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How to move on from tc? (I need to so badly, it’s not a joke anymore😭🙏)

Ngl I only moved on because I fell for another guy my age 😭 but time definitely helps. It’s harder if you’re seeing them regularly and I know I’d never move on from my tc if I was still being taught by him. Idk I’m terrible at moving on but in my case time and distance and being interested in other people helped. It felt impossible at first but if I could do it then anyone can truly… good luck and know that despite what you may feel right now it is truly possible and you will some day!

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i start laughing but then i remember that i'll never be his best friend and get to hang out with him and know everything about him and be loved by him so nothing's actually funny

#ENOUGH

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I have to ask!!!! How did you continue being friends with your tc after you graduated? I’m graduating soon and idk how to even propose continuing to communicate…it’s normal at my school but still

I didn’t graduate, I’m still in undergrad but I transferred! But ig my situation is similar to graduating. For me a lot of it was on the part of my tc, he brought up staying in contact first and obviously wanted to, but I did end up emailing him first. I’d say just ask, if you’re reasonably close with them it’s perfectly acceptable and they’ll definitely say yes. Easier said than done I know but if it’s normal at your school then I’m sure they’ll be open to it. Or if you don’t want to ask you could just email them to check in after graduating, it seems scary but I’m sure they’d love to hear how you’re doing.

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so! I saw him last night. putting this under a read more because it’s gonna be a ramble.

I had such a good time omg. We met for dinner and basically just talked for hours til 2 am and got drunk, it was exactly like it used to be when I was his student. But he’s a lot more open with me now that I’m not, and he said we’re friends, actual friends, and if he says that then I guess I have to believe it.

He’s with a woman now, and although it doesn’t sound like it’s some great affair and he said it’s more of a partnership I wasn’t upset by that. A year ago I would’ve been but now as long as he’s content with it I’m fine with it. Plus he was saying how he had an “almost paternal” worry for me and offered me paternal advice if I ever wanted it. Again, a year ago I would’ve hated it but now it’s just really sweet that he views me like that and I’m glad he cares about me almost like I’m his daughter.

I don’t love him anymore in the way I used to. I knew that the moment I saw him again. It’s not 2022 anymore and I’m not who I was back then and that’s for the best. I do, however, still love him in some way. It’s hard to explain but it’s almost a nostalgic affection and a gladness that he’s in my life. If he asked me to be with him I still would, but it’s not the overwhelming longing that it used to be. I’ll always love him for who he is and what he’s done for me, I know that, but now I’m just happy about that.

I’m glad I got to see him again. He said he’d let me know when he’s back in the area, so maybe I’ll see him again. Either way, I needed the closure. I used to pray to see him one last time and I did and I’m happy, I’m so happy.

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okay so um we should be meeting Wednesday evening according to him if everything goes right. genuinely pray for me I’m so nervous I feel like I’m gonna throw up on him when I see him

#and now all I can think about is him #just like old times #how fun

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Every time I see him I remember that he has a life that I have no idea about, that I will never-ever be an important part of . Thats evil !

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HE EMAILED ME AND SAID IT’D BE NICE IF WE MET UP FOR DINNER NEXT WEEK HELLO???

#I’m 21 now too so I can drink with him lmfao #ahhhhhh I’m so happy I really hope this ends up happening

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he emailed me yesterday and said he found a place related to something I’m interested in and took photos of it because he thought I’d like it 😭 it’s times like these when I get forcibly reminded of why I loved him in the first place

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requested my old high school tc on insta when I haven’t spoken to him in almost 4 years 💀 yolo though idgaf

#what am i doing

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some of yalls tc codenames are so crazy like wdym "Pythagoras theorem and I made eye contact today 😍" ‼️⁉️😭

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when i have a crush i dont kick my feet or twirl my hair instead i am in my kitchen at 3am pacing in circles with my hands clasped behind my back like a middle-aged divorced detective haunted by a cold case he just cant crack

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when god closes a window (miserable situation with a professor that would never go anywhere) he opens a door (miserable situationship with my coworker that makes me feel even worse because it actually went somewhere)

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he is the sole reason that im losing the idgaf war

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little life update ig… this summer has been crazy and I’m in a situationship with my work crush. for various reasons we’re not officially together and realistically we never will be but he’s genuinely a very good person and so I’ve learned to make myself settle for whatever I can get. it’s not any better than having a tc tbh but hey here we are.

I’ve mostly gotten over my tc because of that but I know I’ll always have feelings for him, it’s just one of those situations. he emailed me the other day and said that he’ll be around my area at some point to go visit something if I’d want to join him, and I know the second I see him in person again I’m gonna fall back but it’s whatever. I’m still gonna try to do it though because I gotta see him one last time… that’s what I tell myself to justify it anyway.

#had my first kiss and everything with that guy though so I’m not gonna be seeing my tc as a kissless loser

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