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i spent christmas alone while my family got together and fought, and honestly i feel so good about this

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based on this post, since the colours were alpha kid colours i decided to make a thing. it was supposed to be arranged in the same way but tumblr doesnt like me very much

BONUS:

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A message:

Kids, I am so sorry for not being around lately. I do not want to give excuses, but I would like you to know that the main reasons for my absence are that I have work-related problems and I have been struggling with some mental health issues. It is not because I have forgotten about this blog or because I do not want to run it anymore, I just do not have the time right now. Again, I am sorry.

I will be updating again sometime in July, I hope, and I will answer all the messages I’ve received during the time of my absence.

I think about you every single day, and I hope you are doing well, my precious children. Thank you for staying and writing to me even though the blog has been on hiatus for some time, it makes me the happiest father.

Take care of yourselves. I love you so, so much.

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Parents Supporting Their LGBT Kids During Pride Month.

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You’re doing great! 🐟❤️ I know it can be tough, but you’re surviving and making it work!

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Fuck you it’s homestuck eve! 

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and here you are, continuing on, despite how hard it’s been

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“it doesn’t matter how people see you!”

but it does, doesn’t it. in high school i was “smart but distracted” and “a dropout” and “never in class.” i was seen as flighty, as incapable, as a certified mess. it was true, of course. i never did my homework. i didn’t show up for the test. i had teachers who sighed when i approached their desks: of course you suck was the constant message.

it took me 6 years to graduate college, at which point i was magna cum laude. everyone knew me as the “overachiever” the “group leader” the “of course you did the extra work.” it was odd to me. everyone saw me as organized, efficient, self-sustaining. i was the same person, wasn’t i. just as tired. certainly still mentally ill, even if i was better at handling it. 

in one of my education classes, we’d learn that perception is everything. if you’re a girl, you see yourself as doing worse, even when you’re doing better. it plays into race, too: a phenomenon known as stereotype threat. students frequently rate themselves harder than the professor does. and of course, the ultimate of perception’s abilities: if you tell someone “i expect you’re going to do well,” they do. the same is true of the reverse.

i see a lot of people asking me why representation is such a good thing. or why we need to be careful about our intrinsic feelings. why does it matter, after all, that girls don’t think they belong in STEM. who cares about that one man who came out and said they’re biologically incompatible with it?

there’s a girl i babysat when i was younger. mostly i was there for her little brother. i heard her, late at night, whispering to herself: you’re so stupid, you’re stupid, why can’t you just understand this. it’s not unfamiliar. i remember staring at homework my mental illness wouldn’t let me finish and thinking you’re so stupid, you’re a failure, the world would be better without your burden.

i went from being the person that copied homework to being the person people copied off of. i didn’t suddenly gain an IQ boost. yes, i got a few coping mechanisms that have certainly helped me through. but the fact is: now that people expect me to do good, i do. and it’s still never enough. when i see “100%” on a paper i don’t feel excited. i wonder why i didn’t get a 101. in my heart, i’m faking this.

in my heart, i’m still flighty, still struggling with mental illness, still the girl who can’t sit still. i’m still disorganized, still prone to wanting to run from conflict or the test or the homework i didn’t finish. but my teachers all see me as a gem, a symbol of perfection. here’s where the sad thing comes in: i miss just as much school for my mental illness. but because teachers like me, they let it slip. “you’re a good student,” i hear a lot, “don’t worry about it.” i’ve had teachers wave off entire finals based on my “good girl” category.

i wonder if there’s a girl like me who never got a chance to change her label, and if she’s sitting in class, turning out the same amount of homework. if she misses just as much, if she’s also late on the assignment, if she’s struggling to understand the problems. but she’s still “unorganized,” she’s still “a mess”. and nobody decides she’s worth it to just say “hey, i believe in you. and you can make it out of this.” if, because of the way people see her, she’s certain she’s worthless.

you’re a good person. you’re more than your grades. you can do this. i know you can. i’m proud of you either way. 

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I want to kill myself and I want help but I am afraid to tell anyone. Give me strength.

dude/dudette, serious talk.

you’re unhappy at this moment, but in 10 years it wont matter. You’ll be a different person. you’ll look back and think, “man so many things happened in these 10 years, i cant even remember how I felt 10 years ago at this day”

you surely have stuff you wanna do, visit paris maybe, take a skinny dip with your gf/bf, watch a formula 1 race in monaco, meet obama, have a threesome. idk. dreams. do you really want to not try new things?

Forget for a moment about friends or family. Be egoist. As long as you are awake tomorrow, there’s a chance to realize those dreams.

But most importantly anon, tell your family right now and see a professional. They’ll help, you dont have to do it alone

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Dad spends school year waving at bus, embarrassing son

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🌟Thank You🌟 STOP THE STIGMA

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if you’re reading this, it’s too late

I already sent good vibes your way… they’re coming. there’s nothing you can do to stop them

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don’t be afraid to put yourself first!

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Be proud of yourself for how hard you’re trying :))

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