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oh my god i found cardia’s blog password wtf wow

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@lorddiiavolo​

Delight is what she feels upon seeing him. She may not have a pulse or a heartbeat, but she can feel the way the Horologium glows warmly at the sight of the Devildom’s Prince, soon-to-be-King. He didn’t change and it makes her step forward with another tender wave washing over her as she cannot hold back her sweetest smile. Did he miss her? She certainly did. Cardia is still shy, still careful with how she approaches others, even if it’s someone who’s had her heart in his warm and protective embrace. This poison that continues rule her body is controlled by the solution she’s been making, making sure that things will not go awry, but she does keep her gloves on - always. The Homunculus feels tears pricking in her teal-colored gaze as she reaches out her hands to him, all to tell:

“I’m home, Diavolo,” it feels so sweet to have his name on her tongue now. She hopes it’s not too much to ask for an embrace upon this wonderful occasion. Her eyes shine with love and delight, her whole being speaking in the tenderest warmth that she hasn’t given out to the one who she loves so dearly. Home. Indeed, he is her home. “M-May I hug you?” Ah, watch her cheeks flush as she inquires something so easily done, but she wants to be sure. It’s been so long. 

#lorddiiavolo #hi :) #♕ ▐ ⁂ IC. ﹤ I WANT TO TOUCH YOU... TO FEEL YOUR WARMTH... ﹥

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like for a short starter from the best girl as I’m going to be rewatching/replaying the game during the week. pls specify muses if ur a multi, my friends.

#starter call.

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Forgive me. I keep looking at your url and misreading it as hologram. u_u But I guess that only means you’re the girl of my dreams. Gomengomengomen.

@suzukispcl

" Um... Uh, th-thank you? " No way she is hearing this. It must be a joke. Yes, it must be. Simply just like Impey is joking around.

#suzukispcl #bunbun she is baby im otruyhbtry #u are forgiven LMAOOO #but yeah the url is a thing like that here lolol #its horologium because it's cardia's heart so :3 #♕ ▐ ⁂ IC. ﹤ I WANT TO TOUCH YOU... TO FEEL YOUR WARMTH... ﹥

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All of my precious cursed memes done on my previous Cardia blog just... Chaos. 

#( edits. ) #♕ ▐ ⁂ CRACK. ﹤ I AM A MONSTER... COACH! ﹥ #♕ ▐ ⁂ VISAGE. ﹤ A MONSTER CALLED; SHE HAS THE HEART OF HEAVENS. ﹥

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🐝  *  ―  𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓  𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.   (  some  random  sentences  for  your  angsty  needs.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  hey … it’s okay now. you’re safe here.  ❜ ❛  please don’t leave me alone again.  ❜ ❛  was it all just a lie ?  ❜ ❛  you have to trust me on this.  ❜ ❛  i didn’t mean it like that !  ❜ ❛  i can’t do this anymore.  ❜ ❛  promise me not to do anything stupid.  ❜ ❛  we’ll see each other again soon.  ❜ ❛  i can’t lose you , too.  ❜ ❛  this is how you wanna end it ?  ❜ ❛  whatever this is - it’s over.  ❜ ❛  i’m not gonna let you die !  ❜ ❛  we have to stop this before someone gets hurt.  ❜ ❛  i’m fine … it’s gonna be okay.  ❜ ❛  please don’t do this to me.  ❜ ❛  just talk to me , okay ?  ❜ ❛  don’t close your eyes. stay with me.  ❜ ❛  you’ll have to save yourself.  ❜ ❛  stop lying to me !  ❜ ❛  you have to do this for me or i’ll never be able to forgive you.  ❜ ❛  i deserve better than this.  ❜ ❛  just leave me alone.  ❜ ❛  we’re too late …  ❜ ❛  save yourself while you still can.  ❜ ❛  you’re gonna be fine. just stay awake for a little longer , help’s already on their way.  ❜ ❛  please don’t cry.  ❜ ❛  stop moving , you’re only making this worse.  ❜ ❛  does it hurt ?  ❜ ❛  if this is the end , i’m really glad i get to be here with you.  ❜ ❛  whatever you do , do not let go of my hand.  ❜ ❛  i’ve got you.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry for not telling you sooner.  ❜ ❛  this is all your fault !  ❜ ❛  we’re gonna survive this , right ?  ❜ ❛  we’re screwed.  ❜ ❛  just do this for me and we’ll never have to speak to each other again once this is all over.  ❜ ❛  i thought you were better than that.  ❜ ❛  one of us is gonna end up with a broken heart.  ❜ ❛  i’m scared.  ❜ ❛  so that’s it ?  ❜

