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It catches up to him delayed, like a goal in stoppage time, too fast to prevent, too unexpected to comprehend until he finds himself off the pitch, adrenaline gone and reality crashing in. He’s on the bench. Subbed off. Again.

He puts on a brave face, a smile like a sun for his teammates, but his nails are biting into his palms as he walks off. It’s always him that gets this and it matters little how well or how badly he’s performing. He’s not the quickest, the sharpest, the most accurate. He’s not a number nine and he’s not a number ten, he’s something in the middle. He’s not Messi and he’s not Neymar and he’s not Lewa he’s just…there. Filling space. And so Guardiola had almost dropped him. And now Kovac is being oh, so clever as to do the same. Except that this time it’s not a match or two and a word from Manu to bring it to a halt. It’s an entire season of it: 5 games in, 5 games subbed or starting on the bench.

Under the pouring rain, Thomas sits on the sideline. He’s being morose, he knows. He wishes he could move closer to the goal, sit by Manu where it’s safe but he’s not sure the referee would allow it. Getting even more in trouble is not an option right now. He watches the game unfold in front of him, pass after pass, the rain turning the grass slippery and his breaths into fog. He lets it soak him through, the water and the rhythm of the plays, uncaring, something bitter and angry twisting and twisting in his belly with every unused gap he sees, every missed opportunity. It’s not even that he is smarting, pain and disbelief wearing him down, one bench at a time, dropped even from the national team. It’s something deeper, rendering him to pieces, cutting too close for comfort. This is his club, his home and he’s unmoored. Unsure. He doesn’t want to leave. His roots here run deep, 20 years deep. He doesn’t want to twist himself in anger, gut out the dressing room and the management in rage as he slams the door behind him. Leak out the right info and it’s done. He could. He won’t. He can’t. So if anger is not an option, here Thomas is. Sitting under the pouring rain, on the sideline.

The coat wraps around him, too big and slightly damp because its owner has walked out for him in the rain. Thomas shivers, but the warmth engulfs him, swallows him up, grief and disappointment and everything. Mats kneels down with him and Thomas doesn’t dare turn. Thomas is loud but his heartbreak is silent and he loves Mats a tiny bit more because Mats tolerates (loves) his chatter but he’s here now, in Thomas’ silence. Piece by piece, taping him back together, cocooning him in as close to an embrace as they can get with the cameras on.

Cwtch (Welsh): Finding a sense of home and safety within the embrace of another person.

I also remember during Kovac times, there was a game where Mats wasn't playing and Thomas got subbed off quite early, it was also raining-slash-snowing and Thomas went to the benches clearly disappointed in the game and shivering from the cold; and Mats stood up, came up to Thomas, took off his coat, put it on Thomas and just sat next to him without saying a word. Even then I thought wow that's such a cool level of communication when you're literally just there for a person. Also Mats has such a nice gentle side, I wish people would appreciate it more <3

Oh wow, that’s so sweet 🥰 The level of understanding they have with one another is just unreal; it’s borderline telepathic! It’s like one can literally sense when the other is down, and they’ll literally do whatever they can to lift the other up. How adorable is it that Mats didn’t even have to ask—he knew exactly how Thomas wanted to be comforted in that moment; he sensed Thomas just needed him near. Sometimes physical proximity is all the comfort you need.

I definitely agree with your take on Mats too! He’s certainly a confident, outspoken, goofy guy, but he’s also so thoughtful. You get the sense he always goes out of his way to care for those he loves. His gentle side is seriously underrated, and I’m glad you think so too!!

On a slightly separate note, if you happen to remember what match this moment happened during/have a video clip of it, let me know! I’d love to try and gif it if I can <3

#thomats #tiny fic #look at me back on my bullshit #my bullshit being 2018/2019 football #sometimes these two make me feral

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Jedi Teacher: Padawan Windu, that was amazing! How were you able to take out that rampaging rancor so easily?

Mace Windu, who has Force Shatterpoint which allows him to see where and when to strike: I just hit the glowing weak spot. It's not that hard.

Jedi Teacher:

(Mace Windu, holder of the rare Jedi skill called "Video Game Vision".)

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I am absolutely in love with your writing to the point that I re-read Second Star to the Right like 50 times at this point. It's sososososo good and literally changed my brain.

Thank you dear anon💛💛 Second Star is such a personal fic for me and I know it can be quite a lot at times so I'm really glad you liked it!

#asks #💛💛 #Emotions? Give them to Nico R or Sam Bird😅

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https://x.com/judesrivers/status/1709714260706697326?s=46&t=w9R_LaqCkagB6MZHT49ddA the way he always lights up when he talks abt the things he did with nico and says those were the best times in his life 😔

Italy is definitely a core memory for lewis. brocedes used to have pizza eating competitions during karting -- which, curiously enough is featured in lewis' children's book autobiography

lewis has always reiterated karting was the best time of his career, and the most he'd ever laughed. and here's the corroborations of having pizzas and ice cream gelatos and core friendship

#brocedes

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Ayrton is not superstitious but to believe in God is to believe in the devil and he feels it now, the danger, knocking at his soul.

Jackie had been quiet when Ayrton had asked: he had sat down across from him with stoic resignation, with a list of names and a whispered explanation. “Jim was the first”.

