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Disabled, and possibly going to be homeless soon.

Hi. My names Jakob, I’m jewish and bigender(TME) and I’m almost twenty one. In september I was kicked out of my abusive hoarder household. I’ve been doing commissions and odd jobs to keep afloat, but after quitting my last job due to sexual harassment I haven’t been able to get back on my feet. I’ve been living with my partners mother since september and while she has been extremely understanding and willing to help, she’s moving soon, and does not plan to take me with. I plan to move to portland and move in with my partner, splitting the rent with them, but right now due to me losing my job I don’t know how I’m going to make that a possibility. 

I’m autistic, I have a traumatic brain injury, and CPTSD, I can’t drive and due to a car wreck two years ago I can’t comfortably ride in cars without panicking. I really don’t know what to do, even if I do end up getting this job at round table I have no reliable means of getting there unless I uber or bus which I don’t have the money for. Anything helps. I mean anything. Even exposure.

I don’t currently have my tablet pen, but I’m getting it in a few days. If you ever want to commission me, that’s a possibility too! If you donate and decide in the future you’d like a drawing, I’ll also do an IOU drawing of equivalent of what you donated.

Commission prices!

p.aypal: Jakobstrange

cas.happ: $jakobstranged

#ooc #please

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sorry i havent been posting on here theres plot stuff going on behind the scenes but right now i dont have the emotional bandwidth to focus on something so negative

#ooc #SOON. BECAUSE I KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT. but for now ill be on dalliancegat when i need to rp jake because hes my good boy

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*Rubs the proverbial sand out of my eyes.*

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The hope aspect theory vs what i believe is reality:

One of the most irritating things I’ve seen almost everywhere in classpecting theories is that Hope means… not a lot. Most aspects have a few meanings, light can mean knowledge, luck AND money. Breath can mean freedom, literal wind, detachment, dissociation. Stuff like that, there’s multiple ways it can manifest in a character making the aspecting portion a bit “loose.”

But when it comes down to hope usually I see it summed up as “beliefs, optimism, positivity.” Which… is easy to do, but I really REALLY really don’t think it’s accurate. It makes sense why people think this though, in the way we see Jake manifest hope, and when we hear people talk to Jake about what hope “should be” that’s essentially what’s described. It’s warmness and optimism and never ending. But I also know those are usually described to Jake in comparison to things he’s doing wrong. Hope and rage specifically get a lot of morality pushed onto them in canon and in fanon because of stuff like this but genuinely we just need to give an objective look at the characters in the hope aspect.

Jake is fixated and obsessed on anything make believe, comic books, movies, tv shows, and in the epilogues we find out he’s a hoarder. Even as Jake Harley Jude/Joeys AND Jades entire houses are filled to the brim. Stuff, distractions, toys, things he can “escape” to. Jake also has a drinking problem, more escapism. Jake himself is the closest thing we get to a “pure” hope player, and even then he’s a page. We never see his full potential UNTIL Aranea hopesplodes him, and there we see BGD become real and quote a movie. Jake himself doesn’t seem to positive, happy, hopeful, any of that. He’s reduced to essentially an empty shell prattling off random quotes he’s picked up from living on an island and watching TV as his socializing.

Cronus’s entire personality comes from an extremely fictionalized version of greasers based off of, well, grease. His backstory is entirely based off of harry potter. Cronus’s role as a bard he tends to flip flop between rage and hope’s behavior. Being otherkin especially at the time he was created was often mocked as being escapism and a way to ignore real mental issues.

I won’t include Eridan all too much since his example DOES portray the whole “hope beliefs positive optimism” thing, but Eridans role as the prince is also reflected in a lot of his behavior. He mostly seems to hate anything too jokey or non serious. He likes magic and wizards but is extremely insistent on the fact that it is not real, doesn’t matter and doesn’t exist.

The hope aspect to me seems like instead of being about happy feelings and pure hope and belief, it feels more like it’s imagination. Anything that isn’t the reality in front of you. Whether it be escaping from your problems, focusing on religion/beliefs, being very fixated on fiction, having an over active imagination, or having a tendency to lie. Which would also parallel rages cynicism and acceptance of fear. I’m not saying Hope can’t be any of those things, but I feel like all of those things can’t JUST be the aspect. Then we’d have an extremely disproportionately positive aspect, that’d mean we’d just have one singular “inherently good” godtier. In my opinion it also fits all three hope players we’ve seen canon examples of. (I don’t include hiveswap and never will.)

Rage and Hope are two very hard aspects to write about in the first place because the only examples we have other than Jake in both those aspects are destructive classes, which ghost the opposite aspect and exist to examplify the negatives of their aspect. But I feel like a lot of hope theorizing came from before Jake English was as anything but a… “Maybe” character, like he ad some potential that wasn’t there but for the time being he’s just an annoying comic relief character. Instead of being full the way he is. Fanon was really hard on Jake especially like pre 2018, and I feel like that was reflected a lot in the way Hope’s written about.

#ooc #if anyones interested

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Oh cheese and crackers.

#ic #Ah.....

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“Big Man on Campus”

story and art by @Protagonist_Of on twitter

#ooc #my favorite hs fanwork in the world.

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Right well. Tah.

#See you all in the morning!! #ic

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i like to imagine ult dirks just watching this like

#dirk voice bro stop. dude you gotta stop this isnt part of the plan. i dont like where this is going #ooc

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Certainly not my fault. I truly wonder if other things like that arent my fault either!

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#I certainly thought it was for friggen ever!! #ic #[DELETED IC]

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"omg the :) smiley feels so evil" no its not. YOURE evil

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A good thing too!! Believe it or not i have quite a hard time reading and without that dang thing ive been struggling through sentences.

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#ic #Who wouldve guessed i couldnt read? Almost as if i didnt have a guardian to help me learn?? #Huh! #I wonder whos fault that was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #[DELETED IC]

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HAH! AHAHA!! WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT!!

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#ic #My skulltop DID survive! Well bob my uncle!! #[DELETED IC]

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jake mental breakdown over @filthy0lucre

#ooc #ummmmm 😳 ur lord english is showing #i advertise his vent blog like im a fucking pornbot

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Mr sandman is NOT playing nice tonight.

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im never gonna get my fucking cutie mark

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vow of silence is also such a jake song

sorry my lemon demon fixations coming back. anyways

action movie hero boy - literally such a jake song

this hyper world - dirkjake moment

#ooc