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i will always be obsessed with the thing that writers do where a character is adored like a god. when a person loves another person so much that they follow them, physically and mentally, like other people follow a religion. when they get overjoyed just for being acknowledged by the object of their adoration. specially when its to their detriment. when they know that it is unhealthy, and they are dooming themselves, but they just can't help it. pearl not questioning rose even after her death. kitay following rin to their destruction and being unable to stop her. nami saying that luffy will be king of the pirates even if it means her death. house giving up his career, his passion, to be with wilson in his last days.

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kitay about rin

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Not enemies or lovers but a secret third thing (we hated each other but now that everyone around us has died we are the only ones who knew each other before war changed us)

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Kitay was the first person Rin truly loved. Kitay was the last person Rin truly loved. Kitay was possibly the only person Rin truly loved.

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« I bet on losing dogs »

(a redrawing of the painting : Courage, Anxiety and Despair, by James Scant)

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nezha about rin venka and kitay post-tbg

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sometimes i feel like i’ve emotionally recovered from TBG but then i’m reminded of “Do it. Take what you want. I’ll hate you for it. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you. Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you” and then i’ll be sad all over again

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no thoughts just rin and kitay at sinegard

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no one loved each other more than rin and kitay. despite all the rinezhafication of tpw, the best love story was the platonic bond between rin and kitay. kitay never stopped loving rin even as her made her most selfish choices. rin stuck by kitay even when she felt most betrayed by him, they never let each other go. they couldn’t even practice with each other in sinegard because they couldn’t bear to see the other hurt by their hand even if it was pretend. and AT THE END OF TBG???? kitay would rather die hating rin than live in a world without her at all. THEIR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER ALWAYS OUTWEIGHED EVERYTHING, NOT EVEN IN DEATH COULD THEY BE TORN APART!!!

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short and long hair Kitay doodles 🥰😭

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Rereading the poppy war hurts so much bc now i notice all the foreshadowing,and realize how none of them ever had a chance, bc they're stuck in this cycle, but oh if things had just been a little different, if even one of them had made one different choice but they didn't and now i'm torturing myself reading this

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Someone put them back in school🥲

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So,,,, I read The Poppy War trilogy,,,, it has seared itself on to my brain and I am changed forever,,, nothing will stop the pain,,,, it was amazing and y’all should read it🫶

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FANG RUNIN & CHEN KITAY ㅡ the poppy war by r.f. kuang   

(i) R. F. Kuang, The Burning God (ii) Don Snyder, Aquarian Odyssey: A Photographic Trip into the Sixties (iii) Jeanette Winterson, Lighthousekeeping

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Kitay was the first person Rin truly loved. Kitay was the last person Rin truly loved. Kitay was possibly the only person Rin truly loved.

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"He tilted his head upward. His eyes were red, and she couldn't tell his tears apart from the rain. He took a long, shuddering breath. Then he broke."

The Dragon Republic by R. F. Kuang

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something about how Rin is an eldest child, Nezha is a middle child, Kitay is a youngest child and Venka is an only child makes so much sense to me .

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this is so “do you love him?” “yes. more than anyone else in the world” and “fight well. keep us safe. i love you.” and “he loves her. of this he is certain” and “is there anyone in the coalition you trust?” “venka” and “lovely, wonderful kitay” and “she would draw this moment out forever if she could” and “i left for you” and “i’ll hate you for it but i’ll love you forever” and “she terrifies him and he loves her so much it hurts” and “should’ve realized that venka was trying to save her life” and “kitay. her best friend. her anchor” and “ah, i get it. you’re in love” and “did they love one another so fiercely, so desperately?” and rin and nezha and kitay and venka