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Give Me A Chance -Mitch Marner

A/N: Hi everyone, sorry I’ve been missing for so long. Shit’s been crazy but here is a Mitch story to hopefully start the beginning of me posting more again.

Alexis dragged me to the party. Well I shouldn't say dragged, I knew a lot of the other players that were there and it was nice to see them. Finding out he was my cousin had it's perks. However I knew when I came that there were people I wasn't fond of and that he would disappear pretty quickly, leaving me tipsy and alone.

And that's what I was, tipsy and alone. It wasn't the end of the world I just didn't know who to spend time with. I saw Auston refilling his drink alone so I decided he was who I'd hang out with for a while.

"Hey Aus, congrats on winning that award!"

"HI! Thanks (y/n). I didn't know you were coming tonight."

"Yeah Alexis convinced me it could be fun."

"And is it fun?"

"I suppose it's pretty fun." I said in an exaggerated nonchalant tone, making him laugh.

"Does Mitch know you're here yet?" He teased.

"No I don't think so. He hasn't bugged me yet so I'd say no. There's lots of people around. He's not gonna spot me in the crowd."

"You wanna bet?"

"What do you mean?"

"I'm positive he'd find you in less than 10 minutes."

"And why do you think that?"

"Because I don't know if you've noticed but our dear Mitchy is quite smitten with you."

"Ew don't say it like that." I said, making him laugh.

"Well it's true!"

"He's not smitten Auston, he's horny. There's a difference."

"There is a difference, yes, but apparently you can't tell the difference."

"How do you know?"

"He talks about you all the time!"

"Oh shut up no he doesn't."

"He does."

"I've only spoken to him like 4 times. 2 very briefly because the second time I met him he was drunk and told me I was hot and would be fun to try out. I'm not interested in being 'tried out' Auston. Those days are far behind me."

"Well I promise you he doesn't just want to bang you. He asks everyone about you and wonders out loud."

"Auston come off it. You expect me to believe that? Besides he's dating that girl, it's absolutely not fair to her."

"Oh Mitch broke up with Stephanie aaaages ago. He didn't think it was fair to her either."

"Ah I see." I said trying to seem like I didn't care about that information.

"I still bet that if I told him you were here he'd find you in under 10 minutes."

"You're on Matthews."

"Okay, you go wander around, when you're confident in your place text me. It's gotta be in a party room though, you can't go hide in my guest room or something."

"Fine. We'll see how this goes I guess."

"Prepare yourself for an overly excited slightly drunk Mitch."

"How's that any different than usual?"

"He's drunk this time." He said laughing as he turned to go into the crowd. "Let me know when you're good."

He left and I started wandering around. I tried hard to find a good spot but eventually gave up and made myself another drink after texting Auston to let out the bloodhound. I looked at the time and made a mental note to check again when he found me. I moved from the drink area back to the living room and waited. After a couple minutes I felt arms jump and wrap around me.

"(Y/n)! I didn't know you were here, where have you been hiding?"

"Hi Mitch." I said, patting his arm then getting out of his arms ignoring his pout. "I haven't been here all that long, I ran into Auston and was talking to him for a bit."

"Yeah he's the one who told me you were here! I had to come say hi, see how you were. It's been a long time since last time I saw you and got to talk."

"I'm good! How are you?"

"Been kinda down honestly." He said with a shrug as he casually took a sip of beer. Curiosity got the better of me.

"I'm sorry to hear that Mitch, you okay?"

"Yeah of course, I mean I did break up with my girlfriend and my team did get beat in the first round again but it's fine, I've been managing. What about you though what have you been up to? We haven't seen you around much."

"I had finals and stuff. That kinda had to take a front seat for a while. My social life just had to wait. I've got an internship which is exciting! It's at the aquarium and I'm really excited to be working with the team look after the animals. I get to prepare food, feed them, clean, transport…it's been so much fun." I looked up and saw him listening intently with a smile and I panicked, looking away back at my drink. "Sorry I'm rambling, you don't care about all that."

"What do you mean?" He asked in confusion.

"I'm just blabbering about nothing important, people don't care about it I'm just over excited."

"(Y/n) what are you talking about? Of course I care. I could listen to you talk about stuff like that for hours." He said giving me a small smile. "So the aquarium huh? That means you'll be right downtown right?"

"Yeah I've got a place probably 10 minutes away walking. It's really nice, I love it."

"That's great! Maybe we'll see you around!"

"Maybe! Although I'm sure you guys are way too busy to entertain me."

"Don't be silly! Never too busy." He winked and I had to look down to keep him from seeing the blush on my face. "I'm out of beer so I'm gonna get another one, you want anything?"

"No I'm still good, no worries." I smiled as he left before walking around trying to lose him.

"Well look who it is! How's it going?" Auston said with a huge shiteating grin. "Did Mitchy find ya?"

"Oh fuck off you know he did." I mumbled.

"We should've put money on it."

"I wasn't willing to lose money."

"So you knew he'd find you?"

"Not 100% but I was pretty sure he would."

"Does he know why you're here?"

"At the party?"

"Don't act dumb, you know what I meant. Can we all hangout again or what?"

"He knows I'm here semi-permanently. I told him about the internship."

"Finally."

"It's been less than a month, Auston."

"And it's been killing me trying to keep it from him. He's like a fucky puppy (y/n/n), you get near a door he's coming too and is so dejected when you say no especially without giving a good reason."

"Well I'm sorry but he knows now. You don't have to do that anymore."

"You guys have kept this a secret from me for a month?" Mitch asked from behind me.

"Fuck." I muttered.

"Why?" He asked looking between the two of us, but mostly at Auston.

"Mitch I just wanted to get settled in, that's all." I said quickly.

"Well that's obviously a fucking lie." He snorted.

"It's not. I did want to get settled in before you knew I was here."

"What why? I'm that annoying and overbearing that you couldn't get settled in and chill if I knew?"

"Mitch I-"

"Don't even worry about it. Point made." He said turning to leave.

"Mitch come on." I tried but he just kept going to the kitchen, giving me the finger as he went. "What the fuck was that for?"

"He's really upset."

"I know that Auston but why? We've barely ever spoken!"

"He really likes you (Y/n)."

"I don't want to believe that." I mumbled.

"Why not? Why can't you just accept that he likes you and all of this is hurting him?"

"Because Auston, I don't want to hurt him. But if I start to believe that then I'm gonna start to get hope and then I'm going to be hurt."

"You're such a fucking idiot. Like I love you don't get me wrong, but goddamn. You're lying to yourself and hurting Mitch because you refuse to admit he might like you?"

"See it sounds rational until you say it. Maybe it's your tone?"

"You know damn well that this isn't rational."

"Neither is Mitch liking me! It doesn't make any sense! Why? What? I just don't get it."

"It doesn't need to make sense to you. Go talk to him! You're hurting two of my favourite people for no reason."

"What if he doesn't listen right now?"

"Then you deserve to wait until he's ready."

"That's fair. I'm going to try and find him."

"Just try to fix it. He's drunk but you are one person I fully believe he'd listen to right now. You can go up to your guest room to talk if need be."

"I'll see you later!" I called as I turned to find Mitch.

It took a while, I think he was purposely avoiding me. I went through all the party space twice and didn't see him. I thought about going upstairs to look but just as I got to the stairs I saw him in the kitchen he saw me and started trying to escape but he was behind the island so he was kind of trapped.

"Mitch come on, let me explain."

"I think you've really said enough."

"Please? I really haven't." I tried to go around and he tried to escape but i caught him by the arm. He shook me off. "Mitchy please stop running from me and let me explain."

"I don't want an explanation."

"Please just listen because it's not what you think at all."

"No! Why would I give you the chance to just make yourself feel better?" He asked looking angry.

"Mitch it's not just to make me feel better."

"Yes it is. You've made your point, I'm a fucking burden to you, I've been bothering you every time I come up to you these last few months."

"That's not true, I want to talk to you, I want you to approach me."

"No you don't!"

"Yes I really do!"

"Lying isn't helpful (y/n)."

"God, I'm not lying right now!" I said getting angry. "I wanted to finally be honest with you and explain why things have been the way they are but Auston was wrong, you aren't going to listen and don't give a shit about what I have to say just like I fucking told him you wouldn't."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You don't give a shit what I have to say. Like you said last time you drank with me around, you literally just want to fuck and that's it. I told him that too and he told me I was wrong but obviously that's not true because you don't give a single fuck." I tried to leave but he grabbed my arm.

"Give me a chance!" He exclaimed loudly making everyone close by stare at us.

"Mitch shut up." I said as quiet as I could to still be heard above the noise.

"No (y/n)! Give me a chance!"

"Fucking come here." I grabbed him and dragged him to Auston's guest room. I slammed and locked the door. "What is your fucking problem tonight?"

"What do you mean?"

"What the hell was that out there?" I exclaimed gesturing to the party on the other side of my door. "I get upset that the situation is exactly what I thought it was and you start yelling and making everyone stare at us!"

"The situation is not what you think it is. Like literally at all." He scoffed and laid down on the bed I always sleep in when I stay over.

"That's my side of the bed." I said stupidly.

"Sorry."

"No you're not."

"Not really." He said with a lazy grin that had me smiling at him.

"Can I sit?"

"Of course." He didn't move out of my spot so I just sat at the edge facing him, our knees were touching because he kept his feet off the bed when he laid down. He sat up a bit straighter but he kept our legs touching.

"Can I please try to explain? I completely understand if you don't want to and I deserve to wait until you're ready so please don't feel like you have to hear me out right now. Or ever really I guess if you don't want to." I said shrugging.

"I guess you can. I'm fucking mad though, let that be known."

"That's completely fair."

"Like a month? Seriously? You kept it from me for an entire month?"

"Well to be honest it's only been about 3 weeks but yes."

"Why? What on earth made you think that was the right move?"

"I meant what I said when I told you I wanted time to settle in, but not at all because you're a burden or annoying. Nothing like that, ever." I had put my hand on his leg to try and let my words really sink in. Or at least that's what I told myself.

"Why couldn't you have done that with me knowing you were living close by?" He crossed his arms as I got up. "What are you doing?"

"I can't look at you while I say this right now." I looked at the ground and he just stayed quiet so I continued. "I couldn't have you know I was there because of me, not you. If you had known I was that close I would have wanted you around every day. If you'd asked to hangout or something I would've said yes and I wouldn't have ever fully gotten everything done."

"I can still give people space, you know?" He asked getting up and standing in front of me.

"But that's just it, I don't want you to do that. I don't want space."

"This is a big change from the beginning of the night. How can I believe that this isn't a lie so I'm not mad."

"Mitchy I've been lying to myself the entire time I've known you. I lied to myself because of Steph, I lied to myself because of Auston, I lied to myself over what you said last time you were drunk. I'm not interested in being 'tried out' as you put it and I've been telling myself for a year that you don't actually like me and you just want to fuck so that I don't like you but I fucking like you dude. I always have and it's scary."

"Why's it scary?"

"I haven't felt like this in a long time and it's scary. You're incredible and I'm so fucking ordinary. Plus what you said before. I can't like someone that just wants to try me out."

"(Y/n) you absolutely sweetheart, you're so not fucking ordinary. I don't want that, I never wanted that. I literally broke up with my girlfriend for you."

"Wait that was for me? You didn't even know I was here."

"Of course it was for you. You're so special. It didn't matter where you were I couldn't stop thinking about you and it wasn't fair to anyone. I was ready to try and make a long distance thing happen."

"Auston told me that you guys broke up and it was mutual. I'm sorry I caused that pain in your life."

"Don't be sorry." He said reaching out to cup my cheek and get me to look at him. "I'm not sorry. I couldn't stay with her, it wasn't fair."

"But you're not doing good, you said."

"Not about that. I said it with the things I was sad about as a way to casually drop the information that I was single now and had been for a little bit. I'm bummed out about the playoffs. And I'm still bummed out you didn't tell me you were here." He walked back from me and sat down on the bed again, laying back in the middle of it.

"I'm sorry. I wanted to reach out to you so many times to see if you were okay but I didn't think it was my place. I meant what I said before though, I never would've finished dick all if I knew you were willing to hangout with me a lot."

