How do you fall back in love with life?
clean your room. Â clean space, uncluttered space, space that doesnât have miasma clinging to it can work wonders. Â clean the dishes. Â sweep. Â take out the trash. Â peel the clothes off the floor and wash them, and then actually fold/hang them. Â take a long shower. Â scrub behind your knees. Â brush your teeth. Â (this can be utterly exhausting, but try to get it done in a day, if you can. Â the end result is worth it.)
pull out your notebook. Â it doesnât need to be a new notebook, but preferably one that you donât usually write in, or that you havenât touched in a while. Â fuck moleskins. Â the yellow legal pad will work fine. Â sit in your room, or in the park, or in the library, and write a list. Â count clouds. Â describe all the colors that you see, and note patterns that arise. Â sketch the cracks in the walls. Â note the shape light makes when it enters a space. Â talk about what the air tastes like, smells like. Â what sounds are there? Â even the white nose, break that down: air planes, fans, cicadas, anything. Â remind yourself that you are sitting in the middle of a space brimming with detail. Â remind yourself that you are not in nothingness and emptiness. Â your world is fathomless. Â it has potential.
drink cold water and try to eat something that isnât processed. Â it does not need to be fancy. Â buy yourself an apple with the change between your couch cushions. Â eat it outside. Â if youâre someone who walks, walk somewhere afterwards, just to stretch your legs. Â take your fucking meds. Â remember that its a good thing that you are inside your body. Â your body is a fantastic and endlessly intricate machine, and even though society has smacked a bunch of poisonous ideas on it, that doesnât change its inherent worth and splendor. Â take care of it.
read a novel. Â underline your favorite lines, and write phrases that twist your heart inside your chest on the back of your hand with an ink pen. Â read a novel like itâs poetry. Â read poetry, something decadent but unpretentious. Â watch a movie you havenât seen before. Â if there are free art galleries near you, walk through one. Â take your time. Â let yourself bask. Â if there are patterns in what makes your soul ache, write those patterns down â marbles arches or soot crumbling bricks or dandelions or descriptions of dresses or whatever it is, write them down.
your chosen family is important. Â remember, they picked you as much as you picked them. Â the love has no obligation. Â it is given freely and it is given from a place of compassion. Â you are not a burden. Â if you need to breathe, take a minute by yourself and just exist, but remember to go back to your people. Â when they need you, listen and be gracious. Â always be gracious. Â the universe sometimes remembers things like that.
listen to new music. Â link jump on youtube or related artist jump on spotify or ask the chap beside you in the cafe what their favorite band is, and listen to that. Â listen to something that you donât usually listen to. Â we tend to tie up a lot of memory with music. Â we are falling in love again. Â the soundtrack needs to be specific to that. Â
allow yourself to indulge in romantics. Â press flowers in old books. Â play movies with subtitles and mouth the words. Â dance in your room. Â wear something that makes you feel good, even if you wouldnât wear it in public. Â write your chosen family letters, even if you hand deliver them. Â write poetry, even awful poetry. Â revel in its awfulness. Â eat dark chocolate and when your chosen family want to go out, try to go out with them sometimes, even if its just to the market. Â
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Hiya Sophie! I was wondering since Valentineâs Day is coming up if you could write Glamrock Freddy x fem reader where reader is alone for the holiday and Freddy notices and tryâs to ask her out? And fluff ensues from there?
âšHope you have a wonderful weekend! đ
Glamrock Freddy x Fem! Reader Valentines Edition âĄ
Hello!!! I've been so swamped with college work but I said I'd give this a go because valentines sweetness đ sorry if it's a bit short !!! And I apologise if there's any typos đ
much love , Soph
It was the night shift, the 14th of February , a dreaded day for Y/N , Valentines day , a day of romance and love right? Wrong. Y/N had never celebrated Valentines Day, just spending it alone every year drowning her sorrows in a tub of ice cream and cheesy Valentines movies. At least tonight she was working and got to spend some time with her favourite animatronics , Freddy in particular. They had built quite the friendship together! Constantly chatting and whenever Freddy had an issue be it wires or just an overall stressful day, Y/N was there. And Vice Versa, if Y/N was feeling upset or distraught , Freddy was always there with open arms..or paws!