#laughs at all of u #♕ ▐ ⁂ MEMES. ﹤ SHE IS OFF PLAYING WITH SISI AND DRACULA. ﹥

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reassurance starters

“ i feel safe with you. “

“ i won't let anything happen to you. “

“ you're safe with me. “

“ are you okay with this? ”

“ you've got good values. “

“ i trust you. “

“ thank you for your patience. “

“ can i kiss you? ”

“ i won't tell a soul. i promise. “

“ i appreciate you. “

“ you are so smart. “

“ i love you for who you are. “

“ the world is lucky to have you. “

“ you don't mind if i kiss you, do you? “

“ it's okay, you know. “

“ i want you to kiss me. “

“ only if you want to. “

“ i would pretty much trust you with my life. “

“ are you okay with being touched? “

“ if you're uncomfortable, you can tell me. “

“ you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. “

“ you're a wonderful person. “

“ you deserve the whole world. “

“ do you want me to talk to them for you? “

“ are you sure about this? “

“ it's okay if you say no. “

“ it's up to you. “

“ i'll always support you. “

“ you'll always have me. “

“ we don't have to do this if you're not ready. “

“ you belong with me, to me, under me. consensually, of course. “

“ can i hug you? “

“ i like kissing you. “

“ you're really cute, you know. “

“ you're adorable. “

“ god, i love you. “

“ we make a pretty good team. “

“ it's you and me. “

“ you're worthy of everything. “

“ i've never loved anyone the way i love you. “

“ you promise this is okay? “

“ are you okay with me kissing you? ”

“ come to me, whenever you need to. “

“ i'm here for you. “

“ you can talk to me. “

“ do you trust me? “ “ yes. “

“ i like spending time with you.

“ it's nice, this thing we've got going on. ”

“ you make me happy. really happy. “

“ you're safe with me. “

“ i got you. “

“ you're okay. “

“ i'm not going anywhere. “

“ call me, even if it's the middle of the night. “

“ are you okay with this? “

“ i'm extremely okay with this. “

“ you know that i love you, right? “

“ whenever you're ready, i'll be there. “

“ if you're not ready, we can wait. “

“ take your time. it's okay. “

“ it's gonna be okay. i promise.

“ you're not alone.

“ you have me. “

#ahahaha angstie tim #time* #♕ ▐ ⁂ MEMES. ﹤ SHE IS OFF PLAYING WITH SISI AND DRACULA. ﹥

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You don’t understand just how heartbreaking it is to re-read some of Cardia’s inner monologue. No character actually knows full well what she is going through. Yes, her lover(s) are there for her and to support her, but her self-image is always fluctuating because Beckford perfectly knows she’s not a normal girl. She knows even if her poison is nullified, that does not fix all the thing: she still does not need to eat, she still does not need to do anything but sleep if what. Her lifespan is endless, it’s said on many occasions by Omnibus, the leader of Idea. 

These two screenshots writing down that Cardia sees herself as weaker compared to before makes me actually cry. It doesn’t mean that she IS weak, but it’s how she sees herself at the moment when she’s stressed and she doesn’t know what to do. The fact that before she was fine with being called a monster and she referred to herself like that was fine, but upon meeting new people who accepted her? Now rejection looks to her so, so much worse and she cannot calmly bear the thought that it’ll happen again. I think that’s why sit’s so important for Cardia not just ‘become/feel normal’, but ‘accept herself for who she is.’ 

I do love that Cardia brings herself back with the help and gentle support of the ones who she trusts, be it her friends or her lover. However, even with support, if you are not strong enough, you will continue to drown in that misery. Cardia slowly but surely overcomes it by seeing how others respond to her, coming to the stronghold of her confidence building up into ‘I don’t care if someone will call me a monster, I can handle it.’ All because she grows. Cardia as a heroine and as a woman grows throughout Code:Realize games. 

But it still hurts to read that she tells herself: ‘I’ve grown weak. I used to be stronger,’ because in some verses that’s what I’ve been writing down. Cardia does return back to her normal state after being slapped with words that she must stop looking down and look straight ahead. It takes time, it takes her to force herself to stand up and understand that she is already strong. If she wasn’t strong, she wouldn’t have been able to go that far. She needs that  Yes, she struggles like a normal person, but still… it doesn’t mean that all of her issues, problems, and concerns are magically cured because of love. 

What makes Code:Realize so special is that it does not just go through romance and such, making it all better, no. BIG NO. Romance and happy end do not equal issues being resolved, love does NOT cure it all in this game and it’s fantastic. CR underlines Cardia’s story of self-acceptance, growth, and her struggles. Only then the romance added to help her grown in different ways depending on each of her romance options. I really admire this game no matter how many times I’m going through it, because I always have some to add, to say, to underline and to use for my roleplay. I haven’t replayed it in a while, so once I go through some routes, I’ll make sure to add some things into my portrayal. 