"Come here." He said softly holding his arms open for me.

"What?"

"Come here. Stop denying me what I'm sure will be one of life's greatest pleasures." He said with a grin.

I rolled my eyes before slipping off my shoes and my flannel shirt leaving me in a t-shirt and shorts. I crawled into the bed trying to get situated on the other side of him but he pulled me down right on top of him. He took a deep breath and kissed my forehead. We stayed laying there in silence for a while and it was comfortable.

"Why have you been denying this?" Mitch asked.

"Mostly because of Steph. It just wasn't fair and I saw how it hurt her having your attention on me. I felt so guilty."

"Well there's nothing to feel guilty about. Let me be around. Let me prove that this is for real and that I really want to be everything you need." He said softly, moving a piece of hair from my eyes.

"Okay." I said, boldly shifting up to give him a kiss before teasing him "I suppose I could give you a chance."

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the night's still young

Summary: Scenes from a hazy summer night. Or, getting high with Auston.

Warnings: Smut. Smut. Tiny bit of fluff at the end. Drug use. Language.

Author's Note: This could take place in the same universe as "still ain't got no rest" - I'd imagine it taking place in like... July.

This was harder for me to put together, mostly because i started with the smut and had to work backwards to make it not just pure porn lol

Thanks for all your comments about the first Auston fic I wrote, it motivates me like crazy xo

You love the long summer nights, when it’s the offseason, when responsibilities ebb away, and where you can spend the hours getting high with Auston outdoors round a fire pit.

Everything is warm around the edges, everything seems a little bit funnier. Mitch is telling a story about something you can't fully follow - but you laugh nonetheless.

As another joint passes around the group, you lean against Auston's side a bit more, craving the feeling of him, chasing the feeling. He looks down at you, eyes dark, pupils blown, reflecting the flames - you get lost for a minute or five.

You're feeling everything just a little bit more.... intensely right now. But also feeling everything less like individual sensations than one long drawn out wave of feeling.

After a little bit, the feeling settles down to between your legs, making you clench your thighs together where you sit beside him, a blanket thrown over your legs to ward off the chill of the night.

Auston notices.

The blanket makes it easy for him to slide a hand between your legs and press down making you almost gasp with the pressure.

He taps his hand down a few times, watching you squirm out if the corner of his eye

You dislodge him, and jump up to drag him inside

You can barely make it back the the room you are sharing in this chalet in Muskoka before Auston has you backed up against the wall and you feel him all around you.

There's nothing you can think of in that moment other than his lips on yours, so you stretch up to close the gap, but he pulls back.

"Tell me what you want," he says, low and teasing.

You whimper a bit, he knows exactly what his voice does to you.

“Fuck Auston, I just need you, I can’t-“

He laughs.

He takes one of his huge hands and tilts your chin up, angling your head just the way he wants, and finally his mouth is on yours.

You know you moan into the kiss, but you don't care what you sound like right now. You just want more of Auston.

It's a lazy kiss, but there's definitely a heat to it too. You tangle your hands in his too-long hair, just trying to feel every part of him.

It's not enough.

“Bed" you break away to gasp.

The two of you got naked in record time - this isn't the first time you've gotten high together, and it always hits you both like this - the ceaseless need for each other.

Auston settles himself back on the bed as you crawl between his legs. God you love how big his thighs are, and part of you just wants to grind your core against one until you cum just like that but right now your one track mind has one goal and it's the very erect cock in front of you.

You lean down and lick a stripe up the side before wrapping your lips around the head. He lets out a low groan and when you look up his eyes have fluttered closed and he just looks wrecked. He tangles one of his hands in your long hair and you groan around him.

You love Auston's dick, love having him at your mercy like this, but you also want so much more and you are aching with the need to have him inside you. You're about to pull off of him when he pulls your head back for you.

"Love your mouth babe," he says, voice extra low and raspy, "but I need to be inside you"

His eyes watch you, pupils so blown in the dim light that they look black as the night outside.

You just climb up and sink yourself down onto him - you're not about to make him beg. Not this time anyway.

You feel the stretch and it just feels so intense and full and just so much but it's all you've wanted since you took your first hit of the joint. Feeling Auston inside you, feeling him thrust up to meet you as you grind down against him, feeling the friction of your breasts on his chest as he holds you close against him. Feeling his mouth against the side of your neck, teasing and then biting and then pressing little open mouths kisses.

God you love how you fit together.

You're on your hands and knees, ass up in the air, and his cock is working in and out of your dripping pussy while he slides his thumb across your other hole. He spits on your ass and rubs his thumb through it and dips it into your ass as you scream out.

He tugs at your rim and works his thumb into you. It feels so good and you just want more moremoremore and he just laughs and snaps his hips a bit harder and swaps his thumb for a lubed up finger instead.

You can't even register the sound you're making in the moment, every part of you alive with sensation. Your nipples dragging across the sheets, your right hand busy rubbing your clit.

“Fuckfuckfuck I'm gonna cuuuum”

“Cum for me, baby”

He fucks into you relentlessly, working his finger into your ass and you just shatter apart, screaming his name and just getting pushed through waves of pleasure that keep coming as he just keeps going.

Shit baby, he groans out, folding forward over you to hold you close as he pulses inside you. You feel everything so much and you just need to be in this moment, so full of him, so full.

Things are still hazy once you've cleaned up a bit and you're both curled up in bed away from the one awkward wet spot.

As always, Auston is on his side, his limbs wrapped around you. (It's either you or a pillow so you'd rather it be you.)

You love how things feel when you're high but you really love how your skin seems to buzz extra wherever the two of you are touching. You feel him relaxing around you, and you just ride the feeling.

“Hey Aus,” you say.

“Hmm?”

“Love you.”

He stills. Then his fingers lightly stroke your arm where they're resting. The skin turns to goosebumps.

"Love you too.”

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Prompt List

This list is currently CLOSED. Thanks for the requests, they'll be out soon!

Hey I've been in somewhat of a rut for writing, in an attempt to get my wheels turning I am doing another prompt list/ blurb weekend. I will be accepting prompts from the following list today and will be writing/ releasing them over the next little bit.

+ pick a player or two for each prompts

+ pick one or two prompts, if you pick more than two for each request I more than likely will only write two of them

“It’s 1AM. Go to sleep!”

“Who buys 25 packs of balloons?!”

“Could you please make an effort with them?” “I don’t care about them, I only care about is you.”

“Rules are meant to be broken.” Actually, that’s not-“ “Come on!!”

“If you don’t stop now I’m calling your mom!”

“Calm down, I don’t see what the big deal is.”

“I’ve never wanted anything so much in my entire life.”

“I thought I could trust you.”

“What’s the password?”

“How long are you planning on staying?”

“It’s okay to cry, you know.”

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s like I can’t stop crying.”

“I can’t quite believe you’re standing here in front of me.”

“It’s awfully dull around here without you.”

“You really don’t see it, do you?”

“Doesn’t take an idiot to figure it out.”

“I wanted to kiss you.”

“Of course I stayed”

Wow…you…you look stunning.”

“It's okay, I promise you, I will be here when you wake up."

“Sometimes, i guess i kinda wish you could see yourself through my eyes.”

“Is that my shirt?”

“You don’t owe me anything.”

“I feel safe in your arms, I always have”

“I could get used to this”

“I can’t wait to wake up and see you in the morning”

“I like the way your hand fits in mine”

“Stop distracting me”

“Were you touching yourself?”

“I’m at work.” “all the more reason”

“I thought you said he was gone for the night”

“I would have stayed if you asked”

“You know I’d do anything for you”

“I feel so fucking stupid”

“Please don’t go”

“We just don’t really talk anymore”

“You’re nothing more than a memory”

“This isn’t what I wanted”

“I’m not drunk enough for this”

“Take off your shirt”

“I told you not fall in love with me”

“We’ll figure this out.”

“Do you still love me?”

“I’m worried about you.”

“Maybe you should just leave.”

“Maybe this is all it will be”

“How long?”

“What are we doing here?”

“We we’re on a break”

“It’s snowing!”

“It’s going to get hard.”

“They are so cute when asleep.”

“Can you come over?”

“I knew you’d miss me.”

“Are you…are you jealous?”

“It’s not you it’s me.”

“I don’t want to lose you.”

“You expect me to just forgive this?”

“Drunk saying are sober thoughts.”

“If we stay still they might not see us.”

“Just forget it.”

“Why are you lying?”

“Lie to me then.”

“I can’t keep pretending strangers are you.”

“I don’t share.”

“I still remember the way you taste.”

“We’re not friends.”

“You’re so oblivious.”

“You’re going out, dressed like that?”

“Please don’t go.”

“One last time.”

“Shouldn’t you be with them?”

“This isn’t goodbye.”

“Dance with me.”

“Even after everything you don’t believe me.”

“I could never forget you.”

“It’s not that easy.”

“I lost our baby.”

“That’s wifey level shit.”

“They’re monsters.”

“I just need you to smile.”

“I had a bad dream.”

“Want to just run away from all this?”

“Are you done?”

“Aren’t they beautiful?”

“Take your clothes off.”

“You know what that face does to me.”

“I don’t love you anymore.”

I never meant to hurt you.”

“This is new.”

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Gentleman

A/N: Hi I’m sorry I fell off the face of the earth. I tried to write an actual book in a year. I got pretty close then got writers block and didn’t want to even think about words. Now I’m in college again! Things are exciting but I’m feeling so much more like myself and all I want to do is read and write! So to celebrate that here is a soft boi Jesperi Kotkaniemi smut for everyone. It’s 8k words. I went ham on this one. It was requested on Wattpad but I refuse to post it there because I’m mad at them. The best William Nylander smut I ever wrote was on there and someone reported it and Wattpad took all the smut down. I’ve been mad for 3 months about that lost Willy fic. I’m not okay. Anyway with that, enjoy my loves!

After a long day at work all I wanted to do was lay down and take a nap. Customer service jobs were proving again, to not be for me. A person can only take so much. A person can only be yelled at for things they couldn't control for a little while before they snapped. Couple that with minimum wage and awful management, it really didn't seem worth it anymore.

I thought about quitting while I struggled to find the key that unlocked the door to my apartment that I shared with my friend Jessie. Once I got in I flopped down on the couch groaning. I heard Jessie giggling from the kitchen.

"Another bad day?"

"They're all bad Jess. This place sucks. I think my manager gets off on making me cry."

"I doubt she gets off on it."

"No I really think she does. Why else would she make me do it everyday?"

"Because she's a bitch. Get up." She said hitting my leg.

I groaned again but did what she said. She handed me a plate of chicken nuggets and fries before turning on whatever show she was obsessed with now, it changed every week pretty much. We ate in silence besides the TV sounds. My phone rang interrupting the silence. Jessie shushed me and I flicked her cheek before checking who it was. When I saw the name I jumped up towards my room.

"Oooh I know who that is!" She said in a sing song voice.

"Shut up!" I exclaimed making her laugh as I answered the phone. "Hey Jesperi, what's up?"

"Hi (y/n)! Nothing really, I'm on the bus home. How was your day?"

"Awful. I just got home. It was hectic and stupid and we were short staffed."

"That doesn't sound good."

"No it really wasn't. Imagine the other team had all their guys ready to faceoff and you were just by yourself."

"Is the goalie there?"

"Nope just you and a coach that hates you. That was my entire day."

"That doesn't sound good at all. Although I can't picture it exactly. The coaches all love me."

"Jes, everybody loves you. I half think it's impossible to hate you." I said making him laugh. I heard someone is the background saying something, I expected Victor, but I couldn't make out what he was saying.

"I will. Shut up. No shut up." I heard Jesperi say off the phone. "I'm going to go ask in the bathroom if you don't stop."

"Jes, you okay?" I asked giggling.

"Uh yeah sorry. Victor's being an idiot."

"That checks out."

"Anyway I called because I wanted to ask you something."

"Oh okay, sure. Ask away."

"You know how Victor's getting married?"

"Yeah, Jessie was talking about it the other day. I'm going with her to the mall to shop for it tomorrow." Jessie had been friends with Victor since she was a kid so she was part of the wedding party. "Why do you ask?"

