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hecalledme-jagi · 26 days
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Bazzi’s music has big Zen energy
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hecalledme-jagi · 27 days
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(I saw your tags and I have to say, don’t feel bad about sounding bitter BC IM THE SAME WAY 🤣 I’m a Mystic Messenger Stan, and I’ve raged about how my fave ML deserves so much more than what he’s received. In my humble opinion it’s correct to defend our boys into the grave LOL)
EXACTLY! The entire reason I fell in love with Artem was bc he’s (supposed to be) a complete dork! Like when he tried, and miserably failed at, telling a joke??? And Rosa laughing bc she understood what he was trying to do??? That scene lives in my brain rent free bc it’s so Artem and so stupidly sweet and so unbelievably funny. Or him taking notes on an office romance show? I LOVE HIM 😭 and the way he gave Rosa an opportunity to reject him is EVERYTHING! To bring up Vyn and Luke as comparisons again, both leads try to make a decision for Rosa or in Vyn’s case, try to get her opinion to sway in their favor. Luke tried to make Rosa reject him, which obviously didn’t go according to plan, and Vyn got the outcome he wanted because he facilitated an environment where Rosa could fall in love with him. Both leads start their relationship on very very rocky footing, but as their respective relationships mature, they get healthier. Whereas with Artem, he was simply Artem. He was himself in all his insecurity, awkwardness, and dorkiness. Rosa very naturally came to love Artem exactly where he was at. And this is a big reason why I’ve always believed that if Rosa was to ever date someone in the Main Story, it would be Artem. He takes care of her in a way the other leads(still can’t speak for Marius) don’t and they have a mutual respect for each other that can easily lead to a much deeper relationship than work partners.
UGH AND YOU’RE SO RIGHT ABOUT NEIL! I hadn’t noticed it until you mentioned it, but now that you have I can’t unsee it! Neil was such a huge part of Artem’s life and a good majority of his early stories mention him at least once. That just goes to show how important Neil is to Artem. It shows how devastated Artem would be if Neil betrayed NXX. Of course, there is the possibility that Artem’s grieving heart somewhat healed, during the course of his relationship with Rosa, but if the writers wanted to express that sort of development it should’ve been shown to us rather than dropping Neil without a word.
Artem being an insane freak is such a weird idea and I’m not sure how I feel about it being our current reality 🤣 I ranted about this recently, but one of my favorite things about Artem is the way he looks at Rosa. It’s such a tender and gentle gaze that clearly communicates how much he cherishes Rosa, long before they even start dating. It completely counteracts the Cold CEO expression that he wears when he’s working AND the idea that he’s a daddy dom! Instead, it openly communicates to the viewer that he is the farthest thing from cold and domineering. ALSO the fact that the writers are trying to convince us of Artem being a freak is completely shattered when they give is normal Artem behavior! Like in the Cue the Champion event, they mention that Artem keeps a polite distance from Rosa whenever they’re in public, which signals to me that he’s still very shy about openly displaying his affection for Rosa. Or in his Belle Nuit d’Amour card when he got embarrassed about his mom seeing them kiss! Sure, they can have moments alone while in public, but past records have shown that Artem is usually only comfortable with holding hands, maybe a peck, and I loved that for him. If the writers really wanted to increase the amount of physical affection between Artem and Rosa, there are so many different ways they could’ve done it. Using Luke again as an example, Rosa and Luke are very awkward in the beginning of their relationship bc they’ve been friends for so long, but over the course of their relationship they naturally become more physically affection with each other in a way that differed from their friendship. The Lukeout, Fire! Event is a prime example of how openly affectionate the pair are without crossing over into weird territory. It’s just simple, and more realistic, forms of affection.
