healinghyunjin

[healinghyunjin]

Back from the dead (and wildly off-topic) just to say…

The best cinematic experience I’ve had in recent memory - the storytelling, acting, music, everything!

For those few desi culture enthusiasts lurking on this blog - hit me up, want to proselytize/make more people simp over this lmao

#ava speaks #things like this that make me feel proud to be brown #ponniyin selvan #i’m such a fucking simp

[healinghyunjin]

PROMPT DRABBLE

Prompt: 'Kiss me like you mean it.'

Pairing: Seungmin x female reader

WC: 1k

Warnings: explicit sexual content, friends to lovers, sofa sex, accidental confessions 🔞

©️ copyright jl-micasea-fics April 2023

Sometimes, you wish he’d just kiss you.

People that think they know Seungmin say he’s cold; to some extent, they’re right. He has an excellent poker face, a tendency to err on the side of stoicism. He doesn’t laugh when everyone else does, rarely joins in on the antics. He excuses himself when things become too raucous for him to read through, refuses when he’s offered a drink.

But those people don’t know Seungmin; not really. They see what he offers on a surface level and accept it as all that he it.

Not you. You scratched that polished surface with a veracity most couldn’t muster, and the rewards were ample. Seungmin opened up to you gradually, the truth of his character emerging in the nights you’d spent together. A cutting sense of humour with a dryness to rival your own, a warmth of care that betrayed the gold tint to his heart, an impossible humility that juxtaposed his good looks and svelte figure: Seungmin isn’t what people believe him to be.

Though in one thing, they are correct; they believe him to be single. They believe him to always have been single, and indeed, for as long as you’ve known him that’s been the case. The development of your feelings for the man was as inevitable as gravity, and just as powerful. Learning his tells—the way his nose scrunches when he’s amused, how the corner of his lips quirk when he’s intrigued, how his jaw ticks when he’s annoyed—called for no small amount of observance, and thus you fell hard and ungracefully. If he’s ever noticed, he doesn’t say so. He remains frustratingly oblivious, and you remain firm friends.

Still; sometimes you wish he’d just fucking kiss you.

“What are you reading?” you ask, nudging the sole of his shoe with your boot.

He glances at you over the top of his book, tapping the front cover with his index. You lean toward him, squinting.

“How to lose friends and alienate people?”

He nods.

“Self-help or fiction?”

He rolls his eyes.

“Because, like, you don’t need any help on that front.”

“It’s not my fault people don’t understand me,” he sighs.

You cross your arms. “Did you ever have an emo phase?”

“You’re hilarious.”

“It’d make a lot of sense if you didn’t.”

He thumps the book closed. “Don’t you have an elsewhere to be?”

You beam at him, hopping up from the sofa to settle beside him. Shoulder to shoulder, he glares at you through his thick-rimmed glasses.

“Nope,” you grin.

“I see. Diversion tactic, then.”

You shrug. “Maybe.”

“Were you this needy with your other besties?” he sighs, sliding his glasses from his face to rub the bridge of his nose.

And the words tumble from your mouth in a thoughtless wave of overexcitement:

“Only the ones I wanted to fuck.”

Seungmin blinks, then stares. Comprehension settles in the awkward silence that follows, and what was previously a light air of comradery suddenly thickens in weight, hovering over the two of you.

“I, uh... I don’t know why I said that,” you laugh half-heartedly, scratching the itch crawling up your nape.

Seungmin’s regarding you with a curiosity you’ve never seen from him.

“You want to fuck me?”

“What?” you scoff. “You? No way, man. Come on.”

He tilts his head; the corner of his lips quirk. “You sure?”

“Of course, be serious right now—”

“Because if you did, I’d be down.”

The breath is punched from your lungs.

“Now who’s being hilarious?” you deflect.

“I’m not trying to be funny,” he deadpans.

You swallow firm. “Shut up.”

“I’m trying to get into your pants.”

“You’re not—”

And in the next second, your lips are caught by the ones you’ve only admired from a safe, manageable distance. He tastes like the sour cherry lollipop he had earlier. It’s brief—too brief to do anything other than startle you—and when he breaks off, the darkness in his eyes sends a swirling of delight straight to your core.

His nose scrunches as he smiles. For a moment, you’re tempted to believe this is more than just a game to him.

“Kiss me like you mean it,” you whisper.

Seungmin takes up the mantle, thumb and forefinger at your chin as he indulges in a kiss so deep, it reaches in to clutch your soul. Tongue slick and mouth pliant to his ministrations, you wonder if his heart is at as much threat of imploding as yours is. Surely not.

“Bedroom?”

You shake your head. “Here.”

