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i got comfortable being sad for so long that it started to feel more like a hug

but every once in awhile i still have to pull its hands from around my throat

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i wouldn’t know what love was even if it kissed me on my mouth

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“Stop trying to kill yourself.”

He said as he lit up a cigarette and handed it to me.

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You didn’t ask if I forgave you

I did

But you didn’t ask

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I got so comfortable in my sadness that feeling anything else never felt right but then it became too much and I was desperate for a change 

now I go through my empty days medicated to numbness and when those feelings start to surface again, I take an extra pill to make things extra numb 

#self medicating #medication #numb #numb the pain #quiet the monsters #depression #i dont want to feel a thing #sad poetry #sad words #sad story #sadness #desperation #medicated #here comes the demons #upsetti spaghetti

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i am in pieces

I am in pieces 

Scattered on the floor

Please put me together

so I won’t hurt anymore.

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idk I just personally think that getting chills from music is the best part of being alive. like when a song is so good you can feel it in your whole body. that's why I'm here.

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my anxiety makes me want to pull off my skin but my fingers are too busy covering my ears because my head is screaming in agony 

#anxiety #skin #fingers #stuck in my own head #losing my mind #mental illness #depression #anxiety attack #too aware of myself #unstable #emotionally unstable #send help #broken brain #chemicals #unfamiliar skin suit #damaged meatsuit

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#emotional #kiss #kissing #lipgloss #betrayal #sad #depressed #depressing #depression #lonely #heart broken #sad posts #sad thoughts #sad poetry #sad writing #feeling blue #emotionally unstable #i loved you #the one that got away

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“I craved the attention. I fed off of knowing people wanted to fuck me. I thrived off of being a woman and having a woman’s body that attracted sexual attention. I just wanted the attention, not the sex. I wanted to feel attractive, sexy, beautiful; I didn’t know how to kiss and I didn’t know how to fuck but I knew how to get attention”

#attention #insecure #confessions #isthereadiagnosisforthat #guilty pleasure #i just want to be pretty

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I forgot that people are just so easily forgettable … i forgot that you can unlove someone just as fast as you finally love them … i forgot i forgot i forgot … but i didn’t forget the first time we really kissed or how you held my face in your hands the second time immediately after the first … i didnt forget what i said when you finally told me you loved me, that i loved you so much and i had loved you for so long … how could you forget … how could you forget someone who loved you with every fiber of their being … how could you forget me?

#forgot #forget #how could you #how could you forget #depressing #depressed #depression #emotional #heart broken #sad #sad thoughts #made me look STOOPID #i didnt forget #unrequited love

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It isn’t like I don’t care, it’s just that it hurts real real bad

— 1am thoughts

#depressed #depressing #depression #emotional #sad #sad thoughts #1am thoughts #pain #heart break #heart broken #emotional damage #hurt #you betrayed me #you broke me #hopelessly inlove #painfully inlove

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Sanober Khan, A Thousand Flamingos

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“Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. Feelings just are.”

— Iain S. Thomas, Intentional Dissonance

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— Ocean Vuong, Nothing

[text ID: I used to cry in a genre no one read.]

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