Good to hear the 3rd anni card isn’t entirely awful, tho I do fear a boring story LOL
You came up on my recommended feed at the perfect time bc I have Artem brainrot rn AND YOUR ANALYZATION OF ARTEM’S CARDS ARE FANTASTIC! I’m one of the few players that avoids most CN server spoilers, and I’ve been abstaining from pulling most cards so I can pull for 3rd anni(which now I’m kinda questioning if I should LOL), so I missed out on a TON of content for all of the male leads. BUT, from the very few cards I had pulled this past yr, I did notice an odd shift in Artem’s personality. Although, I wasn’t too sure if it was just me being dumb or if it was a real thing that was happening. And after reading some of your posts I kinda want to re-read Artem’s Second Anni Card again bc I was so excited for the artwork from that event, that I didn’t pay much attention to the story LOL However, now that I’ve seen what you’ve said and what many other Artem fans have said, I’m sure my feelings weren’t wrong. And now I’m sad 😢
Artem was my favorite bc his relationship with Rosa felt the healthiest and was built on respecting each other’s boundaries, learning how to set boundaries, and working as a team, while also having a more traditional framework of a male leadership role(which I’m extremely fond of). Artem never restricted Rosa from spreading her wings as his work partner or as his life partner, he simply asked if he could come along beside her where ever she wanted to go. AND LIKE HIS ORIGINAL PERSONAL STORY IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF THIS BEHAVIOR! Rosa makes a reckless decision to go get evidence, without Artem, for a the domestic violence case they were working on and almost gets hurt in the process. After that, Artem scolds Rosa for being reckless and for not taking better care of herself. And Rosa doesn’t take it lying down either! They equally argue and get their grievances out in the open, feel bad about later, and apologize. (THE COMMUNICATION IS SO REAL 😩) FURTHERMORE! This incident leads them to learning and understanding how differently they work as lawyers. Artem learns that Rosa is a lot more personal with her clients and handles her cases with an empathetic approach, while he works more pragmatically, so through this case they learn to work to each other’s strengths as partners, covering for what the other person lacks. And the chapters this incident took place in solidified my growing love for Artem bc unlike Luke or Vyn(I’m not sure about Marius bc admittedly I haven’t read his original personal story 😅), Artem doesn’t hinder Rosa by being overprotective like Luke or push her beyond her capacities like Vyn tried to do in his original personal story. Artem allows a natural course of growth to occur in Rosa, while being a hedge of protection for Rosa BUT ONLY when she seems to REALLY need it, and the same can be said for Rosa towards Artem.
Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk, sorry for ranting 😅
WAHHH YOU'RE TOO KIND!! ;_; thank you so much for the sweet words, it really means a lot!!! i'm so so happy you enjoyed my ranting and raving, honestly having a community of super awesome people to talk about this with has been such a comfort and ive made some awesome friends from my time here, even if we don't chat as much anymore!
and omg, do NOT ever feel bad for ranting in my inbox!!!! i've been ranting about tot in the main tag for two years at this point and i will Always be thrilled to read delightfully written meta such as yours!!!!!
i have to say, i entirely agree with all of this. and i mean ALL OF IT. his personal stories 2, 3, and 4 are my absolute favorites of his and gosh that's like. prime artem to me, i think. your ask reminded me of some meta i read such a long while ago about his second personal story (link can be found here, it's SUCH a good read)
i think a huge issue is that artem originally always felt like the antithesis to your typical daddy dom boss character. when you start playing tot, appearances wise, he looks and even comes across as one. but these initial appearances are quickly shattered.
he is absolutely inexperienced with interpersonal relationships. he fumbles the bag CONSTANTLY with rosa. he's terrible at holding conversation, he's constantly apologizing for being boring. he needs his own fucking boss to wingman (haha. wing) for him. he blushes if mc looks at him the wrong way. he's kinda strange. but he's earnest and genuine. he respects rosa's boundaries. he makes mistakes, but learns from them. he gives rosa time to think over her feelings for him so she can still say no to him if she changes her mind.
it's the contrast between this and his initial appearance that makes him interesting. what is extremely bizarre with artem's recent writing is it feels like someone who only read artem's introduction scene got some vague pointers and was like oh. your typical daddy dom boss guy. okay yeah i can write this. and then they did. which . defeats the whole entire point of what made artem compelling in the first place. he was compelling BECAUSE he subverted this trope. by just making him play the trope straight, you remove any and all intrigue from his character.
