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[hekatekun]

[hekatekun]

yaoi was horrendous this week genuinely great job i am always obsessed with your uncanny ability to put todomatsu under a magnifying glass and burn him like an ant ^__^ cannot wait for chapter 5!!! i noticed a change in direction though particularly in how you characterize todomatsu's interactions w atsushi which i really liked!! i am curious though what prompted it :33

thank you^^<3 there's probably a few different reasons both intentional and unintentional. to start, ccckk will have 10 chapters, however in its original "outlining" i intended to have 9 chapters

i've shared my hyperlinked table of contents on a few different posts now, mostly as cockteasers. but also i literally don't think i could navigate the google doc without it atp

i think theres like 30k of it published? so there's on average at least 1-2k worth of a scene in all 6 of the unpublished chapters that i've chipped away at over the last 3 years, bc ofc some are more developed than others. there's never been a solid outline for ccckk but rather a string of scenes i knew i wanted at certain intervals, like milestones, and i had wanted to retro-engineer the rest around those concepts

with that in mind, ch10 isn't a real chapter but more like a coda i wrote right after publishing ch1 and so the rest has been "how do i move the story from ch1 to this epilogue?" the plot is only in the first 9 chapters, so i structured it with three "acts" in mind and tried to have the chapter titles reflect that - both for my own amusement and to ground the ideas better lest i forget what wasn't written yet. so if ch4 starts "act 2" then it should show off that shift. but also, i never intended ccckk to be a slowburn, more like a...... medium burn ig? it's supposed to be a todomatty character study first and foremost, after all

each chapter should feel episodic to some extent, since i paced it on individual chapter "goals" rather than wordcount or anything (tbh i actually thought i would only ever hit ~50k total but if i'm not even halfway done and i'm at 30k now? jesus fuck. fuck me. what the fuck did i do.) if i've planned/structured the story like i'm fitting individual glass pieces into a metal frame, then by god you're gonna get the yaoi-est stain-glass art you've ever seen outside church in your life. it's why ch4 utilizes something like a montage, to show that ~passage of time~ and what that did to their dynamic now in this act 2

as to what that situationship dynamic actually ended up looking like on the big screen, i definitely blame @moeatsushi's art for that one^^ a lot of it made me realize i could definitely make them..... messier? nastier? gayer? [insert tumblrbait adjective]? for a lack of a better word. and that i could balance That with the surrealist realism that i wanted to achieve when translating the show into prose. also helped me get out of a general writer's block<3

beyond all that, i think part of it comes from me now being 23 writing yaoi instead of writing yaoi at 20. not that my brains developed any more, but my opinions have changed. like, to the point i find it hard to read the previous chapters when i have to reference them. ch1 really is a mark of shame to me ngl only god knows how i wouldve wrote it now. i had a friend look at it a few weeks ago and they called that shit "college freshmen posting on wattpad" 😓 which is already how i felt about it but whatever. post and move on. i (probably) won't repost/edit since that's more work that no one's paying me for, and it (probably) isn't as bad as my perfectionist monkey brain feels. anyway this isn't about being emo it's my precursor to admitting that there's a good chance i went off script bc i refused to look super close at my own goddamn source material/notes and decided winging it was better out of a mixture of laziness and pride at the cost of tighter consistency/characterization

#ask #writing ccckk has been like an exercise in performing improv with past me and future me #theres a homestuck joke here somewhere. maybe i just need to commit to the bit and insert more audience participation #ty for asking btw this is actually something ive been kinda thinking about but never knew how/when to say it^^

[hekatekun]

#YAAAY YIPPEEEE YAHOOO #totoko #nyaa chan #Osomatsu #Todomatsu #HeyBtw what's that cut off text say.

