being 25 is like: im dying. im living my best life. im a failure. my life hasnt started. everything interesting has already happened to me. im achieving my dreams. im cutting my hair with kitchen scissors. im starting a skincare routine. im a corporate professional. im a sellout. im out of groceries. i have too many groceries. i am never going to be successful. i am going to win a hugo award before im 30. im crazy. im boring. i need to finish this essay. i need to finish this story. i need to start a newsletter. i need to start tweeting more. i need to stop tweeting. i need to ghost all my friends. i need to tell my friends i love them. i need to find a new apartment. i need to take out the trash. i am the trash that needs to be taken out.
“[…] In fact, each of us is entirely unique; a birth chart isn’t duplicated for 25,000 years because all the planets are traveling at different speeds around the Sun. In the moment you took your first breath, all of humankind—all the people alive at that time—passed through that moment with you. Everyone did the best they could to make the moment joyful for themselves, but then the next moment came along and humankind had to handle it—and the next moment and the next, on into the current moment. But the moment when you were born was stamped on the cellular level of your very being, and it remains a part of you.
With that connection, you took charge of purifying that moment for everyone else on the planet, and you alone have the power to perfect the moment of your own birth. It’s as though you took that sliver of time, slowed it down, and stretched it out to last an entire incarnation. And as you begin to work with that moment, taking parts of your “wiring” that aren’t working too well and adjusting them—thus creating happiness, laughter, and joy in your own life—the positive energy of these changes affects everyone else. Through your own personal life you are essentially altering a moment that occurred in the past, and when you change the past, it changes the present for everyone. I’ve heard many spiritual teachers say that the best we can do for others is to work on ourselves. We are all interconnected on the deepest level—we’re One.”
I think my favorite thing about Steven Universe Future is the confirmation that the show has absolutely never operated with cartoon logic or physics. All those times steven fell off of cliffs or got yeeted by garnet? Shattered his bones every time. Little kid grows up with superheroes and learns to fight alien monsters? Violent and tuamatic PTSD. That same little kid never had to go to school and is really quirky because all his friends are aliens? He was socially isolated from other children and now as an adult cannot form new relationships because he was never taught how. Also now that all of his friends are leaving he has no emotional safety net and is learning that his whole anime-esc childhood was a long string of unintentional emotional abuses and parental neglect.