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I am sad :/

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#ooooooooooooh #456e17 #my beloved

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I want to be held and kissed and loved and adored. I want to feel someone else's warmth next to me in bed. I want to learn the ins and outs of another person so that I can love and cherish every part of them and I want them to do the same for me. I want to wash their hair and cook together and create art inspired by them and sleep with my head in their lap. I want to go through the awkward beginning stages of intimacy like holding hands with fingers spaced unevenly and not quite knowing how the other person fits against you when you're laying down together. I want love so badly it feels like I'm dying.

#damn 2021 me was onto to something #uh oh has seeing this reawakened my deep seeded yearning? #no... it's just dark out and I need to go to bed...

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#ooooooh this is a good one

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Haven't felt this bad in a while

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Things that will make your computer meaningfully faster:

Replacing a HDD with an SSD

Adding RAM

Graphics cards if you're nasty

Uninstalling resource hogs like Norton or McAfee (if you're using Windows then the built-in Windows Security is perfectly fine; if you're using a mac consider bitdefender as a free antivirus or eset as a less resource intensive paid option)

Customizing what runs on startup for your computer

Things that are likely to make internet browsing specifically meaningfully faster:

Installing firefox and setting it up with ublock origin

adding the Auto Tab Discard extension to firefox to sleep unused tabs so that they aren't constantly reloading

Closing some fucking tabs bud I'm sorry I know it hurts I'm guilty of this too

Things that will make your computer faster if you are actually having a problem:

Running malwarebytes and shutting down any malicious programs it finds.

Correcting disk utilization errors

Things that will make your computer superficially faster and may slightly improve your user experience temporarily:

Clearing cache and cookies on your browser

Restarting the computer

Changing your screen resolution

Uninstalling unused browser extensions

Things that do not actually make your computer faster:

Deleting files

Registry cleaners

Defragging your drive

Passively wishing that your computer was faster instead of actually just adding more fucking RAM.

This post is brought to you by the lady with the 7-year-old laptop that she refuses to leave overnight for us to run scans on or take apart so that we can put RAM in it and who insists on coming by for 30-minute visits hoping we can make her computer faster.

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Tabletop RPG about a band of epic heroes with full sentences for names on a quest to murder God and shatter His throne, as one does, except the epic heroes in question are a mob of foot-tall gremlinny critters who are not 100% sure what "God" actually is, and they're not about to let that stop them. The game features an elaborately statted-out bestiary of "divine beasts" to fight which the human reader will recognise as things that are neither divine nor beasts; the climactic battle of the example scenario involves the player characters going Shadow of the Colossus on what is clearly a windmill.

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someone get this fan editor into hollywood NOW (credit)

#jerma

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I wish I could let people read my mind

Like I don't know how to express in words all the weird little things that go on up here and what it all means in a way that isn't word soup.

Like just wanna let them know that being able to sleep in the same room on the same couch as them means there's a deep trust that most won't know

And I want them to know that on that new years where I got drunk and passed out in the motel bathtub that they had my heart in their hands and they were so gentle with it

And I want them to know that their phonecalls kept me going and that I can feel their love for me in everything they do and say and that it warms my soul like a fireplace in winter

And I want them to know the depth of the pain I carry in my shoulders and my hands and my lungs

I want to be known inside and out mercilessly and without remorse

Every nook and cranny and dark corner and road less traveled in my mind and on my body

Studied and valued and scrutinized and loved

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“Life is but a dream for the dead and well I can’t stop sucking off every single guy I see”