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I just lost my ig acc, guess imma bounce back to here lol

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Fatties don’t deserve dinner.

on an unrelated note! I am informing you I will not be having dinner :’)

#anorexik #notproforanyonejustforme #anamia #annnna #tw ed things #low cal ana #anorekcia #ana #ed #proana #tw ed relapse #proannnnna #tw ed

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I’m going to sit alone for lunch, I’ve already bothered them enough already

#scared #i hate myself

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Purged Breakfast because I’m a clingy, annoying bitch. No one likes me and everyone is pretending. I don’t know what to do anymore. Friend just got rly upset at me and I feel like I deserve it.

Whenever I’m coming around to the idea that they aren’t mad at me and don’t hate me they get angry at me and it reminds me why I’m scared of them. I don’t know who I’m approaching, I don’t know whether they are upset or not. I think im going to stop approaching all together because I really don’t want to make them upset.

I’m scared that I’ve triggered their Ed and that they are angry at me. They follow my vent account and I do put Tw on Ed posts but ik that dosnt do anything. I should stop posting that stuff.

I’m supposed to hang out with them on Saturday but im scared to. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like they are forcing them self to be nice and tolerate me and I don’t know why they are doing it. I love them so much and they terrify me too. I don’t know whether to sit with them at lunch or not. I enjoy hanging out w friends but im just so scared. I’m so confused

#friends #scared #Tw

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Did Omad yesterday, glad to be getting back into the swing of things

#anorexik #notproforanyonejustforme #annnna #tw ed things #anorekcia #ana #ed #proana #tw ed relapse

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my mom is such a fucking bitch istg. she put some full fat yogurt in my smoothie for breakfast and she thought i was stupid enough not to notice. i got pissed at her because a) she didnt fucking tell me b)i dont eat milk or eggs c) it was full fat yogurt d) did i mention she didnt fucking tell me?!?!

i tasted it and imediatlelly knew there was yogurt in it, i asked her if she put yogurt in it, she said no i just put this one... and looked thru the trash for an empty vegan yogurt container which she didnt find, then she went to the fridge and when she couldnt find the yogurt she should of used she just told me as if she was being soo honest and would of definatelly told me even if she did find the empty container. i obv got fucking pissed and said nope im not having it, she was like ok i can make u something else and i was like bitch no im not eating what you make me.

after appologizing and trying to minimize the issue so i look like im the one overreacting she drove me to school and yelled at me about how im selfish and only think about yself. she has it sooo hard needing to make food for me and being worried for me blah blah blah. i cant deal with her anymore dude.

she dosnt get that its not about the fucking yogurt, its about me taking so fucking long to develop any sence of trust with foood that isnt made by me just for her to throw all of thatout the window over like 100 calories. she puts more worth in 100 calories than me trusting the food i should eat. she has done this shit before too, she used to put boost into my smoothies and i obv caught her on that shit but i was trying to understand where she was coming from, i regretted it alot cus it was a perfect reason to restrict but i missed that oppurtunity but thats a whole other thing. even after seeing how much that shit effects me she has the audacity to pull that shit again once ive finally been able to have those smoothies again (i have a hart time trusting foods that i ant see the ingredients to) and think that ill be fine with it. like i dont care about the stupid yogurt but i do care that i told her where she fucked up, told her how to do better, and she said she will change just to go back to her old ways tht pisses me off. she does this all the time and this is just an example of when she did this, im so annoyed because she holds any istake i make or lie i tell over my head when she is the reason im lying. if she was supportive and understansinf thsen i wouldnt need to lie.

she brings up all the issues she has but she dosnt get that its not my job to help her, anything i do to help is extra but it is her job to help me so its completely different. i do try to help her or at least i used to try to but it wasnt enough for her so i dont even see the point in trying anymore.

there is no point in tryig to correct her because she just goes back to her old ways after like a month. istg she is so unmotivating and it makes me not even want to try and improve. i cant wait to be 18 so i can run away

#ed #forced recovery #tw ed relapse #annnna #anorexik #mommy issues #parent issues

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Y th fuck is it snowing outside, it’s nearly May dude BITCH GET WITH THE SYSTEM smh

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What did I do wrong? I didn’t mean to hurt you, if I did I’m sorry, just tell me what I did. Please don’t ignore me

#everyone hates me

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Math class is making me wanna put a Mellon baller in my eye to make some tasty Italian brain meatballs

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I’m losing my mind I keep hearing ppl calling my name and my phone notifications but it’s nothing, then when ppl call my name I ignore Cus I think it’s a hallucination smh

#manic #bpd

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I love her so much just knowing I’ll meet them in the morning got me smiling man

#i love her #they are perfect

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Y does insomnia need to exist smh like pls I wanna sleep for more than 2 hrs lol

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Hazah! I’m back bitches

My goofy ass has #relapsed :) time to hear every half thought u have ever lol

#anorexik #anamia #annnna #tw ed things #ed #tw ed relapse

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I’m scared to go home, social services r gonna be here and I’m #notforit

Update: they didn’t do shut, just called my dad on the phone which won’t stop him from being a creepy mother fucker lol

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This offer still stands for anyone who wants to verbally smack my ass lol

If anyone wants to let out their anger on me plz dm me i wanna be bullied

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Hola bitches I’m ten pounds heavier, hella bulimic, but back to my ana roots lmao. 😂❤️🍭😂💀😆🌝😩➡️↘️✨✨🧚✨🧚🍇

#super fun relapse #I hate myself :)

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If I purge all I eat during the week and then eat ‘normal’ on one day of the weekend what will happen? Will I gain more than normal because I was pretty much fasting? Will I keep loosing because of the metabolism boost? Reached a new LW and now the holidays are here and the family was home sooo low key freakibf out

#anorexik #anamia #annnna #bulimik #bulimiz #tw ed things #ed #proana #anorexia #anorexia on the weekend