Y/N was spending the night doing the usual rounds, making sure there were no health hazards like spilt drinks or anything like that , lots of kids running around the pizzaplex could cause quite the mess let me tell you, Y/N was mopping the floor listening to some romance songs to try and uplift her saddening mood, Valentines was always an upsetting day for her ,lonely, seeing all her friends in happy relationships getting teddy bears and flowers wasn't the nicest and really rubbed in that actually she was quite alone. She was listening to "Make You Feel My Love" by Adele when she heard the all too familiar footsteps of her favourite bear in the whole world , Mr Fazbear himself. When she turned though , she was greeted with a big surprise that she didn't see coming at all.
Freddy was standing there , red roses in hand , Y/N's favourite along with a little plushie of himself! He thought it would be a good idea to give Y/N one so when she was at home she would always have a piece of him with her. His bow tie also had been decorated with red roses, he also had a massive valentines card in hand.
Y/N gasped in surprise "Freddy?" She almost whispered , caught for words. "Be my valentine?" Freddy asked with a tinge of nervousness to his voice "I've heard through the grapevine that you've never celebrated it before .. and I really like you Y/N , you make me feel things I've never felt before in my life, I thought my programming was bugging for the longest time , I feel what you would call butterflies whenever I am around you. You are a breath of fresh air , the light of my life and I care for you so much, for you , my mechanical heart skips a beat" Freddy stepped towards her and placed the roses down with the plush and card. Y/N teared up at his words placing her small hands in his large paws "of course I will Freddy , you really know how to make a girl feel special dont you?" She sniffled and Freddy picked her up off the ground. Y/N wrapped her arms around his shoulders "and red roses ... my favorite, you remembered.." she whispered and rested her forehead against his. "I'll always remember sweetheart.." Freddy swayed them to the music and began to sing to her ...
"I could make you happy make your dreams come true , I'd go crawling down the avenue, no there's nothing that I wouldn't do, to make you feel my love"
"I love you, my superstar"
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Hey Sophie! I was wondering if I could request a Glamrock Freddy x fem reader, where reader is a security guard and takes care of everyone but has bad anxiety and Freddy notices and comforts her?
If this makes you uncomfortable at all u totally donât have to write it! đ
I hope your doing well and have an amazing day/night! đ
Hi!! This is my first Fnaf request and I'm so so excited !! Thank you so much!!! Requests are open for anybody who wants to send one in , thank you superstar and enjoy! Much love,  Soph  @starstruck-loner
Glamrock Freddy x Fem! Security Guard reader!
