hasanthedon1000

[hasanthedon1000]

I wish we could get it together☹️…

When you grow up around gangs, Baffoons & wanna bes your whole life, hope starts to dwindle. I was one of those wanna bes. Just trying to emulate everything I thought was cool. Whatever that means.

Thankfully, I didn’t end up dead following the herd. I was able to break away.

I grew up a Muslim, but that didn’t matter when I didn’t want to be one. I wanted to be everyone else, even though I didn’t have the heart for it. It was never me, I was just weak. Very weak….

As for the others, some of them made it out, some got locked up, some were killed, most just stayed and accepted they’re false life.

I knew, thanks to my parents and my mentors that our so called “culture” wasn’t who we were. But we don’t remember who we were, which is why we behave like we do today.

And they say history is invalid. Who’s history? They only pull that card for black people in America. If we knew, I mean really knew who our ancestors were, man o man we wouldn’t be doing the things we’re doing.

How can you behave like a monkey when you know you’re ancestors were gods?

Think about that… And think about how every race of people on this earth knows they’re true history.

Fortunately, we have the tools now to be better than our Forefathers. To be better than those who died in vain. But no one cares. We’re so focused on survival that we neglect ourselves.

Ig that last part goes for everyone huh?

I understand why people do what they do, but at the same time I don’t. And I’m threw trying to get what’s already been got.

We know what’s wrong. If You let your emotions and past trauma take over your soul, then this world ain’t for you. No one cares about our problems. They kill us if we step out of line. But still we rebel against it all. I believe we want to die, I’ve seen no evidence to prove otherwise. But that’s neither here nor there. Maybe we believe this is all we got . But it’s not. Not by a long shot. There’s always something better if you want to find it…

My friend was almost killed yesterday because of an altercation over nothing. NOTHING! Bunch of dumb mfs arguing over a parking space. Like, we don’t own none of this shit, tf you fighting for?! My friend tried to break it up & calm them down and they upped the stick on him. You see it’s shit like that, that makes me sick of us.

I’m glad I wasn’t there. You behave like a beast , I’ll put you down like one. That’s where I’m at right now.

And if we don’t change then….…..you know what, Why do I even give a shit anymore? I like animals more than people anyway…😂👎🏽

[hasanthedon1000]

I met a girl…way back when.

Her name was Martina. She was so sexy. I loved her body. I ALso loved her vibe and personality. She smoked alittle too much weed but I still feel like I could’ve helped her with that…

I could’ve. She didn’t believe in anything. Or so she said . She was beyond denial. She was in La La land. I’m not going into all that out of respect for her, but I really wished it ended better. She was loony, but special.

Not too many black girls that are as care free as she was. Or maybe there are…Lack of self control and irrational thought on my end is why we didn’t work. Every time I think about it, it irks me. I wish I could fix it..

I’ve gotta keep looking. And control myself the next time. I’ll get it right, eventually 😂..

[hasanthedon1000]

Don’t find a way out, find a way in.

For me, my way out was anime & video games.(it still is) For a lot of children it’s social media. That’s y u have folks running around thinking women are stronger than men (physically) and we’re all the same, and race doesn’t matter 😒 (Common sense ain’t so common anymore) Like idk if these kids will be able to handle this world, cause it’s the opposite of what’s on the internet…

We’re always trying to get away. Never facing what’s right in front of our faces. Most of the time all the right answers are right there, literally. There have always been good people present, but our focus is always on what we can’t have. Never on what we have.

It’s like this….we can’t have it our way, which is good. When I was little, I wanted everything. And in having such an unrealistic frame of mind I neglected the friends that were right in front of my face. I still think of them to this day.

But it’s too late. Sometimes I wish god could let us go back in time so that we could reverse our dumb decisions into smart decisions. Give our immature minds the focus we needed to appreciate what we had. Too bad that’s impossible…

We could’ve been friends if I wasn’t so stupid.

And now I’m alone….But it’s okay. I don’t deserve friends, because at the end of the day if I did, they’d be here.

(Back on topic) You rarely here people say, “ok cool that makes more sense”, or “hmm I never thought about like that”. There’s not much self reflection these days. It’s always “me me me me me.” You could be wrong, and sometimes people know they’re wrong and still just want to be right. That’s the part where I exit the scene.

“I don’t deal in legends, I deal in facts” TFS Freiza

Most people don’t, especially women. I’ve heard more bullshit(delusions) come out a women’s mouth than any other creature on this earth 😂. It’s really fascinating. I wish I could be in denial that much and still be sane. But it’s all good. Ig that’s just what we got now. And why I’m single. Also, that’s just my experience with women. I hate to argue facts with anyone because it’s stupid. What’s real is real and it’ll never change. Get over yourself and own up to your shit. And women (from my experience) don’t accept reality. If you know some women that do then lmk.

“I dislike stupid people. Especially those that can’t admit that they’re stupid. I mean you’re(my past self) pretty stupid but at least you know you are. So when I tell you that you’re stupid maybe you’ll become less stupid.” - Saya Takagi

I didn’t get it back then, But I do now.

It a waste of time. I’ll have more luck talking to hamsters than those kinds of women. But I’m cool.

If I have to devalue & lower my standards for anyone, then I’ll be alone forever. I’m talking friendships, relationships, situationships, companionships, whatever. Dumb people hang out with dumb people, which is why they remain dumb. That shit’s contagious. Just like rage, sadness, ingratitude, laziness, greed, hate, etc.

