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an open letter to my body:

Bro, wtf.

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@sunshiningstars Do you like my bag? :D

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like or reblog if you still have plushies/stuffed animals. im autistic and need validation

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Fun fact

Showers suck. Heres some tips

You can wash your hair in the sink, with your clothes on. Its a lot less active steps.

You can get into the shower and only wash your body so its quick and only one step.

Also, try getting a dry electric razor (kinda like the ones for shaving long beards or hair) so you can sit in your room and shave.

You can buy a shower chair for things like fatigue, sensory issues, pain, and even if you don't feel "disabled enough," if the aid would benefit you, why would you continue suffering?

You can brush your teeth in the shower so its a shower thing and not something else you have to do after a shower

Make sure you have enough time to rest, sit down, regain spoons, dissociate if it causes that, or watch something to calm down.

Have everything already laid out, like clothes and your hair brush, etc. so its all there afterwards

Remember, you can take a shower literally whenever, sunrise, 1am, noon, 4pm, 10am, doesn't matter.

On days you have to shower, try having less things on your todo list so its not over whelming.

Eat afterwards, abled people may be able to "just hop in the shower" but for us, its like a whole third of our day sometimes, so its okay to have to recover after.

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KIM RHODES MY BELOVED!!!!!!!

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I’ve noticed some common misassumptions about autistic people and verbality, so I thought I’d share some of my experiences!

If you meet me at a social occasion, I will be talkative and you will probably be surprised to know that some days I struggle with being verbal. Here’s what I might look like on a nonverbal/less verbal day

I can force myself to talk to people, but it will be draining. It may drain my energy, heighten my sensory issues, raise my stress levels, and in general lessen my wellbeing.

After a long conversation, I might need to rest/lie down.

I think of my nonverbal days as a battery recharging itself. You can still use the device, but that will just make it drain more quickly.

Not all conversations are created equal!!!!

Keep reading

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sorry I'm not trying to make fun of you I'm just neurodivergent so I copied all of your speech patterns and mannerisms subconsciously. do you still like me

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y’know when someone says something and you know they said words in a human language but your brain is just interpreting it as the adults from charlie brown. that’s fun.

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me: *exists* me: this is too much

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just some autism things

- I have too many things I must p u r g e and o r g a n i z e

- why the fuck did I just say that???

- my arm feels Wrong I need to Get Rid of It

- I cracked my knuckles on one hand now I gotta do the other one so they’ll be Even

- not realizing how stressed you are until you stim for the first time in a while and it feels like you can finally breathe again

- I know you’re talking to me….. but fuck if I know what you’re sayin

- those Good Textures™

- I need to Do The Thing but I can’t get up until I finish the First Thing

- alternatively: bold of you to assume ive ever been able to finish anything in my life

- “why are you so s e n s i t i v e”

- feeling like it’s all Too Much and Not Enough at the same time so i guess I’ll die

- “It’s 95 degrees out why are you wearing a cardigan??” *because it’s Comforting and Good* oh I’m just always cold haha!

- this would be better if it were color coded

- maybe if I hit myself hard enough my brain will Stop Screaming

- attention span? I Don’t Know Her

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(the credit says AutisticBride, btw)

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Having Executive Dysfunction Be Like...

Me: Hello, I would like to start a task please.

Brain: Okay, what sort of task were you looking to do?

Me: I need to wash my dishes.

Brain: Ooo, I’m sorry, but we’re not currently accepting applications for multi-step tasks. That would require you to empty the dish drainer AND wash SEVERAL dishes.

Me: But…it’ll take me thirty seconds to empty the dish drainer.

Brain: Unfortunately we cannot confirm that. Here is a list of single-step tasks you may do instead.

Me: …None of these are things I have to get done today.

Brain: You can try back in a few hours and perhaps we’ll have an opening.

Me: But I have free time NOW.

Brain: While you wait, would you like to watch five hours of Let’s Play videos?

Me: I’ve seen all these though.

Brain: Exactly! So you know you like them! Finding a new video to watch AND watching it counts as a multi-step task, and we’re not currently accepting applications for multi-step tasks. :)

Me: …

Brain: :)

Me: Can I watch videos while I wash my dishes?

Brain: Ooo, I’m sorry, but we’re not currently accepting applications for–

Me: *headdesk*

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sensory overload, or, as i like to call it,

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Missing Alex Manes

Day 3 : Badass Alex

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Michael Guerin Chest Hair Appreciation 

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There are stories only you have to tell, because there is no one who looks at the world in the way you do. There is no one else who listens to the whispers tucked in a soft breeze or understands the wilting petals whimpering. There is no one who feels the earth in the way you do. You are the one.

Ekta Somera