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silly werewolf transformation

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some more Nimona!

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Firepilot headcanons

Buck is the little spoon 90% of the time. Tommy loves being able to hold him in his arms and never wants to let go. He buries his face into Buck's hair and they just breathe together, holding each other. The other 10% of the time happens when Buck finally convinces Tommy it's okay if he wants to be held too.

Tommy loves doing romantic gestures (big or small) because Buck isn't used to being the one being wooed. Buck always ends up flustered and blushing, and Tommmy thinks he's adorable.

Buck cooks dinner for the first time and Tommy shows up to their next date with a pink kiss the cook apron that has hearts plastered all over it.

Their flying lessons end early because Buck cannot focus for the life of him and keeps trying to kiss Tommy even though he's the one in the pilot seat.

The first time Tommy has a nightmare around Buck, for all his confidence and swagger, he feels embarrassed and caught off guard. He's the older one, the bigger one, the one who's supposed to make Buck feel happy and secure. They have a conversation that ends with them promising each other to always tell each other if they're struggling with letting go of bad calls or bad dreams.

The first time Tommy calls Buck baby Buck practically melts into a puddle of sappy, kiss-drunk goo and gets all soft and asks to hear it again.

They're the worst patients when they're injured, absolutely insufferable. They're also both incredibly needy and Tommy gets super clingy/whiny about how he wants his Evan.

Tommy can't wait to spoil Buck. He's absolutely smitten by the kid. Tommy thinks Buck is the best thing to happen to him since moving to Harbor and isn't going to let him slip away when he's just found him.

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fox when i catch you...

#SCREAMING

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#LOOK AT HIM AND HIS GALAXY BRAIN

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Petting my cat and thinking about how Tommy is pulled to Evan Buckley, as if someone attached a magnet to him.

Thinking about how Tommy craves everything about Evan. His buoyant energy and rambling facts and smile that could rival the sun itself. His long, strong arms that pull Tommy close. Evan likes to joke about how he’d never had a partner larger than him before, but Tommy finds that he’s never had a partner that could make him feel so small and safe.

Thinking about how Tommy’s never felt safe before and he didn’t even know it until Evan wrapped his arms around him and tucked his chin over his shoulder.

Thinking about how Evan Buckley is the sun and Tommy is a planet trapped in his gravitational pull. Evan is the sun and Tommy is a sunflower, turning towards his warmth and light.

Thinking about Tommy’s bad days, the ones we all have, where he can’t bring himself out of bed. Where the darkness gets overwhelming. And Evan brings the sun to him in the form of his gentle smile and soft touch, in food and extra blankets and a warm embrace.

Thinking about how Tommy has vowed to keep his sun from ever losing its light. Because without Evan, Tommy would lose his world.

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Roy loves to hold hands

Absolutely adores it

It makes him feel close to his partner, let’s him feel connected and soothes his protective instincts when out amongst crowds.

It’s not about whether his partner needs that protection, Roy just needs to provide it and being allowed to hold their hand lets him keep them close and move them when necessary.

Keeley had understood intrinsically what his holding his hand out meant, they hadn’t even needed a conversation about it, she’d just taken his hand or his arm, or both, and stayed close.

He has to chase Jamie anywhere they go

Not just because of his knee, but because Jamie is a butterfly. Socially and in his flitting rapid movements as his mind leaps from one thought to another

Amsterdam had given him a taste, but they’d just been friends then, and barely at that, now, as boyfriends, (they’re keeping it quiet for now, though all the important people know) he’s chasing Jamie so much he debates getting him a leash for outside the bedroom

He can recognize that holding hands in public isn’t keeping anything quiet, but he longs for the feeling of Jamie’s fingers slotted with his, the warmth of his body against his side as they walk and Jamie chatters about whatever that days hyperfixation is.

So he starts holding his hand out. Quietly, never remarking on it, or demanding anything, just waiting to see what Jamie will do.

It takes a few days before Jamie starts handing him things, a flower, his ticket for the movie, and on one memorable occasion a wad of cash to pay for dinner

They’d genuinely fought about that one, Roy is a provider at heart, and he always pays. Always.

Then slowly, carefully, Jamie starts to inch closer when they’re out.

Lingers at Roy’s side a little longer, and then a little longer than that.

He naturally moves to the interior side of the sidewalk now, let’s Roy open doors, pull out chairs, and Roy just steadily holds out his hand, waiting.

