSD Dazai
Probably the most hotly discussed parallel in the fandom. Sure, Dazai and Fyodor have been described as being made of the same stuff from the start due to their intellect which is unparalleled by anyone else but these two, but they didn’t really strike me as similar until I encountered this line from Crime and Punishment.
“Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.”
At first glance, this quote describes both Dazai and Fyodor very well. I have no question about Dazai having a “large intelligence and a deep heart”, and so he will continue to have “great sadness” in the form of alienation and loneliness (and self-hatred and guilt to an extent). Fyodor may have an equally great intelligence, but it is still unclear to me what lies in his heart. I think, he at least would have felt loneliness and the boredom of existence at some point, just like Dazai did. Their sharpness would have enabled them to sniff out the most obscure clues to the darkest intentions in people, which might have led them to regard human beings as foolish and utterly selfish creatures. The dangerous and unique nature of their abilities would have rendered them untouchable by others, further worsening their alienation. 
“If God does not exist, then I will become God.”
What kind of experience would prompt someone to deliver such a line as that?
It sounds less like a divine sentence than a cry of disillusionment and cynicism to me, which is really… sad??
Other trivial stuff:
- The real Gogol was apparently a drama queen and a master of satire.
- The real Dostoyevsky was exiled in Siberia for reading banned works. He subsequently wrote “Notes from the House of the Dead” to describe this experience.
- The real Dostoyevsky frequently discussed the idea that man does not think rationally most of the time, and as such, man’s actions are not always predictable.
- In Crime and Punishment, Raskolnikov passionately loved Sonya, a destitute young woman whom he saw as his figure of salvation, and he once bowed to her because she represented “the sufferings of all humanity”.
- Svidrigailov was hinted to see the world as a dirty, meaningless playground in which he was the actor, and kept up his act until the end. When he decided to shoot himself after being rejected by the one woman he loved, he chose to do it in front of a complete stranger at the American embassy. His last words were “When you are asked, you just say he was going, he said, to America.”
Credits for screenshots go to @dazaiscans​.
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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Hello, I hope you’re doing well, and I wish you the best in school. Do you or any of your followers know the update on Fyodor in the manga? I’ve lost track of the manga due to some things happening in my life. Thank you so kindly.
Hello, and thank you! I’m not sure how far along in the manga you were, but a while back Fyodor got arrested by the special abilities division (probably on purpose) and he’s been locked up ever since. We haven’t seen him in a while but now that Dazai has been arrested for previous mafia crimes he’s ended up in the same prison as him. They’ve only had a few conversations so far in an attempt to understand how to defeat each other. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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oh my god I'm the mod for bungou-stray-rambles and s2g I lost access to the email I registered with so I've just been locked out. I miss writing for BSD - especially Fyodor tbh, I love that you're so devoted to making content for him ♥
Hey, saw your other posts, I’m glad you were able to get your blog back! I’m excited to see the Fedya stuff you write in the future! Also thank you, I’m just happy that people enjoy what I’ve been writing for him as much as I do 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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Hi! do you know any other blogs that write for fyodor be it headcannons or scenarios? thank you!!
I know a few, the majority have only written a few things for him though. Most of the blogs on this list have been inactive and/or write for other characters as well, so keep that in mind I guess. Also many aren’t currently taking requests or don’t take them at all. I probably missed some too lol sorry... 
@harukatomoe / @dazai-fyodorscenarios / @fyodorsuggestions / @okiitas-imagines / @bungou-stray-dogs-indulgences / @bungou-stray-rambles 
Btw I think most BSD writing blogs who write for multiple characters would be happy to take on some Fyodor requests. You should be able to find more than listed here if you search BSD scenario tags or something similar. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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omg have you seen chapter 64's summary? fyodor's flirting advice to dazai....
Yeah I did lol. Pretty sure that’s only worst case scenario advice if you’re willing to forgo common moral standards though. Obviously it might work out but if you’re looking to be in a healthy relationship where your partner is actually happy and mentally stable then that’s really not gonna help you. 
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fyodorscenarios · 6 years
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Type of alcohol our dear Fyodor would fancy?
Ok so just as a preface I don’t know much about alcohol so this will probably sound fairly uninformed. I do drink sometimes, just not often enough to have a good amount of first hand knowledge. The most I know is what a handful of different drinks taste like in general.
Fyodor’s Alcohol Preferences:
The obvious answer: vodka. He likely also drinks other spirits like cognac and gin.
He definitely likes wine as well. I see him as more of a red wine kinda guy for sure, and he likes his wine more rich than sweet.
Fyodor usually drinks wine when he’s having a nice meal as opposed to using it as something to get drunk on. The hard liquor is for that…
He usually only drinks spirits when he’s trying to numb himself, which doesn’t happen too often. When this does happen it’s usually because he’s overworked himself or due to excessive amounts of stress.
Fyodor isn’t fond of beer at all, he doesn’t like the taste of it. He’s also not too big on cocktails, but will have one on occasion at a bar or something.
He tends to be picky with what he drinks. All of the alcohol he buys is fairly expensive. Not always $100+ expensive, but definitely on the more pricey side.
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