It was night time , and Y/N was a night guard at Freddy Fazbears Mega Pizza plex, Â it had been like this for years , she had even gotten to know the animatronics so well that she had a side job in parts and services helping the gang with touch ups be it paint renewals or wires that have broken, Â her best friend though, was the big guy himself Freddy Fazbear , they would spend countless hours in the dead of night from 2 am to 4 am on the quiet nights when there were no jobs to do , just enjoying each others company , Freddy would tell her about some funny things that would happen in the day time like before the band would go on stage , Monty and Roxy would be arguing back and forth like two children about who the kids liked the most! But tonight, for some reason Y/N was absolutely distraught , her anxiety was absolutely taking over tonight, it didn't really happen often so she didn't really talk about it but tonight it was difficult , but she was strong, Â and always liked to persevere through things, Â so she put on her uniform and arrived at her shift at 11:30 before the doors would close for the night. Y/N took a deep breath scanning in her security pass giving her access to Rockstar Row , this is where all the animatronics rooms were , her first job of the night was to try and coax Monty to parts and service for a routine check up , tonight wasn't the night for Monty to be playing games , Y/N was not in the best form for it. With a deep sigh preparing herself she entered Montys room , it was dark so she had to turn on her flashlight, the room was a wreck , claw marks littered the walls in deep gashes , the sofa was torn open , destroyed , it was absolute chaos, yet, it didn't surprise Y/N she knew them all well, she would even class monty as a friend , but he tended to creep up and scare her which again, tonight wasn't the night for. "Monty...? You in here man..?" She called out , an uneasiness in her voice.... no answer, Â he wasn't here , Y/N rolled her eyes and left the room "Okay..What's next on my list.." she mumbled thinking to herself when suddenly she was hoisted up off the ground and a loud roar echoed and vibrated through the walls of the pizza plex, Â Montys attempt at getting a good scare out of Y/N, usually she would have laughed it off but tonight, Â it was the last straw to her breaking point, she let out a blood curdling scream and burst into tears "LET ME GO RIGHT NOW MONTGOMERY!" she roared and he immediately put her down , he stood there shocked as she bolted away down the corridor knocking at Freddys door , her breathing getting very fast as she began to hyperventilate , she must have dropped her security pass in Montys room because the door would usually open automatically "F-Freddy!" She gasped out , her hands shaking at this point, Â the door opened immediately and Freddy gasped "oh no sweetheart its okay I've got you..." he gasped the best an animatronic could anyway and scooped her up into his arms taking her into his room sitting her down on the sofa , kneeling in front of her "it's okay ,, it's alright superstar here look at me okay...? You're having a panic attack and i need you to breathe for me ..." Freddy placed his hands on either side of Y/N's face , they were cool as ice due to him being made of metal "look at me lovely..." he called and Y/N looked up into Freddys bright eyes and started taking deep breaths , it took her a while but she slowly started coming around to herself, Â Freddy petting her hair "it's okay superstar , you're alright I'm here , take as much time as you need" he begun to wipe away her tears "I-I'm so sorry I startled you Freddy I just didn't know what to do in a blind panic like that .." Y/N stuttered, Â finally able to form a sentence still looking into his eyes "oh no...no apologies my dear this happens to kids here all the time when they get overwhelmed...What happened...?" He assured her in a hushed voice "I-I was looking for Monty to take him to parts and service .. he wasn't in his room so I walked outside to check and see what was next on my agenda and he picked me up from behind and let out a loud roar startling me ... I'm just so on edge tonight Freddy my anxiety is just shaking me up and it didn't help at all ... im so embarrassed..." Y/N whispered and Freddy took her into a hug holding her tight , she clutched onto him and snuggled into his shoulder "no..that's not your fault... that would be extremely off-putting especially with your anxiety ... you have no need to be ashamed" Freddy ran his hands through her hair , his internal fans whirred, Â he had activated his heaters to calm her down , the warmth being comforting and soothing "Thank you Freddy... I don't know what I would do without you... I love you so much" Y/N admitted sniffling ... Freddy.exe has stopped responding, Is it hot in here or is it just freddys heaters ...? If he could blush he would have , he was beaming ...she loved him too!? "I love you more than the moon loves the stars my sweet ..I'll always be here for you forever and always ..." and thats how they sat for a good while...forgetting about life for a while ..until monty and Roxy were practically wrestling and screaming at each other in the atrium but that's a story for another day .
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This was so perfect thank you so so much đđ
Hello! I was wondering could you write something for me? Maybe a fem reader who suffers with fibromyalgia (chronic pain condition all over the body) maybe she works as a night guard and monty notices she has a flare up of pain and takes care of her ? Thank you so much I deal with fibromyalgia and its very draining đ
Hi sweet pea đ„° Of course I can đ„ș Iâm so sorry to hear that youâre dealing with that :( I hope things get better for you, and that youâre able to find the comfort that you need đ
I did hcs for this! If you want this to be more of a fic, youâre welcome to let me know! Also this is a bit long, and maybe a little OOC, it's been a hot minute since I've written something, so I hope it's okay! đ
đ Youâve had fibromyalgia for as long as you could remember. Itâs never really bothered you.