by not building off of older cards, you abandon all of the plot lines he had set up. they undid any angst in his stories. they dropped his issues with his parents. they downplayed neils impact on his life. he doesn't even grieve for him anymore. he doesnt even think about him most of the time. what happened to entwined fate? praying for neil's safety? what about neil being his father figure? neil potentially betraying the nxx? are we just going to ignore that now so we can watch artem be an insane freak who just apparently woke up with the skills of a sex god, forgot all of the lessons he learned, and doesnt care about consent anymore?
god, now IM ranting.... regardless. youre so right. i hear artem's newest cards are good so im praying those rumors are true : ((
EDIT: SORRY I MEANT TO TALK ABOUT HIS THIRD ANNIVERSARY CARD!!! it's not as bad as his second anniversary card. i know the bar is in hell but it's something. it's pretty contrived in the grand scheme of things (like why are they moving into a house...?) and has some weird moments, but is ultimately not as bad as it could have been in the slightest. i'd say its biggest crime is being boring as sin. holy fuck. i put that shit on 2x speed and i still found myself wanting to fast forward. like nothing happens at all???? it's so bizarre HAHA
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hecalledme-jagi · 29 days
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the poor boy just wanted to talk about his new bowl
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hecalledme-jagi · 30 days
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Can we just take a second to talk about how Artem looks at Rosa?? Like this man clearly adores her long before they started dating and it’s so obvious, that it hurts.
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LOOK AT HIM! ROSA HAD BARELY STARTED FEELING ANYTHING FOR ARTEM AT THIS POINT AND HE JUST!!! _| ̄|○ He looks at her with so much tenderness and all the while he’s under the impression that he’s struggling to communicate how he feels??? Sure, he’s a clumsy dork when it comes to romance, but his eyes say so much more than any romantic gesture he could possibly conjure up or whatever poetic words he might want to say. Those eyes express a very deep longing to treasure and cherish. He wants, and is content with, experiencing the mundane things in life at her side and it KILLS ME 😭 he’s happy, beyond compare, watching the waxing and waning of her expressions and feeling her warmth.
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AND DON’T GET ME STARTED ON HIS BIRTHDAY INVITATION! Out of ALL the First Birthday invitations, Artem’s was my absolute favorite(and it’s probably my favorite invitation of all time). For one thing, it’s stunning, but it’s so unbelievably soft T^T!!!!!! The gentle way Rosa shifts closer to Artem, the way he gently holds her hand and blushes when she gets closer. The adoring look on his face and the soft smile on hers! UGH!! And it only gets better when you think about how she spent DAYS recreating an iconic scene from Artem’s favorite movie!? As a movie buff myself, Rosa’s actions spoke volumes! She dedicated so much of her personal time to get Artem a gift she knew he’d love. I wouldn’t be surprised if Artem fell in love with her all over again after that!
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And after they start dating, he just continues to be more loving!? Some how his gaze becomes EVEN SOFTER!? HOW!? TELL ME! HOW!? If a man looked at me the way Artem looks at Rosa, I’d actually die. Out of all the leads, I think I love with way Artem looks at Rosa the most. It’s such a gentle and adoring expression that is 100% content with just looking. Just observing. The way he looks at her makes you think he’s committing every micro expression to memory and tracing every contor of her face, so that if there ever comes a day that he can’t see her face, it’ll be permanently seared into his very soul.
AUGJRVWWejtbegw AND IT GETS BETTER! They revealed, during the Cue The Champion Event, that Artem keeps a polite distance with Rosa when they’re in public, meaning he’s probably pretty shy about PDA, so he makes up for it through his loving gaze(thats how I’m interpreting it anyway :3). Artem and Rosa, in my humble opinion, create a very warm atmosphere around each other without having to express their affections verbally or physically. Any bystander could tell the two love each other just by seeing how they look at each other. Just by seeing how Artem looks at her. UGH JUST LIKE IN THE MYSTERIES OF BAKERLON EVENT! He’s composing a wordless love letter (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)
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I’m mostly adding this card just for fun, but there’s just so much affection Artem carries for Rosa and as much as I love the other leads, Artem holds a very special place in my heart that I just can’t ignore 🥺
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“Can we always be this close” with zen please 💛
“You’re not scared, are you?”