"I know it's last minute but would you be my plus one to the wedding?" He rushed out his words in a quiet mumble.

"Oh!" I said in genuine shock. "Um.."

"If you're not working." He said quickly before adding. "And you want to of course."

"It's Saturday right?"

"Yeah, we'd have to arrive around 4. Sorry if you want to."

"Jesperi come on. Don't act like you don't know I'm going to say yes."

"Wait really?"

"Yeah of course! I have Saturday off and I'd like to go with you as long as Victor doesn't mind."

"No he doesn't mind."

"Alright then yeah I'd love to!"

"Mint!"

"Told you she'd say yes." I heard Victor say in the background.

"Shut up!" He hissed back.

"Jes be nice." I joked.

"I'm going to go before Victor says something that's going to make me kill him before his big day."

"Okay, it was nice talking to you."

"It's always nice talking to you." He said making me blush.

"Bye Jesperi, I'll see you later."

"See you Saturday. Bye sweetheart." I heard him gasp at his words before he hung up. He'd never called me a name like that before and it kinda shocked me just as much. I didn't notice that I was just standing there until Jessie started laughing.

"What the hell did he say to you?"

"He called me sweetheart and hung up on me?"

"That's weird."

"He also asked me to go to the wedding on Saturday."

"And you said he didn't like you."

"I still don't think he likes me."

"Oh my God how can you say that?! He literally asked you to be his date. He called you sweetheart. You guys talk for hours literally every. Single. Day. But sure he doesn't like you. Just admit I was really smart to get you guys to meet."

"I will admit that it was nice of you and that my life is better with him in it but he absolutely doesn't like me as much as I like him. I'm not arguing anymore, I'm tired. I'll see you in the morning."

"Goodnight you goofball."

The rest of the week flew by and before I knew it, it was Saturday morning. I had worked every day this week so I was glad to have time to sleep in. Except at 7 I was woken up by a phone call from my manager.

"Hello?" I said groggily wiping the sleep from my eyes.

"You need to come in. Where are you?"

"In bed? It's my day off."

"I don't care we're short staffed so you have to come in."

"I have other things going on today, I can't. Try calling Tori?"

"Tori can't. I expect to see you in 20 minutes."

"I won't be there."

"Yes you will. If you want to have a job to come back to you will."

"You're going to fire me?" I asked in shock.

"If you don't come in yes."

"Well I guess you should start finding someone to replace me. Goodbye Lara, I quit." I hung up on her and immediately was met with feelings of instant regret but then it morphed into relief, then finally I was hit with the realization that I quit my job for Jesperi.

Surely he would of understood if I had to cancel but he was so excited. So was I. The thought of making him sad or upset with me was worse than the thought of not having a job. Maybe my priorities were a little twisted but I really liked Jesperi and I really wanted to go to the wedding with him. I wanted to dance with him and have a good time so that's what I was going to do.

I decided to go back to sleep for a while. I turned my phone to silent and ignored the texts and calls from my shitty manager.

I woke up a few hours later and started getting ready. Jessie was already gone to get ready with the rest of the bridesmaids so I was on my own until 3 when Jesperi would be picking me up.

I started the painstaking process of curling my hair. It never mattered how long it was, it always hurt my arms and took too long in my opinion. It looked really pretty after it was done though so it was worth it I thought. I French braided my bangs and curled the ends of it so it would fit with the rest of my hair. The dress I chose for it was a light blue long sleeved dress with a skater skirt that reached my knees.

Before I knew it there was a knock on the door. I grew 10 times more nervous as I looked in the mirror again trying to adjust nothing in particular. I rolled my eyes at my reflection and went to open the door. I audibly gasped when I saw Jesperi.

"Wow." He whispered with wide eyes. We both seemed to catch each other off guard and we laughed awkwardly. "Sorry (y/n)."

"Don't be sorry, come in. I just need to get my coat."

I got the coat on as well as my scarf. I didn't notice until I was done that he was still standing just inside the door staring at me. I walked over and waved my hand in front of his face, snapping him out of his trance.

"Yoohoo anyone home?"

"Sorry I was distracted. Thinking about something. It doesn't matter, are you ready to go?" He looked rattled.

"I am but hang on a minute. Are you okay?" I asked, reaching out to grab his arm in what I hoped was a comforting way.

"Yeah I'm okay. Promise." He said, reaching his other hand out for a pinky swear. I smiled wide and blushed doing the pinky swear. He had only started doing that with me after I did it to him once so it felt special. I thought it was cute.

"Alright, good. We better get going so we aren't late."

"Yeah Victor would be pretty mad if I was late for his wedding." He said with a laugh. "Let's go bubs."

He took my hand and led me out of the apartment, waiting for me to lock the door behind me but still not letting go of my hand. Touching was nothing new for us, we did it all the time, but hand holding was definitely new for us. Quite often he would have an arm around me or I'd lay my head on his shoulder or kind of cuddle with him. Sometimes at gatherings I'd sit on his lap if there was no room but something about him holding my hand felt so new and ignited butterflies. We walked out to his car and he must have noticed finally that he was still holding my hand because he looked down and dropped it fast before rubbing the back of his neck.

"Sorry, I forgot I should let go. I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable."

"Jesperi you sweetheart, don't worry about it!" I said, giving him a hug. "You never make me feel uncomfortable."

"You're the sweetheart." He mumbled into my hair before pulling away and opening my door for me. "Ladies first."

"Thank you Jes." I giggled at the little bow he did as I got in.

The car ride wasn't super long but it was okay. He spent the beginning of it showing me his favourite Finnish artists. I didn't understand any of the words obviously but I liked a lot of them. He showed me one that he said made him think of me. He didn't tell me what they were saying but it was a pretty song so I just left it alone.

Unfortunately I fell asleep for the last half of the ride. I wasn't surprised but I was disappointed when I felt his hand on my shoulder. I opened my eyes to see his sweet smile.

"Shit! Jesperi, why didn't you wake me up?" I pouted, feeling really guilty.

"I didn't want to."

"But you must've been so bored."

"No it was okay. You worked late last night, I figured you were sleepy."

"Well I guess I kind of was."

"See? Don't worry bubs, I don't mind. Just don't fall asleep at the wedding." He joked, elbowing my arm lightly.

"I would never. Let's go inside, yeah? I don't want to be out in the snow anymore."

"You're so tiny and cold." He said laughing.

"Yeah and you're giant and cold. What's so funny?"

"You're just cute." He said, shrugging and giving me a blinding easygoing smile. Of course I blushed like crazy at that.

"You're cute."

"Thank you but I think you're wrong."

"What do you mean?" I asked, giving the woman running the coat check my coat.

"I'm not cute, I'm handsome. Rugged." He said in a funny voice, making me laugh.

"I don't know about rugged but you're definitely handsome. No one can deny that."

"You're just saying that."

I was about to say something but an usher came up to us and started talking to Jesperi so I stayed quiet. I'd tell him later that I wasn't just saying that. Right before his best friends wedding didn't seem like the right time to start that conversation.

The ceremony started soon after we got there. It was all beautiful. His bride looked like a princess and I couldn't get over her pretty peach coloured dress. They wrote their own vows and I had to hold back laughter when Jesperi leaned over to whisper that he thought she wrote his as well. His breath hitting my neck made me shiver and get goosebumps. I hoped he hadn't noticed but I was sure he did. When it was all said and done we all left to go to the hotel that the reception was happening in.

"That was a beautiful wedding." I said as we walked back to his car.

"It was pretty nice. I'm still convinced Courtney wrote those vows." He said, making me laugh again.

"Why?"

"Victor couldn't come up with something that sweet and romantic on his own. If it was left completely to him he would quote movie weddings or something."

"Some movie weddings have sweet vows though."

"Like which ones?"

"Well not a movie but a cute show was in boy meets world."

"I've never seen it."

"Okay well we're going to watch it because that should be a crime."

"What else? That's only one example."

"You're going to laugh but I like twilight."

"Oh come on! Twilight? Really?"

"Jesperi. I'm not about to quote the book at you but I will quote the toast from the movie where Edward says to Bella 'No measure of time with you will be long enough, but let's start with forever.' Tell me what about that isn't beautiful."

"That does sound pretty nice actually. Do you think about weddings and vows a lot?"

"Not a whole lot. I probably would more if I wasn't so single but alas. I think love in itself is pretty. Not always, but when it's done right like Victor and Courtney it's pretty." I said as we both got in the car. He was quiet for a minute as we started driving.

"Love is pretty mint. I've never felt it like that but it seems nice."

"I'm sorry you've never had anyone love you completely and effortlessly, Jesperi. You of all people deserve that more than anyone. I've never experienced that either."

"Hey it's okay. Someone will love us someday and it'll be super mint." He said with a big grin as he took my hand in his for a second. It took everything in me to not blurt out that I already loved him now.

"I think you're right." I said, smiling back.

"Oh by the way I plan on drinking and I have a room at the hotel. I know Jessie is going back tonight so you can go with her, I already asked. Or I can drive you home then come back. I don't mind. I figure you're probably going to have to work tomorrow."

"I uh, actually don't have to work." I said suddenly feeling very nervous.

"Oh mint! Do you want to stay then? You don't have to obviously."

"I'd love to Jes. You just have to keep in mind that I'm a very cuddly drunk."

"I think I can handle that." He winked at me and I felt my checks warm up again.

We pulled up into the hotel parking lot a minute later. The hotel was big as well as beautiful but I figured it would be. We walked into the hotel while we joked around. Jesperi always made me laugh with pretty much everything he said though. He got his room key before we went to the winter wonderland themed ballroom.

The receptionist went by pretty quick. The food was delicious and instead of having a big cake they had cupcakes which were a cute little touch. They had their first dance as husband and wife and then the party began. They had an open bar so a lot of people went crazy. Neither of us were going crazy but I was passed tipsy and so was he. We had just been sitting and laughing at our table until a song came on that I really liked.

"Jes, I wanna dance." I told him, grabbing his arm with both my hands. "Dance with me."

"I'm not very good at it."

"Its just a slow dance it's easy! Just hold me and sway around a lil." I looked at him and pouted a little. "Please?"

"I could never say no to you looking at me like that." He said with an easygoing grin.

He took my hand and lead me to the dance floor. Once we got there I threw my arms around his neck and he placed his on my waist.

"See look, you're dancing!"

"It's because I have a good partner." He said sweetly, looking into my eyes.

I was vaguely aware of anything around us. Anything that wasn't Jesperi just couldn't hold my attention. I was so distracted by the close proximity and the way we were moving everything else faded away. I looked around his face, trying to remember everything about it when I noticed his happy brown eyes staring at me. It made a big grin break out on my face.

"What?"

"I uh, nothing. Nevermind."

"No Jes, tell me! I wanna know. Please?" I asked, smiling wide while I brought my hand to his neck to rub my thumb across his cheek. He leaned into it making me smile impossibly wider.

"You're just so pretty bubs."

"Thank you Jesperi. I think you're incredibly handsome. Especially in your suit." I told him, feeling brave.

"You're too nice to me (y/n)."

"No, I'm just telling you the truth. You're a beauty Jes." I teased.

"You're the beauty if anyone is. I'm definitely the beast in this fairytale." He grinned brushing my hair out of my face.

"I absolutely refuse to admit that. You're gorgeous. So hot. If I weren't so nervous around you I'd tell you all the time."

"It's more than that though, right?"

"Yes." I said with a little hesitation. I was going to lie but he should've known already that I liked him. "It's a lot more than that. Is it more than that for you?"

"It's a lot more than that for me." He murmured, smiling softly at me.

He took one of my hands from around his neck in his. I took it and intertwined our fingers as his hand was guided to my lower back to pull me closer to him. I let him press my body closer to his and felt warmth rush through me. I looked at him and he smiled resting his forehead on mine while we danced.

"You're so cute bubs." He said before lowering his voice to a whisper. "Do you want to go somewhere more private maybe? Maybe talk a little bit more? I'm sorry that sounds so sleazy. I didn't mean for it to."