Jamie brushes their pinkies together, links them for a moment that nearly stops Roy’s heart before he’s distracted by a window display and then off rambling about a topic Roy didn’t catch, feeling like all his blood rushed to that one finger.

Jamie is never shy when they’re alone, or amongst the team, but out in public, out amongst strangers, he’s skittish.

Roy understands and it’s still infuriating, he’s not as chill about keeping their relationship “quiet” as he once thought

He’s proud of Jamie, that’s his lad, and he wants people to know that they’re together, that Jamie is not in fact up for a quick tumble, and will never be again.

(That ring in his sock drawer feels like a physical weight sometimes, but it’s too soon, he’s going to do this right)

But he’s trying not to pressure, not to move on his own timeline and run over Jamie’s.

So he just holds out his hand and (not so) patiently waits.

It’s after a match, they’d been nearly beaten off the field, pulled a win by the skin of their teeth and they’re all stiff and exhausted as they make their way home.

The crowds are still thick, Jamie still had his muddy kit on, got caught up with Beard and Rojas and just laughingly said he’d shower at home.

Roy is a few steps ahead of him, even though they’re going to the same place, and on a whim holds his hand out behind him.

Jamie locks onto his hand like Mjolnir to Thor, and their fingers lock together with an almost audible click, Roy’s heart nearly leaps from his chest, and Jamie uses the leverage to pull himself to Roy’s side, holding his hand and leaning into him, sweaty and muddy and grinning, and Roy can see the flashes of cameras and the click of phones and he can’t care, because Jamie is holding his hand and grinning up at him like he set the sun, and Roy is absolutely going to break out the bedroom leash when they get home.

Maybe even that ring in his drawer.

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sorry about my constant depressive episodes. its just that i have issues and also problems

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"Well in the scene, certainly for our first kiss—there are some later on that are much more initiated by me—but in that kiss-" OLIVER STARK WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY???

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come and save me from it

Rating: T Relationships: Evan Buckley/Tommy Kinard, Evan Buckley & Eddie Diaz, Eddie Diaz & Tommy Kinard Word count: 6.1k

“Dinner and a show,” Evan comments, his eyes zeroed in on where Tommy’s sleeves are pushed up to his elbows. “Maybe I should get sick more often.” Tommy flicks a small piece of ginger at him. “If you wanted me to cook for you, all you had to do was bat those pretty eyelashes of yours.” It happens so quickly. One second, Evan is grinning exhaustedly at him, and the next thing Tommy knows, Evan’s eyes go wide as what little colour he has left drains from his face. Tommy makes an aborted move towards him, but Evan shoves his chair back from the island and bolts for the bathroom. BTHB: appendicitis

(read on ao3)

#to read

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When do you think Tommy actually became interested in Buck? I feel like Lou said in an interview it wasn't until the loft scene or something that he realised but I wonder if he at the very least found him attractive before then given the way he looked at him during the helicopter tour thing.

Depends on how you defined interested imo

Like physically ? Probably as soon as he got a real clear view of Buck with natural or at least white/yellow light and not just the light of a warehouse or the inside of a helicopter bc let’s be honest this man is a handsome handsome man and Tommy would definitely sees it

And yeah we have some checking out at the helicopter station tour (I filmed it when I watched it last time 🙊🙊)

Also some flirting, no one bend close to somebody else like that, almost in confidence ? Like what do you want to whisper near his eyes, big guy?

But as a potential date? I think definitely the loft. Lou had some interesting headcanons about Tommy looking for love, for something stable. And I can see Tommy going “yeah that guy from a couple night ago is cute and everything but he’s straight, so I’m not going there.”

And then he comes to his loft, and is that guy flirting ? Is he looking at my lips? Looking for my attention? Wait ???!!!!?

Now he can let that physical attraction morph into something else, he kisses the dork and see how responsive he is. And ask for a date, he says yes.

Now it’s not just physical, it’s dating (and all that entails) potential.

Most of us focus on Buck’s reaction to the kiss and the leap that it was for him, but we also need to think about Tommy, who found a hot guy and took a chance and kissed him, and once he’s home, with a chamomile because it’s late but he likes hot drinks, he replays it just as much as Buck does.

So yeah, the loft and the chance Tommy took to change his own perception of the man in front of him.

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it will never stop being funny to me that buck had known tommy for .2 seconds before he heard him make the worst fake mouth static noises known to man and yet somehow immediately went i want him in every which way possible and i will be an absolute fool about it and then tommy went this kid is adorable i simply have to kiss him truly a match made in heaven

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I don't no what I'm ready for, but I am ready for something and I think maybe that something, could be with you.

