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A visual representation of my emotions

- lose housing

- lose amazing opportunity

- get BANNED from fb

And what did I gain?

Probably hep c.

Cool.

Why do I bother to try to improve and do better when I'm going to be shamed and bullied into homelessness and shamed and bullied away from things and my body is going to make me incapable of moving anyway so like

I *may* as well get high and die

#personal #im so miserable #cw drug mention #cw drug #cw depression #cw suicidal ideation

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I'm homeless now

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I went hiking with my spouse and two friends today! It was really fun until I asleep on some rocks & rolled over in my sleep & fell into a waterfall. I got a concussion & a broken toe. Really fun tho!

Very happy & blessed.

#hiking #waterfall #bpd #injury #service dog

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Boy oh boy i got to pee in a cup today for my psych appointment. For the record, I absolutely indulge in substances, so this is kind of alarming, but I'm pretty sure it's fine.

I'm like trying to pee in the cup while this meme shows up

Like yup that's me lmao.

I'm probably starting lamictal which I'm really hoping will help me.

#borderline personality disorder #being borderline #bpd #bpd life #psychiatry

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I know I just have to pack it all up again, but I rearranged my clothing by colour and sleeve size and I'm so beyond satisfied with the result.

My friend came over today and helped me. He also drew a picture of me as dandelion greens. It was strange to me how openly affectionate he was, as I have pretty much isolated myself to the point where freely given warmth confuses and scares me. I'm so hesitant, so cautious within my sadness.

I also went to therapy this morning. I made my therapist cry, which wasnt very promising in regards to me swiftly becoming neurotypical. I have a psych appointment on thursday and hopefully it goes well.

And lastly, I also did the trendy picture app and I love them 🥰

#actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline things #bpd #personal #therapy #ocd #drawing

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whatever happens never forget that this cover exists

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Panic setting in again.

Where the fuck am I gonna go?

Where the fuck am I gonna go?

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I just wanted to make a little introduction real fast.

This lovely human is my spouse, and we were married on November 21 2019. We are two gross herbivores deeply in love, traveling the country with my dog. I am so beyond blessed and grateful for this human being for being my rock. It's unfortunate our living situation is all fucked up, because we were just about to start thinking of trying to get pregnant.

Others posts introducing my other two partners to come. :) don't wanna bog down the importance by combining them into one post.

#spouse post #personal #trans love

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Spent the day at the beach with my babies. Feeling kind of down today though.

I am losing my housing and I have nowhere to go. Its exhausting and terrifying. I dont want to lose all the things I've put together to have a better life, but it really is all just crashing down around me.

I'm starting to believe I have no hope, but I'm trying not to think about it.

#bpd #service dog #beach #sadpost #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder

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WUHAN CITIZEN TELLS TRUTH ABOUT HOW CHINESE GOVERNMENT IS HANDLING CORONAVIRUS

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Heading to a mental health facility today to hopefully establish some longterm care 😇

Blessed to have my beautiful spouse with me.

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #alcoholism #getting sober