"Hey, no. Look at me Jes. You didn't sound sleazy. Let's get out of here yeah? We can say bye to Victor and Courtney, tell them I'm too drunk or my head hurts or something. I dunno, you come up with a better lie."

"I don't have to lie, you can't walk straight sweetheart." He whispered through his chuckles. He stopped dancing and threw an arm around me. "Let's go say goodbye."

We went over to find them and to find Jessie quickly to let them know we were leaving. I thanked them and congratulated them even though I couldn't get the word congratulations out of my mouth properly. Jessie, Jesperi, and Victor all laughed at me while Courtney was nicer.

"Come on Jesperi stop laughing and put the poor girl to bed." She teased.

"Yeah because that's what they're going to the room to do." Victor said, making Jessie laugh and Courtney glare as she lightly smacked her new husband on the head. "Ow what was that for?"

"It's none of our business what they do in the room, you child. I'm so sorry (y/n), Jes. You guys go have a goodnight."

"Enjoy the rest of your party." I said stumbling a little, completely dedicated to the lie of me not feeling great.

Jesperi lead me out of the ballroom and towards the elevators, not speaking the whole walk there. Once we were in alone and the doors closed he looked at me.

"I'm sorry about Victor."

"Don't be. He makes jokes like that all the time it's fine." I mumbled. The tension in the elevator was damn near suffocating. I looked at him for a few seconds quietly before I started walking to him and he spoke up.

"What's up bubs?"

"Can I do something?" My voice sounded so small I almost didn't recognize myself. I was desperate for him and who knew if this would last or if things would go back to normal after tonight so I wanted to take advantage of the situation while I could and we were both ready and willing.

"To be honest with you, you could do anything to me right now." He whispered.

"Ooh don't tell me things like that. That's dangerous information for me to know." I teased grinning at his easy going smirk.

"Maybe I want you to know it. Experience this so-called danger."

I didn't say anything else, I just brought his face down to meet mine in a sweet kiss. He seemed surprised at first but then he grabbed my hips and got into a rhythm with the kiss that made my knees turn to jello. The elevator dinged signaling our floor and only then did he break the kiss.

"You don't know how long I've wanted to do that." He said still with his eyes closed.

"Long time." I said in reference to myself as I pulled him out of the elevator by his hand. "Where's the room?"

"This way." He led me down the hall a bit then stopped to open the room, holding the door for me. "After you."

"Thank you. I'm taking these shoes off before anything. I'm sick of em."

"Sweetheart, why wouldn't you just wear regular boots? If these ones hurt then why?"

"They looked prettier." I said laying on the carpet to pull off the boot. "I wanted to look prettier. For you."

He had walked closer so he could look me in the eye. I smiled sweetly up at him and he laughed. He sat down behind me and ran his fingers through my hair.

"What?"

"Bubs you don't have to do stuff like that."

"Yes I do!"

"No you don't." He chuckled. "Making yourself uncomfortable for no reason is never necessary."

"Jesperi, listen." I said rolling over and crawling over to him. I put my arms on his shoulders but stayed arms distance away. "You don't understand. There are a million pretty girls who like you and would do anything for you that are so much better looking than me. I have to try hard so I can keep any of your attention at all."

"Do you really think that?" He asked with a weird look on his face. I nodded at him and he just shook his head at me. "You've never been more wrong in the whole time I've known you."

"What do you mean?" I asked quietly, sitting back on my heels.

"You have all my attention all the time, you don't have to try." He smiled as he reached up to rub my cheek with his thumb.

"Really?" I asked with a smile, reaching up to hold his hand there.

"Yes! You have no competition. Ever. Except maybe hockey, but besides that."

I laughed at his weak attempt of a joke. He grinned at me seemingly proud of making me laugh. I thought about what he said and it made my mind race. Positive things flew through my mind as fast as my anxious thoughts came in. I took his hand and kissed his palm. I don't know why but it just felt right.

"Comere." He said in a hushed tone reaching out for me.

I crawled forward as he guided me to sit in his lap. In one fluid motion I was in his lap and kissing him again. His mouth was warm and his fingertips grazing my back and arms sent chills down my spine. Maybe I was drunker than I thought but I definitely had never felt better kissing someone than I did in that moment with Jesperi. I had to break away for a minute to catch my breath. He started kissing down my neck and I groaned quietly as I tugged on his hair. He pulled back and looked at me with happiness radiating off him and adoration in his brown eyes.

"You're so beautiful." The sincerity in his voice made my breath hitch. I truly believed him with everything in me.

"Thank you Jes."

"Do you um, do you want to continue? I don't want to pressure you or make you uncomfortable. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to hold back."

"Then don't hold back anymore."

"Are you sure you want that?" He looked concerned and it just further convinced me that I was making the right decision.

"I've never been more sure about anything."

I brought his lips back to mine in a fevered kiss. I squealed when he lifted me up making us both laugh a little. I loved that we could laugh in this situation and it wasn't awkward. He threw me back on the bed and took his shoes off. I watched as he slipped his suit jacket off while climbing on the bed. I sat up and pulled him down to me by his tie, connecting our lips again.

If I thought kissing him before was good, this was incredible. Having him hovering over me was not something I would soon forget. I started unbuttoning his shirt while we kissed but I couldn't get it off.

"Take your tie off, fuck." I was breathless and frustrated.

"Impatient are we?" He teased sitting up and undoing the tie.

"You're driving me crazy."

I kneeled in front of him and ran my hands down his bare chest around to his back, pulling him closer to me. I could feel how hard he was against my stomach and it made me whimper as I pressed against him. He smirked in a devilish way that made my insides churn. He held my cheek with one of my hands making me look back up at him.

"Getting a little desperate baby?" I couldn't bring myself to say anything so I just nodded. "Let me take care of you."

"Please? Wanna feel you Jes." I shook my head at how that sounded.

"What?"

"Sorry that just sounded so needy and dumb. Kinda pathetic."

"I didn't think so." He said coming closer before dipping his head down to kiss my neck. "I think it's very attractive to know you want me just as much as I want you. It's hot."

"Mmm Jesperi." Was all I could choke out while he sucked and nibbled on my neck and collarbones. It had always been a really sensitive spot for me and an instant way to make my legs clench. I felt him smile into my skin as he unzipped my dress and felt my bare back as it became visible.

"No bra?"

"No."

"Mint." He said, making me giggle as he pulled the dress down my arms and down to my waist. He laid me back down and stopped to ask, "Is this okay? Can I take this off?"

"Of course you can."

That was all the confirmation he needed. He took my dress off with next to no hesitation leaving me in my favourite pair of underwear. He was staring and I started feeling self conscious.

"Sorry they aren't like, sexier or anything. I wasn't exactly expecting this." I mumbled.

"Don't say that. I think you're so sexy. I wouldn't want you wearing anything else."

"You're telling me you wouldn't rather see me in something actually sexy like lingerie?"

"Bubs. I think you are so beautiful just the way you are." He ran his hands up and down my side, eyes glued to my boobs when not speaking to me. "You're comfortable and that's when I find you the most attractive and alluring is when you're comfy."

"I'm always comfortable with you." I said earning a soft kiss from him.

"Can I take these off? Can I touch you?"

"I want you to touch me so bad Jesperi. That's all I want. Oh also take your pants off please? I wanna touch you too. Wanna taste you, if you'll let me?" I batted my eyelashes at him with my request and he groaned loudly.

"You going to get on your knees for me baby?"

"Mhm." I bit my lip and slid off the bed.

"Here, put this under your knees so you don't get sore." He said throwing me a pillow with a smirk. "At least not sore from that."

"Shut up." I hit him with the pillow, making him laugh. "You're fucking cheeky. There's no other word for it."

"You love it." He said confidently.

I shrugged and started undoing his belt with shaking hands. I hoped he didn't notice but I know he did. He grabbed my hands to stop me and tilted my head up to face him.

"You okay? You don't have to do anything you don't want to do, you know that right bubs?"

"Yeah. Yeah I know. I'm just nervous. I'm okay, I promise."

"Don't be nervous. It's just me, love."

"I just don't want to disappoint you."

"You couldn't possibly. I promise." He leaned down and gave me a really intense kiss that reignited the fire within me.

I broke away and with more confidence than before. I successfully unbuckled his belt and undid the button, then the zipper. I pulled his pants and underwear down in one pull. He helped by stepping out of the legs before sitting on the edge of the bed. I blushed a lot being face to face with his dick. I never thought I'd see it at all let alone see it up close and personal like this. I wrapped my hand around the base, feeling the weight of him making my mouth water. I pumped my hand and my eyes snapped up to his face when he threw his head back with a soft groan. Heat rushed south and I knew I had to keep him making those sounds.

I pumped him a few more times before leaning in and licking a strip from base to tip. I swirled my tongue around him and took him in my mouth. The sounds he was making was urging me on. I took him in a bit deeper and he borderline shouted as I moaned around him.

"Fuck, you're doing so well for me baby." He muttered moving my hair out of my face and pulling me off him. "Do you think you can handle a little more?"

"Yeah I can. Let me be good for you."

"You're doing so good for me. Put it back in your mouth."

I did as I was told and he held my head, guiding my movements in the best way for him. I relaxed and let him move me the way he wanted. He hit the back of my throat and I choked but I quickly recovered and kept going. We went on like this until I felt his thighs start tensing and shaking under my hands. He pulled me off extremely out of breath.

"What's wrong?" I asked him quietly.

"Baby nothing. Nothing is wrong, I just want you. I don't want this night to end right now before I can you know.." he said with a blush.

I smirked and pushed him back on the bed. I crawled over him until we were face to face.

"I just had your dick in my mouth and you're too shy to say you want to have sex with me? What happened to cheeky Jesperi from 10 minutes ago?" I teased kissing his neck.

"Mmm fuck that feels nice. I didn't know if you wanted to go all the way I didn't want to, fuck, to make you think you had to."

"Jes, baby, I want to. I don't have to, I want to. I want you too Jesperi." I sucked a little harder on his neck, making him moan loudly. "I love how vocal you are. It's fucking hot."

"It all just feels so good I can't help it."

"If you think that feels good, wait until you sink into me." I said into his ear before nibbling on it. If I were sober I absolutely would not have said that but I was feeling kinda brave due to the praise from Jesperi.

"I can't fucking wait." He said, grabbing my waist and flipping us over. He gave me a soft sweet kiss. "I need to get something, go up to the pillows."

I moved up the bed and rested my head on the pillows. I watched as he got a condom out of his bag and smiled at me. I smiled and reached down to slide off my underwear. I smiled wider when I noticed Jesperi blushing and staring at me. I spread my legs for him and he coughed in surprise and looked away blushing harder.

"Come here Jes."

"You're beautiful." He climbed up onto the bed and put the condom near my head.

"Thank you baby."

I brought his lips to mine while he hovered over my body. I was trying to get across to him through the desperation in the kiss that I needed more. I think he got it because he moved while still kissing me so that he was resting between my legs. But still not touching me where I wanted him. I tried to buck my hips to get some friction and I was somewhat successful getting his lower stomach.

"Fuck, you're soaked (y/n)."

"You do that to me all the time." I kissed him again but he broke it.

"Can I touch you? Is that okay?"

"Please touch me. I need you so bad."

As soon as I gave him permission that seemed to be all he needed. He let his hands wander to my boobs, squeezing them pretty hard, pinching my nipples before taking one of them in his mouth. I moaned and tangled my fingers in his hair. As his mouth worked between my breasts his thumb found my clit and started rubbing slowly but firmly.

"Fuck Jesperi." I moaned out as he started going faster with his thumb and slowly inserted two of his long fingers.

"Feel good?"

"So good, fuck Jes."

He sped up his fingers and kept flicking his tongue over my hardened nipples. I was moaning a lot. I was sure between the two of us we were going to get a noise complaint. I felt the familiar pressure building in my stomach and I clenched around his fingers.

"Fuck!" I called out as I fell over the edge.

I was shaking from the force of it. Jesperi fucked me through it with his fingers. As I was catching my breath he moved back up the bed and left sweet kisses around my neck and face. Some of them tickled and I let out little breathless giggles and I felt him smile against my skin.

"You okay baby?"

"I'm so much better than okay." I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"Do you think you want to continue or are you good?"

