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real im lowk jealous of him

having a boyfriend that's skinnier than you is literally so embarrassing... like wym come sit in my lap, babe noooo

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i was supposed to fast today but im at work and i gave in (hate working around food)

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real

its so hard to face the fact that i dont look 10 pounds thinner after i didnt eat for one day

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i just wanna be thin enough so low rise jeans will look good on me

#tw disordered eating #tw ana diary #disordered eating thoughts

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RE-BLOG IF….

- You FULLY support recovery and WANT people to recover.

- You think people should AVOID “@na coaches” AT ALL COSTS.

-You are against “f@t-sp0” . (becosue it’s just down right wrong.)

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i need to be at my gw by my birthday pls pls pls pls pls

#tw weight #tw ana diary

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i need ana buddies pls and thank u

#tw weight #tw ana shit #tw ed rant #tw ana diary #tw edd #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #disordered eating thoughts #ana trigger #ed not sheeren #ed buddies

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i think my bone structure is gonna stop me from looking how i want i hate being so short

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im skinnier than the girls that bullied me in fifth grade for being fat<3 karma honey

#tw ed talk #eating disoder thoughts #tw weight #ed no sheeran #tw ed rant #tw ana diary

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me rn

Finding old pics of you when you were at your lowest weight<<<

I get so mad. Now I gotta lose all this weight all over again.

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March 29th. Day 1: 550 cal limit

breakfast: cup of frozen blueberries (80)

lunch: lil salad (137) - one mini bell pepper, 1/4 cup chickpeas, 6 cherry tomatos, one mini cucumber, half a teaspoon olive oil, salt and pepper.

snack: 1/2 cup krave cereal dry (85)

snack #2: watermelon monster (10) gum (5)

dinner: cup of frozen blueberries (80), hard boiled egg (63)

total: 465 :)

how i felt today: since im on my period i felt weaker than usual. this was my first day restricting in a while bc im falling back into my ed. i felt a little lightheaded throughout the day til i had lunch. have been shaky but thats okay. didnt have any cravings cuz i spent like all day on tumblr lol. good day:)

also im only following the cal restriction and water. idk if i drank enough water but i drank more than usual. i don’t exercise much rn cuz i live with my bf and that would be awkward i think. i did go on a little walk tho and took some cute pics. ill do a weigh in tomorrow when im at my gmas cuz my scales at her house still

#tw ana diary #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #tw ana shit

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✨manifestations✨

save and read these every day. your mind is your most powerful asset. use it to your advantage. theres too much negative self talk when you have an ed, and thoughts manifest into reality.

#tw ed talk #eating disoder thoughts #tw weight #ed no sheeran #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #tw ed rant #tw ed diet #tw ana shit #tw ana related #ana inspo

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Im so bloated rn, idc if it’s liquids or food, the fact I’m bloated itself is so triggering and hateful for my mind

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one of my biggest (and most toxic) motivations is to be skinnier than my ex best friend who showed me th!nspo for the first time when we were 13, and basically introduced me to this bs

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ten days til my senior prom lets see how much i can lose so i feel good in my dress

maybe if i look good enough ill post it and show u guys

#tw ed talk #eating disoder thoughts #tw ana vent #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw ana related #ed no sheeran #ed not sheeren #ed but not sheeran

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having your period while restricting sucks. nearly puked and fainted while trying to chop vegetables for my fkn salad just now bc standing made me feel sick.

#tw ed talk #eating disoder thoughts #tw ed rant #ed but not sheeran #tw edd #tw disordered eating

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HEY GUYS PLEASE READ THIS FIRST SECTION AT LEAST

just wanted to say this is my lil journal. theres gonna be all sorts of updates bc im psychotic and obsessive. some ed content and some of my life updates. welcome to my brain.

note : i am NOT pro. i dont like eating disorders they suck ass but some of us are stuck and some of us like to relate to people so leave my acc alone and block me instead of reporting. i lost my last account and all of my cutie lil friends i made and it was heartbreaking.

IF YOU ARE A MAN (like a gross man) OR A CREEP OR DONT HAVE AN EATING DISORDER OR ARE IN RECOVERY, please politely leave.

love to you all <3

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