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This is making me crease and I can’t stop watching it ahahah

#angus

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#long post #inspiration

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#hsbnskaHNDNJSKSK

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#white woman #a white womans Instagram

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I haven't felt this depressed and useless and annoying in years

What is wrong with me

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#its a dog eat dog world

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just had the FUNNIEST interaction with a kid in my life. 

im getting help with my laundry and there’s this 4yo black kid who’s super precocious. looks me up and down after hearing my voice and seeing like, little bit of beard through mask but also boobs and was like. are you…a girl? and i said no. then hes like hm. are you…a boy? i said “kinda.” he looks at me a little more and after a brief pause says very loudly “you’re WHITE!”

his mom was SO embarrassed but i was like no you got me there little dude!! i love kids SO much man

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So now I know you don't even trust me to tell the truth.

I can't be trusted to do anything right from first time and I'm also no help at all and you don't even trust me to tell the truth now.

I'm fine isn't good enough for you

I'm tired isn't good enough for you

I'm not good enough for you

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hiii new uquiz dropped: answer some gender questions and i’ll assign u a new one

#cowboy gender #fuck yea

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What do I fucking do omg

He was like if you're upset then so am I.

Well now I can't be upset, I'm gonna have to shield my feelings even more and mask them even better and like that hurts me a lot.

But for him it's worth it I suppose.

God I am gonna kms one day

Did I get mad at him, wtf is wrong with me

Does he think I was upset with smth he did.

I'm upset because I can't do a single thing fucking right and like, he was just pointing smth out. Be he thinks I'm upset at him

And if he knew I was upset with me he'd probably still feel bad.

So I just have to hide it. I'll be ok, as long as he is. Smh.

#wed #January 27th #2021 #17:45

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Why do I always ruin things and why is c my keyboard xrokenawng,

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reblog this and tell me in the tags how bad your spotify is

#Your spotify was learns-about-rap-from-tiktok-boomer-relaxation-nobody-puts-baby-in-a-corner bad. #yeah im pretty dad rock

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Am I actually fucking useless like am I actually fucking brain-dead, can't anyone enjoy anything around me I'm literally a horrific killjoy apparently and a blithering idiot, and an incapable slut I actually hate myself so fucking much.

And now I'm miserable too and like idk how to change things like. I can't even vent properly here because Angus gets upset with me when I do and I literally just want to soak up all the abuse and terrible shit that happens to him but apparently I give him shit to worry about too and like.idk what to do but hurt myself over it it's actually incomprehensible.

Like what do I even do.

I suck at helping I might be the least competent person alive tbh.

#i hate myself so much honestly wish i was dead like. #17:19 #23rd #December #2020

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I'm such a disgusting burden god how could he ever love me and how could I have ever made him do thsg to himself.

I honestly don't want him to have sex with me ever again he deserves a million times better I'm literally disgusting, horrific, I would like to die now thanks

#02:37 #17th #November #2020

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Of something doesn't bother me as much as I think it should my hellbrain will just repeat it in a mantra like way until it becomes unbearable and I cry my heart out.

And then I will be a weak bitch because I couldn't handle the truth and am making those around me feel bad.

I have to suffer silently, if I'm not suffering I'm being selfish and if I'm not doing it silently then I'm being selfish again,

I'm going to Kms honestly it'll be better for everyone

#2020 #30th September #20:54 #im an annoying stupid cunt and im not funny and my life will end shattered #i am going to cry myself to sleep and if angus hears i will leave and crash my car and die i hope

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An outing to the forest, some flowers, and some insects chilling on plants :)