"Jes, you never finished."

"It's not a big deal."

"Listen to me Jesperi." I said, grabbing his face with both my hands.

"Listening."

"If you don't get inside me right now I'm going to actually lose my mind. I want to please you too. I want you to have some satisfaction."

"Oh I had some satisfaction." He stopped talking to gasp as I started pumping his cock. "The look on your face as you fell apart on my fingers in no time at all was enough satisfaction."

"Stop!" I said feeling embarrassed by his words. I covered my face but he uncovered it immediately, giving me a kiss.

"You look fucking gorgeous when you cum." He said, making me blush more.

"Make me do it again then."

"You're sure you want to?"

"Do you want to? If you don't want to, you absolutely don't have to Jesperi." I said playing with his hair at the nape of his neck.

"I want to so bad."

I brought his face back down to mine and slipped my tongue in his mouth. Our tongues battled against each other and he dominated me with next to no effort. I grinded my hips up into his and he moaned into my mouth. I could feel his one hand leave my side to grab the condom. He opened it and looked at me as he rolled it on himself.

"You're absolutely sure about this?"

"Absolutely. Come fuck me Jesperi, please?"

"Don't call it that." He said quickly. Before I could ask what he meant I felt him against my entrance. "Ready?"

I nodded and he slowly stretched me out around him. It hurt a little bit and I knew he could tell by my face because he kept taking breaks. Once he was fully inside he rested his forehead against mine and looked into my eyes.

"You're being such a good girl for me (y/n). Taking my cock so well."

"Wanna be good."

"You feel so good darling, so tight wrapped around me like this. Is it okay if I move now?"

"Yes, yes, yes. I'm begging you, please yes."

"Shh you're okay. I've got you, love."

He started up a slow rhythm that was still pretty forceful. I felt the drag and snap of his cock on every thrust and I was a moaning mess. He really made each thrust count, hitting places in me I had never felt like this before.

He sped up slightly and I was a loud mess. He was no better. We were for sure going to get a noise complaint between my cries of pleasure, Jesperi's moans, and the bed frame hitting the wall lightly.

"I'm not gonna last much longer, I'm sorry." He whispered through his moans.

"Let go Jes, cum for me. Let me know how good I make you feel."

I kissed his chest and nipped at it, accidentally hitting his nipple. He moaned louder than he had so far. My eyes widened as I dipped my head down to suck his nipple into my mouth. His pace faltered above me as he shivered.

"You don't have to do that.. it's weird you really don't have to."

"Do you like it?" I asked, flicking my tongue against him, making him shiver again.

"Um yeah but you don't need to- fuuuuck."

I interrupted him by nibbling on his nipple lightly.

He started fucking me harder as I kept licking, sucking, and nibbling on his nipples. He let out a guttural groan as he stopped for a second before fucking himself through his release.

He collapsed on top of me completely out of breath. I was fairly out of breath as well. I ran my hand through his hair, stopping to give him head scratches. I kissed his forehead a lot of times as he calmed down. I felt him smile against my chest.

"That was incredible." He said quietly.

"So good."

"You were amazing, love." He looked up at me with so much adoration in his eyes that it made me want to burst out of my skin. I was so happy in that moment. I was about to say something but he yawned suddenly.

"Are you sleepy?"

"Always."

"Let's go to bed then."

"Okay. Sounds good." He smiled and got up. He went to the bathroom and came back out in a pair of boxers. He threw me a sweater of his and I slipped it over my head. "I'll sleep on the couch if you want?"

"Jesperi don't be ridiculous." I rolled my eyes and pulled him by his hand over to the bed. I kept pulling until he rolled his eyes and sat in the bed. "Stay. Cuddle with me?"

"You're sure?"

"I want you close to me but if it'll make you uncomfortable I'll take the couch instead. You've got to get a good sleep."

"Don't you even think about it." He said as he tackled me to the bed. I giggled and wrapped my arms around him. "Are you squished?"

"Yes but in a good way. A comfortable way."

"Goodnight darling."

"Goodnight Jes." I kissed him lightly before letting myself drift off to sleep in his arms.

That night all I dreamed of was Jesperi. He usually filled my conscious and subconscious mind but it was worse tonight. My dream was so domestic through the night. I even slept all night which was a welcome change. I was so happy when I woke up the next day but that immediately shattered when I realized I was in bed alone.

Panic started to flood through me until I heard the sink running in the bathroom. I tried to calm down and wait for him but I was stressed out.

"Hey, morning bubs. How'd you sleep?"

"Uh pretty good, how did you sleep?"

"Mint, I haven't slept that well in a while. Do you want breakfast? I ordered room service."

"Yeah sure that sounds good."

We ate breakfast and watched the news completely normal. It kind of bothered me. I didn't know what I expected but it wasn't for him to be so chill and normal. I was hoping to wake up still in his arms, hoping I'd be able to kiss him again, hoping for anything that proved I wasn't just some dumb one night stand. I didn't think Jesperi had that in him, to just use someone like that, but I was starting to feel used and kinda gross. I thought it was something special for him too but it seemed like that wasn't the case at all even though he said it.

"What do you think?" He asked, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Sorry what?"

"I asked if you were ready to start getting your things ready to go. We have to be out of the room by 11 and it's 10:30 now."

"Oh shit, yeah sorry." I got up and started gathering my clothes from around the floor.

My eyes welled up with tears but I refused to let any fall in front of him. I got to the bathroom before the first one fell. I put on my clothes, willed my eyes to stop watering, and left the bathroom. I threw his shirt at him a little more aggressively than I meant to and it made him jump.

"Jeez bubs, careful."

"Sorry. You ready to go?"

"Yeah we better get out of here." He put his shirt in his bag and led the way out.

He paid the lady at the desk. She was being really flirty with him and I could tell he was uncomfortable but I didn't know what I should do. If we were pretending things were normal I should do what I normally would. I grabbed his hand and rested my head on his shoulder. She glared at me but stopped flirting. She got things done a lot quicker after that and we walked out hand in hand until we got to the car and he opened the door for me. When he got in, he smiled.

"Thanks for doing that."

"Of course. You were uncomfortable. Besides she was fucking annoying." I mumbled the last part looking out the window.

"Sounds like someone is jealous." He teased, making me snort.

"Oh as if!" I crossed my arms and rolled my eyes. "Why, literally why, would I be jealous of her?"

"That is the question isn't it?"

"Fuck off." I grumbled.

He laughed and we fell into silence. He drove for what felt like forever in just tense silence. I didn't know how to bring this up so I just didn't bother. He turned on the radio after a while and I ended up falling asleep. I was woken up by him shaking my shoulder lightly.

"Sorry." I mumbled.

"It's okay, don't be."

"Thanks for driving me home." I went to get out but he grabbed my arm to stop me.

"Bubs wait. Can we talk for a minute?"

"Jes I don't know what to say."

"You've been acting weird all morning."

"Well you've been acting extremely normal all morning."

"What do you mean?"

"You're acting like nothing happened! It's bizarre, Jesperi."

"Did you want me to make a big deal about it?" He asked.

"I don't know what I wanted, I just know that I didn't want to feel like I do right now. God this is why I didn't want to talk about it." I exclaimed, getting frustrated.

"How do you feel right now?"

"Used Jes. I feel used and it's a yucky feeling because I was not using you and I didn't think you were using me at the time but now it feels like that's the case."

"You really think I'd use you like that?"

"I don't know anymore."

"Did you not listen to anything I said last night?"

"If you meant what you said last night why would you act so weirdly normal like nothing changed? Like nothing happened? Like you just wanted to forget it ever happened?"

"(Y/n) listen. I don't ever want to forget what happened. That was huge for me. I was worried that if you woke up with me in your arms on top of you, you would regret it. Once you were sober maybe you wouldn't want me close like that."

"Jes, why would you ever think that?"

"You're out of my league bubs. You deserve better."

"Don't you ever say that to me again." I said taking his hand in mine. "You're wrong and I refuse to listen to the nonsense."

"I'm sorry I made you feel bad. That's exactly what I was trying to avoid."

"I wish you wouldn't feel insecure in yourself like that. I literally quit my job to go to that wedding with you." I shrugged.

"You quit your job?"

"They called me and told me they'd fire me if I didn't cover the shift on that day so I told them to replace me. I wasn't missing my only chance to be your date to something to go to work in a soul sucking place."

"That's definitely not your only chance."

"What do you mean?"

"I want you to be my date to everything. I always have." He blushed and I leaned forward to kiss him. He hummed into it and broke away smiling. "I wanted to do that all morning."

"Well you should've. I would've felt like less of a whore for sure."

"You're not a whore. My girl is no whore."

"So I'm your girl then?"

"If you want to be. I want you to be."

"I will be on one condition."

"What is it?"

"Don't ever make me panic like that again."

"Deal, baby."

He pulled me in for a sweet kiss and my heart soared, knowing he was mine. I should've talked to him right away so I could've enjoyed this all morning instead of pouting but now I would never take time with him for granted ever again. I cared about him so much and I was so excited to never have to hide that again.

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Willy necklace swinging in you face during sexy time smut. We need it!!

okay anon, i've officially fallen in love with both willy AND his necklaces. what i wouldn't give....

warnings: unprotected sex, sexual language

All night you and Willy couldn’t keep your hands off each other. Each drink that was poured seemed to break another rule you made for yourself since you began your friendship with him. You were just tipsy enough to know what you were doing, and to not care if the others at the party saw.

For as long as you could remember, Willy acted as though he lived by the same rules. The two of you remained single and consistently found yourselves getting a little too close to each other. At Hollsy’s wedding, Mitch’s house parties, Hyman’s wedding - whether it was dancing, sitting together, or taking a stroll to chat (your hands nearly touching) - you and Willy were always silently testing your boundaries. The two of you had been too nervous to try to talk about it with the other.

Here, at Auston’s house tonight, Willy kept finding you when you disappeared to another room as you mingled. He’d skim his fingers along your upper back, you’d drape your arm across his shoulders, he’d touch your fingers, you’d play with some of the hair that he tucked behind his ears. Your friends eyed you both knowingly, thinking maybe the two of you finally got together, as they all expected by now. They’d tried to push you and Willy into making a move forever, but there was always some excuse.

Willy dragged you away at some point close to midnight, giggling with you about a story Mitch told. He pulls you into an alcove down the hall, away from the party, and you face each other. You rest your forehead on his shoulder, still laughing, and you feel Willy’s hand on your back. It creeps down the small of your back until it stops just above your ass. The feelings sends chills coursing through your limbs.

“I want you…here…right now,” Willy whispers in your ear. You slowly lift your head from his shoulder, eyes wide.

“W…what?” Willy’s eye bore into yours. You felt sobered all of a sudden, but your heart was beating fast, and you felt your core starting to throb under his expression of desire.

“Say that you want me.” He spoke with urgency. You stayed silent and he started to walk away. Grabbing his forearm, you yanked him back to stand in front of you. Your eyes searched his frantically, and in his, desire was now replaced with confusion.

“Don’t give me that look, [y/n]. Say that you want me,” Willy repeated.

Instead of answering him right away, you threw your lips onto his with a fervor you’d suppressed for a long time. You battled it out, hands running all over each others bodies, until you decided you needed to breathe.

“God…fuck, Will. I want you.” You’d spoken between gasps for air, and barely finished saying it when he threw the door within the alcove open, pulling you inside and slamming it shut. Immediately your lips connected again and you both hastily stripped yourselves of your clothing.

He pushes you backwards until you fall back onto the bed in this room you’ve ended up in at Auston’s. Bouncing up on your elbows, Willy hovers above you and meets your lips again, squeezing your breasts. His mouth trails down your body. You’re getting chills again, not only from his mouth on you, but his necklaces are dangling from his neck and you can feel the cool metal dragging along your skin.

Spreading your legs open, Willy teases your clit with his tongue, drawing a moan from your lips. His hands reach back up to hold your breasts while pleasures you. He nibbles at your center, making you shriek and throw your head back. before he lifts himself over you again. You pick your head up to find him there to meet your lips again, and he continues to tease you with his thumb, rubbing you up and down. A few more moans escape you into his mouth.

