griancraft

[griancraft]

May I please have... one... grotesque... bug...?

[griancraft]

when teasing backfires

[griancraft]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[griancraft]

getting in on the viral memes with skyjacks

[griancraft]

lol i hate today’s era of absolutely zero nuance takes. a friend didn’t behave exactly as you’d wanted them to? cut them off. a guy didn’t text you back instantly bc he has his own life? he’s just giving you breadcrumbs. doing something makes you uncomfortable? don’t do it anymore. someone isn’t instantly available for you? disinterest. just absolutist statements that often don’t apply to the multilayer situations of everyday life. like. stop. literally just stop it

[griancraft]

grian fanfics made me realize i’m into a/b/o.

brother

[griancraft]

Hi guys if you want a approachable way to start skyjacks I recommend starting here! It’s less intimidating and quote

“It's a separate podcast feed with the historic mid rolls taken out, special throttles on announcements, and arc summaries to make it easier to start the show and catch up.”

James D’Amato (the DM!) sent it in our new listeners discord so it’s like. Official. I know it may seem a little weird that he’s in there if you’ve been solely a mcyt fan for a bit but do not worry like at all. We have channels that the players and they (players + dm) cannot see if they choose to join, and every creator I’ve talked to or seen is really chill!!

Link to the podcast!

Link to the discord!

[griancraft]

going to spend my third life 3 year anniversary watching desertduo pov and shaking my head slowly so god knows i'm deplatforming scarian

#pfgsgsgwhdhsb

[griancraft]

man burns down local charity (he doesn't feel bad about it)

[griancraft]

MOG DOODLE DUMP CUZ IM VERY MENTALLY ILL OVER HER !!!!

I was gonna do a whole doodle page of Mog but I keep getting busy so heres my favs

Image by @/ndn-craft I thought it was funny HWJAHDJDJ

Credit to @marsmarbles the designs of this doodle :3 their Mog and Wandy T designs are so silly THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME DRAW THEM!!!

[griancraft]

If you agree with that one “don’t follow me if we never even had a conversation before is stupid” post please get off my blog?? You are not entitled to someone’s online presence. Maybe they have reason to only want people they know to follow them, maybe they don’t. It’s none of your business?? I have blogs that are for just me or just me and my partner. That’s normal. You’re just chronically online.

[griancraft]

[griancraft]

“Immortal QPR that changes in how platonic or romantic it is” Travis and Gable 🔥🔥🔥

#I am writing a fic can you tell

[griancraft]

[griancraft]

[griancraft]

Hello tumblr :3

[griancraft]

Can't decide whether it's funnier to say "my hungry ass could never work at a" and then say something that implies you're eating something truly grotesque or something that just, makes no sense

#suggestive