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im so glad i found these articles and papers on red vs blue’s impact, especially during the BGC era because while i always knew that RVB was iconic and and revolutionary as a new storytelling medium, i didn’t understand just HOW revolutionary it was. now im no longer begging my friends to watch a gamer show please god it gets really good, now i am expertly recommending them a revolutionary piece of anti-war media that is a successor to the 1950s theater of the absurd movement that has been compared to M*A*S*H and waiting for godot, which was played at film festivals and written about in the New York Times, and they should be thanking me

#Y E A H #not video games #rvb #red vs blue

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#I'm already doing 5 years of engineering. actually I'm finishing the 5th year now #I'm also set to be a counsellor for a STEM summer camp so we've kinda got the babysitting covered too #presenting the speech would straight up be fun though I think. especially if the people were a captive audience #time to yell about the flaws in our healthcare system or some shit!!! #not video games #tumblr polls

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torture the bisexual brunette man some more

#prev tags: I'm sorry gambit but the pneumothorax is necessary! #my tags: what's writing for if not for subjecting your blorbo to a cheeky lil needle decompression and thoracostomy tube? #not video games

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In order to keep the plot and details of MechQuest and DragonFable straight I've started saving screencaps of dialogue and details in every quest from the beginning. I was storing them as layers in .mdp files, but it turns out they add up quick and 200+ layers make things run slow... so I decided to make a sideblog to save them all on instead.

Anyway, just discovered there's a limit to the number of images you can upload onto tumblr in one day!

#late nights with ali #ali plays ae #I'm considering this my version of hitting post limit. out of like 12 years here I've never reached it so this is good enough lmao #I was mechquesting so hard tumblr had to slap my lil pizza hands #when I have slightly more on it I might make the blog public but I don't want to spam the tags #so I'll wait until I finish uploading the backlog I have now

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I was originally planning on holding off sharing this until June, but then decided to hell with that; why wait?

FURTHER RESOURCES:

Intersections: Indigenous and 2SLGBTQQIA+ Identities – this booklet from the Native Women’s Association of Canada is more intended towards 2S folks, but is still a great read for anyone.

Two Spirits, One Voice – This video from Egale is a great, no more comments needed.

A Two-Spirit Journey: The Autobiography of a Lesbian Ojibwa-Cree Elder – This book by Ma-Nee Chacaby can be a difficult and emotional read, but very much worth it.

Becoming Two-spirit: Gay Identity and Social Acceptance in Indian Country – I have yet to read this book by Brian Joseph Gilley myself, but heard positive things about it.

Please feel free to reblog with more suggestions, if you have them!

#not video games #two-spirit

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A friend was doing a research project a few months ago about how people describe their gender, and I described it as “[…] a 3 dimensional object, it cannot be comprehended on a 2d plane”. And as I’ve been reflecting on my gender and being two-spirit, I put together a small thing based on that.

This is about being two-spirit

❌White Nonbinary People, This Is Not About You or For You To Relate To❌

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Image one: An x-axis of a graph is shown in red, with the points between 1 and 3 being highlighted blue. The text overlay reads “Imagine the gender binary as a one dimensional plane… Everything is on the line, and you can only exist on the line. Everyone is a line, you can only be a line. Looking at this blue object, it looks like a line.”

Image two: A graph with an x and y axis is shown, the blue line from the first image is one side of a blue square. The text overlay reads “The object is actually a square. You can’t see that when you’re in a one dimensional plane (As those who only understand the gender binary do not understand nonbinary people).”

Image three: The same x-y graph is shown, this time with a red square that intersects the x axis. The text overlay reads “Now we see shapes in their entirety, yes? Once we’re not confined to a 1d plane, we can comprehend the 2d objects. We understand that this shape here is not a line, it’s a square.”

Image four: The graph is now a 3-dimensional graph with an x, y, and z axis. The red square from the previous image is one side of a red cube. The text overlay reads “It is not. This is my gender. My gender is a 3 dimensional object, it cannot be comprehended on a 2d plane (or a one dimensional plane).”

Image five: An iridescent impossible cube, as created by M.C. Escher is shown. It resembles a cube, but is an optical illusion, as the edges connect in a way that does not make sense. The text overlay reads “It is not for you to comprehend. Neither is it for you to reduce to something that fits in a 2d plane. I do not need your comprehension to exist.”

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#this is. an incredible way of illustrating it #two-spirit #not video games

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Realized I have a naked rat and a small piano

Here's Harry banging out the tunes, April 13th 2023

#not video games #rats

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Still Banging Out Tunes.

Happy 4/13

#not video games #homestuck #neil banging out the tunes #dave strider

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everyone make sure to set out cheese & crackers for neil tonight <3

#not video games #ANNIVERSARY #neil banging out the tunes #rats

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Oh my god this story on Ask A Manager’s request for Machiavellian triumphs at work

#modern au grif vibes #addition from roommate: simmons is the one who told him that would work #not video games

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man okay so I used to play mechquest and dragonfable back in like, 2008 when I was a kid with very little patience to follow a storyline. coming back as an adult and finishing mechquest has absolutely slapped me silly with how deep and serious the story is in between all the absurdist humour. I have. so many emotions over the whole storyline, and especially so many thoughts about the unique form of tragedy that is The Reset.