đ Sure youâve had your bad days, and your even badder ones, but you always knew how to bounce right back from them!
đ But with your new job⊠Itâs a bit of a struggle. Your fibromyalgia often wears you out, making you seem like youâre a relatively sleepy person, which you can be at times, but often than not youâre fine.
đ And you would think with that in mind, they wouldnât have made you the newest night guard. Your boss would want you to get rest, right?
đ WRONG
đ So here you are roaming the Pizzaplex, feeling a bit off about your new position, and quite frankly, about yourself.
đ You brush it off and keep doing what youâre doing, making quick pit stops to see what the other animatronics are doing. You have a fairly good relationship with them all, which thankfully makes the night go by so much faster
đ But as you continue your trek through the mall, you begin to notice the dull ache in your legs. You brush it off as you overdoing it with walking around, but when your back, and eventually, shoulders begin to ache. You start to wonder if you maybe did something a little more.
đ Youâre near the arcade when you decide to sit down, feeling a bit dizzy with your stomach aching from anxiety. It isnât until you feel like your body is made of lead that you realize that this isnât just exhaustion from work; youâre about to go into a flare up.
đ You decide to ride it out, itâs the only option at this point, and youâve done it before. You got this! But the ache in your joints and tensing muscles make it unbearable this time, and you canât help but lean forward with a groan as you rub your head.
đ Now, it isnât every day that Monty gets company. Most of the time, people steer clear of him for their own safety. He doesnât mean to get angry, itâs just in his nature! Also sometimes violence is the answer.
đ So when it comes to him hearing some sort of groaning and moaning coming from right outside the Fazcade, he asks himself if itâs Chica having some sort of malfunction from eating garbage, again, but no itâs just⊠You.
đ Monty isnât sure what to think about you, but he knows he respects you. Youâve always been kind to him, saying hello and sticking around despite what others have said to you about him. So maybe, perhaps, heâs grown quite fond of you.
đ But not right now. Because why the fuck are you bitchin and groaning, he wants to game bestie.
đ You jerk up at the sound of metal thumping against the floor, opening an eye to meet Montyâs own as he looks down at you with his hands on his hips. You squint now, wondering what he wants
đ âWhatâs wrong with you? Youâre sorta killin the vibe here, y/n.â
đ You sincerely cannot help but just, look at him like 'wtf dude read the room.' Your eyes flicker left and right, trying to figure out whether or not you want to tell this asshole whatâs wrong, but it isnât until youâre hit with a throbbing pain throughout your back that you shake your head. Unable to respond.
đ Okay so, maybe now heâs a lil concerned đ§đ»ââïž Normally you make some witty comeback, or tell him to go away, but you're just. Sitting there with a pinched look on your face.
đ Monty narrows his eyes at you before realizing that youâre probably hurt, and despite being a baddie, he cannot ignore that and bully you. That wouldn't be cool of him.
đ A sigh leaves his nostrils as he squats down to go in to pat your back, about to ask what's up as his nail grazes your back making you lurch forward. You lean away from his touch, shaking your head again before finally explaining whatâs happening to you at that very moment.
đ Heâs personally never heard of Fibromyalgia, and wants to know a bit more in order to understand what you're going through, but he knows at that moment that perhaps⊠He will have to be a bit kind to you. Just a lil bit⊠As a treat.
đ The gator shifts in his spot patiently, waiting for you to calm down and catch your breath. Deciding instead to fill the silence with how a story about how this kid tripped and fell today, and how he had to stop himself from laughing. It made you smile, laughing a bit to yourself, and he couldn't help but smile himself. Even if it was short lived.