#♕ ▐ ⁂ HEADCANON. ﹤ WISHES UNKNOWN; HER LIFE IS ETERNAL. ﹥

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DARCY BABY  .. . .  

>  He had cried when he had seen her in that world of nightmares, but as a rabbit she would not have known...

Not my dumbass thinking about how Darcy as a white rabbit watching the villagers run after her with pitforks and fire, Elaine dying over and over again suffocating on Cardia’s poison, and how Etty calls her a monster and says she should’ve died instead of her mother. Then watching the whole Lupin gang die and melt because of her poison. WHAT A TIME I’D CRY TOO.

@wonderloste

#♕ ▐ ⁂ out of character. ﹤ status update: renata will now die for cardia.﹥ #wonderloste

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got another class in 40 minutes so gotta go make food before it starts. other starters will come out whenever they come out, hopefully by the end of the week I’ll have them all done. very uncertain how to grasp cardia’s muse back so I gotta rewatch playthroughs.

#♕ ▐ ⁂ out of character. ﹤ status update: renata will now die for cardia.﹥

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@fouls​

Confusion colors her teal gaze as she tilts her head before it. The notion of Harbingers is lost on her who has never heard of such word. The years of slumber have been not exactly beneficiary to the one who only remembers the laboratory and the ruins where she’s awakened ever since the last encounter with people. She’s avoidant, scared, but not because it’s it who she fears... On the contrary, she fears harming the one who seems not to be a bad person. It’s confusing, it’s strange, it’s terrifying. Beckford keeps her hands close to her chest, her clothing must be so strange to the other, but she finds it hard to speak of anything. 

“ I’m sorry, ” she apologizes, her voice softer than silk and quieter than a mouse’s squeak. The homunculus cannot help but feel intimidated but also fearful, stepping one step back as if she thinks that even being near her can harm another person. Elaine’s death continues to circle in her mind, it was the last encounter with humans back then. Why did she not just stay in the ruins, awaiting her death? How long passed, she wondered. The room filled with dolls left by her father with his words being so tender in her mind. “ I don’t... I don’t know... Who the Fatui are or Harbingers. I... I didn’t mean to offend. ” Her glancing away, down, anywhere but at him shows her genuine worry. The young woman who looks like a perfect doll, no imperfections on the outside, but oh how poisonous and dangerous her skin’s touch is. “ I should leave. I-It’s not safe to be around me. I’m sorry. ” It must sound like such a ridiculous thing to say, but in her eyes there’s no one more monstrous than she is. 

#foulsblog #here u go leo~ #hope this is ok #♕ ▐ ⁂ IC. ﹤ I WANT TO TOUCH YOU... TO FEEL YOUR WARMTH... ﹥ #genpact verse.

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@chaosarashi​

“ No, you don’t have to worry about it, ” her voice is soft and quiet as she avoids the touch of another to make sure she’s ok. The avoidance of touch is natural by now, no one should be injured and taken care of because of her. She’s here simply to feed the dogs and cats, but the bicyclist who almost hit her had her fall back. Reactions are fast but her sadness overtakes far stronger than anything else. The fact that it’s been so long and she’s still having such major troubles fitting in. Her teal gaze is cast downwards but she shakes her head and gets on her own, giving the other a softer smile. “ I’m sorry for worrying you. I’m not hurt. ” Everything is covered beneath her clothes besides her face, a strange wear for today’s day and age. Some think of her as being traditional and she doesn’t deny it, it’s all for others’ sake. “ Are you hurt? I hope I didn’t graze you. ” Now, worry is written all over her face as she makes sure that she hasn’t injured him. Though, she didn’t notice the fact that her bag is now all out... with all the books and all the notes on the sidewalk now. The chemistry formulas, the engineering writings, the pictures of complicated devices. Mayhaps, she’ll be taken as a science student. Who knows? 

#chaosarashi #had no clue how to start this off besides this lmao #esp with how rusty i am #♕ ▐ ⁂ IC. ﹤ I WANT TO TOUCH YOU... TO FEEL YOUR WARMTH... ﹥

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nah, this girl will have to redo all icons so fucking wish me luck

#I lost the psd. I lost all of the made icons besides the ones that's already been done & I don't like them #UgHhHhhHHHhh #♕ ▐ ⁂ out of character. ﹤ status update: renata will now die for cardia.﹥

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Creatures lie here, looking through the window. 

