gabbycolex

[gabbycolex]

Pretending to be well when I'm not.... That's difficult. I hate lots about my life and it shouldn't have to be like that

#makeup

[gabbycolex]

My life absolutely blows right now, nothing seems to be going right. To combat this downward spiral I've been trying to just go out and enjoy myself, I've only just started posting on social media again.....anyway, its not working.

I've also turned to drag as a way of escaping, yes I'm transgender but so what. That's also not really working and generally adds to my overall life frustration.

Enough of my moaning now

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[gabbycolex]

Happy on the outside failing on the inside

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[gabbycolex]

You wouldn't think it to look at the picture, from last weekends nottingham pride btw, but I'm having crisis of confidence right now.

I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm just stating facts about my transition.

I used to post quite frequently, mainly on insta, about my thoughts and feelings. It offered me a way to sound off about how things were shaping up in my story, but I've just not been keeping up with it. That's in part due to some of those thoughts being misunderstood and being used against me.

Well, now is one of those moments I just need to have blast and get something off my chest.... I don't feel I've come far enough and I just don't know what to do about it.

It's feels so selfish of me to write this, reading it back. I'm sure some of you would love to swap places with me, believe me it's not good on this end.

I'm also feeling shit cuz I've got 100's of messages from you folks out there and I never respond.... Sorry about that folks, I do appreciate the time in writing me, honestly I do.

Right, off for a sulk... I'll be right in a bit, don't worry

#trans #transgender #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transwoman #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbtq #makeup #beauty #drag queen #drag

[gabbycolex]

I've waited all this time to be me, why should I only play with only a few colours of the rainbow now 🌈

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[gabbycolex]

First trans pride event, sparkle in Manchester. Had a wonderful time but boy did I have a banging head on Saturday night, took a little of the fun out of it.

I got asked where I was doing my act that evening and tbh I've been knocking on drags door for a while now, so it's to be expected.

Saying that, I don't honestly mind if that's what people think. It's of the up most importance that I feel right in myself and I do, I feel fantastic.

#trans #transgender #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transwoman #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbtq #beauty #sexy model #drag queen #drag

[gabbycolex]

Sometimes I like to do a little bit of drag on a night out.

It's of great comfort to me that I have the confidence to do what I do, dress how I dress, and be who I am.

#trans #transgender #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transwoman #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbtq #drag queen

[gabbycolex]

Finally got my phone back and not having use that broken old Samsung thing in the picture.

More going outs and going off's (is that a word)

Nottingham, Leicester, Blackpool, Leeds, Birmingham, it's one endless party at the moment. Well, it is if you discount having to go to work.

In coming is Leeds, Manchester and maybe Birmingham again.

Life is good at this time, things are falling in to place nd I'm having a hell of a time.

Makes me wonder what I was waiting for all this time.

#trans #transgender #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transwoman #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbtq #beauty #sexy model

[gabbycolex]

Being true to myself has been the best thing I've even done, I can live!

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[gabbycolex]

How I've developed since 2019 when my journey really started to kick in. But tonight is one of those nights I'm struggling to feel it.

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[gabbycolex]

Just a local trip out this past weekend, nothing too big.

Had my 2nd appointment with the GIC clinic this past week. They don't seem particularly concerned with how I've gone about my treatment, so are happy to assist in my transition.

I'd like to think that I'm quite objective about the whole process, I'm happy with what HRT has done to my body and even more so for my mind. I'm able to function on a day to day basis without this dark clouds in my life, not that it doesn't stop general every day life stuff.

But that's the point, changing has given me a life I couldn't stop thinking about and stopped me ever progressing. So happy to report that I've now got the support of the medical establishment.

#trans #transgender #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transwoman #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbtq

[gabbycolex]

During my last trip to Birmingham, I was talking to this woman and she said "you've got a lot of sadness in your eyes"

You know what? She's right.

Being yourself is tough yet rewarding, I've made many new friends, been to all sort of places, experienced life, lived!

Yet the family I have seem to want no part of it, don't want hear it me. Maybe it's only the guilt of blood ties that they stick around at arms length?

I would hope that when people do ask about me that they don't have to make up something

#trans #transgender #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transwoman #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbtq

[gabbycolex]

Memories of last week. You know what, I've got quite a bit of crap going off in my life but I don't have it that bad really.

Maybe it's that thankless task of always trying to push myself to do better all the time.

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[gabbycolex]

Did the barbie look again, this time at Pink Punters in Milton Keynes.

Ended up being a right rush in the end but came out ok

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[gabbycolex]

I feel like I'm under attack and what's my crime? Being me it would seem and my punishment is having my family targeted with biggot hate. 😥

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[gabbycolex]

Ready for battle, all over again.

Big week coming up. Although, it wasn't like last week wasn't.... But for different reasons

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[gabbycolex]

We had a really fun but cold time in Blackpool and we liked it so much we're going back at the beginning of May.

Hopefully the weather is going to be great and it's going to be 4 mad nights of glorious mayhem

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