“Tell me what you want me to do,” he states.

“I want you…,” you breathe. “I want you inside me.”

Willy lays on the bed, propped up against some pillows and pulls you on top of him to straddle him. Looking down, you see his length standing on end. He helps you lower yourself onto his cock. You inhale sharply taking him in. He is big, and you certainly feel it.

The expression on Willy’s face is that of amusement, as he loves seeing you bounce up and down while you ride him. He places his hands on your breasts again when he wants to feel the way they jiggle. You start to moan louder, and he wants to get closer to you when you release. He wraps his arms around your torso, pulling your chests together, and thrusts rapidly up into you. You scream his name as you cum for him, your insides clenching around him.

Willy isn’t finished, and frankly, you’re thankful for that. He flips you both over, and quickly enters you again. He’s on top of you, and his necklaces are back, hanging in front of you as he fucks you. They swing around with each thrust. The silver chains sparkle in the dim lighting and reflect some light onto the beads of sweat on Willy’s chest. You arch your back, a little bit on purpose, just so the cool metal touches your skin again.

You’re getting close again, and Willy starts to pick up the pace, grunting a little louder each time he slams into you.

“Willy,” you exhale. “We can’t make a mess…in Auston’s house.”

“Hm, [y/n],” he responds, breathlessly. “I guess I’ll have to cum inside of you.” Your breathing hitches, but you’ve secretly wanted this so you don’t protest. Willy begins to whimper when he’s really close, and slams hardest when he finally cums, collapsing slightly onto you. You scream his name, grabbing the back of his neck and you feel his warmth spilling into you.

Taking deep breaths, he’s still knelt over you, his sweaty hair in his face and those damn necklaces of his hanging from his neck. Grabbing the chains, you pull him down on you for another kiss.

"Maybe we should get back to the party," you suggest, smirking.

"I suppose," Willy answers. "As long as you come home with me tonight."

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hockeytrashgoblin · 3 years

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Despite the fact that I occasionally compulsively overshare, people somehow still manage to know nothing about me

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hockeytrashgoblin · 3 years

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I'm dead. This killed me. Put this gif on my tombstone somehow please

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so i’ve been reading through the player q&a’s on the nhlpa website and wanted to share some of my favorites answers:

roman josi:

sir HOW is this possible??

andrei vasilevskiy:

i really just want to know the origin for this one

cale makar:

like bud i should hope so??? kinda a necessary thing to do

william nylander:

there’s truly so much to unpack here... he can TRY to dance???? also margot robbie??? sir...

andre burakovsky:

i really don’t even know what to say about this one...

connor mcdavid:

such a deep and well thought out answer from our lord and savior

sidney crosby:

bros 👀👀👀👀

tyler seguin:

international treasure who can’t spell and just loves being naked with his buddies

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no offense but hockey coming back on connor mcdavid’s birthday is hilarious like happy birthday connor your reason to live is back

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hockeytrashgoblin · 3 years

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You got to have some nice grilled carrots. Yeah. And then pretty much everything else is your least favorite?

Leaf to Leaf | Marner’s Got Moves

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hockeytrashgoblin · 3 years

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Me, when someone asks if he’s hot or just plays hockey:

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hockeytrashgoblin · 3 years

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Ice Cold~ Part 18

A/N: YOU GUYS I’M SO SORRY. Between a pregnancy scare, a breakup, a friend getting back into hard drugs, work, and the endless pit of despair I have fallen into for the past month writing kind of went to the back burner for a bit. But I am here with another part. It’s getting kind of juicy. I am aiming to be done by 30 parts. I have 19 already in the works and I should be posting more regularly again.

With all that said, I hope you enjoy.

"Mitch come look at this!" I called out to the mostly empty house. Everyone was out doing their own thing today except me and Mitch.

I was sitting on the ground outside of the house. I spent a lot of time out here. Especially since I became pregnant a few months ago. We were going on 17 weeks. Or maybe it was especially since I turned. I had always loved nature and felt connected to it but especially so now. I had been practicing a lot with the leaves. I hadn't shown anyone yet. I had finally gotten to a point that I wanted to share.

"What's up?" Mitch asked in front of me in probably a second since I called. "Is everything okay?"

"Yeah for sure! I want to show you something cool I've been practicing."

"Well damn okay let's see it."

"Okay hang on, I have to concentrate a little."

I took a deep breath and raised my hands. The leaves lifted from the ground like magic and danced all around where my fingers moved. I had shocked Mitch into complete silence. Something that didn't happen often. I decided to push myself a little bit more and try to move them around. I got them to go to the side and up a little before they fell.

"I still need to practice."

"What the fuck just happened?! How have you kept this from me?" He asked in shock.

"You've been so wrapped up in your little Auston world that you haven't been in my head much I guess. What do you think though?"

"It's super cool. Can you move anything else?"

"No me and Tessa tried. I don't think it's moving the object. Like look, when I lift just one it doesn't just levitate up right?" I showed him the leaf fluttering up. "I think it has to do with the wind. Or the air I guess."

"I guess it's possible."

"I can feel the wind Mitchy. William said that's not normal and that I couldn't possibly but I do. It feels like vibration in my veins."

"Maybe you can control the elements." He teased, laughing afterwards.

"You know what.." I whispered getting up.

"(Y/n) I was joking." He said following behind me.

"Well maybe there's something to that! You never know unless you try right?"

"This is crazy!" He yelled running after me.

"I don't care."

"Where are we going?"

"I'm going to some water!" We ran until we found a little creek.

"What now genius? It took you so long to do the leaf thing by the thoughts of it I see."

"I don't know I'm just going to try some stuff." I shrugged and sat beside the water. I felt the buzzing again and stuck my hand in the water. When I brought it out the water was sticking to my hand in columns of still water from my fingertips.

"What the fuck?"

"This was much easier than the leaves." I said dropping the water. I concentrated really hard on one spot in the water trying to displace it. All I could do was make small waves though.

"Maybe not so easy."

"Maybe not. I'll have to practice that too. Oh well I have plenty of time for that."

"Have you told Will yet? He'd love this. He already thinks you're the most talented person. He might be jealous though, his gift isn't that great he doesn't think."

"Well it saved my life so I can't say I feel the same. Maybe I'll tell him later, he's kind of mad at me right now." I tried to create ripples in the water again as we talked.

"Because you want to put people in danger."

"No one is in danger Mitchell. I've been back to work and I've been fine. I got overwhelmed the first day but I just didn't breathe and was fine. You've seen. Heard. Whatever. You know how I've been downtown. I'm not going to hurt anybody."

"There's always a chance (y/n). I made mistakes all the time when I was new that I never expected to make. It caught everyone off guard."

"It's not like I'm going alone! William will be there. If he gets even a tiny bit worried he'll stop me. I can't just ditch my best friend forever I've been making excuses for months."

"I understand, we're just worried that you're going to have an accident and hurt them. What would you do if you accidentally killed your bestfriend or their boyfriend?"

"I'll never have to know because nothing will happen!" I exclaimed in frustration throwing my hands down aggressively. When I did the water splashed out as if a rock had been thrown in. "Oops."

"So anger is a trigger..good to know. We should uh, start heading back."

"Yeah probably. William will be back anytime now."

When we got back to the house William was waiting in the car. I could tell he was cranky but I just couldn't bring myself to care. I waved bye to Mitch and got in the car. Without a word we started driving. It was a completely silent ride. We went upstairs to the apartment and met up with Kappy.

"How's my favourite couple?" He joked.

"Just dandy." William said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes and brought the groceries to the kitchen, dropping them a little too loud on the counter.

"Okay a fight has happened?" He asked William in the living room

"Not yet." Will said.

"If you'd stop acting like a fucking child and my dad at the same time we'd be fine!" I yelled.

"There it is." He sighed.

"No. No 'there it is' as if you haven't been an ass the past few days and don't deserve the anger." I said stomping into the room. "No 'there it is' as if I'm just a crazy person. No. Because I'm not."

"Alright (y/n) calm down, what's the problem?" Kasperi asked softly.

"He's been mad for the past 3 days because of this night. Because I want to see my best friend."

"You see her."

"Yeah at work! That's not the same!"

"You see her almost every day."

"Yeah and it hasn't been a problem yet."

"And you want it to be?"

"It won't be!" I yelled throwing my arms up.

"You don't know that."

"William I do!"

"Hun, you might think so but you never know." Kasperi said already sick of this fight.

"How many people have I been near? How much human blood around me constantly for work? And I've never once even considered hurting someone. I know you guys asked Mitch so you know that. It has never crossed my mind to attack anyone. I'm around thousands of humans every day and I've never even considered hurting one and you're going to sit here pissy with me because I want to have my best friends over for dinner? Fucking bite me William."

"He already did." Kasperi said snickering. I shot him a look and he stopped fast though.

"You want to know what I think?"

"Not really but I'm sure you're going to tell me."

"Stop being such a fucking bitch." I yelled at him incredulously.

"You first."

"I think you're mad that I'm not having a harder time with this."

"What?"

"I think that you're upset that this is easy for me. I think you all are a little peaved to some extent but Will I think you're down right mad about it."

"You think I'm mad that you haven't killed someone?"

"Yes I absolutely do. I'm not talking about this anymore though. I have a dinner to make. If you can't have a pleasant fucking attitude you can make yourself scarce."

"And leave you alone with people? That's not fucking happening. You're not having humans over with no supervision."

"I'm around people constantly, I'm fine."

"But we're almost always there!"

"Oh for fucks sake William what would you do anyway? If I was to hurt someone while you're on the ice. If I did have a split second decision to hurt someone. How would any of you fucking stop me? You're going to go at superhuman speed off the ice in front of 40 thousand fans and camera men to come get me? Who the fuck is that going to help, you? Me? The person that I've attacked?"

"We never should've let you go back to work."

"You guys are so fucking daft. I can handle it William! Just because you couldn't.." I trailed off leaving the room.

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean? He boomed.

"Exactly what it sounded like."

"You know what fine. Fine! You have it your way like always. Me and Kappy will leave."

"Good! Now maybe I can actually have fun tonight!"

"Don't call us when you kill your friends. We aren't cleaning up your senseless messes."

"I wouldn't call you right now for anything to be quite honest." I said in a calm voice. "You could just go back to Mo's tonight for all I care."

"And what leave you here? You have no blood (y/n). That's really setting you up for disaster."

"Man you really don't have any fucking confidence in me at all do you?" He was just silent and I sighed swallowing tears. "Noted."

"(Y/n) come on-"

"Just leave William. Don't worry about me, I'm more than capable of taking care of myself."

"No you're not."

"I was doing just fine before you came into the picture."

"Fine. Whatever. Whenever you decide you're done acting like a child, figure out your own way to Morgan's place."

"Whenever you decide to stop treating me like a fucking child, I will."

He stared at me for a minute before turning and leaving the apartment. Kasperi didn't know what to do. He just looked between the door and me in the kitchen.

"Kappy go be with your friend. I'll be fine."

"You're my friend too."

"Yeah but he's the one that needs his best friend right now. Mine will be here any minute. I'll be okay."

"I know you will. Willy might not have any confidence in you but I know you aren't going to hurt your friends."

"Thank you Kas, now go please. It was nice seeing you."

"Yeah you too." He left the apartment and went down the stairs to catch up to William.

I just focused on making dinner. I was frustrated of course but I wasn't about to let it ruin my night. I was just putting the finishing touches on dinner when the doorbell rang. I ran to the door and opened it to find Amy and Mitchell smiling.

"Hey! I missed you so much." I said hugging them. "It's been forever since we've hung out like this."

"We brought wine!" Mitchell exclaimed.

"Classic. It'll go great with dinner, I'll get some glasses."

"Where's William?" Amy asked coming into the kitchen.

"Off somewhere being an ass. We got into a pretty big fight."

"Oh shit, about what?"

"Money." I said thinking quick on my feet.

"What about it?" Mitchell asked as we joined him at the table.

"Well he's been rich his whole life. I'm just kinda coming into that kind of lifestyle. He's worried I'm going to do something to accidentally hurt people I really care about because he did before. I kind of threw it back in his face."