#♕ ▐ ⁂ MUSIC. ﹤ VINYL RECORDINGS. ﹥

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@wonderloste​​

Mind is at a loss for words, her tender and scared teal gaze must be compared to a scared animal. Unsure and insecure, the young maiden tries to assess the situation carefully. Her nightmares have been getting worse and worse, but this has been the worst of it. The only thing that was good about this dream was the sight of white, her mind clouded over the dubiety. Steps are quiet, any step on a small stick that cracks under her boot makes her shudder. Where is everyone? Why is she here alone? The forest reminds her of the closed mansion, so far from the world. The toys, the doll room, the broken windows. Her breathe staggers as she tries to calm her panic down. This isn’t how it’s supposed to be. Her crystal heart hidden beneath the clothing, her hands tremble as she makes sure not to let any leaf touch her poisonous and acidic skin, she wishes not to see them all wilt away and get destroyed. 

The lessons taught by Saint Germain echo in her mind, but this is too different. It is not London and it is not Saint Germain’s mansion. Has she imagined them as well? Was it a byproduct of her grief to be accepted by others? Cardia almost cries, but presses her lips together to walk forward. She’s seen the white shadow ahead, she follows it willingly as if it’s her very last ray of sunshine. Perhaps, she has died and maybe it is time for her to bid farewell to everything she’s ever known. But then again, did she have a life to begin with? Her lips tremble, but the forced squeeze of her gloved hands into fists brings her back to reality. There are no dogs in the vicinity, there are no cars yet, there are no guards and hunters or villagers ready to bring out their spikes. 

Hesitant, she notices the shadow stop. No, it is not a shadow. It’s a person. ( Was it Elaine? No, it wasn’t. ) Beckford finally steps out of the bushy woods, stepping into the beautiful yet lonely glade. The moon shines so bright in the sky and it reminds her all the more of Wales’ haunting yet beautiful landscapes. The man standing there is all white, it makes her wonder if he is an angel from the books she’s read back in the mansion. 

“ Pardon... U-um, are you the one who helped me? ” 

She still remembers the way Arsene and Impey were concerned over her state in the recent days. The lack of sleep and the nightmares getting worse and worse each night. Everyone was concerned, even Victor tried to chime in with a potion of his creation to help her sleep. They couldn’t be imaginary, everything was too real.

This man, these ears, this presence. It reminds her of how safe she felt upon witnessing a white rabbit back in the midst of her nightmare, stuck in a dark cave with the corpse of Elaine whispering such cruel words made out of her fear and doubt. She’s heard so much she was ready to go insane, unable to wake up. Up until... the light. 

Who is he? 

#wonderloste #HERE IS ONE FOR DARCY #LETS FUCKING GO #TWO SADS TOGETHER WOOHOO #♕ ▐ ⁂ IC. ﹤ I WANT TO TOUCH YOU... TO FEEL YOUR WARMTH... ﹥

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Yes, it would melt. However, it would still hurt her as in hit her or even cut her a bit. It depends on the strength of her poison. Generally, it would melt but it can still harm her since it doesn’t melt immediately. There is a certain moment in the game when her poison becomes three times stronger when it melts the magical weapon/blade/metal of Guinevere in seconds before it can actually cut her when she simply holds it with her bare hands. 

Here are examples. The marble melts immediately when she holds it up. The metal would act around the same, but if we’re adding physical into an attack, it would melt but it would still harm her. The blady would melt if it will cut her for sure as her blood has higher “toxins” in it, but only means that Cardia will be harmed by an attack like that.

Horologium’s going berserk light can melt things, so you assume that if her heart is going insane and ready to transform into a Philosopher’s Stone, it would melt the blade even BEFORE it will reach her. However, it’s an EXTREMELY rare case just to show what I mean by “how strong her poison is”. Basically, how strong Horologium/Philsoopher Stone to its completion. 

Dude touched her cheek for seconds and got the worst chemicals burns that look nasty as fuck. So, if it’s a blade, it would melt, of course, but there are more things to consider there. 

She would be hurt and injured, but her blood is even worse than her skin to touch for the future. Any touch of anything (literally) touching her skin would melt: magical or not (as it was shown through Idea’s weaponry aka Guinevere’s blade?). However, she can still be killed and injured with that. Her poison is a defensive mechanism, but since that triple strength of the poison only comes when she’s transforming into a Philosopher’s Stone, she is feared blades and alike the same as any normal human. If she will be stabbed, the blade/metal would melt inside her because of the blood, but who wants to be stabbed? 

Anyways, if I didn’t explain myself right, I’m sorry but I’m super sleepy. 

#♕ ▐ ⁂ HEADCANON. ﹤ WISHES UNKNOWN; HER LIFE IS ETERNAL. ﹥

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Cardia is a soft girl compared to Zarina, and I keep writing Zar’s name instead of Cardia’s and it messes me up lololol

#♕ ▐ ⁂ out of character. ﹤ status update: renata will now die for cardia.﹥