Straddling him on the sofa and taking him to thick, delicious fullness feels so removed from reality you’re not sure it’s truly happening; perhaps this is a tangible daydream. They were always bound to spiral out of control. Seungmin guides you, ever in control by hands at the curve of your hips, watching where your bodies connect as he disappears inside you.

“This is fucking insane—” he throws his head back on a groan.

A breathless laugh emitted into his ear as you seek closeness, arms around his neck as you grind low over his length. Seungmin curses—a rarity for him—and cants upwards. When he sets the pace of his own desire, your groans are broken and staggered, close to approaching release. In frantic need he shoves up your shirt, exposes your breasts to cup and play with, greedy desire in his eyes. The sofa creaks in resistance of his motions; you take the brunt of it, driving down on him in chasing the slick friction.

“God, baby. You feel so good—”

You hum in delight. “Don’t stop, please.”

And he doesn’t; not when the pretence of his togetherness is cracked and he comes with a drawn-out groan of your name, not when the aftershock of his orgasm brings yours so brutally, not even when you ask him to stay, the question holding more weight than you think he knows.

“That was one hell of a diversion tactic,” he later sighs, the glow of content holding over you.

“Yeah?”

“Mhm. Might be favourite so far.”

#ACK YOU WROTE FOR SEUNGMO MY BBY #this was amazing #and hot #how do you do this even in such short form? #like the way you set up and described Seungmin at tge beginning? *chef’s kiss* #gonna go reread lolol #skz smut #seungmin smut #fic rec

[healinghyunjin]

Reblog this to give the person you reblogged it from a bear hug. (they might just need it)

[healinghyunjin]

💌 Send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome. 💌

💌💌💌 Right back at you friend!! Because you’re awesome! ❤️

#ray asks

[healinghyunjin]

Omg hihii!! It's so good to see you back!

Hope you've been well and in good health, and if not then I hope things get better for you soon ♡♡

As much as I'm looking forward to reading more of your work, your mental and physical health comes first! Take as much time as you need to look after yourself and rest, and write only when you're sure it's something /you/ wanna do.

Sending over love and supportive vibes✨💖~~

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Hello hello~ Thank you so much for still being here haha and sending this in!!! 😊 I’m doing well - a lot better than last year, and things are continuing to look up! Just means that I’m busier though and don’t have as much time to write as I’d like…but we’re working on it haha! I really want to get you guys something before the end of the month…hoping I can pull it off!! 🤞🏽

You’re genuinely so so *so* sweet, my friend. I really appreciate your kindness and thoughtfulness - and sending the good vibes right back at you!! Hope life is going well for you and that you’re thriving in whatever you want to be doing ❤️

(And your emoji’s sooo cute friend!! Hugs back to you haha)

#asks 💛 #anon ask

[healinghyunjin]

omg hi??!!! good to see you back!

Hello anon!! Thank you hehe - the past few months have been quite busy, but I want to commit to being more present here now!!

#asks 💛

[healinghyunjin]

Hi! I'm new to your blog and just want to say how much I love Wolfsbane. It's one of my all-time favourite Chan fics and one of the first Chan fics that I have ever read since I'm a baby Stay. I know you have literally thousands of people who admire that story, but I just want to let you know that it was truly exceptional, and thank you for writing that amazing story! 💕

Hii!! Thank you so much for stopping by hehe - and thank you for the praise!! I’m so so delighted that you loved Wolfsbane - I’m not sure if I’m ever gonna top it lol 😂 But people like you stopping by helps me keep going - so thank you!!

After my last post, I know I’ve been MIA for a while…I’m so sorry to those who responded to me and never got a response back!! I’m still working on writing in the background and hopefully will have another fic out soon - but in the meantime, if you’d like to chat, please reach out again!!

#asks 💛 #wolfsbane feedback

[healinghyunjin]

My creative process is always quite hectic and so I’ve found myself bouncing between a few different ideas to work on (which ultimately always makes me feel like I’m not making any headway lol). So - I thought I’d turn to you guys (all >1k of you - thank you!! 🙏🏽) for advice! These are all the ideas I’ve been shuttling between - if you’d like, send me an ask (anon or not!) or DM with what excites you/what intrigues you the most!

hist!AU with Jeongin (in the Wolfsbane universe hehe - and another arranged marriage!)

hist!AU with Changbin (Regency AU, starcrossed lovers…now uncrossing lol [dw I’ll never be able to write a sad ending lmao])

hist!AU + arranged marriage!AU with…two SKZ members hehehehe

Harry Potter!AU with Chan (post-Hogwarts AU, one-sided-enemies-to-lovers-ish?)