đ Once youâre all good you slowly rise to your feet, with Monty awkwardly holding out his hands before quickly letting them drop. He stares at you for a moment before gently taking your arm, tugging you along as he mumbles something about pain killers being in someoneâs office or something.
đ Youâre a bit dazed from the waves of pain youâre experiencing, but youâre holding onto his hand with your free one, giving it a squeeze every so often whenever you feel your head throb.
đ That makes him a bit nervous, making something in his chest stir, but he says nothing. He simply squeezes your hand back.
đ Once you reach the office, he sets you on the spinny chair, and gets to work on finding the pain killers through the drawers. You sit there watching him curiously up until he hands you the pills.
đ âUh⊠Could I have, water-â
đ âDonât be a pussy, y/n.â đ
đ You listen to the gator and take the pain killers with a look of disdain. Leaning back in your seat with your hands meeting your eyes to rub them. Eventually you take them, sitting there in an attempt to relax. You just needed to rest now.
đ Now, he isnât sure what to say to you. He can tell youâre still uncomfortable, and now heâs REALLY really feeling bad. Youâve always been so nice to him, and here he is giving you a hard time and making you dry swallow pills.
đ âCome on.â As gently as he can, the gator hoists you up on his back, mindful of how you react to his touch. He makes mental notes to not touch you in certain places, like the back of your knees, and heâs careful as he takes you back to his room.
đ Heâs a little embarrassed because itâs trashed, but hey, at least his couch is okay. Somewhat.
đ Monty sets you down and makes sure to put pillows behind your head, awkwardly putting a plush toy of himself between you and the couch, lowkey trying to hide it, before stalking off to get you some water.
đ Once he comes back he can still see that you're uncomfortable. He hands you the water before deciding to finally ask you what he can do to help. Perhaps heâs finally cracking, letting you worm yourself deeper into his stone- metal? cold... heart. yes.
đ You mumble something along the lines of a massage, as your shoulders are tense and need some sort of relief. Monty is hesitant, for obvious reasons, but as you give him your best set of puppy eyes⊠He gives in.
đ Another sigh leaves him as he sits himself down, patting the space between his legs for you, and you canât help but blush as you slowly move yourself to sit in the space.
đ Youâre sure he knows youâre blushing. The tip of your ears feel so hot, itâs embarrassing, but youâd rather be embarrassed than be in pain, because Jesus.
đ Monty knows how to give massages. I will DIE on this hill okay.
đ His fingers work on your neck first, thumbs focusing on those tense muscles of yours, allowing them to relax as he eventually moves to your shoulders, and down your back.
đ You flinch every so often at some contact, your body sensitive to touch, but you can feel the pain killers kick in, and Montyâs massage is helping as well. You're starting to feel better.
đ You lean your head back against his shoulder, sighing softly in relief, and Monty feels like he just ascended. You've never been this close to him- I mean, he has experience with. Women. Chicks are always up on him! But you know, you're different.
đ He eyes you from the corner of his eye, watching as you completely melt into him as his hands now massage your arms, gently rubbing circles into your forearms.
đ This goes on for some time until his hands meet yours, experimenting a bit as he intertwines them with his own. He looks away with a grumble. He says nothing else as he lets you stay in his lap, tail twitching.
đ It isnât until he realizes that you fell asleep that heâs able to breathe, leaning back himself as he gently caresses your body. Every so often you twitch in response, causing him to quietly apologize and touch his snout to your temple.
đ He knows now he canât move until you wake up, but maybe itâs for the best. His arms wrap around you, settling his hands on your lap as he leans his head against yours. Heâll watch over you. Make sure youâre safe, and most importantly, comfortable.
đ Though once you wake up, feeling a bit better than before, Monty is going to deny ever doing anything. What do you mean he gave you a message? đ Bestie you must be seeing things. He did no such thing.
đ He has no excuse as of why youâre still in his lap though. He just shuts right the fuck up đ
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