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[iactuallyburncold]

                    stop there and let me correct it                                       i wanna live a life from a NEW PERSPECTIVE 

indie fandomless lucifer. written by lj. 

#self promo #i'm over here now!!!! #probably won't be on this blog much at all anymore

[iactuallyburncold]

                    stop there and let me correct it                                       i wanna live a life from a NEW PERSPECTIVE 

indie fandomless lucifer. written by lj. 

#self promo #ayyyy come find me here

[iactuallyburncold]

I’M GOING TO BE ANSWERING ASKS ON THE NEW BLOG SO HIT ME UP!!!

#ooc #i'm not really sure how this whole archiving thing works #how do people make the switch go so smoothly i don't get it

[iactuallyburncold]

                    stop there and let me correct it                                       i wanna live a life from a NEW PERSPECTIVE 

indie fandomless lucifer. written by lj. 

#self promo #follow the new blog as this one will be archived soon

[iactuallyburncold]

Alright, question: I'm a non-rp blog that has been following you for a while, because your Lucifer is generally the most amazing thing ever and so are you, but I realised I don't actually know if rp blogs are okay with being followed by non-rp blogs, or if you find it weird or something? So I guess I'm asking if it's okay that I'm following you and if I can follow your new blog too? I'm really sorry if it's an issue, it hadn't even crossed my mind when I first found your blog

Of course you can!!! I’m really flattered that you like my Lucifer, and it’s so sweet of you to ask. Non-rp blogs are fine to follow as long as they don’t reblog roleplays or ic interactions (unless it’s specified that you can!), and it’s even more awesome when they send in questions about the muse/mun. 

It’s so nice that you sent this ask, and I would love it if you followed!!! 

#ooc #also feel free to send asks and such!! i love to develop luce through that kind of thing #omg this ask made me so happy #save tag #anonymous #( answered. )

[iactuallyburncold]

                   stop there and let me correct it                                       i wanna live a life from a NEW PERSPECTIVE 

indie fandomless lucifer. written by lj. 

#self promo #i'm gonna be making the switch soon-ish!!! #i'm not sold on the new url tho so that's why it's not in the promo #ANYWAY #i'm not going to be fully over there just yet-- i'll be bouncing between the two blogs #i'll still answer messages i get on this blog for now #but all my threads will move and such #yeah idk here!!!

[iactuallyburncold]

i’m going to be working on the new blog today, just transferring some headcanons and making a few aesthetic posts!!! if you want the url to chat via IM or something while I work, reply to this??

#ooc

[iactuallyburncold]

The only way to start speaking a language is to start speaking it badly

#( headcanon. ) #I imagine that lucifer felt this so hard at first #he was told that he had a gift with words but he could barely get his words out #the only way that he could get better was to speak badly #and eventually....

[iactuallyburncold]

oh man, that’s really interesting!! I imagine Luke being really confused about Nick’s reactions, especially if he knew that it was Lucifer, because he’s only ever known the Lucifer that he has right now-- the one who works at a library and grins whenever kids are around and is learning to cook, and backs off every few months so Luke can go and do things that he likes. 

and I mean, even though my lucifer is fandomless now, for the purposes of this verse, Lucifer would recognise Nick!! And so Luke probably does know, even if Nick doesn’t tell him. He’d be really confused because even if Lucifer is trying to improve, he doesn’t much like to confront his past, so it’s unlikely that Luke would actually know what went down with Lucifer and Nick.

so Luke is feeling really confused because no one is telling him everything, and he’s just trying to fit in and make connections with other people who also know what it’s like to have an angel kicking around... and he figured that Nick would get it especially, maybe have a few tips for dealing with the nerdy angel that he knows 

and obviously Nick doesn’t, so Luke is just really confused?? 

and Luke is this weird street musician okay like... he didn’t have a house, or a steady job, he mostly just worked in various bars as he travelled around the country, and busking was his favourite thing to do, so he’s this kinda scruffy guy who is always making sound and wears a guitar around his shoulders

so he’s like.... the least threatening guy you’d meet, and he’s kinda relieved to find these people who also have angels but then it’s not quite right, because he and Nick might’ve had the same angel but they have such different experiences 

it’d result in a lot of conflict but also Luke just learning about Lucifer and getting to be a bit... wary and Lucifer just like ‘oh ffs’ you feel 

I re-wrote my response like four times, and it’s taken me like two fUCKING HOURS because I was unsatisfied with everything I was saying becaUSE IT WAS GETTING TOO LONG. But anyway I’ll sum up vessel therapy, or at least who is generally involved in that. It’s like it’s kind of a verse on it’s own with people sort of set in a certain dynamic. Like sometimes it’s a bit different, but other times there’s sort of set relationships??? It’s weird how it works because of multi-versing and such.

Anyway there’s Donnie, Raphael’s vessel. (guardianhealer), There’s Matt, Michael’s vessel (fathersgreatflood) who is also still being possessed by Michael and the two have a good relationship. There’s obviously Nick. And there’s also Azrael’s vessel, Holly. (littlest-archangels).

Generally speaking Nick and Donnie are the only ones with truly bad experiences with their angels are actually the only ones to have real consistent complaints about it. Not that the others don’t also have complaints, just that Donnie and Nick are the only ones who got mentally destroyed in the possession process.