Period/hist desi!AU with…someone lol. This is what I’d like the most feedback on haha - I’m a huge Indian movie buff, and I’d love to bring elements of that into my writing as well! But I’m not sure how interested you guys would be…lmk!

[healinghyunjin]

warm

pairing: minho x fem!reader genre: smut. fluff. established relationship.  content: 18+ minors dni. warnings below cut. word count: 2.9k

summary: you and minho find yourself trapped out in the winter weather. he warms you up and then you return the favour.

“He’ll be here soon,” Minho murmurs again, as if repeating the phrase to himself will make it true. 

You wrap your arms around your waist and tuck your chin into your jacket collar, attempting to shield yourself from the biting cold. It had only been a short walk from the restaurant to the train station, short enough that neither you nor your boyfriend had considered the temperature before venturing out into the winter night. You both had long coats and Minho even wore a woollen hat with ear warmers. You were prepared, you’d thought. When you’d arrived at the station and found the trains weren’t running, Minho had called his roommate to come get you. That was at least 15 minutes ago. It felt like your nose was about to fall off your face. 

“You’re shivering,” your boyfriend observes, stepping in front of you and taking your face in his palms.

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#jesus fucking christ jade #🤯🤯🤯 #how did you start this out so soft and cute and warm and have *all* the feels #and then just hit me with smut like that DAMN #hot as *hell* #your duality’s gonna kill me one day btw 😂 #fic rec #rec #minho smut

[healinghyunjin]

Hello, how are you? I'm sending this on anon because well, I'm shy about this matter and honestly it has took a lot of confidence to send it. So, you have been the biggest inspiration to me here, with your fics and ideas which are always "right". From the overall theme, setting of the story to the way you build your characters and how the stories progress. In a few words it the type of fanfiction that clings to my heart and reminds me most of those that kinda saved me when I first discovered it. So thank you. Now onto what I wanted to talk about. I'm not much of a writer, in fact I haven't written anything longer than 1k -2k words and it wasn't for any fandom or anything. I'm a reader and that's all it is, but one idea has been wandering around my mind for so long. It is a Chan fic with arranged marriage in a historical setting, which time period I'm not exactly sure but late 19th century, beginning of the 20th or in between. Chan would be some kind of a business man, quite wealthy but not of arstocratic origin just a well off family in a city and of course he would be looking for a wife as he is of age and to comply to society 's standards. The reader's family is the perfect choice because they are acquainted with him for some time and its a good deal. Reader would be a little younger than him and he would have that serious and powerful reputation, so their relationship would be purely official and practical, like those you could find in historical novels. So what I really wanted to do is write about how it slowly develops into something more but with the loneliness and silence in between, without strong consuming passion that just makes them act on instinct. They would feel it but it would be hidden deep under the layers of responsibility and respect, with the wall of societal norms and the constant watchful eyes of propriety holding the back from expressing their feeling directly. To see that wall slowly crack and then break down, without jumping steps but with the intensity increasing more and more only for it explode in the end. That is something that I would like to write but yeah. I hope this message wouldn't be a burden to you or if it is, I'm very sorry! I wanted to share this with someone who has experience in writing and get it out of my system, at last. Have a nice day and once again I'm sorry for the long ask!

Anon hello!! I’m sorry for the delay in getting back to you - my time hasn’t been my own over the holidays 🎄

First and foremost - I’m so so happy that you felt comfortable enough (and enjoyed my writing enough - thank you 💕) to reach out and share your thoughts with me!! I know firsthand how scary it is, and I’m so glad (and proud!) that you did 🤗

In terms of your idea…anon this sounds *wonderful*!! I totally get what you mean about the ~vibe I try to create in my period/arranged marriage fics - though I think you did a much more poetic, eloquent job of describing it than I’ve ever done!!! I know it might feel scary and incredibly difficult (which - in all honesty - it can be), I would love for you to write this anon. The biggest, biggest problem I had getting started was myself - nervousness about whether I could actually write anything anyone would want to read, whether I could do justice to the ideas I had bouncing through my head, etc. Once you’re able to push yourself past that though…you’ll have something to cherish and be proud of 😊 So…please! Go for it!! 💪🏽

#asks 💛 #anon ask

[healinghyunjin]

Oh my god I'm so happy to see you're back!! I'm typically a ghost on here since ✨social✨anxiety✨ but I just adore your writing so much I HAD to drop in and tell you!!

