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I love that there’s an entire day in the P5 fandom dedicated to giving the best boi kisses, he deserves the world 💛

Happy Kiss Ryuji Day!!

#kiss ryuji day #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #pegoryu #renryu #akiryu #ryuji sakamoto #persona 5 protagonist #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #stan art

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I just had a discussion with my friend about fanfiction and how we tend to assume that women are the writers without any actual proof. Then I said, hey, I know fanfiction written by gay and trans dudes. But then I remembered, wait, I think I know one writer who just must be cis het based on his work. Anyway, all writers, be honest, who are you?

Please reblog if you're interested in the results.

#I’m a genderfluid person who uses he/she/they #but I put non-binary because it fits the most I guess #it’s probably worth noting that I’m afab #polls #writing #fanfiction

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/39863304

Word Count: 760

Pairing: Spamano

Summary: You can’t force art which sucks for Lovino, but you also can’t stop Antonio from loving Lovino which doesn’t suck for Lovino.

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From what I’m seeing, there are 2 days people see as Spamano Day, one on June 24th and one on November 26th. I’m not opposed to observing both of them so behold, writing!! (I meant to have some art done but I might not get it finished by the end of today, we’ll see!)

This concept came from the fact that I was struggling to figure out what to make sksrnsn

#hetalia #spamano #aph romano #hws romano #aph spain #hws spain #stan writing

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My first time posting art here in three months and it’s Hetalia and hurt/comfort-related? I couldn’t have seen that coming, what a surprise! /j (I know people who’ve been following me here don’t really know I like Hetalia but I’ve been watching it since the start of high school 6 years ago so trust me, this isn’t something new lol)

I had a really bad panic attack a couple nights ago, one of the worst ones I think I’ve ever gotten in the 6 years I’ve been living with anxiety (I actually started hyperventilating which my body physically almost never allows), and nothing I usually do to calm down was working, so I hid in my bathtub in my pajamas and drew these in highlighter without thinking and with a whole lot of reckless abandon. It actually stopped the panic attack really quickly which was good

If you want an interesting little fact, the order I drew these in was the the one from the first picture first, then the top right from the second picture, then bottom left, bottom right, and top left (the lily). I think it’s a neat observation, just thought I’d share

(And no, I haven’t actually watched the newest season but I plan to soon, college has just been crazy)

#hetalia #spamano #aph romano #hws romano #aph spain #hws spain #hetalia art #stan art #eyestrain #light gore #sort of #I’m tagging it just in case #if anyone tells me I’m cringe for liking Hetalia I will punt them into the goddamn stratosphere #Romano and Spain have done more for my mental health than almost all the adults in my life combined #not including my therapist cause she’s great

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so much hate on the dash rb to hug the person you reblogged this from <3

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Camilo is just pretty cool, I’ve got nothing else to say

Props to people who draw characters with curly hair on the regular, y’all are magic or something. It was fun though and I really tried to make myself not fuss over it too much, I think I did a pretty decent job of that this time around!

#encanto #camilo madrigal #stan art

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Gender is never a straightforward thing even if we want to believe it is, and want to make it simple. It’s so tempting to just put everything into neat, orderly little boxes with absolutely no overlap, I wish it was at times so that I wouldn’t have to deal with figuring out such a confusing identity as genderfluidity. But it’s not, gender is really complex. Even biological sex isn’t simple.

I took a course last semester on the psychology of gender roles for that very reason and the book I had for that class mentioned genderfluidity TWO times. The second reference was to say that the authors weren’t able to responsibly discuss it with the proper respect needed because only ftm and mtf transgender identities are ever studied and researched extensively when it comes to the trans community. There are no studies on genderfludity, there are no statistics, I’m not even sure how prevalent just as an identity it is in the general population. I wanted to take the course to help me understand my own identity better and came away knowing the exact same information I knew before: I identify with being genderfluid. While extremely limited, non-binary individuals (in the simplified term of not identifying with a gender for the sake of this argument) are brought up at least a handful of times, and it’s mentioned in a way that actively builds to the course material.