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okay fuck it jamie self perception post

jamie has been signed to city since he was a child. this is how the academy system works - they recruit players (children) from local grassroots leagues and bring them into their club system, hoping to raise them up to play for their club in the future (or sell them off to other teams for profit). these players are typically between the ages of 9 and 10 when they're first recruited, but can be younger/older. they're evaluated every year, and players can be cut at any time.

i think jamie joined city when he was around 9, solely because of the fact that he said his dad started showing up when he got good at football, and georgie my beloved would not let jamie go on a trip abroad with a complete stranger to him when he was 14. i think james started coming back around when jamie was somewhere between 11 and 12, playing for city's u14 team, and his skill at that age level is how james heard about him (it's not uncommon to hear about great players who are that age. city recently signed a like. legendary 14 year old and i've heard about it (young boys should not be having their egos inflated like that at 14 but that's beside the point)).

that's a whole lot of rambling before i even start touching on the original point – the contract jamie's had signed since he was ~9 that dictates what he must and mustn't do. this is the idea that he's had of himself in his head from that very young age.

screenshots are provided from the 23/24 premier league youth development forms bc honestly i cba to go back and find anything older (i've tried looking and it's not working so you're getting this) but

the scholar here is the academy player. 5.1.3 and 5.1.4 are what interest me here. jamie was obligated to not only train & play to the best of his ability always, but he was obligated to maintain a high standard of physical fitness at all times from the age of 9.

think of the thoughts that might put in a young jamie tartt's mind. he had to be at his peak always. if he wasn't at his peak, he was disobeying his contract. he was owned by his club, and he knew that if they sell him, they'll make a whole lot of money off of him (there's a certain base fee x number of years the player was trained + extras = total homegrown player transfer fee algorithm but i don't want to do math rn so im not touching on that). i don't think jamie ever wanted city to sell him, so i think he put pressure on himself to be at his best always, to never let his standards slip, and when james came back into the picture, that pressure only grew exponentially.

it's also interesting looking at the "the scholar shall not" section of the contract. 5.3.1 is interesting bc like. if the club (city) didn't think his house on the estate was safe they could've fully just. Moved Him. but 5.3.3 is insane to me. especially the beginning. "the scholar shall not indulge in any activity or practice which might endanger his fitness". this means no fun roller skating birthday parties. this means jamie probably knew how to ride a bike before he was 9 bc if he "indulged" in learning when he was with city that might have endangered his fitness. no rock climbing. no tree climbing.

and if jamie took things as seriously as i think he did (boy really wanted to play football, that was his dream in life, i don't think he would've purposely done anything to endanger that dream), i think he missed out on some fun in his childhood solely bc he was Keeping His Body In Full Fitness For His Club.

which brings us to Adult Jamie. bc he was raised in this environment, raised with the mindset of My Body Belongs To My Club, My Body is an Asset for my Club, it makes even more sense why he'd put up with the auction at the gala without starting a fight (even if the whole manipulate keeley & possibly bribe bex thing happened behind the scenes).

his club (even though he was on loan, it was his club for the season), was auctioning off Its Own Asset (jamie's body) to the highest bidder for a night. jamie's body, from a very, very young age (does jamie remember much before he was signed to city? i don't think so) has always Belonged to His Club.

this is also part of the reason that i headcanon jamie doesn't like driving - driving is, in his mind an Activity Which Might Endanger His Fitness.

also. for the record. this stuff is also in the professional player's contracts too.

the player agrees to maintain a high standard of physical fitness at all times and not to indulge in any activity sport or practice which might endanger such fitness.

3.1.6 is another reason i think jamie went along with the stuff at the gala too. the player agrees to comply with and act in accordance with all lawful instructions of any authorised official of the club. rebecca/higgins/whoever put on the gala is an authorised official of the club. he kind of. had to by contract not put up a fight with them about this

the player agrees that he shall not undertake or be involved in any activity or practice which will knowingly cause to be void or voidable...policy of insurance maintained for the benefit of the club on the life of the player or covering his physical well-being including injury.

he still can't do anything that might get him hurt. i ignore that he engages in kink practice both in canon and in my own headcanons bc i think the heavier kink stuff really only comes in later seasons' timelines and even then he's engaging in that kink stuff with someone(s) who knows that this stuff is in his contract. they know his limits.

anyways something something jamie's body is an asset for his club (city and then richmond) and i think that says a lot about the way he views himself. you know ?