I’m damaged enough, don’t need anyone fuel to this fire.

Now hold up a sec…I’m only referring to women who deny facts. Not women who have they’re own opinions and outlooks on the world. I love hearing different perspectives and would gladly spend time with women who were open to discussion, I’m not a narcissist 🤪. But I’m not debating what’s been proven factual to anyone. That’s ridiculous and a waste of brain cells.

I feel like I went off topic. Happens allot when I write from the soul. Sorry🙏🏽. I’m not trying to bash women either, or men. Just the stupid ones. The world is what it is, not what we’d like it to be. Accept it, because if you do then you can deal with it, work around it, and do what you want happily. Denial breeds dissatisfaction. I’ve seen it….

I’ve lived it.

(Switch) You know, A big piece of me still wants it to be real.(Anime) Even though ik it’ll never be. My mind won’t accept it. I still want to fly even though ik I’ll never be able to.

Truth is, I’ve never liked this world. That’s why me & my brother told stories and created characters. Why we wrote. I picked up the pen because of my own sort of denial in a way.

But I never project it. Not anymore. I know what’s real. I’ve accepted it and it’s okay, because I know they’re beautiful places in this world, wonderful creatures and even wonderful people. That’s worth it to me. So Even if my mind is corrupted by fantasies, I can still be happy in the real world. I can try. When you know what’s real, you can deny it to everyone but yourself.

My way in is threw the beauty of this world…🌏

#my thoughts #lets discuss #my reality

[hasanthedon1000]

Find beauty in the real world. If You live a lie too long then reality starts to feel like hell…

Well it’s like this. When we’re born, we’re incomplete. We want to find the meaning behind our existence. We look for passion in this world to fill our lives with purpose, etc. But during the process, reality sinks in. The way the world works and our roles in it. I believe (threw observation and analyzing other people including myself) that it’s too much for a lot of people to bear, mainly for the ones who are kept away from it(Sheltered) So, they dive deep into a fantasy that goes along with their beliefs. It makes things easier. But only for a short while. It dwindles your intelligence and destroys your sense of purpose. How can you know what’s real when you haven’t accepted what’s real, u know? We’ve been spoiled rotten and I’m no acception. But I’ve been trying to accept this cruel world for what it is because the more u try to escape, the harder it becomes to face what’s real.

[hasanthedon1000]

Apparently, The truth has become lie now…Ig🥱.

WARNING! I mean to be as respectful as possible when writing my thoughts, but I also mean to be real. My truth is my truth, just like everyone else.)

Denial is a fascinating thing that has taken over the minds of billions of humans. It’s one of the things that I truly hate about the human race.(how I used to be)…Ofcourse there are many wonderful qualities that people have (I’ve seen a few of them), but this one….this is the one that deserves an Oscar. If something was proven to be true a decade ago, it doesn’t become false all of a sudden because reality is too hard for the people to accept anymore. That’s really where we’re headed at this point in time. “I’m not fat” (but you are), “I’m depressed” (but your not), “Nature is a lie”(Excuse me? Lol), “There are 80 genders” (The fuck?😂). Now look, we know when bullshit exits the mouth, we can feel it in our stomach. You know, that instinct that tells you that you’re full of shit and need to take a step back & evaluate. No?….Well, Atleast I have that, I don’t know about the rest of you. When something’s affecting you internally or externally, you do yourself a disservice by lying to yourself. When you know, but want to be able to do things your way.

You see, the brain is powerful. And I believe humans have a bad habit of turning that shit off when it’s convenient for them. We know there are only two genders. We know when we’re fat. We know that drugs kill you gradually. Just like know that lava will burn the fuck out of you, you know?…. In 2007, there were no such things as gay dolphins & chimps…right? Now this is where the gut(more importantly my gut) tells you, “What in the world?? This is some grade A bullshit!”😂 Nature doesn’t produce gay animals. That is impossible. We know that from animal planet, National Geographic, discovery channel, etc. That’s what research has shown us. That ‘s what nature has shown us.

“Well where’s your research good sir?”

It’s in my fucking gut 🤓. I have a very strong feeling when bullshit is present (I believe most people do) but naaaw…that’s inconvenient for my desires yeah?

Pizzagate, theybies, Bigfoot, I’m a girl but I’m a guy, cmon man! We know when people are just talking out their ass or better yet, when there is zero sense to one’s words. But know one wants to talk about that anymore.

“What the fuck are you talking about hasan? You make no sense.”

Really? Then how come things that were openly discussed before aren’t openly discussed now? We’re said things proven to be false, or did the truth go against our new beliefs?

Think about it…hard. There are people that even deny that racism exists. That slavery was made up. That sodom & gomorrah is fiction. That all of the scripture is false. That being fat is okay. That neglecting your children is okay. That bringing stress into your life and then putting it onto others is okay. That lying is okay. That claiming to be something your not is ok. Stupidity is never okay. Admit to the truth and own up to your shit. That’s what I say to myself when I deviate. After all, I’m not perfect and I never will be. But I’ll never be in denial again. And if that leaves me alone for the rest of my life…then so be it. I’d rather die alone than be surrounded by overly sensitive idiots.

BTW: if you’re really depressed due to a traumatic experience of sorts, My note about depression doesn’t apply to you. Only to those who choose to put themselves in that hole due to…denial.

It’s hard to be sad when you’ve accepted the truth and choose to live. No matter if you decide to go into it or not is up to you(me). You don’t have to live according to the truth, just don’t deny that it exists.✌🏽