You save the world but it's not the world anymore. You and your friends survive but you don't know each other anymore- have nothing left of the lives you fought to keep. You 'save' everything but it's still all gone. Everything you knew and loved, gone, and you don't even know what you've lost. You can't even keep the memory of what you had- and that's almost kinder compared to being one of the 3ish people who DO remember... and have to live around everyone else who doesn't, knowing their closest friends look at them and see a stranger, and that they may as well be because they aren't that person they remember being.

And to top it all off, that terrible sacrifice doesn't even end it. you're still left fighting impossible and devastating wars over and over. It's the tragedy of doomed time loops with extra layers of devastating all over the place. The GEARS University students being forced to become soldiers because they're all that's left to protect their homeworld. The horrors of the Shadowscythe virus taking over friends and loved ones you may be forced to put down to save yourself. The town of Falconreach burning over and over because no matter how hard they fight, it's never enough. The people like Sha'rae who sacrifice themselves to try and prevent tyrrany from seizing power, only for it to be utterly useless.

Anyway the brainrot is severe and especially dangerous since I'm coming into exam season and all my hyperfixated brain wants to do is chew on glass about these games.

#late nights with ali #ali plays ae #<- tentatively establishing this tag For The Future #mechquest #dragonfable #literally forced my roommate to listen to my thoughts on the absurd clashening of humour and tragedy that is cysero last night lmfao #imagine remembering being sys-zero with all the trauma that brings but being confined in your new self by the laws of comedy #so you can never truly acknowledge it and you have to spend your days around the people you were closest to- #(minus odessa who's just. completely absent)- and never FEEL it in any meaningful way. because you're cysero now and cysero is a comedy. #also like dude is roommates with warlic. formerly the dean of GEARS and a leader figure to him. but now he's just. some guy. #what must that be like??? pretty messed up for certain!!! #anyway I'm supposed to be finishing my final biophysics assignment and all I can think about is this #so I'm taking breaks between questions to make a playlist that I may post alongside the art I did of my MQ hero at some point #pls pray for me and my grades

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Happy Birthday, Commander Shepard.

#mass effect #commander shepard #national holiday

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Friendly reminder that you should

Write that fic

Draw your OC

Redesign that blorbo

Plan that comic how you want

Create the content you want to see

Be cringe

Be free

The only thing that matters is you having fun! Not what others think!

#not video games

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spellcasting isn't like academia it's like writing. spellcasting is about saying "you know what would be really fucked up?" and then making it happen anyway. because you can.

#cysero dragonfable #not video games

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#not video games #nurse helia and the mechquest hero #...and cysero and dragonfable warlic

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guys i need you to realize that smoking ANYTHING will cause damage to your lungs. inhaling smoke is just inherently bad for you im sorry.

#not video games #posts that I want to shove in my mother's face until she accepts it #people need to stop lying about weed smoking to make it sound more benign!!! #yes it deserves to be decriminalized and legalized but that should not be achieved by perpetuating misinformation!!! #and I'm also really tired of people being accused of 'demonizing' it just for pointing out there are real risks to be considered #people need to make informed decisions about what they put into their bodies!!! #sorry to rant in ur tags op but people saying only cigarrettes give you lung damage is infuriating to me as a public health concern

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Carolina just guts me, man. 

Like even aside from her debilitatingly severe need to impress her father and her team to the point of near breaking herself and her relationships to remain number 1 on the most arbitrary, fucked up board in the world like. The person she’s trying to wrest attention from, trying to beat so bad is her mom. A simulated, fucked up (i love tex, i want to talk about her for eons but she is fundamentally a ‘came back wrong’ scenario that i can elaborate on later) version of her mom. And sure , she doesn’t like. Know that but the narrative, dude. 

She’s constantly vying for her father’s attention and approval and he does not remotely give a shit past bringing his wife back. 

Not to mention she’s implanted with. I mean. Just think about who she gets implanted with. The fragments are fragments of alpha who is a copy of her father. She’s implanted with both his hope and his fear. Isn’t that just like. A perfect metaphorical follow through analysis of Carolina as a person? She is her father’s hope and fear. She both is a constant reminder of his wife, and his fears blatantly in front of him because she isn’t her. 

Carolina has to constantly fight to be seen as not just an asset to a team but as a person, as a daughter. And that drive to get approval, to be the best, to be enough is so strong that she’s willing to essentially betray the one person in her life that actively does see her as a person (york obv), as a woman who exists outside of her father’s control and whims…

I think its poignantly upsetting that we don’t actually know carolina’s name. Like even that has been denied to her in the ways that she has been formed by her father’s quest for Memory. And speaking of memory, i think it’s intensely rewarding that she is able to foster what is essentially a sibling relationship with the representation of the Memory that has haunted her second-hand since her mother died when she was a child. Like how healing is that narrative story? Carolina is such a strong person to the point that her brother is the righteous incarnation of that which has prevented her humanity for decades and they heal together. 

God i have so many carolina thoughts this is just the beginning *banging my drums* im insane

#screaming crying throwing up #agent carolina #carolina rvb #not video games #red vs blue #rvb