There are so many times where I feel like a fraud, and I’m willing to bet so many others in my genderfluid community do too, because of how strictly even when talking about non-binary identities, we still try to keep the conversation cleanly divided with no amounts of overlap. I question all the time whether I’m just making up what I feel about my gender when it changes: Do I actually feel something different from my assigned gender or am I just bothered by the view society has of women? Is it actually dysphoria I’m experiencing or do I just hate the idea of being stared at in a sexualized way? Does it really make me genderfluid enough if I feel like my assigned gender (even just to some extent) for a good majority of time? Am I trans enough to warrant using the term? Am I allowed to consider myself under the non-binary umbrella because of my use of they/them pronouns which is outside of the binary? What if I actually don’t identify with my assigned gender and this is just me transitioning to finding out I’m ftm? Do other genderfluid people experience the same things I am? Am I the only one out here feeling like this? Is it just me who feels insecure in their sense of identity as a genderfluid person? The list goes on and on and on and I don’t even know where to reach out when it comes to these kinds of feelings because it’s so seldom even discussed. I don’t know where my community lies, I don’t know how to find other people that understand genderfluidity because they also identify with it other than by stumbling upon them by chance.

The fact that people are essentially told things shouldn’t mix and that these are all separated and neatly put in a little box makes it difficult to feel like spilling over into multiple of them is acceptable or even like something that can happen. I didn’t find out for the longest time that I was genderfluid, because while I knew it existed as a concept, things are so often divided as trans men, trans women, non-binary people, and even when you get into identities like demigirl or demiboy, it’s still under the impression that you identify with it at all times once you figure that out for yourself. Somehow, it’s not deemed possible for the very act of that fluid experience when it comes to self-discovery being the identity all by itself.

Even if that fluidity is still just the process and someone finds themself back where they started, that’s ok too, because it means now they know more about themselves, they have a better understanding of what it means to be them. Treating gender like a one-and-done deal instills a lot of fear in even letting people start figuring out who they are, because it’s told to us that if we start questioning who we are in relation to our gender, we have to come out different on the other side. We don’t though, we have no obligations, and I wish more people could feel ok with setting off to find out what it means to be them, even if it means looping back around to where it all began. No one is lying when it comes to figuring out their gender, it’s not manipulation or malice, it’s them seeking to feel more in-tune with who they are as an individual. The end result ultimately doesn’t matter, what does is purely that they feel happy and secure in themself

Are we as the trans community ready to acknowledge that sometimes gender just straight up changes?

Obviously this doesn’t apply to all people, but for some trans people they were fine being their AGAB until they weren’t.

I used to follow an enby who proudly identified as a woman for years before one day they just went “actually… it changed. I’m not vibing with that any more. I was a woman, but now I’m not and I’m ready to open a different chapter of my life.”

Sometimes people who are genderfluid don’t have fluctuating dysphoria, and just have a changing gender.

Sometimes non-binary people will find that their masc/femme alignment changes.

Sometimes people who were binary feel more non-binary, or oppositely binary.

Are we ready to normalize this too?

#gender discussion #transgender #genderfluidity #genderfluid #stan’s rambles #long post #I usually don’t reblog a lot of things like this #mostly because it can take a lot of energy to discuss these topics with the nuance they deserve #but this is really important to me #genderfluidity can be really scary at times #and it’s so easy to feel alone in it

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Obviously wanted to share this on my main blog so here we go! Another birthday for me, I have once again survived another planetary revolution!! 🥳

Happy birthday to my birthday buddy Kamasaki Yasushi!!!

Truly a funky dude to share a birthday with but I’m honestly not complaining!

#hoping this year turns out alright at the very least! #stan’s birthday #stan’s rambles

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Know what I’m salty about?

In all my art classes, I was never taught HOW to use the various tools of art.

