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We made a world together. We live under the same sky; so why is yours gray and mine filled with stars?

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“So,” she said, “tell me something that counts.”

“It’s been too long since I’ve seen you,” he replied.

“I meant something personal,” she added.

“That is something very personal,” he responded.

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The way I see it, you’ve got all the branches and none of the fruit. You haven’t bloomed in months.

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“The ancient gods of Greece The Romans The Egyptians The great empires of the world All of these in their lavish halls Great stories of old Heroes of times past Tales of lore and valor

Castles once in the prime of their splendor Now found crumbling to dust Former glory has become… Exactly that Former glory, nothing but a memory Mythical creatures found as fossils Kingdoms drowned in water The great legends of past are silent

What is good Cannot improve What cannot improve Can only fall into disarray

What then of me What then of my hallowed halls My castle is crumbling to ashes Bricks falling at my feet Citizens fleeing Leaving me to my once glorious throne What then am I to do A man cannot himself repair a castle Found in former glory Fingers in grip around a bottle of Cîroc”

– A.M.T.T. || Cîroc

[huntertailorsoldierspy]

I need more fire

Lately it’s hard to concentrate.

I set time aside to get things done but

I just sit there.

Motivationaly lacking.

That fire used to burn so hot,

Not anymore, just a small flame now

And all these logs could, well

They very much could put it out.

My fire’s not big enough for these logs

I need more fire.

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Oh so, what is left but a broken man ‘cause nothing hurts like a woman can!

I cant go on without you...

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I think about her too much. I should have been with her

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Old people commercials

Usually I do pretty well but watching CNN has really gotten to me. Not the news, the commercials. They’re all about life insurance and burial insurance and how to look younger and how to live longer... it’s just a halting reminder that life isn’t forever. What comes next? Where do I go? What’s the point?

Why is everyone so intent on living as long as possible? All we do is prolong the inevitable. We’re all procrastinating on death. We all say “yes I have to do that.” But we all ignore it, we put it away because it’s frightening.

It is frightening. But it can’t just be nothing. You need to have a body, you need to have senses to experience nothing, you have to have a brain to process all the nothingness. What could possibly await.

How long will I search on this path. How long will I let it take room in my headspace. Why can I not procrastinate this without thinking about it.

Such a morbid existence, to go one’s whole life worrying about dying. All because I just don’t know when it will happen. Will I live a long a beautiful life filled with love and success? Or will I be killed in the next 10 minutes by some accident?

Thanks a lot CNN.

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Today’s a little harder. I don’t know what’s happening. When I look at my face in the mirror or a camera it looks so tired. My eyes look like they could tell a million sad stories.

I feel like I’m in the middle of a black whirlwind. I have so much I need to do, but I can’t even lift a finger to it. The simplest of tasks are passing me by. Days are all running together and Idk how to separate them anymore. I feel like I’m stuck under the tracks while a train roars by overhead, just a raised neck away from getting hit.

The days are getting shorter but my days just get longer and longer. Everyone feels like a a shadow to me.

I don’t shine as bright as I used to.

No one will ever see this, I hope..

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Better luck next time, kid

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Miss you when I’m alone

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These hurricanes inside of my brain...

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