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Prayers and hymns to Hypnos:

Anytime I find one in a book or site about ancient texts, I save it for later use. So here’s what I’ve collected so far.

Orphic Hymn 85 to Hypnos (Greek hymns C3rd B.C. to 2nd A.D.) :
"To Hypnos, Fumigation from Poppies. Hypnos, king of Gods, and men of mortal birth, sovereign of all, sustained by mother earth; for thy dominion is supreme alone, over all extended, and by all things known. 'Tis thine all bodies with benignant mind in other bands than those of brass to bind. Tamer of cares, to weary toil repose, and from whom sacred solace in affliction flows. Thy pleasing gentle chains preserve the soul, and even the dreadful cares of death control; for Thanatos, and Lethe with oblivious stream, mankind thy genuine brothers justly deem. With favouring aspect to my prayer incline, and save thy mystics in their works divine."

Statius, Silvae 5. 4. 1 (Roman poetry C1st A.D.) :
*prayer by an Insomiac

O youthful Somnus, gentlest of the gods, by what crime or error of mine have I deserved that I alone should lack thy bounty? Silent are all the cattle, and the wild beasts and the birds, and the curved mountain summits have the semblance of weary slumber, nor do the raging torrents roar as they were wont; the ruffled waves have sunk to rest, and the sea leans against earth's bosom and is still. Seven times now hath the returning moon beheld my fixed and ailing eyes; so often have the lights of Oeta and Paphos revisited me, so oft hath Tithonia passed by my groans, and pitying sprinkled me with her cool whip. Ah! how may I endure? Not if I had the thousand eyes of sacred Argus, which he kept but in alternate watchfulness, nor even waked in all his frame at once. But now--ah, me!--if some lover through the long hours of night is clasping a girl's entwining arms, and of his own will drives thee from him, come thence, O Somnus! Nor do I bid thee shower all the influence of thy wings upon my eyes--that be the prayer of happier folk!--touch me but with thy wand's extremest tip--'tis enough--or pass over me with lightly hovering step."

By Sophocles in Philoctetes:

''Divine Hypnos, god who knows no pain, Hypnos, stranger to anguish, come in favour to us, come happy, and giving happiness, great King! Keep before his eyes such light as is spread before them now. Come to him, I pray you, come with power to heal!''

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i think i identify with “freak” more than anything else because it’s so impersonal. it’s so much safer. i could tell you i’m trans, i could tell you i’m into kink, but when that rejection stings it’s a pain in my heart, not my chest.

when i’m the freak i’m the crazy hooker that the truck drivers shake their heads at and go “leave it.” it’s the opposite of what you do in hostage situations, you’re supposed to make them empathize with you, but to myself i’ve always been a sacrifice.

(if i could stand, gay and proud, trans and proud, weird and proud, a freak (and proud), then the other gay trans weird freak beside me who wasn’t as proud could see that you could take it and stay standing.)

i’m just the freak, move along. i’m not mentally ill, or queer, or traumatized, or kinky, i’m the freak. that’s all i am. like iridescent patterns lighting up my neck and chest, flaring to outsiders, flashing like a neon sign outside a motel room: MOVE ON.

#queer #trans #rant #poetry #poem #kink

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I think... this is inherently homoerotic

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I want to learn how to do wild makeup but everytime I touch it my mom thinks I want her to teach me how to do normal makeup no mom I'm not like you i want to look like a mix between a clown and a drag queen

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oh god one of my irls is liking all my posts i made last night during a breakdown this feels like a public flogging

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i’m laughing. i made an art piece where my skin happened to be grey. i got into hiveswap. got a sign and the art piece deals exactly with one of the traits of my true sign. my skin is grey. we’re laughing

#it’s all full circle #you can run and you can hide but you can never escape homestuck

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Today’s Autistic character of the day is:

Galekh Xigisi from Hiveswap

#YOU GET IT

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biggest personal plot twist of the week for me was marvus turing out to be a pretty normal dude

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Apologies if the colors are blindingly saturated, my laptop's screen is a liar

#GOT DAMN #HES GOT TITS 🫡🫡🫡

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we ALL know who he’s spraying

this twitter drawing meme was bound to find me

#stupid fuckijg zebruh

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You aren’t posting enough hiveswap post more hiveswap hiveswap

consider your demand fulfilled, my liege. but only if you keep posting your silly doodles (I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE :333)

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EATING DISORDER TWITTER IS FINDING MY POSTS I AM COOL WITH LIKE THE PEOPLE AS INDIVIDUALS BUT PLEASE I DONT WANT THAT STUFF ON MY RECOMMENDED

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i think age anonymity is so funny because im either calling a grown ass man or a 20 year old incel oomf who commented on my ramblings “hon” with no shame

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hate to say it but my twitter is getting found by too many people to gauge tweet on so i’m going to be vague tweeting about my happenings on twitter on tumblr

#i never understood how to use these #do i actually tag shit or is this meant to be funny

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i want him to put me out of my misery behind a woodshed. old yeller style

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Haven’t posted since October but here’s all the Galekh doodles I’ve done

Reblogging with the rest 🤞🤞