MC expected to hear a trace of mockery in his tone, but much to her surprise (and delight), Zen sounded completely, genuinely, honestly, candidly... concerned.
“Of course not,” MC declared in a huff. She straightened up her posture, and every vertebra in her back seemed to squeak in protest at her bold movements, as if they knew the truth that she was so desperately trying to hide. She tilted her shoulders back and lifted her chin up, then puckered her lips out in a pout. Her bold display of power seemed to announce, “Look at me! I don’t know fear! How dare you question me?”
But the knocking in her knees as she stood still and the trembling in her fingertips as she gripped onto the helmet completely betrayed her facade.
A soft sigh slipped out of Zen’s pitiful smile as he turned off the engine. “Hey, come here, my princess,” he cooed. He thrust off his helmet, hopped off the motorcycle, and placed it on the seat where he had been a moment before. “I shouldn’t have told you about my injury,” he murmured, and traces of regret dragged down the mood of his usually rhythmic, lulling voice. “I promise I don’t drive that recklessly anymore.” As if to demonstrate, he planted his foot on the seat of the bike, bending his knee and shifting his weight back and forth to display just how healthy his leg was. “Of course, I also heal like a monster, since God made a mistake in creating me, but...” He shook his head, sending his ponytail whipping back and forth. “Sorry. That’s not exactly what you want to hear right now.”
MC allowed her shoulders to cave in and her head to tip downward, now that Zen had already seen through her act. “I trust you, Zen,” she whispered. “I just... I don’t trust everyone else on the road.”
Zen nodded slowly, carefully considering her concerns. “Then you’ll just have to hold on tightly to me,” he decided at last. “I’ll shield you with my body, princess. We will ride on my noble steed to the castle, where we can celebrate an evening just for the two of us, safe and sound.”
His dramatic description prompted a chuckle from MC-- the first time she had smiled ever since Zen had taken her outside to his bike. “We’re just getting burgers, Zen,” she reminded him. “You promised to allow yourself a cheat day for Valentine’s.”
Zen tutted and lifted a finger to her mouth. His smooth skin pressed against her sensitive lips was tempting, tantalizing... but she would have to suppress any of those urges until after dinner. “I’m creating a stage, darling,” he informed her with a wink. “Won’t you please be my costar?”
MC removed one (sticky, sweaty) hand from the helmet and reached up to press her finger against Zen’s lips. “Alright, my prince,” she murmured. “Let us ride into the sunset to the White Castle.”
“Away we go!” Zen cried, and he hopped back onto the motorcycle. Carefully he fastened his helmet onto his head, and then he reached out with one hand towards MC. “Watch your step, mademoiselle.”
Faith. Trust. Princess dust.
She trusted him, and that was what mattered most.
MC inhaled sharply, pulled her helmet onto her head, and gingerly slid onto the bike behind Zen. As soon as she got on board, she wrapped her arms around Zen’s waist, needing some form of stabilization for both her shivering body and her rapidly pounding heart.
“Hey, hey,” he whispered. “Scoot in as closely as you need. Squeeze my beautiful abs as much as you want. Bury your face against my shoulderblades to shield your eyes. Do whatever makes you comfortable.”
Scoot. Squeeze. Bury.
With every miniscule movement, every subtle shift, she could feel her fear dissipating and comfort taking its place.
“Hey, gorgeous prince Zen,” she mumbled into his back.
“Yes?” he called back as he revved up the engine and kicked up the kickstand.
“Can we... always be this close?”
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hecalledme-jagi · 2 months
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It's so funny that everyone's inner thoughts in the invitation are related to the game while I-don't-wake-up-before-nine Vyn is like "why are y'all frolicking on the STAIRS this early........"
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hecalledme-jagi · 2 months
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hi! i'm so upset after picking up mystic messenger again so i wanted to ask if you could do a zen x MC hc, but they're both aware that they are in different dimensions and will never be together... but they see each other in their dreams!!
