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“She never looked nice. She looked like art and art isn’t supposed to look nice. It’s supposed to make you feel something”

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Just some more of my art journal

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Fun little photo shoot with my baby went exactly as planned 🙄

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Poem from the moment after you left.

And the truth is

I miss you already

The truth is

You’re still here

In my heart

The truth is

We never truly know

If or where we will be

Together again

But I look forward

With wide open arms

To that next time

When we find ourselves

Sharing the flow we keep

Instead of cavaties in our teeth

And joking about time

How it’s passing

Is nothing more

Than a dream

How we are

Never more

Than a short slumber

Away.

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so my friend tells me she identifies as a mermaid..

& I'm like GIRL. I saw The Little Mermaid. Even she did not want to be a mermaid. & yes, she may have been a selfish little fishtail, but think about it: "up where they walk up where they run, up where they play all day in the sun." I mean... don't you currently enjoy doing all of those things? if you're just trying to sing & brush your hair with a fork without judgement, you can totally do that. some people will throw you the side eye. disregard them as crabs. OR are you just trying to say youre magic, BUT not regular, pedestrian, witch-type magic. is mermaid magic better? is this common public knowledge? OR is it just easier to look yourself in the mirror if you are not human. does that make it easier to pretend you dont have depression; because depression is exclusively human. if so...shoot...maybe i am a mermaid too. if being a mermaid means you’ve cried enough tears to drown your grasp of reality. if being a mermaid means you truly believe the grass is greener than the blue you are surrounded by. if being a mermaid means you never walk away from a person you love, because you can’t, because you have a fin, then yes. i think i am a mermaid & every song i’ve ever sung has filled my lungs with sea, I am not drowning - not like i thought i was, when i was human. .

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Just loving bed lately. Gotta get out of this funk. Today was a good day tho. I didn’t feel absolutely insane like other days.

Single is

Unshaven legs.

Same flannel for a week.

Not checking in.

Not being checked on.

Chips and salsa for dinner.

Frozen pizza bought at 3am.

For breakfast.

Sweat pants.

No pants.

No bra.

What is a bra?

Dirty laundry in a pile at the end of your bed.

Snacks in bed.

Movies in bed.

Tv in bed.

Books in bed.

Writing in bed.

Texting in bed.

Phone calls in bed.

Not answering phone calls in bed.

Dreaming of not being in bed, in bed.

Single is everything in bed.

Everything.

But company.

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I’m going to miss summer 😭

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If being a mermaid means you have cried enough tears to drown your grasp of reality. If being a mermaid means you truly believe the grass is greener than the blue you’re surrounded by. If being a mermaid means you never walk away from a person you love because you can’t. Because you have a fin. Then yes, I think I am a mermaid. And every song I’ve ever sung has filled my lungs with sea. But I am not drowning. Not like I thought I was when I was human.

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🤦🏼‍♀️

The process.

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🙃

Just being weird and trying to be tik tok famous or something.

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Just stuff I’ve been working on 🌙

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Started an art journal 🐬

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XOXO

Hey hey. Long day today. Traveled down to Grand Rapids to pick my cousin up from the airport to surprise my niece for her birthday, She was so surprised, it was so sweet. Now I am just hanging out here in Grand Rapids with the family. I wanted to go see Presley, but did not want to see my mom really. Overall good day. Only thought about using a few times. I know these thoughts are not rational and I keep repeating the serenity prayer. Things will get better with time. Not much else to say.

-hann

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“One day at a time.”

Here is some of my story;

My name is Hannah Marie. I am 26 years old and from Michigan. Somehow I ended up in Northern Michigan. I am an Alcoholic/Drug addict. My journey to sobriety started in 2018 when I had gotten my first DUI. Even after that I still did not want to stay sober. So, I went out again and lucked out on what could have been my second DUI. I was on probation for a year and a half and I attended 5 Rehab facilities in 2 years. Life wasn’t going how I wanted it. I was depressed, angry, discontent and overall miserable. I lost almost every job I could get and damaged many friendships. I had the gift of desperation hit me in the face and stayed sober for a year and a half. That was the happiest year and a half of my life. Times started getting busy and I stopped attending meetings and fellowshipping. I was getting lonley and depressed again and picked up the bottle. I didn’t put it down for 8 months until last week. My life started to crumble. My mom wouldn’t let me stay with her because she can’t put the bottle down herself. I had a mental break down and ended up in the nut house (psyh hospital) for 4 days. Since I recently just got off my insurance, I had to go to a place that provided services for free. It was gross and the people there were not nice. The difference between people who pay for mental health support and don’t, is mind blowing to me. Anyways, I am a week sober again. I feel good. I spend most days outside reading in my hammock or kayaking around the lake. I am laughing again, which feels nice. Taking everything one day at a time right now. 

I will probably post more things about my story to come but here is a little bit of it summed up.

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Good girl, Bad habits. 

Hey hey! This is the start of my new blog. I have never blogged before but thought it was a good idea to start journaling, so here we are! Welcome welcome! Pretty much I will just be sharing my days and what it is like to be 26 years old, sober and living in northern Michigan. Hope you enjoy! :) 

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