"Well you wouldn't hurt anybody. Even if there was no other option I don't think you'd hurt anyone." Mitchell said.

"Right?! Thank you! That's what I've been trying to tell him for the past 3 days! Never once have I thought about breaking people's trust or hurting anyone. As if my anxiety would ever even kind of allow me to let someone down."

"I really think that this is just a misunderstanding."

"I know but it really feels like he's almost disappointed that I haven't fucked up yet. It just feels bad. I can't help it."

"Your feelings are valid (y/n)."

"Thank you Mitchell."

The rest of the meal passed by with much more pleasant conversation. Mitchell had gotten a promotion at work, they had adopted a kitten named noodle, and they had moved into a place all their own without roommates. I was truly so happy for them. I hadn't told them my news yet. I didn't really feel comfortable telling Amy in front of other press people. William and I decided to not tell anyone until the half way mark. But when it was brought up how strange it was that I wasn't drinking I knew it was the perfect time to tell them.

"There was actually a reason I wanted to see you guys tonight. I have some exciting news myself."

"Oh shit, must be important to not tell me at work."

"It is. I was hoping William would be here for it but I'm not keeping it from you guys anymore."

"For god's sake tell us!" Mitchell exclaimed with a big smile.

"I'm pregnant."

"No!"

"Yes!"

"Oh my God (y/n)!" Amy yelled and came to hug me. "Can I touch?"

"Yeah of course." I lifted my sweater to show my bumb that had just started to pop.

"Oh my God look at your little bump!"

"I knoooow!"

"How far along are you?" Mitchell asked giving me a hug.

"I'll be 17 weeks in a couple days."

"That's almost half way!"

"I know Amy."

"How could you keep this a secret so long?"

"Willy wanted to wait until the halfway point. But I'm mad and sick of waiting and so excited. I know you guys aren't going to leak it either so I just had to tell you early."

"I can't believe there's a little baby in there." Amy said touching my belly again.

"I know, me neither."

"You're going to be the best mommy in the world."

"Stop you're making me cry!" I laughed wiping my eyes.

The rest of the night was spent talking all things nerdy and baby. We had a lot of fun and they even spent the night. I woke up in the early morning hours to noise on the balcony. It took one breath to realize it was Auston.

"What are you doing here?" I hissed closing the door behind me.

"Hey don't get bitchy with me, I was just told to come here. I'd much rather be in bed with Mitch."

"Then go Auston."

"I wish I could."

"Did Morgan make you come here?"

"No it was Will. Don't get it mixed up he's the one with doubts not Mo."

"I said some fucked up things to him Aus."

"Like what?"

"What like you care?"

"No I'm curious though. He was really mad. He doesn't usually lose his cool like that."

"I told him I think he's mad that I'm not having a harder time with the transition. That I haven't hurt someone yet."

"Do you believe that?"

"I absolutely do. I think everyone's kinda pissed about it except Mo."

"Well I wouldn't say pissed. Everyone is glad that you haven't hurt anyone. Yes even me don't give me that look. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that that kind of thing would absolutely destroy you. I don't want that. No one does. I'd say everyone is more in disbelief or jealous."

"That could be. I never thought of it like that."

"I know you're annoyed but it's just really not fair how easy things come to you."

"Auston things don't always come easy. It seems like it because I only do things I'm good at. I get too frustrated if I can't do something and just give up on it. I'm an anxious mess all the time. Things are hard for me every day. The reason I haven't hurt anyone is because I am so paralyzingly scared of letting everyone down and breaking someone's trust in me by hurting them. That keeps me in line more than anything. The unbearable weight of not ever wanting to let people down."

"That actually sounds pretty shitty."

"It is. And then just to have the people you're trying so hard to please and do good for not trust you even a little bit fucking sucks dude. I can handle shit. I'm going to prove it too."

"How are you going to do that?"

"I'm going to stay here."

"(Y/n) come on that's not a good idea."

"Yes it is. You guys don't think I can fucking do it. I'm going to prove it to everyone, except Morgan who believes in me, that I can stay here and take care of myself as a vampire without hurting a soul."

"Hey man, I'm not going to stop you. I just didn't think it was a good idea based on everyone being so close. As if Willy is ever going to let that happen. I personally think you can do it and should."

"Thank you."

"At least if you do it we'll know where you stand. If someone gets hurt we'll know, if they don't, we'll also know. Being in the presence of millions of people around is going to be like the best test."

"See thank you that's what I think. I'm going to stay here for a week. That's my goal."

"That's a long time."

"It really isn't."

"You're just going to stay by yourself for a week?"

"I don't care if you guys drop by or whatever, I just dont want help or constant supervision. Plus Amy's around and I'll be working. It won't be that bad."

"What about hunting?"

"Auston let me handle that."

"You shouldn't go hunting for animals yet on your own, or at all really. Get the taste of blood before possibly getting yourself sick."

"Auston I don't care. I want to do this. I want to prove to you guys I can. I want you to trust me."

"Well good luck then I guess."

"Thank you."

"I'll get out of your hair. Have fun." He was ready to jump into the alley below but he stopped. "You can always come back if it gets too hard. I know I give you a rough time but I really don't want to see you struggling."

"Thanks Aus, that means a lot." He gave me a small smile and dropped.

I could do this. I was going to prove to William and everyone else that I was strong and in control of myself and my blood urges, if you could even call them that.

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Ice Cold ~Part 17

A/N: Sorry for the wait I’ve been so crazy busy. Enjoy!

We got back to the house just in time for the boys to go to practice. I changed into dry comfy clothes and went out ready to find Morgan and Mitchy. It didn't take much now that I could hear everything. I knocked on the door to Morgan's office and came in when he told me to.

"Hello."

"(Y/n) I'm so happy to see you awake! Mitch has been telling me about your day. How are you feeling?"

"I'm good! I can't even explain how incredible I feel right now. I am kind of thirsty though. Will said that I could have some more when it started to hurt?"

"Yes of course. Mitch will you go prepare a cup for her?"

"Of course. I'll be back in a bit. Give you guys a chance to talk and pretend I can't hear it."

"Thanks Mitchy." He nodded and left leaving me and Morgan.

"I understand you have some questions for me?"

"Morgan I'm pregnant. Or I was? I don't know anymore since I kind of died and I don't know how any of this works. I don't want to tell William until I know a little more."

"Well congratulations. It's not a guarantee that the pregnancy is terminated. There's a pretty high chance that the baby could have been a vampire. You becoming a vampire would be the best thing for it."

"Is there any way I can find out if it was a vampire or not?"

"How far along would you be?"

"Only a couple weeks. Like maybe 4?"

"If you lost the baby your body would expel it like a normal pregnancy. You still bleed as a vampire. You won't have a normal cycle at all but the reproductive system works pretty much the same for children and length of child bearing years. Now if children happen there's no chance of a human baby."

"How is it even possible?"

"It has to do with lineage. William's family are among the few original vampires. He and his siblings can have children. Who turned you also has to do with it although if it wasn't with William it would be very rare."

"Oh okay. That makes sense I suppose."

"You don't need to do most of the prenatal things that mothers usually do now. Your baby will get everything it needs from the blood."

"What do I do to keep up with it?"

"I would be the primary physician. As long as you're comfortable with that of course. I have experience in the medical field. I delivered William and all his siblings."

"I would probably be most comfortable with that actually."

"I'm glad. If you want to be sure about whether the baby is still there you could take another test. It's been long enough since your passing that the hormones would be gone by now if the pregnancy was over."

"Okay I might do that then. Can I go to the store and get one or is it like, not allowed?"

"Do you feel confident that you won't hurt anyone?"

"Absolutely."

"Alright then. I'd like you to go with Mitch if that's alright? It's not that I don't trust you, it's just-"

"Morgan it's okay I get it. I haven't been around people like this."

"He should be ready with your blood now. Go ahead and leave once you feel the burn leave your throat."

"Okay. Thanks Morgan. For everything."

"You're welcome." He gave me a warm smile and I left for the kitchen.

"Goin on a field trip huh? Willy would not like that."

"Why not?"

"Because being around people isn't easy. If he had it his way he'd wait for like a year."

"Well I'm not fucking doing that. Gimme my cup." I took it from him and took a long sip. "That's so much better than it should be."

"I know. You'll get used to it quickly. The eating animals part is hard to get used to but you probably won't have to do that for a while. New vampires don't usually take too well to it until a year or so after changing."

"That's fair I suppose. I hope it's not too bad of a change when the time comes."

We were quiet while I drank but the drive to the store was full of chatter. He was telling me all about his first few weeks as a vampire and I was telling him about how much I never noticed before that I can now.

"How are you feeling right now with more people around?" He asked as we got closer to the city.

"I feel fine. It's weird being able to smell everyone. I don't think I like that too much. It's a little overwhelming."

"You'll get used to it quick enough.just don't breathe, that helps."

"Mitch how do I just stop breathing? It's such a habit."

"Just stop. You'll still be able to talk and do everything you just won't get as many smells."

"Oh this is weird." I said trying it out. "Better smell wise but so weird."

"You'll get used to it."

"That's what everyone keeps saying."

"Hey you're already doing a million times better than me. I had already drank from someone and got locked in the cell by this point."

"Mitch I've only been awake for 7 hours!"

"I was wilder than you."

"You're wilder than everyone." I teased laughing with him.

"Alright we're here. Are you ready to go in?"

"Yeah I guess. You're coming too right?"

"Of course. If I see anything that makes me nervous we'll leave. It'll be okay."

"Alright let's go then." I got out of the car and was hit with no many gross smells.

"You're hilarious." Mitch said reading my thoughts.

"Okay well it smells like piss Mitchell what do you want me to say?"

"Nothing let's just go. Put sunglasses on. Your eyes are red."

"Oh shit okay." I took them from him and put them on quickly.

"Don't move so fast. Not very human looking." He whispered as we walked.

We got into the store and out without much trouble. I didn't really worry about picking the best pregnancy test. At this point a dollar store test should be able to tell if I was or not. No one recognized us either which was also good. We got back to the car and back to Morgan's pretty fast. Mitch was definitely speeding.

"Okay give me some privacy please." I said going into the bathroom.

"Oh come on why?"

"Mitch!"

"It's not like I haven't accidentally seen everything in William's mind already."

"What?!"

"William thinks about you naked all the time. Sometimes it's impossible not to see."

"Well whatever I don't care, I want privacy."

"Ugh fiiiiiine." He walked away and I waited until I heard him go to Morgan's office and start talking to do my thing.

While I waited for the test I couldn't help but hope that it would be positive again. The thought of a little William or little me was just too much for me to handle. A little vampire just so small and precious. I wouldn't be able to really bring my kid around friends until it was older. Wouldn't want them to get bit or anything. But it would really be the most incredible thing to have a little baby right now. I realized I'd just been standing there for a while and flipped the test over. Very strong second line. It was positive. Suddenly the door burst open and Mitch was holding me.

"I'm so happy for you! Congratulations!"

"Thank you Mitchy. I'm so happy." I wiped tears from my eyes. "I really thought that the whole changing thing would've ended the pregnancy but this means the baby was already vampire.. how interesting. Oh God I have to tell Willy!"

"Yeah that would definitely be smart." He said rolling his eyes.

"Shut up." I smacked his arm. "You and Morgan don't tell him anything when you see him. I want to tell him."

"We won't (y/n). You have my word." Morgan said from the doorway.

"Thank you. I appreciate that."

"We will leave you to yourself for a little while. We have to get going for the game. Will you be okay on your own? Tessa should be home in about 2 hours."

"Yeah I feel okay. Can I have another drink before you guys leave?"

"Oh course. We'll prepare two. One you can have right now and the other in a few hours when your throat starts burning again. You'll need more blood than normal because of the fetus."

"Okay that makes sense. Thank you."

"You're welcome. We'll leave you be and put the two cups in the fridge. See you later."

"Bye Morgan, Bye Mitchy. Good luck tonight."

"Thanks (y/n) see ya later." Mitch said following Morgan through the house.