(Bruh I wrote this a yr ago and completely forgot about it. Sorry Anon ;;;)
Anon, you hurt me so T_T I love the angst, but why!? _| ̄|○
I am a weak, weak, woman for Zen angst and now I must offer it to you and the rest of this fandom. I must break my heart for this man, AGAIN! For you, Anon, I will dive back into the depths of despair. On that note, I hope you enjoy, or feel sad(??).
Sorry for the delay, but fitting that I write Zen angst on my 6th MysMe Anniversary LOL
Zen and MC in Different Dimensions
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- Zen could feel when you missed him. It’s a warm yet heartbreaking feeling that rests in his chest and stings in his eyes.
- You could feel Zen’s thoughts of you. They’re constant and lovely but left you melancholic and lonely.
- He knew when you were thinking of him or talking about him because suddenly everything appeared so much brighter.
- You knew when he longed for you because bright and unhindered smiles always seemed to paint your face.
- Sometimes he swore he could hear your voice and your beautiful laughter when he was going about his day.
- Sometimes his laughter was all you could hear and all you wanted to hear.
- Zen often wondered if you got the same feelings he did. Did your heart feel unbearably warm when he missed you? Did your world light up when he talked about you or thought of you? Did you hear his laughter and his voice throughout the day?
- The answer was yes, a thousand times over, with every ounce of love, joy, and sadness.
- And sadly, he would never know, but he knew one thing for sure, sharing dreams was something you both looked forward to.
- Knowing you could only reach each other in your dreams, made sleep the most treasured thing either of you could ask for.
- In those dreams, he could hold you and offer you the affections he couldn’t in the waking hours of the day. He’s created vast and beautiful worlds in those dreams, hoping each one would make your waking hours a little more bearable.
- He made sure that those dreams encouraged you to live in reality bc that’s where you truly belonged, but deep down he wished that sleep would never end and he could stay with you.
- On the hardest days, when his feelings of loneliness became more than he could take, when his insecurities raged and roared at him, when life got too difficult to bear; all he wanted was to sleep and be where you are.
- To feel your warmth and comfort, support and love.
- He wanted, so desperately, to bridge those distant dimensions for as long as possible, even if it became unhealthy.
- But what good would that do? He would only be dragging you down with him, and he could never do that to you.
- Furthermore, he knew, better than anyone else, that you would want him to continue living and perusing his dreams, the same way he wanted that for you.
- So, sleeping until you wake, would be enough.
- Holding you until morning came.
- Kissing you until daybreak.
- Sweet nothings until sunrise.
- Laughter until first light.
- Loving you, and you loving him, without limit or requisite.
- He would take his fill, searing ever inch of you into his memory. Filling his cup until it overflowed with you, hoping it would bleed into the day that followed. Hoping it would make up for the lack of you in his world.
- Hoping maybe one day that the yearning you shared would somehow turn the two dimensions into one, where he could finally have your scent cling to his clothes and melt into his skin. Where he could have you part of his life, morning, noon, and night. Where sleep wasn’t the only place he could find you. Where loving you beyond a screen and short lived dreams was no longer a wish, but rather something mixed with normalcy.
˚✧₊⁎𝒥𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑎⁎⁺˳✧༚
I do not own any characters, all ownership goes to Cheritz. Thanks for reading!
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hecalledme-jagi · 7 months
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hecalledme-jagi · 11 months
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mystic messenger characters as tweets pt 10
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hecalledme-jagi · 1 year
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It's Zen's day after all, but was thinking about how whenever Zen lands a role, he tells everyone the dates in advance hoping they'd come but always adds "it's alright if you guys are busy, I'll try not to take it personally" as a joke. Deep down, he really wants everyone to be there to show them how hard he's worked and how much everyone helped in his preparations.
But every opening night, without fail, when Zen looks out into the crowd, he sees every single member sitting in the crowd talking excitedly and his heart fills with immense gratitude and love. Because even if his biological family never supported him in the past, he knows the RFA - his real family - will always be there for him instead.
Which gives Zen all the more motivation to put his all into his performance.