[hekatekun]

you can jerk off to anything. just the other day i jerked off to a crisp and refreshing spring breeze

[hekatekun]

I love the phrase "they get along like a house on fire". It's perfect. You and me have perfect chemistry and it's setting off the carbon monoxide detectors. People are calling emergency services to get us to stop being so chummy. Someone died

#astd

[hekatekun]

wip wednesday or as i like to call it thursday night

i was procrastinating so hard i forgot i was supposed to be procrastinating by sharing the only ch5 ccckk wips im gonna allow myself to post bc im soooooo fucking excited for this chapter you have no idea

pretty sure i shared a bit of this already forever ago but i couldnt find it so i mustve not tagged it. for context there were exactly 3 things i wrote in the first month of posting ccckk back in early 2021: the first chapter, the final scene of the final chapter, and todomatty jackoff scene. so. im very excited.

#le whippets #ccckk #i wrote this project by having key scenes and then being forced to figure out how i would get from point a to point z #in terms of troubleshooting a longterm project its been useful but at the cost of timeliness....

[hekatekun]

wait holy shit that post is almost 3yrs old wtf. also totally forgot i posted it after i started posting ccckk bc to me it came first.conceptually. narratively . the todomatty gayboy agenda truly is a circlejerk <- me jerkin my thang

#this is my cope to avoid looking at my grad school application #and to avoid working on another goddamn meta essay

[hekatekun]

Ososan: Castle in the Mind

Or why I think Todomatsu has gender issues as a gay man, all wrapped up in a little escapist fantasy - but it’s no stroll through a garden. His throwaway reference to Ghibli’s Castle in the Sky (1986) in S3E25 got me to watch it and I’m astounded how well it fits with Osomatsu-san. Major spoilers obviously, though this movie is a 30 year old classic, so I’m assuming most people weren’t me and saw it for the first time in 2021. CW: Discussions of homophobia with mentions of other bigotry - the latter mostly in reference to inappropriate jokes that surface in these pieces and related. Long post under cut (wc ~5k with too many pics) NO BL!

Like any Ghibli movie, it’s a feel good about the power of love with a somber undertone, and comedy for kids and adults alike. It reminded me a lot of Ososan’s brand of wacky, just way less cynical. By a long shot. I think it showcases the fantastical whimsy the six romanticize to escape the nightmare of the reality in front of them. Adulthood isn’t pretty, and Castle in the Sky doesn’t really shy away from that, either, in spite of a radically different (optimistic) tone. (If you’re interested, I watched the movie free here! Recommend an adblock ofc but I had little to no issues)

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#media analysis is a disease and i qualify for a lobotomy #<- still the funniest tag ive ever written btw. imo. #sharing this again to say writing this is what made me decide to write ccckk

[hekatekun]

6/6 ! and 6 cheers for the final fucking playlist. probably. i’ve been tinkering w this since may of 2021 and literally no other playlist has gone thru as much uh. well let’s just say this gave me a new mental disorder. ~2hrs tracks under cut

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#Hey [with to intent to plug in my headphones]

[hekatekun]

some visual gag ideas that didnt make the cut for ch4 of ccckk

#didnt feel like working on it anymore so i just cut them before i actually drew them out #also i probably shouldnt do visuals in a prose piece when like.... yeah man yk? #i have another project for that. #le post #ccckk

[hekatekun]

atsutodo playlist that i keep losing the post for so i just keep reposting it 👍

last update: 03.31.24 (~4hrs)

[hekatekun]

whatever fucking oxycodone they put me on after surgery today got me finally posting ch4. make sure to like and comment and subscribe and question and fear and avoid and submit and commit and reblog for the bit. an excerpt:

Satisfied, absolved of any responsibility, you finish setting the bait on your hook before casting it back into the pond. Karamatsu sits next to you in either actual silence or you’ve finally perfected tuning him out - you’re pretty sure it’s the former though since you’re never that lucky, not if he really wanted your attention. A familial pair of voices quickly break the tranquility in a familiar manner. Choromatsu, who raises his hand, “Choromatsu and…” Jyushimatsu, who raises his hand, “Jyushimatsu’s…” In unison, “ …delivery skit!!” “Aesop’s Fables that aren’t actually Aesop’s Fables!” Choromatsu delivers the title card.