I cried a little bit once they left before going down to get a drink. It was a really nice day so I went back out to sit on the ground to sip away. I could feel the wind again like it was buzzing under my skin. The sun felt so good on my face. I picked up an old dead leaf off the ground and twirled it's stem in my fingers. I let it go and it stayed in the air in front of me. I blinked and shook my head and it fluttered to the ground.

This was pretty curious I thought. I tried it again and it happened again. I moved my finger around over top of it and it started to twirl. I decided I had to try with more. I got a few in a pile and concentrated really hard. It was really difficult. I'd only get one or two up at a time. I was getting frustrated. I had been out for a long time trying to make these leaves dance to no avail. I took a frustrated breath and tried again. I got a lot of them to raise but the twirling didn't really work, they just moved in the wind a little bit.

"What are you doing?" Tessa asked breaking my focus, making me drop the leaves again.

"I don't actually know. I could make one twirl so I've just been sitting here trying to do more. That was the first time I got more than two off the ground."

"You're gifted." She said matter-of-factly.

"I am?"

"Well I mean look at yourself, you're manipulating something to keep the leaves up. Morgan said he had a feeling you would be very gifted. I don't know if he saw anything specific though."

"Darn, not very helpful."

"Maybe it's telekinesis? Can you move anything else? I don't know I was just doing the leaves."

"Try to lift up your cup?"

"Okay sure, good idea." I tried my best but it just would not go at all. "Tess, there's no way. I don't feel the vibrations with the cup."

"Well then it must be something else. I'm sure we'll figure it out. Would you like to watch the game with me? It'll give you a mental break and you can think about how you're going to tell William your big news."

"You know?"

"Yes honey Mo told me a long time ago that you would be having a little one soon."

"Oh. Does anyone else know?"

"William has no idea if that's what you're asking." She said sitting on the couch beside me. "You know Mitch so Auston probably knows but he'd never take this away from you."

"I hope you're right. I really want his genuine reaction, not the one after he's processed it, ya know?"

"Yeah I totally get that. You deserve that."

We were quiet most of the game. It was something I really loved about Tessa was that I could just be quiet with her or should I say not say words. I still cheered all the time but it wasn't a conversation at all. After the game was done she got up and stretched, letting out a yawn. With a goodnight, she left for upstairs. I followed not long after. I sat in William's room with the big window open, just sitting and breathing in nature. I heard them talking long before they got to the house. I just stayed put and waited for William up there.

"Hi darling. What are you doing up here?" He asked, sitting down behind me. I held onto his arm that slipped around me.

"Waiting for you."

"Morgan tells me you have some news for me?"

"Yeah I do. Pretty big news actually." I turned sideways in his arms to look at him.

"Tell me then (y/n). Don't leave me waiting in this suspense." He teased kissing me.

"William.. I'm pregnant."

"You're what? Wait really? You are? We are?" He asked, his eyes lighting up as it sunk in. His smile was blinding and so contagious.

"Yeah we are. We're going to have a little baby."

"I love you so much." He said before giving me a million kisses.

"I love you too. I'm so excited to expand our family."

"Me too. I hope it's a little girl that looks just like you."

"I also want a girl but I want her to have your blue eyes and blonde hair. She'd be so pretty. Or having a little boy that looks just like you would be incredible. I don't care what they are or look like. I'm just so excited."

"You're going to be the best mom in the world." He said, pulling me up towards him.

"You're going to be an incredible dad."

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Ice Cold ~Part 16

A/N: This has way more parts than I planned so oops

I was trying so hard to wake up, to ease William's mind, but I just couldn't. I was aware of pain radiating from my spine and guessed that wasn't fully healed yet. It was getting closer though, I could feel the bones coming together. Once they were I could feel myself coming back. It was like when you're underwater looking up, just about to break the surface. I opened my eyes I noticed everything was brighter. It took me a second to focus on William but when I did my heart was breaking and exploding at the same time. He was so beautiful. I could see everything, every individual eyelash and slight freckle. His eyes had so many more shades than I ever thought possible. He was absolutely gorgeous but he was crying.

"William, baby, don't cry."

"You're awake! Thank God. Thank God. Oh my God." He kissed me between his words. "I didn't think you were going to."

"Why not?"

"You were so weak and so hurt. I thought you didn't get enough of my blood to make a difference."

"I'm strong Willy. I'm not going anywhere."

"I don't know how you fought werewolves off long enough for us to get there."

"That's what they were? I just thought they were gross." I said making him laugh.

"Well they are gross." He laid his head on my stomach and smiled.

"Did you really kill Peter..?"

"I'm sorry love, I thought he'd killed you. I was so upset."

"Will he hurt me. Badly. I would have died if it wasn't for you guys. I don't think he would've stopped if you'd left him alive. I'm not upset with you. Or scared of you so don't even start with that bullshit."

"I love you."

"Love you." I played with his hair while he just laid down quietly.

I stared at him. I wasn't ashamed or embarrassed either. There was just so much detail I never noticed before that made him so much more beautiful than I ever thought before which is really saying something. He wasn't cold anymore which was strange. I must've given something away because he broke our nice silence.

"What's the matter?" He murmured warmly.

"Well I know the voice still works." I teased flicking his nose making him laugh. "I was just thinking about how strange it is that you're not cold anymore. You're really warm now."

"I thought that was going to take some getting used to for me as well but you're still warm to me. No heartbeat and no blushing though are going to be tough."

"I'm sure you'll still know when I'm flustered or embarrassed."

"You just make it so easy." He poked my nose with a big smile on his face.

"Uh hey! Mitch told me to bring this up for (y/n)." Auston said holding a tumbler.

"That smells incredible what is that?"

"It's blood baby."

"Oh. I didn't realize that the smell of it would change so much."

"Mitch put it in a cup because it took him some getting used to. He thought I'd would be easier for you not out of a blood bag."

"That's really sweet. Thanks Auston. Will you tell him thank you for me?"

"Sure I will when he gets back. He and Kasperi went out to hunt. Last night was rough on them. You lost a lot of blood. Everywhere."

"I can never repay you guys for what you did for me. Like I really can't think you enough." I teared up and wiped my eyes getting up.

"Honey don't cry."

"We couldn't let you die." Auston said shrugging.

"You guys risked everything. You chased after werewolves to save me. You're all so brave and incredible. I'm going to hug you Auston."

"You don't have to." He said as I got up.

"Yes I do." I gave him a hug and he just stood there awkwardly before patting my head. "Thank you so much."

"You're welcome. I'm gonna go now. Give you guys some time together before we have to go to extra practice." He left leaving me confused.

"What does he mean extra practice?"

"Mo and Mitch went to practice yesterday afternoon but the rest of us stayed here because I was unconscious still. We have to go do practice today before the game."

"What time is it?"

"Probably around 7am? 8 maybe? I don't know I've been sitting here all night."

"Oh shit work! I'm so gonna get fired."

"No you won't darling. Mitch called Amy and told her we couldn't find you. It wasn't a lie. I called and told her we found you but that you weren't in good shape. I was crying so she really bought it. It was true you were in really bad shape. Your boss called me while you were still out and I told her roughly what happened."

"What do you mean roughly what happened?"

"The story is that you got kidnapped and the police found you in the abandoned hospital all cut up. You have 2 months off to recover."

"That's so long."

"But if you had to recover from those injuries naturally it would've taken longer than that. I knew you wouldn't want to wait longer. This just gives you a chance to get your bearings and figure out being human again. Speaking of not being human, please drink before it gets sticky. It will be awful then."

"Oh okay." I took the cup from him and brought it to my lips before taking it away. "Is it weird that I'm nervous?"

"Absolutely not baby. Just think of it like a milkshake or something. Dont think of it as what it is. You'll feel better after you're done and I'll be able to see your pretty brown eyes again."

"Oh they aren't brown?"

"No when you first change they'll be red for a little while. Take a drink."

"Okay. Okay. I can do this. It smells good, I can do it." I was nervous and stopped myself a couple times before I just went for it and drank. Once I started I couldn't stop. It was thick which was a weird consistancy but it was sweet and the burning in my throat went away immediately. Before I knew it, it was all gone. I frowned and Will laughed.

"You can have some more later. We have to pace you or you'll over drink. I want you to know when you're full and you'll only know that when you do it slowly."

"Okay that sounds reasonable."

"You'll have to drink more than we do because of how new you are and probably how much blood you lost but still. Pacing yourself is important."

"Okay dad, I get it." I said rolling my eyes.

"Hey I'm just trying to help make this easier on you." He frowned at me and I took his hand in mine.

"I'm sorry William, I know you are. Thank you my love." I gave him a kiss.

"You're not mad at me are you?"

"What? Of course not! Why would you think that?"

"You just seem kind of cranky. I was worried that you regretted changing."

"You think I regret you saving my life? Seriously?"

"Well when you say it like that it sounds silly."

"Because it is silly. I told you I wanted this. I asked you to do it. I knew what I was asking for."

"I love you."

"I love you too. Now stop worrying. I'm okay." I smiled at him and grabbed his hand standing up. "Come on, we're going on a walk."

"Are you sure you want to do that right now?"

"Absolutely. I want to be outside right now. Even if we just sit outside or something. I want to experience outside."

"It might be a little overwhelming at first." He said leading the way to the back deck.

"Why?"

"Lots of things to pay attention to and hear."

"Well I should probably get used to that before going back to work right?"

"Yeah I guess this is the best first step for that." He opened the door and as soon as he did there was so much new stuff I wasn't ready for.

I heard the wind, I heard birds singing, birds flying, animals eating and running around. I could see so much further than before, probably a mile or so. If I focused a little I could see a ladybug walking two stories down from me. There was so much to see and hear.

"What do you think?" He asked, running over to me. I heard him.

"Kinda weird that I can hear you move now. I know that's not what you meant."

"I'll find other ways to scare you, don't worry." He grinned and kissed me. "But for real, how do you feel?"

"I never want to go back in the house again. I love this so much. I can see everything! Hear and feel everything!"

"What do you mean feel everything?"

"I don't know just like the wind and water in the air and stuff."

"I don't think that's what you're feeling love."

"It is. Why wouldn't it be?"

"We don't feel that kind of stuff. It's just not that much, we aren't that sensitive."

"Oh. Okay. Maybe it's something else then. Oou! Mitchy is back!"

"He's not back yet babe, he's still pretty far away."

"I'm going to go meet him!"

"Sure (y/n) go ahead!" I jumped off the balcony laughing.

"Willy did you see that?!"

"Sure did baby. Go get Mitch. He'll be excited to see you awake."

"Okay here I go."

I took a deep breath out of habit and took off. It was incredible. If running was like this when I was human I would've done it my whole life. No heavy breathing or sweating or sore legs. And speed! I was so fast! It took no time for me to jump the boys.

"Mitchy!"

"Ow fuck." He yelled falling on the ground.

"Oh come on I can't hurt you!"

"You actually can now. You're pretty strong as a newborn."

"Oh shit I'm sorry. I didn't even think of that." I pulled him up and we started running again back towards the house.

"I'll race you (y/n)."

"I'll kick your ass Kappy."

"Alright then let's go." He went faster and I groaned.

"No fair, you got a head start!" I yelled running after him. To my surprise I overtook him easily. I ran until I saw the house and jumped up the side of the house to William.

"Fuck you're fast." Kasperi said climbing up the stairs like a normal person. Mitch came up a few seconds later.

"This is going to be so fun." Mitch said excitedly.

"I'm so excited to see everything I can do!" I exclaimed, jumping up on the railing.

"Baby get down."

"No! I can't get hurt anymore, I'm going to have fun." I jumped off towards a tree giggling as I flew through the air. I smacked into the tree and hung on. I jumped back over and smacked into William. He was a little sturdier and I didn't knock him over although he did stumble.

"You're going to give me an aneurism."

"No I won't."

"I can't stop you either because you look just so precious." He smiled sweetly and gave me a kiss as Kasperi made a gagging noise going inside the house.

"Do you want to go for a run and maybe a swim?"

"A swim? Will it's cold."

"Won't affect you."

"Oh shit true! Okay yeah let's go!"

We ran for a while. I have no idea how long or how far but eventual we were at these beautiful cliffs with water under them.

"I figured you'd want to jump off of something." He said with a grin.

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