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hecalledme-jagi · 1 year
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Blizzardous Threads of Red in a nutshell
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hecalledme-jagi · 1 year
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I love all of these thoughts and opinions LOL when playing Teo’s MoM arc, I got the impression that they didn’t necessarily get along but weren’t adverse towards each other either, which is a win in my book.
During the last half of the arc, when the producers of MoM changed the schedule out of nowhere, leaving little room for the contestants to practice, it seemed like both Zen and Harry were equally upset over the fact that the schedule changed. Teo even mentions that they left in a huff and had a bit of a yelling match during the meeting, which was most definitely all Zen 🤣 (I have my reservation on why Zen was upset over the schedule change, but I don’t know enough about Harry to say for sure why he’d be upset)
Also, in a photo Teo sends, you can clearly see them having some sort of conversation in the background(honestly one of my favorite photos, it’s so funny 🤣🤣), so I’m inclined to believe they stand on some sort of common ground. However, I can definitely see Zen having a difficult time getting along with Harry, and part of me thinks that Harry would find Zen VERY overwhelming. Hyun is a social butterfly with a lot of passion, he can be a lot for someone as introverted and socially adverse as Harry. Its highly likely that he would find Zen exhausting to be around.
So to end this rant, I can see them getting along just as much as I can see them disliking each other LOL
I've noticed Harry's route has very little in the way of Mysme references. He is currently filming MoM and I was hoping to tell him just how much I love Zen, but he hasn't mentioned him 😤 I have a sneaky suspicion Zen would not get along with Harry.
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hecalledme-jagi · 1 year
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I have a feeling that MC would be really close with Teo’s friends. Maybe it’s because I really like Teo’s friends, and the type of friendship they have, but as he mentions them more often and he mentions the MC to them more often, the stronger the impression I get.
Based off the way they interact with Teo, and how Jay and Joseph have communicated with MC, I have this intense feeling that they’d love her. Though the conversations are short lived, I can tell both guys definitely care about Teo and treasure they’re friendship with him, so it’s likely that they’d pick up on the fact that MC genuinely adores him. I imagine they’d be insanely supportive of their relationship—tho I highly doubt they would be outright about it LOL.
I can just see them teasing Teo about having a girlfriend that’s cooler than him, and saying how they like MC more than him. Telling him he’s cringy and exchanging embarrassing stories with MC. Or them inviting Teo out, but saying, “we’re only inviting you because we want MC to come.”
And I like to think that Teo would greatly appreciate the shared bond between MC and his friends. Sure, he’d be annoyed by their teasing and maybe a little jealous of how close she is with them, but he seems like the type of guy who greatly cherishes his relationships. So seeing the people he cares about getting along with the person he loves the most(and vice versa) would make him incredibly happy.
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hecalledme-jagi · 1 year
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His Ex..
I wrote this a while back and posted it on Ssum, but never really got around to posting it here, so uhh here u go LOL
!This contains Minor Spoilers for Ssum!
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Ssum MC x Zen
There was something different about Zen from other boys when you met him. He made your heart pound, that was a given, but that wasn't it. It wasn’t how he piled on the dramatics or that he was an unworldly kind of handsome. It was something far more fundamental and personal, soft and vulnerable. It was something you failed to see until you were no longer a couple. He was waiting for someone, and sometimes, you would catch him looking for her in a crowd. Maybe that's what made him so appealing, outside of his good looks. Maybe it was the devotion and maturity he saved for someone he hadn't met and how it made one hope the person he was waiting for could be you.
Zen didn't know her, he hadn't met her, but he was always looking for her, whether he was aware of it or not. He was waiting for someone special and uniquely suited for him. Someone that could handle his theatrics and loved them in a way you struggled to; someone that saw past his beauty but didn’t ignore it. Someone that embraced his weakness and saw his pain. These were not your qualities. You were young, too young, and stupid, only dating him because he was breathtaking, keeping him close because he fit into the frame of movie romance. He was both sensitively artistic yet wild and free. And sadly, most of him was a secret to you. You knew his open-hearted feelings and his dreams, but how far did you read into that information? You didn’t know his real name, but she would. You didn't see his weak side, but she would. You weren’t the someone he had been looking for, and maybe you already knew, but you only learned the truth when he pulled away.