Like yes, form, and shape and space and color theory and figure drawing is important, but so is KNOWING what different tools do.

I’m 29 and I JUST learned this past month that India Ink is fucking waterproof when it dries. Why is this important? Because I can line something in India Ink and then go over it with watercolors. And that has CHANGED the ENTIRE way I art and the ease I can create with.

tldr: Art Teachers: teach your students what different tools do. PLEASE.

#artist tips #save for reference

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This project for my 2D design class was just asking for me to get carpal tunnel lol

We basically had to deconstruct an item so I chose a hot glue gun. Why I thought that was going to be a good idea is a mystery to me too, don’t worry 😂

#stan art

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I have a project I’m working on for school and at this rate, there are so many steps that I think I’ll get carpal tunnel lol

(Props to you if you can guess the inspiration!)

#I have had to transfer this over 2 different times to a different page #my hand hurts lol #stan wips

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Hey hey hey guys, I apologize for not being on much but I’ve been trying to get things set up lately with a new side blog I made entirely dedicated to Haikyuu content! It’s @bokutos-last-brain-cell if you guys want to go check it out!

I’m going to try and get my non-fandom art up soon, I’ve just been busy trying to get various things done. Anyways, that’s all I’ve got for now!

#stan’s rambles

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You know, it’s crazy how I didn’t catch that I had ADHD sooner, I literally took several months every year in elementary school to get through a single Harry Potter book (and then stopped midway through the first chapter of Half-Blood Prince because I got super bored and never went back lol)

It was my only book, it was all I had mental capacity to read, ever. All of my checkouts on our library days were just me renewing each book over and over until I’d barely gotten myself to finish it.

And now I can’t even pick up a physical book anymore ajjrsjf

#adhd #stan’s rambles

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Hey hey hey guys! I have an announcement but unfortunately it’s not very fun.

This has been a long time coming but I think I’m going to let this just become a regular art blog. Sanders Sides is not my current hyperfixation anymore and hasn’t been for about a year. I wanted to finish up some of the projects I’d had planned, like Prom Queen, which is why I kept trying to post every week but I don’t have any drive for them and it wouldn’t really be for myself that I’d be making it. I hate to leave them unfinished but I wouldn’t be able to put my heart into it like I could a year ago.

As it stands, I’ve been hyperfixating really intensely on Haikyuu and I’ve been holding off on posting my art and writing for it due to my main focus on here being Sanders Sides when I first started up my blog. I also withheld a lot of my own personal artwork so I think I want to start posting more of that here as well.

You aren’t obligated to continue following my blog if my content going forward doesn’t interest you but you’re free to keep vibing with me if you would like to! Either way, y’all are still cool and I appreciate all the support you guys have given me these past two years!

For any of you interested in checking it out, I have an AO3 with an assortment of different writings, which you can find here, and I have a Haikyuu side blog I’m trying to get started soon so you can stay tuned!

It’s been fun and I hope you guys continue to have a good time, whether you plan to stay here or want to move forward!

#stan’s rambles

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Goodness me, things have been busy lately, I’m taking a summer class right now to lighten up my schedule for the next two semesters and it’s taking up more of my time than I thought it would!

I think I’ll be back around July 17th? We’ll see what happens, life gets crazy! Love you guys, stay safe and stay well! I’ll be lurking, just not able to post if you want to drop me a message!

#stan’s rambles

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No post for today, things have been coming up lately and I’m not exactly doing the best currently. I’ll be ok though, I’ll get something posted when I can

#stan’s rambles

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Taglist: @artissi-jam, @its-the-cat-queen, @virgils-paranoia, @marshmallow-the-panda, @simkarta333, @anotheregofanblog

Virgil with piercings isn’t usually something I draw but eh, I can get behind it in all honesty-

Lol I got randomly inspired to give him piercings and wanted to try doing a rough sketch and coloring of a piece to try and kick my need to be a perfectionist (It’s way too bad, I despise it!) So here we are!!

#taglist reblog