Like fr you write so eloquently and beautifully?? But the scenes never feel dragged out or bogged down?? They're just wonderfully done with amazing plots and well written characters to boot?? You're such a skilled author and I literally look up to you SO MUCH AKDBAKBDSKBDNZ

Neways, sorry for the fangirling hshshhs, I hope you're doing well and having a good day!! Thank you a million times over for the masterpieces you make, they belong in a museum honestly

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Anon - oh my god you just melted me into a puddle 😭😭😭 You’re SO incredibly generous with your compliments - thank you so much!!! I’m glad my scenes feel well-paced to you and that my characters feel well-written; I agonize over every bit of my writing so much that it genuinely feels so heartwarming to hear that you enjoy it to this level ❤️❤️❤️

I appreciate you so much Anon - I totally, totally feel you on the anxiety (I was so scared/nervous about interacting with people here for literal years…and even now I *still* struggle responding to people honestly), and I do want to thank *you* for pushing through that and taking the time to write me such a beautiful note. You really made my day ❤️

#asks 💛 #anon ask

[healinghyunjin]

spiderweb

pairing: minho x fem!reader genre: smut, angst, roommates to lovers, brothers best friend.  content: 18+ minors dni. warnings below cut. word count: 7.4k

summary: he’s spent so long in denial. when he finally realises you’ve trapped him in your web, he panics. mutual pining. minho’s pov.

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#ahhhh jade - the way you write minho is unparallel #prickly yet soft #cold but warm #😣😣😣 #i loved this fic soooo much #esp the intimacy - like its super super sexy but still SO SOFT #anyways - love your writing bby #thank you for sharing!! ❤️❤️ #minho smut #minho fic #fic rec

[healinghyunjin]

omgg ur back i randomly decided to check and saw 🥺 im so happy bc ur literally the best I enjoy ur writing sm 💞

AH hello hello anon!! You’re way too kind 🤗 Thank you so much for sending this in my friend - spent the past bit struggling my way through some plotting, so this was a nice pick-me-up haha 💕 Hope you’re doing well, and stay in touch!!

#asks 💛 #anon ask

[healinghyunjin]

aaaaaaaaah ice is so so good 🥺 I loved all your previous works and I’m so excited to hear you’ll be writing again! I’m selfishly hoping for a part 2, but I know you said we’ll have to see. anyway, I’m just really glad we’ll be getting more of your stuff again soon 💗

Thank you so much!!! Hahaha several of you guys have asked about a part 2, but I'm unfortunately someone who doesn't have a lot of control over my writing muse - whatever it tells me to write/focus on, that's the only thing I can put out lolol. I'm hoping to come back to Ice once I've finished a couple other fics I'm currently working on though!!

Thank you so much for the support, friend ❤️ Please stay in touch, and I hope you enjoy my future writing too!!

#asks 💛 #meloncremesoda #ice

[healinghyunjin]

oh my god i found you?????!!!! ive been searching for your fic ritual for a couple months!! definitely one of my favourite minho fic to ever exist 😭 i cant believe i finally found you

Ahhh my first anon ask!! Hello friend - and hahah I'm glad you found me too!! 🤗 I'm so glad you enjoyed Ritual haha - it's definitely my baby! Stay in touch!! 💕

#anon ask #asks 💛 #ritual

[healinghyunjin]

😭 Jade oh my god…you’re so so so sweet and way too kind!!! Given just how amazing your writing is, it means so much to me that you enjoy mine!!! That scene with the wolfsbane took me *days* to tweak and re-tweak haha - so really glad that it hit the way I wanted it to 😊

Thank you *so* much for all of these kind words - I’ve been smiling like an idiot to myself since the moment I first saw your reblog haha. I’d absolutely LOVE to share thoughts about writing and fics with you too!! 😍 Really really looking forward to reading more of your work!! ❤️

Wolfsbane

Pairing: Bang Chan x Reader (fem)

Genre: romance, angst, fluff, smut; historical!AU, arranged marriage!AU, strangers-to-lovers, 18+

Word Count: 16.7k

Warnings: swearing, mentions of warfare/violence, mentions of blood, explicit sexual content, unprotected sex, outdated sexual norms/attitudes

Author’s Note: Feedback and reblogs are what keep me going - so any and all thoughts are greatly appreciated!! This is unedited because I just wanted to get it out lol; I will be doing a read-through tomorrow for errors, but if you guys find any in the meantime, please let me know!!

Summary: You took a deep breath before lifting your head, staring right at Chan. “I can be your collateral – as your wife.”

As you trudged up the stone stairway, heavy buckets of water swinging from your arms, you stopped to wipe the sweat off your forehead – and curse the day your father had ever been born. 

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#feedback #tasteleeknow #jade #wolfsbane feedback

[healinghyunjin]

At this point, I’m basically a brown aunty who likes SKZ lmao

#if anyone wants Indian music recs #I’m here lmao #spotify wrapped #ava talks