It hurt, and it ached at first. Zen was sweet and affectionate. Attentive and kind. Yet, sometimes that annoyed you, and perhaps it was because you didn't love him in the way he so desperately wanted to be loved. Maybe the someone he’s waiting for won’t be annoyed with his affections. Maybe she'll love him the way he pinned after. He was passionate and honest yet lacked a sort of confidence, although you missed that low confidence. Perhaps, she’ll see that lack of confidence and help him rebuild it. Sometimes he looked incredibly lonely, even with you by his side, and you could never understand why. Maybe she’ll know the meaning behind that loneliness. Maybe she’ll be everything you weren’t and more. That thought was warm and genuine.
You liked Zen. He probably knew you weren't his special one, yet he offered you all his heart while you only gave him half. He deserved the girl he was waiting for, and you hoped he would find her. You hoped that she would love him in the way you never could. You hoped she cherished him, and you knew he would treasure her. Yes, you're his ex, but you hoped for his best.
˚✧₊⁎𝒥𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑎⁎⁺˳✧༚
I do not own any characters, all ownership goes to Cheritz. Thanks for reading!
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hecalledme-jagi · 1 year
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I'm Happy Too...
Hey, look who decided to show up! AND I COME BEARING GIFTS!
The Ssum is out and I'm on D-52, so of course I just had to write some angst. Also, READ WITH CAUTION, this one-shot includes minor spoiler for those who haven't reached D-31.
ENJOY!
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Teo x MC ft. Zen
The health-conscious yet delicious snacks you prepared for Teo slipped from your hands and crashed to the floor. The hustle and bustle of the studio died out, and a deafening silence took its place. The giddiness in your chest vanished into thin air, and your heart sank into a dark place you hadn’t known for a long time.
The one person you hoped you wouldn’t see was now staring at you from across the lot. You should've known this by now. You should've known how much Zen loved this environment and would find any excuse to be part of it. Your hope to avoid him was empty, and now that he's here, old feelings came flooding back. 
You wanted to hear his voice, his laugh. You wanted to watch as his eyes lit up, the way they did whenever he saw you. You wanted his cologne to cling to you and feel his hand wrapped around yours. That is until you saw the heartbreak evident on his face as he stood frozen in place. All your wants, all those feelings, died for a second time. It hit you just how much of you still clung to this beautiful person, and you instinctively took a step back, ready to run away and hide, only to be stopped by the warmth of another person behind you. 
A cheery voice broke the tension and brought you back to the present. “Honey~ you came to visit me?” 
Your boyfriend took your hands, gently guiding your body to face him, and now that Zen was out of your sight, the ache you were feeling whittled away as Teo showed you his bright smile. He was happiness, he was now, and he easily outshined your pain. The wants, the feelings, they weren't gone--not completely--but you were beginning to love Teo more than you ever thought you would.
Zen watched the exchange, feeling conflicted as he noticed the genuine smile that began to color your face. He loved that smile. Correction, he loves that smile, so he smiled in return. It wasn’t bright and foolishly lovesick like Teo’s or a smile of comfort like yours. His smile was bittersweet and painfully beautiful. It went unnoticed and unseen, only there to strengthen his already crumbling resolve. It was a mask and a poorly crafted one at that. If you had just turned around, you would see how terribly he was holding it together and how much that dispirited smile expressed just how much he still loved you.
Zen had chosen to let you go, to let you be happy with someone else, instead of keeping you waiting for a time he couldn’t be certain would ever come. It would be unfair of him to expect you to wait for him. It would be unfair of him to feel anything but happy for the one girl he loved more than any other, especially when he could never imagine anyone ever being more important to him than you. And for that reason, Teo had you now, and you were happy, so Zen was happy too.
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hecalledme-jagi · 2 years
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This is beautiful T_T
They’re sharing ice cream TT MY HEART
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hecalledme-jagi · 2 years
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Anni event is finally here! Here’s my returner code!
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