Still as long as Luke didn’t say he was still being possessed, because Matt doesn’t say he is, (and plus it’s Lucifer, they wouldn’t trust the name and would thus probably not trust Luke if they knew. Because how would they know that Luke wasn’t a cover name for Lucifer) they’d be pretty okay with him because over all most everyone would understand, “eh it wasn’t that terrible.”

aND SO BASICALLY what Nick’s reaction to Luke would be immediate resentment. Whether anyone else knew Lucifer was still possessing him or not, Nick would know because he has residual grace that acts up when real angels are around, hidden or not. And it especially would react to Lucifer. And so while he wouldn’t call him out on it, he would be immediately repelled and resentful.

Because he already feels isolation in the real world because normal people don’t get it. And among the other vessels he personally knows, it’s only Donnie that doesn’t make him feel like he’s isolated because Donnie having a bad experience as well. But he can handle the other vessels because they don’t have angels associated with pain and so he understands why they wouldn’t understand.

bUT WITH LUKE. OH HOHO. LUKE IS WITH LUCIFER. LUKE SHOULD UNDERSTAND BEING WITH AN ANGEL ASSOCIATED WITH PAIN. BUT HE DOESN’T. BECAUSE LUCIFER DECIDED TO SHAPE UP AND LUKE LIKES HIM. AND IT’S THE ULTIMATE ISOLATION. WITH SOMEONE WHO SHOULD UNDERSTAND BETTER THAN ANYONE AND HE fUCKING DOESN’T.

Logically he knows it’s not Luke’s fault. But it doesn’t stop him from feeling it. And he would be absolutely rude to him because of it to keep him at a far distance. The only way it would change is if Luke decided to try and befriend him personally and with persistence. And Nick would make that very difficult all things considered. He wouldn’t want someone who made him feel alone mentally.

#ooc #tldr; luke is precious to me and nick being weird about lucifer would make him very confused

[iactuallyburncold]

The way you play lucifer is amazing! He's definitely well developed enough to be an OC!

Thanks nonnie!! I already made him fandomless, and view him as much more of an OC. I think I am going to make a switch to a new blog, so I can separate completely from the time when he was spn!! Now I just need to decide if I’m going to keep my url...

and, of course, i have to wonder if people will follow me on the new account.

thanks so much for your message though, i really appreciate it!!!

#ooc #anonymous #( answered. )

[iactuallyburncold]

gentle screaming

#ooc #i don't know what to do #i kinda want to archive but i don't want to have to start from scratch #on the other hand it might relieve some stress to pull away from this blog forever?? #i'll still keep my old verses and interactions and relationships #but it'll be on a new blog and a new url and #it would be nice to have a fresh start #i could stop posting so much irrelevant ooc #lol #stick to a much more fandomless approach from the start #but.... i'd have to start from the beginning again #and i like that i have lots of followers bc i'm a vain mother-effer #and idk #PLEASE TELL ME YOUR OPINIONS #REBLOG THIS IS YOU WANT IDC

[iactuallyburncold]

laughs on a more positive note

i occasionally see that ‘vessel support group’ thing that holly and a few others do (not sure of your names, sorry!) and they’re all like ‘angels suck i hate them ugh’ 

and then there’s luke, who’s being possessed by lucifer 

and he’s just kinda ‘well y’know it could be worse, this isn’t actually half bad, i don’t mind it’

@hepromisedmejustice imagine luke and nick meeting

#ooc

[iactuallyburncold]

i think i might archive this blog...  i already have a new account set up, with a theme and pages and such. and a new url that i at least sort of like. the only thing stopping me from making the leap is that I don’t want to have to start from scratch... idk 

#ooc #negativity cw #not really but just in case

[iactuallyburncold]

Noooo. *snugs Luce* Come back.

i want that to work, i really do :(

i think it’s because i follow so many spn based blogs, and i keep thinking in a v spn mindset...

laughs remember when i pretended to be a canon muse

no but it’s also that i keep wanting to write the much darker lucifer but at the same time i don’t really??? bc i know that it can be really awful and i like that this blog is quite happy and such

idk maybe i should make it not lucifer??? maybe i should play a different angel??? maybe i’m feeling weird bc he’s not very much like lucifer

he’s so sweet and kind and i guess that i 

i guess i’m just mostly doubting my portrayal 

haha i thought that would stop after i left canon behind whoops

i just want to play a really good lucifer but now i’m thinking that this guy is too nice and kind and loving etc, etc and i just????? 

#ooc #i'm sorry for dumping this on you but typing it up helps idk #asoulofstars #( answered. )

[iactuallyburncold]

i 

i have no muse ;m;

#ooc #lucifer has left me i #this hasn't happened in absolutely ages #but #he's just gone ;m;

[iactuallyburncold]

I highly recommend following this magical cinnamon roll.

#promo #yyyyeessSS #yes good go follow this blog it's some of the best writing ok and all of posts are amazing #and i just cry ok #they give me the best angst omg #but also it's very funny and the crack posts are amazing omg

[iactuallyburncold]

ayyy I do follow you!! i kinda stalk all the threads that you all post tbhhh it’s a really interesting verse!!! 

@illusivexemissary brings up a funny point - you are the youngest archangel and the oldest mum, whereas i’m the oldest archangel and youngest mun, and Bex is in the middle. Shame we don’t have a Lucifer to do a proper reverse.

#ooc #long post for ts #i'm the second oldest archangel and the second youngest mun uwu #problem is that i'm not an spn blog (anymore) sooooo