#Last srb

[hekatekun]

whatever fucking oxycodone they put me on after surgery today got me finally posting ch4. make sure to like and comment and subscribe and question and fear and avoid and submit and commit and reblog for the bit. an excerpt:

Satisfied, absolved of any responsibility, you finish setting the bait on your hook before casting it back into the pond. Karamatsu sits next to you in either actual silence or you’ve finally perfected tuning him out - you’re pretty sure it’s the former though since you’re never that lucky, not if he really wanted your attention. A familial pair of voices quickly break the tranquility in a familiar manner. Choromatsu, who raises his hand, “Choromatsu and…” Jyushimatsu, who raises his hand, “Jyushimatsu’s…” In unison, “ …delivery skit!!” “Aesop’s Fables that aren’t actually Aesop’s Fables!” Choromatsu delivers the title card.

#srb #Come get your cock

[hekatekun]

whatever fucking oxycodone they put me on after surgery today got me finally posting ch4. make sure to like and comment and subscribe and question and fear and avoid and submit and commit and reblog for the bit. an excerpt:

Satisfied, absolved of any responsibility, you finish setting the bait on your hook before casting it back into the pond. Karamatsu sits next to you in either actual silence or you’ve finally perfected tuning him out - you’re pretty sure it’s the former though since you’re never that lucky, not if he really wanted your attention. A familial pair of voices quickly break the tranquility in a familiar manner. Choromatsu, who raises his hand, “Choromatsu and…” Jyushimatsu, who raises his hand, “Jyushimatsu’s…” In unison, “ …delivery skit!!” “Aesop’s Fables that aren’t actually Aesop’s Fables!” Choromatsu delivers the title card.

#srb

[hekatekun]

whatever fucking oxycodone they put me on after surgery today got me finally posting ch4. make sure to like and comment and subscribe and question and fear and avoid and submit and commit and reblog for the bit. an excerpt:

Satisfied, absolved of any responsibility, you finish setting the bait on your hook before casting it back into the pond. Karamatsu sits next to you in either actual silence or you’ve finally perfected tuning him out - you’re pretty sure it’s the former though since you’re never that lucky, not if he really wanted your attention. A familial pair of voices quickly break the tranquility in a familiar manner. Choromatsu, who raises his hand, “Choromatsu and…” Jyushimatsu, who raises his hand, “Jyushimatsu’s…” In unison, “ …delivery skit!!” “Aesop’s Fables that aren’t actually Aesop’s Fables!” Choromatsu delivers the title card.

#if theres mistakes no there's not lol #atsutodo #ccckk #fic

[hekatekun]

Fanfiction author writing about a guy having his first gay experience

This was nothing like his affairs with women. Women, with their soft curves, their wet heat, their velvet skin. Joe was all harsh angles in comparison. his XY chromosomes turned his skin to steel. every part of his body was made out of geometric shapes. gripping his hips was nothing like gripping the soft, petite, feminine, plush hips of a woman. joe’s lips were rough and chapped, unlike his ex-girlfriends lips, which were made out of chapstick. his cock was an actual tree trunk with bark and lichen and all

#Ccckk

[hekatekun]

Oh! Did you know! Iyami’s zansu originated as a form of speech associated with women! More specifically, an archaic, shortened form of de gozaimasu, associated with the madams of old-timey high class adult entertainment businesses. This, like most of Iyami’s speech quirks, comes directly from Tony Tani, one of the comedians Akatsuka took inspiration from when creating him. Tony Tani’s influence is VERY visible on Iyami, from his flamboyant stage persona, his tendency to sprinkle English words in his speech (he introduced himself as “number one handsome boy” in English, for example) to his signature pencil mustache! In fact, Iyami’s voice in the 80s adaptation of the Osomatsu-kun anime is a VERY spot on Tony Tani impression by Kaneta Kimotsuki! Just listen to one after the other:

#iyami