#bersenna #as per the above moodboard this has been my oldest F1 idea and somehow it came out now #I am going to go sit on my hands for a bit now and finish Giabbanini next week

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Me: you are on a bus edit something normal

Also me:

#the owner of the above said is Nigel #and I have officially lost control of the plot #nsfw

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Or: a collection of some of my shorter Classic F1 ficlets that I've disseminated across tumblr and the forgotten depths of my google docs.

Starting from Gilles/Didier 1982 AU because @1337wtfomgbbq dragged me back into some sort of Villeroni rabbit hole 💛

#classic f1 #f1 fanfic #tiny fic #look at me trying to write F1 again #villeroni

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i am begging you to put the nico wait for it edit on tumblr so i can plaster it all over my wall and cry 😭 (or tell me it’s already here so i can hunt for it)

i don't post edits here but i love this edit so why not, there you go🤍

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Fallen into a jjk rabbit hole, bear with me - the SatoSugu plot bunnies multiply.

1. Satoru setting aside curses he thinks Suguru would like and bringing them back to him half-exorcised as presents from missions like some sort of love sick cat with mice.

2. Hananaki disease. Like, the sheer potential. The heartbreak. Oh, you are the strongest? Your lungs are collapsing. You can reverse technique them and you'll live forever in constant pain and anguish. Or maybe not - maybe Suguru's last words are 'I love you too' and the agony in your lung goes except now it's even worse because, you know, death.

3. Suguru has a collection of curses just to annoy Satoru...like the cookie monster curse that lives in the jam jar on the counter and nips at Satoru every time he tries to have breakfast. He also collects ones that look like digimons.

4. Infinity doesn't work on Suguru. Like Satoru has to consciously and consistently remind himself during sparring that Suguru is not supposed to touch him because otherwise Infinity just lets him in.

5. Doppelganger mission. Cursed spirit of the labyrinth of mirrors or something. Except it doesn't work because they can both tell the original apart by heart alone.

6. Love is a curse but literally. It attaches itself to them, takes the shape of a red string and trips them up when they fight, tangles them together when they try to go about their lives. It comes back every time they exorcise it.

7. Gojo clan puts a bounty on Suguru's head because he is a man and he's not going to give Satoru biological children. Cue repeated assassination attempts, a confused Suguru and a very, very pissed off Satoru.

#satosugu #jjk headcanons #fanfic ideas #gojo satoru #geto suguru #I might write some? #if you write some tag me I want to read the fic #if someone has written the fic ditto

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Gay foreshadowing. (Aka getting married is overrated. Real soulmates die on the same day.)

#jjk spoilers #crying screaming throwing up #read chapter with my brother yesterday #5 stages of grief honestly #me in tears him in denial reddit pure anger #i can't even #they deserved a happy ending😭😭

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In the future, children will think our ways are strange. "Why do old people always grow so much milkweed in their gardens?" they'll say. "Why do old people always write down when the first bees and butterflies show up? Why do old people hate lawn grass so much? Why do old people like to sit outside and watch bees?"

We will try to explain to them that when we were young, most people's yards were almost entirely short grass with barely any flowers at all, and it was so commonplace to spray poisons to kill insects and weeds that it was feared monarch butterflies and American bumblebees would soon go extinct. We will show them pictures of sidewalks, shops, and houses surrounded by empty grass without any flowers or vegetables and they will stare at them like we stared at pictures of grimy children working in coal mines

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there’s many things wrong with me and making this edit is one of them

#op you are a genious! #😍😍😍 #brocedes #so fucking them

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Just like the last 2 anons, i want to say huge huge huge thanks youuu for coming back and writing about brocedes❤️ akhhhhh i really enjoyed ur latest fluff about themm, makes me feel all soft and warmm 🥰🙏🏻

Thank you so much!💜💜 I am honestly so grateful and overwhelmed by all the support I got for this fic and brocedes in general!

I had left modern/modern-ish F1 because the fandom had turned a bit toxic for me so coming back to so much positivity does mean a lot and is very encouraging!!

We always do need more brocedes fluff🥰

#thank you anon! #asks #brocedes #💜💜💜

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Your brocedes Mpreg fic is my favourite ❤️‍🩹 hopefully you can write more of that in future!! I really love your works🫶🏽

Thank you!💚💚 The Mpreg one is one of the cutest ones, agreed!

I'll see what I can do - there's a few more brocedes fics I've drafted but never finished, so who knows😄

#asks #brocedes #thank you anon! #💛💛💛

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You will never know how happy you made me feel when I saw your brocedes fic again on ao3. I actually had to sit down and called my friend. You are my favourite brocedes writer. I haven't read it yet because I don't wanna run out of your brocedes fic again.

So thank you for comeback

Anon, you have no idea how grateful I am for this ask! I've been really struggling to write lately and was just happy I managed to find Nico and Lewis' voices again, didn't really think people would read Brocedes still!

You give me really high praise!! Thank you so much! 💚

Enjoy the fic when you get to it!!

#asks #brocedes #thank you anon! #💛💛💛

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It's one of those ideas that only pop into Lewis' head after a spectacular orgasm.

Nico would look so good with a tattoo.

Or: mostly soft brocedes in the year of our Lord 2023.

#brocedes #f1 fanfic