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hey! i haven’t used this blog in forever again - im way more active at @devilsflowermantis if you want to check that blog out

#i came back here because i was not ok #this blog reminds me of bad shit #it seems i only use it when my bpd symptoms are at their worst #i was psychotic and hallucinating last time i used it #obsessive #having multiple meltdowns daily #i was suddenly thrown into a debilitating chronic illness after being unlucky enough to get covid in march 2020 #nearly fainting many times a day and seizures and confusion and bedridden #the meds im taking help it at least #i also lost many friends #one who abandoned everyone because after a decade long friendship with me decided they hate lgbt people #i fucked some stuff up too. #i did start going outside more and have a tan for the first time in my life! lol #and i started on T which has helped me tremendously #didn’t know just how bad my dysphoria was until i started it - it was literally physically painful. #i’ve learned a lot these past couple years and i’m liking the person i’m becoming #like truly. #shits been hard but im doing what i ca n #i just needed to vent in the tags lol

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Thousands of starlings over Rome. Source

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By w0lfm@n

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Rae Klein - White Dog With Gems, 2020

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synth [the image is small, so the quality might not look great!]

#this is my art #SORRY i reblog it here it's just #i love... my characters... so you have to see them now #i was debating it for a bit and i decided yes i will!

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making.shapes

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My love is a dog from Hell, Julia Soboleva

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source

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carrion-to-be

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Panel of Engravings, Hillaire Chamber, Chauvet cave

Aurignacian, 32,000 ybp

#human history

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i do not ghost purposely i just have no idea what to say ever

#at this point trying to have friends is just so stressful because i don't know how to interact with people #that i just. don't bother #people have never really understood the type of person i am #i don't really understand myself either

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An orbital sunrise above the Pacific Ocean by NASA Johnson

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Our Universe by Roy A. Gallant, 1980

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DAN MIEDUCH On The Drive Oil on Masonite 24″ x 36″

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Jon Rafman, LEnfer (New Age Demanded), 2010 - Ongoing

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source

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06/04/2021